Friday, December 4, 2009

... Its been a really long time since I used the MyO but recent remembering and reminiscing creates a desire to come back to a time in my life where things seemed much more simple and clean in a sense.

I remember the days when the MyO had button that said "Go To Random User". If you clicked it, you would be suddenly taken away to a new place and a new person and a possible friendship. I made a fair few good friends using that button and then the MyO took it away. I suppose it was due to the growing user base and the inability for a random user to be selected in quite the same way...

The saddest part in removing that button is that it was a method to spur contact. If nothing else you would sign the individual's guest book and be on your merry way to discover the next random user, or to do a quiz, or browse through the newest wallpapers. If the button was kind, you would find a new dearest and bestest kind of friend.

I feel like I've lost contact, not just with the MyO but also with those few people I managed to find, and bond with through the MyO... I'm not even sure how that loss is facilitated. We have methods to communicate but its through the MyO that it feels most familiar and Im more likely to accept the contact. I feel a lot like Im loosing contact with what I once was as a person and an individual. Reading back on my archives, I feel like I dont even know the person I use to be. I've been complimented on my creativity but I feel as if somewhere in the struggle to find something worth connecting too, I traded my creativity for nothing more valuable than a piece of paper. I've been through times that were difficult on my heart and spirit and those scars take more time to heal than anything else.

I regret losing my connection to the MyO and the connections I built with members of this community. In coming back, I hope I can re-build some of that connection, with the community and with that part of me I lost.

Sita

What do you regret?
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I had a delightfully shitty day and therefore nothing I say will be optimistic nor happy. How was your day?
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Testing.... Testing... Check... Check.... Is this thing on?
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Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Holy Fu*k
Its been almost a year (minus a few days) since I last posted ANYTHING.

Anyone still kicking around this bitch?
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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Tonight I watched the lights go out in your house
wondering how I could get so deep,
and you could still get sleep.
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air,
but I can't hide that i relied on you,
like yellow does on blue.
She Paints Me Blue- Something Corporate.

I dont think I've made an actual "update" in a long time. So here it goes.

Boo and I decided that as Zellers has a major mouse problem and I have nothing better to do with my time and energy, we would catch a few mice. That all ended when I caught four little babies that looked like they were MAYBE 2 weeks old. If that. So that was about two weeks ago-ish... I have trouble keeping track of the days these days.... they've about doubled in size and are still somewhat wild. Though they dont seem to mind living in a cage being fed once a day.

I still havent found a new job and admittedly I havent been putting alot of effort into it as of late. It may not seem like much to say "Just go out on your day off". But thats like me suggesting you go look for a new job between the hours of 10-1 at night. After you've been up since 7 and had to work for 8 hours. Not horribly easy to do and I think I really have to push myself to get out and get it over with. Expecially as the job at Zellers is beinging to effect my relationship with Boo in a negative way and just makes me feel like crap in general. The job is so pointless some days that it makes it hard to enjoy going back at all. And the lack of respect that retail has for its employees is sickening at the best of times. Its kind of hard to believe I've been working there for 2 years this next week....

I've taken to playing WOW a bit.... I actually stopped playing it as much AFTER I bought the game and commited to paying monthly through paypal. So I need to get to that and actually dedicate some time to leveling my characters.

I'm also trying to dedicate some time to working out with a friend.... I want to lose some weight and that seems like the best method to do so.... so hopefully that works out too.

Thats all I got... havent been sleeping well lately so I need to catch some zee's while I can....
Sita
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Tonight I watched the lights go out in your house
wondering how I could get so deep,
and you could still get sleep.
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air,
but I can't hide that i relied on you,
like yellow does on blue.
She Paints Me Blue- Something Corporate.

I dont think I've made an actual "update" in a long time. So here it goes.

Boo and I decided that as Zellers has a major mouse problem and I have nothing better to do with my time and energy, we would catch a few mice. That all ended when I caught four little babies that looked like they were MAYBE 2 weeks old. If that. So that was about two weeks ago-ish... I have trouble keeping track of the days these days.... they've about doubled in size and are still somewhat wild. Though they dont seem to mind living in a cage being fed once a day.

I still havent found a new job and admittedly I havent been putting alot of effort into it as of late. It may not seem like much to say "Just go out on your day off". But thats like me suggesting you go look for a new job between the hours of 10-1 at night. After you've been up since 7 and had to work for 8 hours. Not horribly easy to do and I think I really have to push myself to get out and get it over with. Expecially as the job at Zellers is beinging to effect my relationship with Boo in a negative way and just makes me feel like crap in general. The job is so pointless some days that it makes it hard to enjoy going back at all. And the lack of respect that retail has for its employees is sickening at the best of times. Its kind of hard to believe I've been working there for 2 years this next week....

I've taken to playing WOW a bit.... I actually stopped playing it as much AFTER I bought the game and commited to paying monthly through paypal. So I need to get to that and actually dedicate some time to leveling my characters.

I'm also trying to dedicate some time to working out with a friend.... I want to lose some weight and that seems like the best method to do so.... so hopefully that works out too.

Thats all I got... havent been sleeping well lately so I need to catch some zee's while I can....
Sita
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Sunday, January 20, 2008

After the past week at work, I have come to realize exactly what it is about the place that bothers me.

The lack of professionalism and respect for the workers makes it a negative and harmful environment to work in.

If you know someone is going to be fired before they're actually fired, someone at the top needs to learn to shut their damn mouth.

In other news, I made a fantastic Taco Salad the other day and no one died or got seriously ill. And it was really really tasty and flavourful.

I miss my taco salad....
Sita
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Alright.

My apartment is located directly across from the elevator. The apartment building use to be an "Adult Only" building, meaning you had to be at least 35 to apply, how ever that worked....

So.... It is assumed that people have died in the building.

Now... I KNEW the building was haunted before I moved in. Having slept over at Boo's place, I just got that vibe like stuff was watching and such. You know? That eerie feeling...

So it hasnt really bothered my much till lately. Of course I've also taken up reading about serial killers as of late. So I'm possibly just spooking myself a little. But as I had all last week off, I spent a fair amount of time just sitting in my place. And its very offsetting when things just shift (at they did on my semi-messy desk) or settle (Closet doors).

I'm honestly thinking of burning some sage or something.

At least they arent being really scary or anything....
Sita
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Friday, January 11, 2008

There are days when I seriously question the integrity of my (lack of) sanity.

That is all.
Sita

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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Cooked chicken dumplings.

On the apperance front, they looked horrible.

On the taste front, I almost looked like I knew what I was doing.

At least they didnt burn.

Resumes are hard to write.
Sita
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