Thursday, July 13, 2006

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
Everything- Lifehouse.

Tylenol+ empty stomach= bad...

Didnt feel all that hot after popping a few of the buggers and I figure its mostly due to me not having eaten in about 6 hours prior... Other things contributed I'm sure but thats just due to me not being able to relax...

Going down to C-Town again for a bit to spend time with Zanorich. Im suppose to get a ride with Stacie and Tiffy but they seem to have developed issues with being able to pick a proper time to leave the city... We were suppose to leave by 9 initially ((so called "early in the morning")) but they have since then decided that 9 is to early (( Despite usually sleeping WAY past 9 when given the chance... I still call bull shit... 9 isnt all that early... never was... I dont think it ever wil be))... So now we're supposidly leaving by 10 plus the hour and a half to get anywhere in the city... I get to see Zanorich round 11:30... noon if Im lucky.... I'm sticking with the ride because its free.... and Im cheap right now... but its a little irritating when they cant at least pick a decent time to leave the damn city.... 9 is late for me... I want to sleep at 9 ((usually... horray insomnia)).... I cant even think of a proper argument at this point.... I'm just annoyed.... and tired... as I'm having issues sleeping lately... I tried to at least put my awake time to good use yesterday and draw... but I lost that ability somewhere.... If anyone finds it... call 872-3702.... I miss being able to draw half decent.
Sita
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Why would I sabotage
the best thing that I have
Well, it makes it easier to know
exactly what I want with my...

Hands open and my eyes open
I just keep hoping
that your heart opens
Hands Open- Snow Patrol

Im not going to explain why I shut my site off. I just dont feel like it would do any good. I'm sorry to anyone I worried.

Yesterday's post that no one got to read. I would appreciate if you at least skim it... but I hardly expect anyone to do so.

It was a messed up day from the word go. Had made plans to hang out with Stacie about three days ago... Last minute she tells me something else came up and it just ended up as a hour long trip to the store... I realize Im less important than a Chocolate Fondue party... but Fuck you, Stacie... fuck you.

I have to say the best part of my awake time was probably work... and that involved alot of empty threats and mask wearing ((metaphorical... sadly no actual mask wearing did occur)). Got a little mouthy toward the end of the night ((more than I usually am....)) and Bruce threatened to strangle me... I think he likes me XP Other than that it was just a day... as it should be.
Sita
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Can't complain, I feel sly
You can get up and go

I don't want you to try and save me,
No I don't want you at all
If You Talk To Much- People in Planes

So... got in a small... I guess you could call it a debate with Zanorich over Raps merit as a form of music. Its not so much his opinion that bothered me.... It was the way he phrased it. I'm tried of having people say certain forms of music are "crap". Its an insult to the artists. I know people are entitiled to their personal opinion... but they also have to respect other people and their work. Its a simple concept... if you dont like it... dont listen to it.

And theres more to that too... Zanorich spends the majority of his compy time at a net cafe where he sometimes has to endure the music he despises so much... Its not the music's fault that its being played.

I know not many people here like rap and I dont care if you do or if you dont. Like I've said before... its my site and its my opinions but Im not going to rant on this one... Music tastes are different for everyone and thats fine. I'm just tired of the negative reactions when I say I like Rap and I'm tired of people putting it down. Its one of the popular geners for a reason and it should be respected for that.

"What could be better than having someone want to cry, fuck, or get up and dance to your music?"- She Wants Revenge

Sita
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Monday, July 10, 2006

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
Tear You Apart- She Wants Revenge

