Saturday, May 27, 2006

Tell me lover are you lonely
The thing we need is
Never all that far to find
Tell me baby what's your story
Where do you come from
And where you wanna go this time
You're so lovely are you lonely
Giving up on the innocence you left behind
Tell Me Baby- Red Hot Chili Peppers

Currently uploading the pics... Not that its going to matter by the end of the post... but meh.... I felt like saying that...

So... Lets go

Day 1 (AKA Saturday)

Didnt sleep... At all. Stayed up after work to pack, do laundry... uhhhh... what ever all was on that list I posted. I didnt get to clean my room or have a nap... I ended up spending (aka wasting) alot of my free time that day on the comp... In the end I caught the city bus down to the Greyhound Bus station. Had a nice talk with a woman at the stop... Had a nice chat with a gentleman on the walk to the Station... I think when Im really tired and not able to think very well... I have a sign on my forehead that says "Talk to me". Thats the only way to explain what happened on the ride DOWN to C-town. A young gentleman (AKA guy) insisted I sit beside him and talk to him on the way down... Uhhh... yeah.... I made a friend... Zanorich knows the whole OTHER part to that story... Got to C-town. Was thankful Zanorich wasnt late... Hopped in the car and went back to his place where I pretty much crashed and didnt wake up for a few hours. I think we both napped... but Im not sure...

Day 2 (AKA Day One of Otafest)

Woke up and got ready... Zanorich pretty much bared me from the black makeup but let me dress up in black... So that made me happy. Went down to meet Zanorich's friend Alithstire... I had talked to him a few times on MSN... First thing he says isnt "Hi... Im J... Nice to meet you..." nor... "Hello..." Nope... I got the comment of "Your Short!" I was a bit surprised at that... Every one else gave him the "Thats all you can say" Look/lecture and I laughed. Then bugged him about it. For a while. Cause it was funny. Anyway... Finally left for Otafest... got there around 2ish or so... Ran into a few of Zanorich's other friends right away. Found Kat... Met J number 2... We couldnt do anything till we registered so we went and got passes... The group kept breaking up and re-developing... people would run off to go do something then show up again later on... quite fun... anyway... I went with Zanorich, J#2, Alithstire, Acanous (who we ran into at some point... I was a bit preoccupied watching all the cos-play and talking to people), and a few other people to go look in the vender's room ((of course XP)). We spent a fair bit of time in there... Zanorich spent most of it drooling over the video games table... I spent most of it trying not to get lost in the tables of shiney and cute things XP We eventually left the vendor's room (that was only visit one to the place of bright and colorful merchandise)... Met back up with T (Zanorich's room-mate and provider of transportation, not to mention a really cool lady), Kat and Kat's dad Fluffy (dont ask... I didnt)... Stopped for food and such... As some of us hadnt eaten since the previous day... Went back to the vendor's room for a bit to drop some more cash... Left there to go watch an anime called Rune Soldier... Very very funny... I loved it... went back out to wander some more (we did that alot). In the end Zanorich, T and I went back home for a bit as our feet were getting tired... We rested up a bit then headed over to Kat's place for a night of Anime goodness... The grounp consisted of Kat, Alithstire, J#2, Zanorich and I... Zanorich crashed early as he was tired and getting to the point where he couldnt keep his eyes open. I went with Alithstire and J#2 to the Mac's store and bought coffee and skittles... Went back and watched some more anime while Zanorich slept... We all hit the stupid tired point and started making comments about Yoda and reading words on the anime wrong ((We were watching it with sub-titles... so you can imagine what fun that was at 3 in the morning...)) Anyway... We all passed out when we decided the anime wasnt moving fast enough and there wasnt enough fan service... End Day 2

Day 3 (AKA Day Two of Otafest)

