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ok, i really am gonna apologise for my lack of using myO. i seriously never have any time to myself now what with college four days and week and work on all the other days!
avatar today:
quote(s) this morning
You Make It Hard For Me To Breath When You Look At Me...-rianna
I remember the day
That we first met
One look at you
And my heart was set-jess
those are both from http://www.best-love-poems.com/poems (if that little html code worked)
so, i will apologise that i don't really comment/post much any more *sighs* i will try my hardest, but i can't do it in goldtime at colelge cause i can't even open my comments TT.TT and the main page dosn't laod up either, only the back room. *sniffles* *i
(i did actualy just sniff, i have a cold lol)
song-
sweet things-DJ Tiesto
mood-
see what i mean about that DJ Tiesto craze??
yes, this post is uncertain because i don't know where i'm taking this.
i have truly, completey resorted to my sponanious ways...
which would have been for ever until emmah got me into planning *shakes fist at emmah*
on that note, i need to read my comments *shocked face*
ok so i took a detour of about half an hour replying to bebo coments and uplaoding pictures...haha, i shall have to put one up here as i now have pink, yes PINNK in my fringe!! lmso
righto-that last bit was actualy yesturdays' last post. i mean yesturday's post in general!
i am now going tp finish it.
mood-i can't get onto my bebo!!! nooooooo!!
song-
anywhere-evanescence
the greath thing here is i am now ranting out my ass cause i can't remeber what i was gonna talk about!
aiden/alex (clifton not the farter in the land of farts-aka ILF)
confusing situation.
i really like alex-as you can see, nothing there has changed.
BUT i also like aiden. oh dear. oh this is the first time i've mentioned him!!
ok, in brief-aiden is taller than me (unlike shorty boy alex)(who isn't actualy as short as emmah beleives), dark hair, BRILLINAT blue eyes and works in a bank-also looks sexy in a suit.
what am i meant to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo?
well:
¢¾ easy option-nothing
¢¾ or i could find out if he has a GF and ask him to the end of year ball (which is a whole year away)
¢¾ or i could ask him out
but, i don't like him as much as i like alex and if i DID go out with him it would be worse than tom or matt cause they at least didn't KNOW alex, but aiden and alex are really good mates so i'd be like `yeah, i DON'T fancy your mate`
and that there is the harshist thing known to mankind!!
well know it's not...but you get my drift...right?
graduation ball
is a whole year away
but, me having my facial happened to here my lecturer say `you need to start thinking aobut diposists for the end of year ball`
HOW CHARMING? HOW AM I MEANT TO GET ANY GUY DRUNK ENOUGH TO SAY YES HE'LL COME WITH ME IN THAT SHORT SPACE OF TIME?
i can't, that's how.
dreamspace
yup, i had another dream about alex.
i hate my subconcious!!
last night was the FIRST time i had gone to sleep and NOT thought aobut alex. FOR ONCE? and what happens before i wake up? i dream of him. grr *shakes fist at subconcious
-my poor fist is getting tierd from all this shaking!!*
so...in this lovely dream of mine...
it was even more realisitc than the last!!
i was on the bus home from college on a perfectly normal day with the perfectly normal (snotty, annoying twitish) PH students and had to stand up at the front of the bus (that's my normal day) and then alex got on beinhd me and ended up stood infront of me and said `lets go boot the PH students out the way, i'm fed up of having to stand up ya know?` so we went to nearly the back where there's two forward seats and then two backwards seat and they face each other and he sat facing backwards and i sat forwards infront..or behind him....grief which way is that??
and then he put his feat up on my legs so i put my legs up on his legs and we had this type of war for about five minutes before he jsut lay down (somehow) across the gap and pulled me next to him (again, somehow) so we were curled up together.
and he had his short hair back!
alex
yup saw him again ^^
well it was a sad `see him again` situation cause i'd just got off the bus and was fishing for my keys in my bag and i could see this red pug 106 coming towards me and then the reg plate R935 KKV and i jsu tkept walking STARING AT HIS PLATE!! not at HIM, but at his PLATE. and then he was passed me and i looked back and thought `oh bugger it all!` actuly, i think i shouted that out. i really hope he didn't decided to check his rear view mirror!
but the sad point to that is i got out of sight and cried! like an idifoot.
yes an idifoot. that wasn't a typing error.
cosmopolitan
omg. now i know i am in love! there was ana rticle in their thi smonth. well next month as it's november's issue...
saying:
"love is as i described in my book lucky like getting hit by a large truck and not being mortally wounded. you feel sick to your stomach-high one minute and low the next, starving hungry but anbel to eat. you feel hot, cold, for ever horny and full of hope and enthusiasm, with momentary depressions that wipe you out. it's also about not being able to remove the smile from your face, loving life with a passionate intensity and feeling ten years younger.
"love appears without any warning signs. you fall into it as if you;ve been pushed from a high diving board. there's no time to think about what's happening-it's inevitable. and you can't control the heart-stoppping rollercoaster ride that just has to take its course.
"it's all of that and more. it's an ecstatic high and the lowest of the low, the best beauty treatment on the market and, sometimes, to intrusive for it's oen good."
jackie collins
i like that woman. i was looking for a summary on `how you know you're in love or not` for ages then it just dropped into my hand!
questions
back onto the begining predicament
yup, so that their about being in love is true to the bone about how i feel aut alex.
1) so, how the hell can i just go after aiden?
the rest of the questions-being perfectly normal
2) what colour socks are you wearing today?
3) what magazine(s) are your favourite?
4) what's your favourite animal?
5) do you like tomb raider?
and on that note, i shall now finish this post.
--end note--
the pictures i promiced in yesturday's short post which is now long forgoten lol:
felt like sticking that last scary one there!
ja ne!!
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