So... I left the house at 8 to go to work... I had plotted on getting food before I went to work so I figured an hour and a half would be enough time to get food... eat... then go to work. I wanted fried chicken... see... theres this awesome place half a block from my house that makes wonderful fried chicken... not to greasy.... the chicken is good... the fries are to die for... comes with salad.... almost a decent healthy meal if you cut out the fried part... So... I wander over there... They're closed. Sign on the door says they're out of chicken... *facepalm*. So... fine... I still want chicken... KFC is a block and a half to the north... I'll go there.... walk up there... at this point Im also talking to Zanorich on the phone... KFC... they were closed... only the actual restaruant part... Drive through was open.... but I was walking.... so... I turn around.... a little ticked at this point ((ok.... it was alot... I was hungry and I wanted chicken and I'm stubborn like that and this was a big deal)). So... a little at a loss for anywhere else to get actual chicken... I decide that McD's will just have to do.... which... is located in the south.... so... I walk the block and a half back to the good chicken place.... then the other three blocks to McD's... Get there... same thing as KFC... actual sit down part was closed.... Drive through was open... but HONESTLY! Its McDonalds.... they're ALWAYS open... at least till 10 or 11.... That irked me just alot more.... Wendy's was right next door... walk over there.... Doors are locked... People are inside eating... and the drive through is once again open... but the doors are locked.... I gave up on fast food right there.... this is at about 8:40 or so.... I'm a slow walker.... I wasnt expecting this much difficulty finding a place that served food... Decide if I want to actually have something to eat Im going to have to run to the grocery store ((I want to point out I have limited stores of food at home that mostly require stove top preperation... which is why I didnt just make a lunch to begin with)) So... walk the block and a half more to the grocery store.... consider having Timmy's instead ((Honestly.... not the biggest fan of Tim Hortons.... good now and then.... but I wasnt in the mood))... Run into the gorcery store... find food quickly... pay... run out the door as it was getting close to 9 and I was scared with my slow walking I might end up being late for work... speed up the walking and get to work about 5 minutes after 9 by my watch... enough time to eat my cold supper and get ready... The point of the story... It wasnt even 9 and I couldnt find one bloody place to get food.... this is unheard of expecially when dealing with the fast food variety... I wasnt a very happy Sita by the end of my walking.... I walk all night at work.... I think I wound have less problems finding food if I went out and slaughtered the cow myself...

Anyway... Saw pictures of Bruce's "Kids"... He has two tarantulas... one is a pink foot and I forget what species the other one is... Teddy and Spike.... Both are about 6 inches across... they looked so soft... I think the spider phobia applies more to small spiders for myself... I dont like the really small ones.... but I also dont mind them that much to begin with... unlike a few people who took one look and looked away shuddering...
Sita
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Sunday, July 9, 2006

It's not as easy as willing it all to be right
Gotta be more than hoping it's right
I wanna hear you laugh like you really mean it
Collapse into me, tired with joy
Hands Open- Snow Patrol

So... The one reason why I more or less quit listening to the radio is due to the crappy lack of music the radio plays these days.... Yes there is alot of music out there... Yes alot of it is good.... But....

We've more or less moved over to listening to the radio at night... which... is awesome... I dont have to listen to hits from the disco age anymore... which are admittedly kinda cool when Im in a 70's mood..... which is very very rarely.... it happens... but not often... So the radio is on all night.... now... listening to the radio for 7.5 (cause I only work 7 hour shifts) hours 5 nights a week.... at least with the radio station we listen to.... I've began to notice something... We hear close to the exact same songs everynight.... a mix of old and new rock.... but... see... Its the new popular music... which they play all day to begin with.... and the old popular.... which has been playing for the last 30 to 40 years ((my dad listened to some of it.... it has to be at least that old at this point)) So... its starting to get very VERY repetative.... I would think with a music libaray that has to be close to a few thousand songs at this point... they would be able to mix it up a bit.... but I guess not..... So... Saturday nights... they have this special segment called the Zed Rock Cafe... its suppose to be "All New Rock... NO Jock Talk!"

Its not all new rock... there are a number of songs that are either Remixes.... ((some are good like the Fall Out Boy and Panic! At the Disco remixes... considering I played the originals to death a few months ago))or just the same stuff they play during a normal night... I'm not going to call the music crap cause it is decent music.... in moderation....

The no jock talk comes from the fact that its prerecorded and put on a four hour loop... the show is four hours long with a few breaks for commercials and plays twice through the night....

The repedative nature of the broadcast drives me nuts.... the fact that both the one half decent radio station ((we have about 6 I think.... One oldies/pop station... one oldies station... one rock/oldies station and two or three country stations.... We're right in between two large cities and just out of range for both.... you can get a signal from E-Town when theres a strong south wind)) and the store feed are both repadative... ((I think the store feed is maybe on a 10 or 12 hour cycle)) It drives me nuts....

And this is a serious issue.... I'm the kind of person who will listen to a CD till I know the words to almost all the songs... put the CD in my case... and possibly not touch it for a few months till I get in the mood for that particular artist again.... So I have a fairly high tolerance for repedative music...

