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Gender
• Female
Location
• somewhere
Member Since
• 2004-11-03
Occupation
• poet/student
Real Name
• Kristie

Personal

Anime Fan Since
• ...lol forgot XDD
Favorite Anime
• inuyasha, DN Angel, Full moon, Princess Ai, Pita ten, full metal alchemist, n others
Hobbies
• poetry, making graphics, talking lol, chatting online, n...stuff lol
Talents
• i have talents? o.O

myOtaku.com: silverdaydreamer

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

LOOK WHO CAME BACK!!!! YES KRISTIE IS HERE!!!!! Hehehee so hyper *bounce bounce bounce*

I MISSED YOU ALL SO SO SO MUCH!!!! *HUGG* yes it was only a few days but still!!! I can go on...only twice a week. waaahhh! So this is one time used up and the other will be in a few days. WAAHHH!! Well for the people who have no idea what I am talking about read the post bel-nevermind I'll tell you myself...

Nicole: are you sure-

me: I'm cutting myself. yup C-U-T-T-I-N-G cutting. yup yup believe it or not I am. I haven't done it for three days straight tough really. And Nicole and my lil cuz weren't here to stop me at all I just...forgot about it really. I've been staying away from knives and all and everything pretty much went back to normal...almost. I...just...heh well here I'll explain in this way...if I just said it I would turn it into a porm anyway LOL well seeya all. I'M SORRY I COULDN"T CELEBRATE VALENTINES DAY WItH ALL OF YALL!!!!

I still feel the thingle in my hand
It feels so weird and dry liek sand
That feeling almost made me brought
The thing I am stopping...or so I thought
I feel the pleasure I had when it happened that night
When the blade brought blood, I wasn't in fright
I liked it, it was my addiction, I wanted it more
I still don't at all know a reason for
Why I made myself bleed
I guess what I need
Is to try and stop reaching out to the blade
Before I hurt my self and make myself fade
Into the darkness of death to this world I'll part
And to think my addiction was the whole start
Maybe I should try and see
Why I keep cutting me

well I have no real title for the poem but I hope you just understand what I'm doing now. I'm just so confused, yet happy, sad, yet feeling okay. It seemed like a miracle happened when I got online. I really don't want that feeling to go away...lets just hope my addiction wont rise because...*looks behind* I'm in the kitchen and...I'm staring...at a...knife...Nicoel went to sleep I think...lets just hope we won't have a reply of what went down before...seeya guys.

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