Woke up a few times... starting at 6 or 7... kept doing the wake up then fall asleep thing... Finally officially woke up when Kat got up at 9:30... Helped her wake up the boys... I woke up J#2 via pillow to the head while Kat tickled Alithstire till he woke up.... I let her wake up Zanorich as he had to put up with me during the night.... I think I kept pushing him away cause it was too hot to sleep next to him... We ended up heading back to the con at about 10 or so... watched Full Metal Panic first thing... I thought that one was funny to... Though it was the begining of the second season... so I was missing a bit of the info as to what was happening. Went off to wander some more (told you we did alot of that)... We eventually went to go watch a live action show called Iron Cosplay.... Kinda like Iron Cheaf (sp?) but instead of cooking... people had to make a costume... Very funny and worth the wait and having to endure the over-excited room host... She liked to jump in front of people as they tired to walk out and tell them to sit down... I was scared to go to the washroom... Anyway.... The teams were given 15 minutes to make a costume, they were allowed to do a skit in the end... and the theme was magical person... it was very funny in the end... although we had to restrain Kat at one point... one young man dressed up as Cloud from Advent Children... Kat and I decided he was no where near as angsty as he needed to be... Kat wanted to punish him for his lack of angst... He had been one of the teams for Iron Cosplay and had somewhat stupidly wrapped his head in duct tape.... He then let people from the audience help take the duct tape off... That made Kat happy and I laughed so hard my eyes started to water... We figure he may have lost a bit of skin... after that we went and watched a few more animes... Saw Burst Angel which was amazing... I wish I had picked up the sound track... after that we went to a comedy improve thing... It was ok but I've seen better and got bored at some points... Alithstire took part in one of the things which made him happy... At this point we had a group of about 15 people.... some were friends of Zanorich's and others were friends of friends... We all ended up leaving around 6ish and went for sushi..... First time I've had it and I liked it alot... considering the manager of the resturant was very funny... Gave out free pocky to the women... Also tried Sake... which was interesting... Im not sure if I liked it or not... but it was different... After Sushi A bunch of us wet back to Kat's place to watch Advent Children.... A few of them had tried to watch it at the con but a bunch of crazy fans ruined the viewing... I ended up falling asleep as I was sleepy and had already seen it twice... Woke up and went back to Zanorich's house and fell back asleep

Rest of the Week.

Pretty much just hung out the rest of the week... Didnt get to the zoo... but that was due to our own lazyness... Visited with Rockybaby one day... It was really good to see her again... ANYWAY... Pretty much the rest of the week was sleep and hanging out.... Zanorich didnt try to kill me to often.... so thats a good sign I think...

ANYWAY... what you all want to see.... Pics!
Only putting up the good ones... Im lazy and its getting really long at this point

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Iron Cosplay Cloud
After the duct tape... Didnt get a before...
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Female Wolfwood.
I think she could have done a good Victoria from Hellsing too.
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Final Fantasy Cosplay.
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More Final Fantasy Advent Children.
Love Reno..
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Kirby!!
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Drums...
I missed these for the vendor room... but my camera was there!!
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Our local Zappa Impersonator...
This is J#2... he was all ninja-y for the Con.... I loved his boots and plot on stealing them... Hes being attacked from the back by his arch enemy... XD
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Most of the stuff I picked up and the con program.
Picked up the full Neo Ranga box set, A Trigun CD (very good except I cant understand the japanese skits), The first +Anime manga, and two little toys for my sisters.
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The con program cover.
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My Trigun CD cover... The 2nd Donut Happy Pack ^.^
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The pins I got...
Zanorich bought me the two from Tokyo Mew Mew and Belldandy... And gave me the Invader Zim one... I bought the other three.... yay!!
I also bought some food and stuff... didnt get pictures of that though... To lazy....
I also picked up a keychain for Afro which I need to send to him... that was the first pruchase I made oddly...
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*grumble*
And thats my trip in a nutshell... I dont think I missed anything important... So much happened that I cant remember it all.... I can say this was the best time Ive had since the Swollen Members concert... but that was different.... this was fun just to go out and meet people and hang out.... I had an amazing time...
Sita
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Friday, May 26, 2006

So come outside and walk with me
We'll try each other on, see if we fit
And with our roots become a tree
To shade what we make under it.
Southern Girl- Incubus

Home...

But tired...

Busy week away...

Got a fair number of pics...

Will post tommorrow...

Need sleep...

Night...

Sita


Note: Holy fuck... it looks like I tried to write a poem and I didnt even try.... with the words... and structure... and... just... LOOK AT IT!... Im scared.... sleep time now...
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

As I lay awake I find
You're resting on my mind
And running through my head
While I'm laying up in my bed
I don't sleep no more
I wonder what I'm living for
Heart Refuse to Pound- Big Sugar

Do laundry
Clean room
Pack clothing
Pack other stuff such as shampoo, other hair crap for my attempt at wild and fun with the said hair, cell charger, camera, batteries, music.. etc
HOPEFULLY get a nap in
Shower

This is all before 1:30 when I have to leave for the bus station... I hate the people at greyhound... they got this... "I dont care enough to even pretend Im happy to help" vibe about them.