Then... to top off all the frustration... I hear a few songs on the ZRC that I like.... and that I havent heard before and that I would like to get.... I go to the radio site because they say you can follow along on the net..... and they still havent updated since Canada Day.... Its pre-recorded and set up.... would it kill them to update the site?

I remember when they first started the ZRC and it was all music that they didnt normally play.... mostly because of subject manner.... now it seems like its just a spur off the everyday.... throw in a few remixes and a few odd songs out... theres the mix for the night....

It just ticks me off... I cant do anything about it but complain... which I tend to do well... so thats my complaining for the next while on store music[/bitching]

*deep breath*

In other news I was told to be less independent... thats what I get for being able to lift stuff and pull the heavy pallets...
Sita
Note: seems I got rid of that damn scroll bar on the bottom... bout freaking time ^.^
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Saturday, July 8, 2006

Your friends have shown a kink in the single life
You've had too much to think, now you need a wife
Steady As She Goes- The Raconteurs

Its ok Con... You can laugh... Zanorich did... I did... Everyone else did...

Paid the price for that night out with a semi-bad headache.... nothing a few tylenol couldnt handle... Never actually been sick after drinking before but there were a few other contributing factors I think.... So I cant complain about that too much....

Fixed my hair and got quite a few complements on it.... Rather than just the "Oh you changed your hair" it was "Oh you changed your hair. I like that color". I quite like it too... and I feel like I've been in a purple and green mood for quite a while now... what ever that means. Pics later.... maybe... If Im not to lazy to take them off the camera....

And on the topic of moods... was doing half decent today for being happy and smiley and such.... but that just kinda died after thinking a little bit to much at work about something someone said... and thinking about the usual stuff on top of it and just making the general brain hurt a permanate feeling... I think I need to give Afro a call at somepoint in the near future as I told him I would if I considered doing anything out of the ordinary.... that and we havent had a good talk in a long time with us both being on weird scheduals now and not being on the comps as much....

Possible LJ post in the next few days... maybe if I write some of the thoughts out they'll quit showing up to bug me so much... have a good one all
Sita
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Friday, July 7, 2006

Never been this sick, drunk before in my life and Zanrich is ingnoring me..... Really shouldnt post but what is humiliation for.... as much trouble as he is I miss Heero.... Never drinking againg.... yay internet....
Sita
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Thursday, July 6, 2006

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like I'm sitting all alone inside your head
Through Glass- Stone Sour

That song has been stuck in my head for the last week....

Okies... so a few old timers may or may not remember the Attack of the butterflies... First funny thing... that post is exactly a year ago today... which I find a little creepy but not much I can do about it... So... Im wandering home at 5:30 in the morning and something zooms past my face... I look up and the sky was filled with Dragonflies.... I exxagerate a bit but not much... it was like a flock of birds as yes.... they are that big (3 to 4 inches long each from what I could see). It was amazing... I ended up stopping in the field to my house just to watch them.... See... it is misquito (sp?) season and there are quite a few of the bastards flying around.... I'm guessing I'm not very tasty as I havent been bit that much.... but walking thought the grass in the early morning stirs them up... so I had these overly large dragonflies all zipping around me. And its fun to watch them as they tend to suddenly zip to one side or the other to catch the bugs.... very cool way to walk home....

And on another topic... I spent about 10 minutes looking for that damn post... I have 53 pages at 10 post each which equals 530 posts plus 4 extra.... equals 534 posts... somehow that doesnt seem quite right.... but thats my post count up to date... I guess Ive had alot to say in the past year or so.... I know looking back over some of the posts I havent really kept with a day to day thing except for the lyrics..... and its been a weird ride.... To say the least...

Anyway.... I was thinking about something to do with toys today and some sort of plot ((I no longer plan anymore... its all plotting from now on in)) but I forgot it.... Something having to do with making children smarter so they're less annoying or something... it was good at the time... obviously it wasnt that great if I forgot it...

