mood-
frozen and ill
song-
listen to the rain-evanescence
Sparkling grey
They're my own veins
Any more than a whisper
Any sudden movement of my heart
And I know
I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way
You could be anything
Give up my way
And lose myself
Not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know
You know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way
And I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless
Hate
Hate
Hate
Hate
So run
Run
Run
And hate me
If it feels good
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again
oh, the song changed, it's now lithium...
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emmah-using comment manager ALSO crashes my computer at home, thankfully, you haven't said any doginess in a comment so i can read the comments here ^^
angel zakuro- i'd love to be his GF...maybe, if the short-ass actualy uses facebook and approves me so i can try and find a way to start a convo... i'm getting my first book published HOPEFULLY in february, with luck.
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Ride on, see you, I could never go with you
No matter how I wanted to.
Ride on, see you, I could never go with you
No matter how I wanted to.
yet another song at folk night that i can relate to...haha, seriously, it's ever song!!
um, so...first post this year...i think...unless i did another post, which i can't get..remeber even. spob.
yesturday. what larks of erlackness.
i'm glad i'm not a male,
and also glad i'm not a GAY male in more definition *looks at ILF*
i had to have some "examinations" done by the gastroenterlogist yesturday...ergh.
HE had to slip his funger up my rimhole and but some mild anaesthetic cream stuff on it, then he said `i'm just going to pump some air up your bum`, which he did, then he shoved a camera thing up!!! *pain and cringe* and was just looking up my lower sacred proverbial, and then said `well, you're going to have to have some MORE examinations done within 6 weeks.`
ARGH MY BUM!!!
(i don't say that every day)
then i had to have fiour blood tests, which they tried doing out my normal arm (my right arm, as i am left handed...aka caggy-handed) and they couldn't get ANY blood from that vein, so, the nurse moved the needle around in my vein and said `tell me if it hurts` so, naturaly, i screamed when she moved it. so then they used another needle and stole blood from my left arm.
so now i look like a serious heroin user, as suppoese to occasional, as i have a bruise on each vein. joy.
then i got given a bottle to use for a "sample" and it's not urine.
it's rank, seriously. there's normal a lid for sample bottles yes? well this one has a mini spoon thing in it. erlack a pongoes.
why do i have to be ill?? now they want to examine other things. which i own't gross you out with.
i then had to treck some more of hosipital to another ward where they gave me a `clean out pill`
aka laxatives...
and my "examinations" are on a monday...
andrea at work won't be at happy with me. there is NO way i am working the usnday before, as i have to take these lovely pills the night before.
i could go to work, but i'd be spening most of the shift in the toilet.
which wouldn't be beneficial to anyone, me included as the staff toilet is f*ck*ng cold!!
urm...so, that's that for the gastro bit.
oh, he did say `it's UNLIKELY to be cancer.` that top me means ther is a minute possability *smacks head on a desk*
whatever it is, they had best find whatever's wrong with me quick. i don't want any more invasions to my sacred proverbial. not even from the boyfreind i don't have.
hmm...
so, in 20 mins, i have to leave college (once more this week) to go see a dietician.
the only cha ge i've had since my last visit toh e ris that i now eat egg.
she's not going to be a happy bunny with me, especialy when she looks at my weight as i have lsot more since last seeing her *cries*
urh..then i have to see my GP (again) tomorow...
what a great week in the new year eh?
that's really all i have to say, apart from to ILF (who won't read this) but i know he'd love seeing my consultent as he is male, and ILF likes men etc etc...
so...
BLOODY HELLL THEY'VE TURNED THE AC ON!! argh you loons!! i'm cold before you even turn the fridge on *sits shivering*
as i was about to say, on that bomb shell, i shall leave you now...
ja ne!! X-¢¨ú-X
modit
only i could find alex ine very language i look at, even when i'm not actualy LOOKING for his name. greif.
ALE m
Finnish
Finnish short form of ALEKSANTERI or ALEKSI
ALEKSANTERI m
Finnish
Finnish form of Alexander.
blumey.
brr
