Wednesday, September 13, 2006

   Life's a bitch, then ya' die...
Post time: 9:32p.m. CT
Current Music: "Ain't Afraid to Die" - Dir en grey

Ah...my life sucks. I have been rather depressed lately...and I really shouldn't be with Miyavi's b-day tomorrow, and mine and Bou's this Saturday, but I can't help it...Everyone knows about Dir en grey touring with the FVT around the US and Canada and yadda' yadda', and I've whined and belleyached about how they need to come here, and you're probably all sick of it...well...igonore the rest of this paragraph if you are, cuz I'm gonna' start bitching again. Okay, so everytime I go to YouTube, I get the idiotic idea to look up footage of Diru at the FVT and end up crying my eyeballs out cuz I'm so jealous and selfish that I couldn't go, and that generally leaves me getting angry at the band themselves for not coming here, even when I know it's not their fault at all for not being able to. I come to this conclusion then get angry at myself for thinking that. Then I go and make things worse for myself and go and search for sites that would have up-to-date info on the tour, and I see that they have a Myspace page, so I go to that. Yup, here come the tears again! Of course reading, "OMG, I can't beleive I got to meet you, *band member's name here*!" "You guys were awesome in *city they were in*!" "I hope you guys comeback!", doesn't really make anything any better! Then I go to Wikipedia, looking up Gackt, and I somehow end up on the Dir en grey page, and right there to the side is a nice piccy of Kyo, singing his lungs out in Detroit last Saturday. Well, that just made my emo-day! I was just there a few weeks ago, and there they are! Grah! I really hate living in this stupid pathetic state! Oh! I know another thing I need to complain about! I asked my mom if I could go to a concert when I got back from Detroit, and she said that I could...well, I get back and find out that Nickleback and Hinder and some other bands are going to be in Sioux City the 15th of September. I also happen to find out that my parents are going to a Trace Adkins concert. Boy, nothing pisses me off more than being told I can do something, then they lie to my face and say I can't...Okay...this is the last thing: I asked my current crush at school, Austin, if he would be interested in meeting Kayla, Yumi, and I at the mall this Saturday for my birthday. He said he would if he could, but he can't. Well, that hurt, but I knew people could get busy, so I just brushed it off. Now this was at lunch, so there were more than just us two. Well, a junior sitting at our table named Jessica said that her church was having this thing were they could invite people to Adventure Land with them. Guess what Austin says..."I'll see if I can come!" Right after he tells me, to my face, that he couldn't go to the mall with us, and after he makes a face at the whole church thing. I don't think I really need to elaborate what was thinking...

Okay, I'm good now. Consider the Emo-moment over. I needed to get that out before I went on with the rest of my post. As you can see, my new theme is Bou of AnCafe. He's so kawaii! *huggles Bou-chan* He has such a hot voice too! In speaking of hot...is it sad that I, just a few days ago, realized how sexy Gackt is? I came to this revelation while speaking with Kayla about his fine ass in Moonchild. It should have been the other way around, but it wasn't. Chris made me another Jrock CD with some Gackt songs on it, too! "Speed Master", "Birdcage", and "Last Song". Holy crap, "Last Song" is one of my favorite songs right now...it's so sad! *huggles Gackt* Such a pretty voice. ^^ Ah! Another really good-yet-sad song that was on the CD is "Ain't Afraid to Die" by Diru! I was listening to it on the bus on the way home for the first time, and I started to have tears falling from my cheeks. I love that song to bits, too. Let's see...other Dir en grey songs that were on the CD include: "Cage", "[KR] Cube", "Umbrella", "Drain Away", "Obscure", and "Kasumi". I love them all. There was also a nice rendition of Miyavi singing "Hit the Road Jack". Oh wow...that was stuck in my head for so long...

Tomorrow is picture day...yippy...but also Miverzizzer's birthday! YAYS!!!!!!!!! I still have to draw a picture for him, too...It'll have to be a little doodle, though...I don't have that much time to do a really good sketch...I still have to do this week's sketch of a realistic animal for painting. I'm drawing my tabby tom-cat, Tiger. He's such a cutie-pie...and really protective over me! Whenever one of the other cats comes near me, he runs at them to make them go away and then rubs up against me. I then promptly pick him up and kiss his nose and pet him profusely. Yay! I can't wait until Saturday! My parents are dropping Kayla, Yumi, myself, and possibly Kayla's boyfriend, Justin, off at the mall for nearly 6 hours. After that, we'll go back to my house for ice-cream cake. Yummy! ^^ I hope Hot Topic has the September issue of Cure...I really need to get it...I need to try and find a Dir en grey DVD I've heard about, too...if only I could be that lucky!


I know Kyo's probably going to kill me in my sleep, but it would be worth it...KAWAII!!!!! >w<


I've got Totchi too!


Aw! Such a dorky smile, Bou-kun!


Shinya, meet static electricity...
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