Then I shall be away till next Friday... well.. away from home... Im sure I'll get on the MyO at some point... maybe even MSN... Im going to hopefully get pics from the con ((with said camera)) but Im not sure how soon I'll have them up as I still havent even installed the software on my comp... which I might consider doing as I want to go down with a clean memory card.

Otherwise... all I have to do is finish that list of crap to do... *points up*

Busy week end... supposidly Im invited to a party ((by one of Zanorich's friends... who kinda reminds me of Dory on a bad day.... Who also seems almost more excited than Zanorich that Im comming down, if thats possible...)) Not sure if that will end up on the list of things to do... hopefully going to go visit Rockybaby ((aka highschool friend)), Thanh might come down to the con on Monday so I may have to try and hunt him down on the Uni grounds ((that should be a real treat... I think I've been to the U of C once)), possibly try to catch up with Con? ((Hint Hint: If you do end up in C-town... You can always IM me on my phone Con *nods* No big deal if you dont... but Im there even if you just want to have a long drawn out chat via TMs XP...)), then other stuff like catching up with Zanorich's friends... I get to meet the ones I havent met as of yet and get the full inspection I think... Which is always fun... cause I like to give people false immpressions and stuff most of the time... Keeps you safe in a way...

I keep changing my mind about how I want to go to the con... and I figure if I dress somewhat goth-ish... ie... black clothing, black makeup, black nails, wild hair.. I will A) probably manage to give myself heat stroke as it will be warm and B) fit in a bit more? maybe... possibly... I dunno... From the pics I've seen of J-rockers they mostly do the goth type thing.... so.... meh... semi-original cosplay based on J-rock ((which I dont really listen to ^.^;;))... Thats the plan for one day at least... and we're going to try to dye Zanoriche's hair blue if we can find the right stuff... other people are going in other colors and such... It will be interesting...

Anyway... I think Im done babbling on about plans... plans tend to get messed up when Im involved... I think I have this gift where things just get thrown off due to being associated with me....

Like I said... not sure about my special comp time... but anyone who has my MSN can get ahold of me on it while Im on mobile... I know it says it might cost me money... but it doesnt.... so dont be afraid to bug me... pwease?

Will try to get many photos and fun stuff... will try to not kill/ maime/ destroy to many life forms...
I hope I get to go to the zoo XD

Thanks for keeping it peaceful
Sita

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Friday, May 19, 2006

When all is said and done and dead
does he love you the way that I do
breathing in lightning
tonight's for fighting
I feel the hurt so physical
Think Twice- Eve 6

My hands are getting all gross like and not pretty from pulling most nights... the jacks are kinda rough on my hands and since I started wearing my whole two rings on one finger they rub on my palm and I think Im going to develope callused hands and that kinda doesnt make me happy...

Talked to the old friend from the diaper days...

I think Im going to slap the next guy to come on to me...
*sighs*

I'm kinda missin Heero again....
Seems like I do that alot...
Sita
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

Dressed by dawn and out the door,
no lights, she memorized the floors
so she could leave without being detected.
She works till three; it's uniform,
she dreams that he'll come by the store.
She prays for days when boys mean she's protected.
I Want to Save You- Something Corporate

Went to bed farily late.... was woken up by a call from a friend from way back in dipers... Turns out hes in the area for the next few days... Hopefully get to see him for a bit at some point.

Then I got a call from home and had supper with them. My dad inquired if I had turned goth as I have black hair, painted my nails black and happened to be dressed in all black for two reasons a) I have to wear black pants to work. b) I grabbed a black shirt first and thats what I wore. I figured as I was missing the make-up Im not truly "goth" or emo.... or any of those other little groups that wear all black...

Other than that it was a nice little visit for once... talked about a few things and didnt get in a fight this time... which is a nice change... I think my dad may kill Zanorich though... Im not sure if hes joking about the shotgun or not....

Anyway... other than that its been the usual kind of Sita day... slept, ate, worked. Didnt do everything I intened to do... But thats the usual... so long as I have clean clothing for this weekend... I dont care... speaking of which... It would be cool to see you, Con. *nods* Just dont get killed on the roads if you do decide to try and brave the city. XD.
Sita
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

All I ever really wanted was to be the same.
Equal treatment never ever comes and here they go again.
All I ever really wanted was to be like you.
So perfect, so worthless. If I could take it all back, think again, I would
Breath- Nickleback
^The song I was obsessed with when I found Sita^

Ok... Because most of you like the song... I'll keep it up for a while longer. I still like it... just I played it to death for a while when I got the CD... But it reminds me of someone... So I'll keep it up... And I agree, Con... the music video is awesome... though when I first heard the song I had an entierly different idea running through my head... I always thought it would be fun to make music videos... but thats alot of work and stuff...

