Friday, May 12, 2006

Amor, si es amor
Your love's got me feelin'
Obsessed in my soul
Si es amor
not an illusion
That makes me do things
That my heart can't control
Obsession- Baby Bash

I got nuthin...

Tell me about your dream, Zappa
Sita
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Thursday, May 11, 2006

You used to be so real
And all of your love everybody did feel
But now your turning into a fake
And all our hearts yeah you do break
Cause of all those drugs you do take
Hello- John Butler Trio

I really want to press the "Initiate Loner Status" button... But people always find and bug me... So Im just not going to put any effort into making it easy for them to find me.

So tired....

I keep thinking of stuff I want to write about... Rants, stories, bitch sessions... Just general essay type things too involving the cyber culture (mostly due to observations made on gaia) But Im lazy and the words seem to lose meaning as I write till it sounds alot like a half ass attempt at making a statment.... which frustrates me....

And I dont like being frustrated....

Anyway.... Im sleepy and have a few things I want to do before sleep... so Im cutting it short...
Stay in touch
Sita
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Say the talk and I won't mind
There's a cause you know I'll never try
And I love you like the one I used to know
And if you never had the time
That's an ordinary problem
And I said I'd like to have a place to go

And you held and you tried
I could never find another
If you walk me to the car park
I won't go
To my left I saw the time
Flash and fall it seemed to swallow you
I could love you like the sister
I never had

Drawing circles in your concrete
I will know your every move
And I'll send you
I'll send you

And you held and you tried
I could never find another
If you walk me to the car park
I won't go
And we held and we tried
There was heart and lust between us
I will love you
I won't let go
Undercover- Pete Yorn

Granted those are long lyrics.... But I've had the song flickering through my head since.... ehhhh.... meh... they've been running through my head for a while...

Anyway.... Teehee... I got avatar art on gaia... and I like it... so Im showing it off here....

My Avi as The Amazing Mechanical Bunny

And Le art of her... I think its cute....

Anyway.... Short recap on the week end as I didnt really SAY much yesterday but how it started... Like I said I kinda surprised Zanorich by showing up in C-Town unannounced. He had to go to work at the time of me showing up so I ended up spending the afternoon and most of the evening at his friend, Acanous' house. This was the friend that helped me get down there to begin with :P... We were suppose to meet Zanorich at The Net (an internet type place thingy...... You go to play games on good computers and stuff) at around 9:30 when he was off work... But both Acanous and I needed to sleep at some point due to the fact that neither of us had slept at all since the day before... I was woke up at 7ish by a slightly rude and in the end very upsetting phone call from certain people who Im just not going to bother mentioning at this time... I sat around keeping myself occupied for a while till about 9:30 came around and Acanous was still asleep... Tried to get ahold of Zanorich on MSN with my phone but due to the reception being crappy... The phone was only half working at the time... That was the first thing to start frustrating me.... I finally got Zanorich on MSN and had to explain things about three times over as only some of the phone messages were sent and recieved on both ends.... After about an hour and a half of trying to communicate he finally understood what was going on and he eventually hopped a bus to save me. ^.^ I was a bit twitchy as even though I know the city a little bit.... its still fucking huge and unless I had a map I couldnt even tell you where I was at the time... I like being able to get around with little trouble and it bothered me alot that I was so dependant on people to get me from point A to point B.... It made me feel like I was a burden on everyone and at one point I got in a fight with Zanorich about it.... Anyway... He came and saved me and all was well in the Mushroom Kingdom... We left Acanous' house as there were other plans to go to another one of Zanorich's friends places for a house warming party. I met Kat before but only really quickly last time I was down in C-Town. I met a few other people... there are only a few others cause the apartment we were warming was fairly small. Had a bit to drink and a bit to eat and all was still merry and happy in the Mushroom Kingdom... Slept at Kat's place for the night and spent most of the other day hanging out with her.... played some game cube.... got my ass kicked in Mario Kart and the Naruto fighting game *shudders* the voices still suck... Watched Final Fantasy Advent Children... I was half ass boycotting the movie for stupid reasons, but Im happy I didnt for much longer.... Some of the images are so pretty and the art is awesome... It made me happy... Anyway... We went for a walk in the afternoon and had supper, pestered some birds in the park... all that fun stuff... Picked my crap up from Kat's house and went back to Zanorich's house... spent all of Monday there, hung out... ate pizza, played game cube, watched CSI, bugged the animals and stuff... rode the bus home Tuesday afternoon and got to go to work and all that fun stuff... It was a really good trip down... A three day break from the bullshit that is RD-ville... more or less.... next time I go down to C-Town I think I might ignore all phone calls from RD-ville.... only bad things result from talking to these people right now and Im more than a bit annoyed at almost all of them.... I might tell that story later.... Im not sure.... anyway.... If you notice the chatbox... Howee and I were having a bit of an odd conversation and I got off track... thats about all that happened this week end.... I didnt get eaten or killed in the big city so I think I'll be ok to go back in two weeks for the con... starting to get excited >_<.
Sita
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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

Baby girl
You want it all
To be a star
You'll have to go down
Take it off
No need to talk
You're crazy
Crazy Bitch- Buckcherry

I just really like the song... Loves it in fact....

