Monday, November 29, 2004

   HIYA!! ^__^

	Well nothing is really going on. I'm listening to evanscene again. i never get tired of their songs. ^_^ well lets see school was pretty good. Well i do have a poem but i'm wondering if i should put it in my poem site or here. i have missed getting comments by all of my friends. But thats what my poem site is for. UGH my brain is gonna hurt from this thinking! well theres two choices wait and go on site or no wait and put up here. umm on or the other. well i'm too impatient anyway. HERES THE POEM!!!! Her hair is as black as the night Those eyes sparkles to perfection Her smile lights up any fright No one would give her rejection But inside her soul is a loner Someone who has hidden her self in a corner With darkness surrounding No one is comforting Her cries break anyones heart Yet her beauty is off the chart She is smart, funny, and sweet But her true self is someone no one will meet The pain in her life Makes you afraid of a knife The blood from her mind But that thought goes away when you see how what a kind Pure angelic girl she can be But no one can see That when you are too busy bleeding While you are too busy pleading But you meet silence at the door Then you see the perfect girl She is like you are praying, laying almost dead, screaming, bleeding POEM OVER tell me what you think. i had to think on my feet so it may not be my best. I had to come up with one like a minute ago to put on here or put it up later. well seeya

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

   okay poems up ^_^

	I got an anime love poem with the inspiration of hernandezcristal. thanx ^_^ It a poam of Inuyasha and Kagome. I'll write more but i need the people and their situation in love. well tell me what you think of the poem on this post. there isn't a way to comment on that site yet.

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   HIYA

	right now i'm teaching a 15 year old guy in pensilvania(don think i spelled it right oh well) he says hes a badass. and i'm thinking: well nost of the guys i meet are badasses. he asked me to teach him how to make a cool xanga like mine. i kept thinking mines not that good but i helped him anyway. well he signed off and i have really nothing to do. i have no real insiration for poetry right now. but i probably will later. well i got some really funny smilies for emailing people. i wish i could put them on here. it would be funny. i'm gonna go on all your site to comment since i have nothing to do. after that i'll read a fan fiction or play a video game i dunno. well i'm gonna go get lunch. its 1:37 over here. well seeya. can you guys give me some ideas for writing poetry just incase i don't get any. BYE

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Saturday, November 27, 2004

   me all betters ^_^ hehe

	yay i know backround back to its old self. ^_^ well i'm listening to my evanscene CD to the song Tourniquet. If you like Evanscene whats your favorite song from them. I can probably find it and put the music here. Today me and my mom went to borders. I got only 3 books though. no anime graphic novels or mangas this time. i got a books called Luna, Burning Up, and Shadow People. well i'm happy. ^_^ but while i was reading in the car i got a headache. i hate it when that happens. I'm working on my x-mas list right now. but i don't really want anything. i kinda feel like i don't deserve it.(in case you didn't know i alwasy look down on my sefl but am still happy) i used it for a while and then i get bored with it. oh well. i'll probably end up with more CDs and cloths and maybe a new book to put poetry in. my old one is the one where my cuz tore the pages out. well seeya laterz ^_^

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Friday, November 26, 2004

   my revenge( a story of what happened to my cousin)