ANYWAY... finally got my ass in gear and dyed my hair back to black... It was brown for the last three months as I sold my hair's soul to Tiffy for a box of hair dye... but that time has elapsed and I can dye it whatever bloody color I want to again... Alot of people thought the brown was nice *looks pointedly at Zanorich*... Tiffy managed to pick a color that was so close to my natural color that you couldnt even see where it had grown out unless you knew what you were looking for.

Only a few more days till the con... Im getting a bit excited now... Like I was saying before... I really want to try cos-playing.. but due to money issues and stuff... that idea kinda died a month or so back... I might still try to do something with my hair though... I just need some hair wax and five minutes alone with the straightener... Cant promise it will look pretty.... but it will look like something. ^.^

Found out that one of my favorite co-workers is going back to days... Makes me kinda sad as I really like her and shes one of the few people on the crew that I really feel comfortable with... Although I think I just need to open up a bit more and Ill be fine.... although opening up leads to getting hurt... and getting hurt leads to crying.... and crying leads to a sad Sita... ANYWAY!! I figure Ill try to show up at work every once in a while during the day just to bug her... And on the topic of bugging work people... Next weekend after the one comming I got suckered into going to a work "function"... They're roasting a pig and selling cheap booze... thats got to be fun... right? Oh... and the important part... I get the night off to go.. :P

Anyway... I had a question for all of you.... What do I appear like on here? I know I was discussing it with Blue Eyes and she said I seem.... evilish... is that true? What kind of vibe do I give off?
Sita
ADD ON...

WHOOT!! I hit 12,000 Downloads on my wallies... I want to thank the people that keep telling me I do a good job *cough* Expecially you, Con... I dont quit because I get positive feed back ^.^
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

This story's old, (this is the end) but it goes on and on until we disappear.
(This is the calm.)
Calm me and let me (this is the calm) taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath.
(We are the resin)
i am the one (we are the resin) who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea.
(After the storm.)
I spoke the words (after the storm) but never gave a thought to what they all could mean.
Play Crack the Sky- Brand New

Didnt get nearly as much done as I planed today. other things came up and kept me preoccupied and as you can see Im still not even done my own site. Im thinking of new music but we shall see what happens... I quite like the Nickleback song... but I think its getting old.

Not sure why but I suddenly just kinda died on the happy front... I think Im tired... That or just plain at wits end... Not even sure what Im going to do with myself...
Sita
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Monday, May 15, 2006

Do you want me to show up for duty?
And serve this woman and honor her beauty?
And finally you have found something perfect
And finally you have found yourself
Hard to Concentrate- Red Hot Chili Peppers

So.. I think I've been given the nickname of "Pony" at work. See... there is Bruce... who is a pretty big guy... almost 7 foot tall... Who we call Horse because he always pulls stuff and can pull a fairly big load. The last little while they have been having me pull stuff to... which I enjoy as a) it keeps me away from the frustration of having to fight with boxes of "quality merchandice" that just wont go out. b) its fairly good exersize. c) I just like pulling heavy stuff. For some odd reason...

Anyway... The other night Doug, another guy I work with, made the comment of sending the horse and the pony off to pull stuff. last night when I had to pull again, Bruce made the comment of getting to keep the pony. Im not sure if thats a good thing or not. But I guess its nice to have a place where I fit in. Kinda. Seems like my first three months at Home Despot dragged on, the first three months at Showcase just dissapared, and the first three at Zellers did the same. Im comming up on my three months there right away... Also comming up on my three month anniversary with Zanorich. Which just goes to show time moves fast when your having fun. I guess its the fact that I have stuff Im looking forward to theses days. It use to be I just looked forward to the end of the day when I could sit down and talk to my friends... Now everyone is more busy and not on as much... so I look forward to the next week when I might get the chance to talk to them or the next week end off to see Zanorich or what ever there is to look forward to.

I was looking forward to the camping trip. I enjoy camping. But real camping. Witht the fire and lack of showers and stuff... Out in the middle of nowhere where you can be eaten by a bear and no one knows for three weeks. This camping trip was going to be up in someones back yard... It just isnt the same... And the way I feel toward Tiga right now... Its better to just hang out once in a while and not put myself in the postion where Im likely to snap at her.