ANYWAY..... quick post as Zanorich is falling asleep on the couch.....

Made arangments with one of Zanorich's friends to come down to C-Town for the weekend to surprise him. He didnt have a clue I was comming down and to make things better I told him I was going home to see the family for the weekend.... He reads my blog so I couldnt really outline Operation Green Jello on the site... Anyway.... It was overly funny when I told him I was in town as I was talking to him on his friend's phone and he didnt think it was me as the phone connection was kinda crappy and it messed with my voice a bit... So I ended up having to call him on my cell and give him crap for not recognizing me... Kinda hard to do when your laughing really hard.... At one point he said "You said you were going to your parent's house?" and my response was "Yeahhhh... I lied." Then I started giggling all over again and he was quiet for a long time and still didnt quite believe me till he saw me... It was really cute. ^.^ Although I was a bit ticked when I first saw him... >.>
ANYWAY!! like I said.... quick post and Im gone again.... will post longer Wensday.... its back to RD-ville and back to work tomorrow.
Sita
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Saturday, May 6, 2006

Black bandana, sweet Louisiana
robbin' on a bank in the state of Indiana
She's a runner, rebel and a stunner
Coming everyway saying baby whatcha gonna
Looking down the barrel of a hot metal forty five
Just another way to survive
Dani California- Red Hot Chilli Peppers

Ummmm.... So... pretty much to explain the post yesterday.... I kinda got sick last night in a fairly... well... I cant say it was unexpected as I have been having alot of dizzy spells in the last few months... but it was a bit scary as it never happened to me before... Im fine now thanks to a friend or two... NOT the one that wanted to take me to the doctor.... So no need for get betters or I hope your ok... People just dont listen when you say your fine these days... *cough*

Watched the movie Chicago hoping it might put me to sleep... you know the musical one with Richard Gere and Renee Zellweger (sp on both of them...) Generally when Im tired Ill fall asleep half way through the first 20 minutes or so... but it didnt work (I blame the shiney things) and in the end I went to sleep... very unrestfull sleep... You know those moments where you half wake up and your still half dreaming but your still asleep kinda? It was like that most of the night... and I had this one little bit of the last song stuck in my head... Part where the trumpet starts all slow to about halfway through the little jazz number... Im not a musician... I cant explain very well... But I kinda decided thats not such a good movie to try to sleep to...

Anyway... I've been a bit cranky (or a complete bitch... one of the two... take your pick) the last few days and Im really sorry. Like I said I havent been sleeping well and Im stressed over a few things right now but it should all be ok by tonight or so... I have the week end off so Ill try to be around a bit but as Im going home Im not sure for how long...

Operation Green Jello... Commence
And yes... I agree, Zappa... Orange Jello would have been better... But I didnt pick the code name... I was just told what to call it. Personally I like mixing yellow and green together.... But Im not a huge jello fan to begin with.
I love you. byebye!! *waves and shuffles off to bed*
Sita
Note: Ugg... Sita no want to pack... someone else do it for me?
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Friday, May 5, 2006

Her drink starts emptyin while she spillin out her life to me (slow down)
Tellin me about her goals and how successful she would like to be
Invitin me, into a session of her life and she
Seems so damn innocent, but something isn't right to me
Think Im Crazy- Chamillionair

Well that would be the logical course of action, Heero... So would eating... But I have pride and dont like asking for help often.
Sita
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Thursday, May 4, 2006

Well let me be the first to say that I
don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
ain't gonna' pretend like I do
Trying- Lifehouse

First off.... I like fish.... but I think I will attempt to avoid making food like products with it for a while.... It would be better with crakers..... which I lack.... not to bad on its own... but.... ehhhhh... I think Ill just avoid cooking...

Second off.... How much * candy does a person need? and another thing... shampoo.. its only hair..... you dont need 50 different kinds.... unless your rich and have nothing better to do than wash your hair.... then I think your nuts..... and should refrain from reproducing...

Third off.... I didnt sleep yesterday.... Im tired... and cranky.... and if one more mother * calls me while Im sleeping Im going to shove the phone in places better left to the imagination....

Operation Green Jello is a go... Night night...
Sita
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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

I can't escape myself,
So many times I've lied,
But there's still rage inside,
Somebody get me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.
Animal I've Become- Three Days Grace

Just a quick note on the lyrics from yesterday... I found it was one of the more mellow rap songs, Con. :P With the lack of swearing and suggestive content.... which... lets admit it... thats usually the kind that attracts me. XD

I was gonna rant... but I dont feel like it now... I think Ill go work on some stuff....
Sita

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Some feed back would be nice...