Going out tonight.... At least thats the plan... Had gone out the long weekend but certain male companions of mine dont like the bars that much and refuse to dance so we left early ((which lead to the near skinnydipping inccident which is not exabitionist unless there is a full moon and you actually follow though with it and it involves getting nasty for other people to watch... and I just felt my face go red at that statment.... wow)) Was talking to Nicole ((a decent co-worker who I talk with fairly often)) we both had craptacular weekends and both have tonight off so we decided to make up for the craptacularness of the weekend we shall go out to the bar and have fun. Also need to go pick up a few things including a fan ((as it is hot and my room cannot fend off the heat to give me a good days rest)), hair dye ((as my hair is faded from black to a boring brown and I feel the need to dye it again)), and knife blades ((as my "Saftey" knife at work is out and has been out for the past month and Im getting tired of using the crappy pink one I found). And instant noodles.... I have an odd craving for instant noodles.... which will only be fufilled by me buying and eating them.... and thats my post for the day... I suddenly want toast.... perhaps talk to you all a bit tonight.... and I'll try to put up pics of my hair if it turns out alright. I'm thinking I might try a different color this time.
Sita

Afterthought note: Thanks for the comment on the wallie Con. I agree... I like that one better.. but the dark one looks cool when its screen size... I liked the bold black lines around the face.
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Wednesday, July 5, 2006

And dreams came around you in a hazy rain
You opened your mouth wide to feel them fall
And I write a letter, from a one-way train
But i don't think you'll read it at all
Globes and Maps- Something Corporate

So... I decided to do a wallpaper as I had this one particular pic I had that I have wanted to play with for about 6 months... I just keep forgetting about it... So I finally sat down and did something with it... couldnt decided on which effect I liked best.... So I'm putting in two slightly different versions.... I dont like to do that... But I think both look good in their own particular way.... so blagh on the not submitting two similar wallies policy.

Had another really weird dream... like I said... they come and go in weird patterns.... Had one a few days ago and had another one last "night".... I keep having odd parts from Jurassic Park showing up in my dreams... alot of dinosaurs... alot of T-rexs.... It cant be a good sign...

Finished Mezzo... Fairly good on the leading up to the end... but the end was weak.... I think they could have done a much better job with it... but otherwise the series was good... Characters were entertaining and such.... I just think they could have added alot more to the long term development.... like back story and such... They hinted at a few things but never really developed them... which is annoying. I like when the anime as a whole works out to a point... theres more to the story than what you see on the top... but it isnt so hard to read into that it hurts your head.... thats why I didnt like Akira so much.... it took way to much thinking to understand that movie... I think I'll stick with Sailor Moon... which... as a side note.... I found a DVD for 7 bucks.... 6 Sailor Moon Episodes.... I now owe Zanorich some money and some sanity... He sat and watched it with me... Bravo Zanorich.

Having difficulty focusing again... It feels like I should be thinking about several different things... but its more my mind is just wandering over the same few topics over and over... Percy jumped me last night at work because I was zoning out..... Im not sure if its just because my sleep is messed up or I've had those few things on my mind lately.... no real way to resolve any of them except for time... with is another annoyance as I would really be much more happy if they would just solve themselves once and for all and move on....

And thats all I got... have a good one all
Sita
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Tuesday, July 4, 2006

She sells street cred with no smile, at the local record store
She’s acting the role and dressing the part, pretending to be bored
The truth about conformity, is it bites without a sting
Trends come and go, but when your alone it doesn’t mean a thing
Where is the Line- Billy Talent

So... The weekend would have been overly emo if it hadnt been for the fact that Zanorich came up...

Had Canada Day plans re-made and re-arranged with out our knowledge... If its not people wanting me to drop or develop last minute plans its people making plans then changing them at the last minute.... both are very annoying... both are starting to get on my nerves alot... So I might take Con's advice and yell at a few people in notes

Speaking of Con.... Gave her a call the other day under the guidance of Zanorich.... It was all well and fine untill he started jumping on the trampoline which I was sitting on at the time making it very hard to talk and make sense... I'm thinking I may never hear from Con again...

AND... took Zanorich home to meet the parental units... I think its all ok... nobody was threatened with guns or knives.... so I'll assume thats a good sign...

I think I may have done something to my right arm.... The shoulder itself hurts and I have barely any grip with the hand when I twist it a certain way... Of course the way I twist it isnt really a natural position.... But my hand shouldnt be that weak...

And thats the run down.... all the new news compressed... I cant think of much right now.... very tired and a bit lazy... Have a good one.... and happy 4th
Sita
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