Anyway... Im hoping to redo my site tonight as Im a lazy person who only takes a few hours to re-do her site as oppose to those people who put alot of effort in and play with the codes and everything. Not sure what theme. But I might actually try to put SOME effort in. I dunno. I got other things to do first... Zanorich and I are going to work on his site a bit to make it pretty... If we dont get involved in other things first... and I want to redo my gaia profile... and I'm re-dying my hair black as Im finally free to do what I want with my hair. And I want to order pizza tonight and blagh blagh blagh.... Alot of things I want to do.. and this is what happens when I get a day off... I dont leave the comp.... even to eat... But I might sleep a bit first.... sleep is nice...
Sita
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Sunday, May 14, 2006

On my deathbed I will pray
To the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven
To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The wine was bled
And there you led me on
Like a Stone- Audioslave

I know, Con... You did Audioslave to.... What can I say? Great minds and such... Im just happy it wasnt the same song as I was thinking of that one a few days ago :P

Anyway... Sita bought food again. Just a few things.... The scary thing is its all health wise type food except for the pudding... Got mommy some flowers as I couldnt think of anything else to get her... They were pretty yellow roses ((HAHA... Sita ROSE... ehh... ok... not so funny I guess...))

I've decided Im lucky I can boil water and I need to figure out a way to force Afro Jones to come cook for me. I was cooking noodles and everytime I left the stove they boiled over..... Had the heat up to high obviously.... but I was to lazy to turn it down... In the end I had a pot of cooked noodles and Im now eating them... I dont feel sick so I dont think Ill die.... Its all good...

ANYWAY... in other news... Kinda worked stuff out with Ramses. ((Con.... In response to the "Where did he go anyway?" question.... lets just say Ramses was a very bad boy and it wasnt really a slap on the wrist offence... That subtle enough with out saying straight out he went to jail? I mean... *cough*... oops....)) There was this whole akward "So what do we do now?" phase when he first came back. More or less worked it out to we're just going to be friends and see how it goes. Hes to good of a guy for me to just drop him ((Yes I realize I just said that about someone who dissapeared cause he was in jail))... and I kinda moved on so its not like we can just pick up where we left off. But so long as he doesnt just stop talking to me... Im happy with a friendship type relationship... And I still hope to go out to visit him at some point. That or convince him to move out here so I can keep him out of trouble. But I got a few places I want to go visit before I turn 20 ((only a few months and Im screwed out of that goal))and there is a particular order in which that will all happen (if and when)

Was out and about today... Ran into another friend from high school. Had a nice little chat with her. Saw my Mom and one little sister who is pretty much the same height as me. Sadly. As now all I hear is "HAHA... Im taller than you". Not that it bothers me a whole lot that she IS taller... its more that she has to rub it in. Then I point out that being taller than me is like stepping on an ant. Not very hard and hardly a big acheivment. Then I pick her skinny butt up and drag her away and its all good.

Picked up Final Fantasy: Advent Children and the new Red Hot Chilli Peppers CD. Now I stop spending till I go to the con. Hopefully.

Figured out a way to weasle out of the planned camping trip in June. Sadly Zanorich has to take a bit of the heat... but its not his fault if he has to "work"... and I'm sure as hell not going unless he comes with me. So I'm hoping I can go spend the week in C-town and drag him to the zoo and stuff. I'm sure I can make him tired of me if I really try... And try I will.... cause Im a bad girlfriend like that :P

Anyway.... Im done rambling from topic to topic... happy Mommy day all
Sita
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Saturday, May 13, 2006

Keep your head up is what they telling me
(They tell me life will get better), well it betta be
Sorry but the world keeps stressing me
Rain drops cloudin up the memories
It's gonna be alright is what they telling me
Don't let the stress get the best of me
Trying to focus on the road that's ahead of me
Till my brain gets cloudy bout a memory
Rain- Chamillionaire



Ho'kay... From the top.

I was laying asleep at Acanous' house last Saturday (when I went to go visit Zanorich) and I was awoke by a buzzing. I usually have my cell on vibrate as I can hear that just as well as my ring tone (usually) and I'm just to lazy to switch between the two most of the time.