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Tuesday, May 2, 2006

i don't know who you are
but you seem very nice
so will you talk to me
shall i tell u a story
shall i tell you a dream
they think i'm crazy
they don't know how i feel

Verse 1

See, it started off as just a simple conversation I gave her
The name of my record company, she said "You a sanga"
My name's Chamillionaire and I'm a rap entertainer
Oh, you that guy they talkin about when they be whisperin aint ya
Bring ya name up when they talkin and say money will change ya
I heard a lot about how you can't deal wit cha anger
Heard the rumors bout how you always in trouble or danger
Not gonna judge you if it's true so there's no need to explain
Cause ya do have a right to be, ya seem like ya nice ta me
I'm bout to order me another drink, here, would you like a seat?(Yea)
I tell the bartender seme Hennesey on ice for me
Her drink starts emptyin while she spillin out her life to me (slow down)
Tellin me about her goals and how successful she would like to be
Invitin me, into a session of her life and she
Seems so damn innocent, but something isn't right to me
She pulls out a picture phone "I got pics, would you like to see?"
I'm thinkin she gotta be friendly as hell
Givin her soul to me, it's like an identity sale
We never met is the story that my memory tells
Tellin me tales like she doesn't handle Hennesey well
Gettin into it, gettin intimate, and into detail
See I just met ya and ya showin me ya kids
Who said I had any kids? I didn't bring up no kids
Then who is in this picture?
Man, lemme show you just who it is

Chours

i don't know who you are
but you seem very nice
so will you talk to me
shall i tell u a story
shall i tell you a dream
they think i'm crazy
they don't know how i feel

Verse 2

Um, I don't remember her name, but she looked like a angel
Knew she wasn't from here, I knew that she didn't hanga
Round the same part of the hood, but hey the story gets stranga
Cause this stranger was stranger than I could explain ya
See, said she wasn't married, but the ring on her finger
Told me that she was lyin and just usin the same ah
Game I use on women so I couldn't even blame her
Spittin the game I spit to em when I'm tryin to bang a
I bumped into this guy and he told me he used to know you
He told me about the loyalty and the love he used to show you
He said what he said with a passion like it was so true
And took advantage of the fact that the listeners really didn't know you
His picture's in my pocket book, almost got it, I'll show you
Sheee digs in her purse and while she fumbles around
To find that photo I'm like oh no, there's some trouble in town
We turn around and see two officers comin in now
They walk in real suspicious and come and sit down
So close I could see they barrels of they guns to the ground
So close that they could listen to either one of us now (shhhh)
We turn back around and then she says "No need for whisperin"
Then she tells me "I don't really give a damn who's listenin"
Tried to make it last a long time was my mission
And he kept on trippin and then I got pissed at him
Hit him with my fist and them punches were never missin him

Chours

i don't know who you are
but you seem very nice
so will you talk to me
shall i tell u a story
shall i tell you a dream
they think i'm crazy
they don't know how i feel

Verse 3

Okay, let's get this straight
Your man cheated on you and now
You're talkin to a perfect stranger like it's makin ya proud
And the rest of this conversation she's just tellin me how
Wasn't her boyfriend in the pic, but a familiar smile
She said "pictures can be decieving" like she knew he was foul
"Look closely and you'll see a coward who uses his smile as power
Gleamin smoke screen, couldn't stand it another hour"
So she did what she did then she went to go take a shower
What're you sayin? What do you mean?
"I couldn't tell you that I'm missin him"
I don't understand what you're sayin
How'd you get rid of him?
She dissin him as I ask her what it is she did to him
She stops and I say "Eh, keep talkin I'm listenin"
I don't wanna tell about the images I'm picturin
Henny spillin and she tell me "for real
That the feelin that I was feelin
Was that I wanted to kill him"
Somethin is wrong here
And I know just who's the villian
Her voice was gettin louder, the moral is gettin clearer
The officers lookin at us, and I can tell they can hear her
Told me it was protection, reached for it in the stash
The plastic is what she grabbed and she put right on his ass
Busted before the blast, she thought she was free at last
"Baby I think you crazy
I'm sorry, I'm pressin
for time. I gotta go grind,
times been interestin"
Now I sweatin, I'm stressin, this girl got me guessin
That this conversation is some type of evil confession
She pulls a clearer picture it's my damn ex-best friend
"How you know him?"
She told me that she was wit em at his house watchin movies
Sundays is when they be chillin
And that's exactly the day that the hospital came to get him
The feelin was the worse feelin she possibly could be feelin
Stood up, and then I yelled out "Why the hell did you kill him?"
"I didn't kill him I have AIDS"
She had sex with em
And that's crazy
Think Im Crazy- Chamillionaire Ft. Natalie

I like it....
Sita
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Monday, May 1, 2006

Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Weak and Powerless- A Perfect Circle

I hate the good majority of the human race today.
Dont touch me.
Have a nice day.
Sita
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