	Okay you all know my cousin went around my computer and added a post on my otaku. i'm leaving it there for proof. that and i saw her with my own eyes. Well i knew i had to get revenge you. I first got an idea from my god father's(like my uncle) granddaughters Samantha and Tawny. Tawny told me about a prank by getting all of her make up and we put al shades of lipstick on their faces. OH you should of seen it. i was helping tawny get her payback. Now i got mine. ^_____^ Okay my cousin went over to my house and when we went to sleep i got out all my moms lipsticks and lightly drew on her face all over. then i got this sticky clear paste.(forgot the writing on it) and put it over all the lipsticks. Then in the morning i woke up earlier than her and put another layer of the clear stuff so it was sticky. Then i went into the bathroom with a really loose and fluffly pillow with a one string that was holding it together. I put the string in a hook ontop of the ceiling and the end of the string to the thing holding up the mirror on the back of the door. It was high up and out of veiw from the mirrors. When she shut the door the string tore the entire pillow an dit fell right on her face!! Her face was filled with feather!!!!!! I was LMAO!! I heard scream a second time and then a last scream. 'She must of gotten that blue paste on her face.' I thought smiling. I put this blue paste on this blue towel and it made the paste look invisible. When she came out of bathroom she looked like she was going to kill. But my room door was locked and i was on the other side of the door, laughing my head off. Later she cleaned up her face. I cleaned up the mess with happiness. Then when she wasn't staring at me like i was a freak I climbed up a chair and un hoooked the camera thats been playing everything. We were at my home alone. Thank god. Later when she left i played everything on my camera and LMAOing again. i wish i knew how to show it online. but i don't know how. too confusing to me. and i'm too lazy. That was my revenge. And to make sure she didn't tell my mom i showe dher my camera. I didn't really find out she went into my room the day. I found out from my camera. I saw her walking in and then going onto my computer. not to mention ripped some of my precious poems. *sniffs* well i'm happy i got my revenge she deserved it. all my friends said so too. well thats all for now

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

   HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!

	well i'm in a happy/hyper mood right now hehehe. i finished helping my mom with her stew a while ago. and i just finished eating it afew minutes ago. i'm also planning my revenge on my cousin. she is coming in like 4 hours and she is sleeping over. i'll just chase her around until my mom stops. she'll probably think that i'm done with her then. then when she's asleep i'm gonna...well i'll tell you tommorow.okay i need help with the revenge though which color should i choose 1. pink 2. violet 3. brick red 4. black 5. sky blue 6. or all of them please vote one of em' oh yea HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!

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   hiya poeples!!!!

	well i found out my cuz was on here. i didn't do anything to her in the spirit of thanksgiving. that and my mom made sure we were three feet away from each other until she left. but i will get even. *grins* well i'm not gonna think about it now. OOOHHH you should of seen her face when i came back from school and saw her on my computer. it was like sumthin from a TV show really. hehehe well right now i'm confused cuz my friends seem happier without me with them. its weird. i think i'll forget it though. my mom and i just finished 50 lumpia. we have some special apples in our fridge. they are covered in fudge chocolate. some are white and regular chocolate, peanut butter and chocolate, and uh sumthin else i forgot. ^_^' well i guess the food is suppose to make up for not eating as a family this year. you see both my parents are working so their vacations are during x-mas. *sighs* oh well. i will eat with them but not all at once. my mom goes to sleep before my dad gets home and then my mom wakes up at like 7 p.m. she just left like 5 minutes ago. over here its 8:56 p.m. my cuz is coming over tommorow too along with my aunt Shirley and uncle Tom. they'll keep me company. My grandma will probably call. well i'll write what happens tommrow at night time. well nothing to say but bye and SEEYA HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!! ^_^

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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

   hello poeples

	i am Caitlin kristie's cousin. shes not here now. she said she maynot be online cuz shes going to a friends house. its so sad she left her username in here. i'll tell her thank you later. well i dunno i'm SSSSOOOOO BORED. i'm looking in her room and there is nothing to do. well i am gonna go on other sites she goes on. that or ruin the book she has that has on it Poetry in wfunny looking letters. so the book or the web. your choice. ^_^ i'll go off and come on later after my mommy and daddy drops me off here again. BYE BYE ^_^ now what are we suppose to doooo uhhh oh there the button. push