Little side story... the day I was sick I passed out getting ready for work. I think I bumped my head but meh. Not much up there to hurt half the time and Im ok now. At the time I was scared as hell as that has NEVER happened to me before and I prefer to be in control of my own body thank you very much. At the time the first person I thought to call was Tiga. She was in bed. I didnt get help till Dorian was off work, two and a half hours later. I got a bit irked at that.

ANYWAY. The phone call. I wake up and grab my cell, being as Im that kind of person, and answer. Tiga is on the other end and says "Hey. Hows it goin?"
Me: "Good... just woke up though... *slightly groggy and sleepy*"
Tiga: "Thats nice. Guess what I got!"
Me: "*awake now but still tired* I dunno. What?"
Tiga: " My tattoo!!"
Me:".... oh?" *going through my head* '... wait.... we.... but.... huh?'
Tiga: " Yeah! My cousin was getting his tattoo for his birthday and people gave me money and now I have my tattoo!!" (Note: Shortened the whole how the tattoo was paid for story down as I cant quite remember the exact values the people paid... But you get the gist of it)
Me:" I see.... Did it hurt? *sounding calm and interested and not one bit ticked as I still hadnt quite comprehended what had happened*"
Tiga:" A little bit..."
And blagh, blagh, blagh for about 10 minutes till she had to go sing her cousin Happy Birthday.

I sat down. Slowly came to the conclusion that I shouldnt be mad... Even though... you know... there was the whole "Hey lets get tattoo's together and be bestest friends till the world implodes upon itself leaving us smaller than a hydrogen atom but still happy to be bestest best buds forever".... I mean... yeah... it was her idea that we get them together... We've been planning since Halloween but basically been putting it off till we both had money. There was the whole "doing something as friends that no matter how hard we try.... we're just not going to forget". Cause face it. Tattoos are pretty much stuck there unless you go pay to take it off. She went and got it with her cousin. She's happy. Im once again feeling like I have absolutely no value in the friendship... But hey!! Who gives a damn how Sita feels so long as she doesnt shut the love off... right?

In the end it doesnt bother me that much. The actual getting the tattoo when Im not even there thing. Im free to go get my own tattoos as I see fit and as I feel like it, now. And I have been thinking and planning a couple. Not sure where they all will go... But I have a few I want. All with reasons and personal meanings.

Its just the way the whole thing played out. Shes the first one to know about me being sick. Thinking she was at work at the time it was over text messaging. She didnt even bother to call me. She sat in her bed and couldnt even call.... I ended up talking to Zanorich till he had to get off the phone. Then.... oh joy... Im the first person to hear about her new tattoo... that she was suppose to get with me.... but didnt.... Is it just me or does the whole "friendship" seem to get more and more one sided?

I dont even see the point in trying to tell her Im mad. A few deep breaths and a few days to think about other stuff.... Ill forget it happened..... My mind works that way. Not really. But lets pretend. *sighs* Its just so frustrating. Im not even sure how to deal with the situation anymore. Stacie says Im acting childish for even being mad about it to begin with. She can bite me. She tells me Im childish over everything and while she may not be able to comprehend how I feel and why I feel that way. She can at least have the decency to try and understand where Im coming from. Thats another frustration but alot harder to explain.

Then they all wonder what could ever drive me to deciding that just maybe I might actaully buy a plane ticket and go visit someone I'v never met before. By myself. In another country. Alone. Because as far as Im concerned. All my best friends DONT live in the same area code as me. I DONT have anyone I can truly rely on. And I DON’T feel like I’m part of anything that could constitute a real friendship right now. And that pisses me off. To put it bluntly.

Anyway. End rant. Sorry. Its been bugging me…

I did get together with an old friend from high school. After she heard that little story, including the part about me getting sick, she forced me to put her on speed dial and told me if it happened again she was going to help me whether I liked it or not. I still think I would have taught a better lesson to people if I had broke my neck and had to live as a vegetable for the rest of my life. I think I would make a good potato…. On spur of the moment we went and got our ears pierced… I just got one in my right ear (total of three now) and she got one on each side. Ran into another girl we use to go to school with and verified she IS getting married in August. I had heard rumors but hadn’t heard for sure. Im not sure if Im getting old, or if shes just getting married young. Personally, I cant even really see myself getting married anytime in the near (next 20 years) future. But that’s just me. Anyway. I ranted…. I told you a bit about my day. I now hate soap, toothpaste, and shampoo with a passion for personal reasons. And now Im going to sleep for a bit. Have a good one all and Zappa…. That was a weird dream ^.^;
Sita
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