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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

   well nothing is really going on that much

	well i wrote two poems so let me put them up. ones a sad and kinda lovey poem and the one below that one is the happy and free like one. comment and say which you like better okay? okay here they are. i put them like paragraphs. sad poem I'm bored out of my mind. I'm just wasting my time. now that your gone. I can't sing my song. the song I made for you. but now its rotten and blue. nothing is as it should. if I could I would. but I know your gone. it seems so wrong. that i'm not with you. I remeber when you would call me your boo. I feel like crying until I die. there is no reason to live. just more feelings to die. I want to do something. anything. for me to be with you. but you wouldn't let me. you wanted me to be. even though I don't want to I will. I have an erge to kill. its not how I want to be crying for what was. for you and me. so I decided not to be. then I will be free. I will be with you. I will be free from my parents lies, anger, and fights. so this is the night. the night where it ends. I take a blade to bed. I slip in my cover and close my eyes. I hold the blade and pulled it to my heart. I can no longer be apart. I will fall and be with you. I will die from something I thought never could. here comes my praise. the praise for love I put it and you over everything. you deserve to be above and now you are. You are up there above the sky and stars. I cannot bare to be so far. so I will give up my heart. the blade went trough. I am now going up to you. I know it was wrong. but I cannot live while your gone. happy poem The sky is shining. My soul feels like flying. My heart spreads its wings. My smile gleems like the sun. Now I am one. One who is free. Free to do whatever I please. Free to love. free to fly with angels from above. Free to hate. Now its something I don't take. Free to dance. Free to take a chance. A chance to have fun. To play in the sun. To see the light. The light that had end that horrible night. My smile is real. I can finally feel. Pain is no longer my home. Joy is now what I show. The blood from my hand still stain. But soon will disapear from the rain. I stand in the clear. Listening to the drops in my ear. I spin with arms out wide. Soon I stop while the rain passes by. The darkness that once was my. My heart that was ripped apart. But now I can breath. the air that once was thin. once those poeple took me in. Now my darkness has fled. There is no need to cry in bed. My heart that was once ripped is now whole. The sun is what I've been looking for. Now I can finally be me. Not the poor, pained, crying slave I used to be. well at school i hung out with my long time friend Yana. I haven't for a while cuz i am usually with Charalene, Ashley, Desiree, Annie, and Tina. They asked why i wasn't with them and i wondered why they even cared. I usually am quiet and bored all the time with them. Today i was laughing like i never was. It was weird. I never was that happy with them. I glanced over where they were sitting and i saw them one by one time by time they were looking at me. At how happy i was. it was wierd. i hardly ever smiled that much before. I dunno which group of friends to hang out with anymore. I don't want to ditch my usual group (thats with Desiree and Charlene in it) but is my happiness more than my friendship. i can almost hear them asking me to come back. But i can tell when they see me happy and smiling like i never have they think its best. I bet Ashley thinks i ditched her. i dunno what to think for now. i just hope it will be okay tommorow. tommorow it the last day of skool for the week then vacation for thanksgiving. ^___^

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Monday, November 22, 2004

   well i'm trying to write a poem.......wait i did it! i wrote a poem ^_^

	well i'm trying to write. it seems as though all the good poems has spilled out of my spirit and i already wrote them. *sighs* oh well. i just started thinking. i may have a poem. i dunno tell me what you think. maybe i'll change it if there needs fixing or whatever. the night has met I'm staring out the window thinking of you it seems that I can't forget I can't forget the pain your cause You believe I am the blame The one who went wrong But I know you think its all a game Its why you put me for the blame I know you'll do the same again You took me as a fool So you acted mellow and cool But i saw you that night It still keeps me awake at night The way you touched her hair It was though you saw me As if you didn't care I ran and whispered goodbye I ran with the tought of you and her in my mind You said you didn't weren't her lover That I was above her That we would be together Now and forever But foorever doesn't last long I see it now Love is a fairy tale, a silly song, a myth people want to belive But they don't know the pain it can bring The sorrow and regret The tragict tale to forget Its how I see now What love has brought me What pain has taught me And it is something I will never forget ~POEM OVER note i do not feel this way. that entirly diffrent poem~ okay well there it is. well it look kinda long sry. well tell me wat you think. laterz ^_^ oh yea heres my tarot card. i almost forgot it today. ^_^' i forget soo much

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