Friday, April 7, 2006

Away with these nightmares
Away with suburbia
Shake down away
You marry a role and
You give up your soul til you break down
Me and the Moon- Something Corporate

So.... winter is officially gone in my books.... the snow is nearly all dearly departed and the small bits that are still around should be gone in a few days at the most... Its been raining.. well... "misting" all the time I've been awake *cough*... which admitily isnt very often as of late... I dont understand why Im so tired... I get home and post and check up on a few things... then get caught up in five other things that really arent important... then Im not tired... So its usually at that point I decide to crawl into bed then I cant fall asleep.... I think its the weather.... anyway.... as I was walking home I was pretty sure I saw worms on the ground... so Im not sure how I feel about that.... I prefer fall and winter to spring and summer just because I find it more pleasent and clam.... I think it has something to do with the heat....

Anyway.... Con, click me for more info on the con

Thats got the dates and all that stuff and if you give me a heads up Ill be sure to hunt you down so we can hang out a bit... provided you can put up with me XP....
Sita
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Thursday, April 6, 2006

On an evening such as this
It's hard to tell if I exist
If I Packed the car and leave this town
Will you notice that I'm not around?
Pinch Me- Barenaked Ladies

So.... I was on the verge of either killing myself or going on a murder spree at work.... I hate that bloody music they have playing for us.... some of it isnt so bad... but a few songs just seem to hit me the wrong way and I start clenching my fist and I know I need a break..... They play the radio for us now and then.... so that saves my sanity....

I was some what irritable as is because of the stupid wake up calls I keep getting... granted I have been doing alot of 12 to 15 hour naps lately... but when the same person wakes you up from two good sleeps with in 24 hours.... you get a bit irked... I like my sleep.. I could be causing trouble somewhere..... but no... I choose to sleep... so why wont they let me sleep?

I mocked my "safety" knife and the knife and karma taught me its not nice to mock sharp things.... I got a nice little cut on my thumb... it only stung for a second or two as it was a razor cut.... but it bled... oh did it bleed... I learnt my lesson...

Ooo... Zanorich invited me down to C-town to the convention ((Your right, Zappa... that could get confusing....)) provided I can get the time off.... which shouldnt be to hard I dont think... I get the weekend off already... so I just need to apply for the monday and tuesday off... But I've kinda got it in my mind to try out cosplay.... Im not entierly sure as what... I kinda want to do an original... but that involves waking my imagination up..... so we shall see.... Im not sure what else to go as otherwise.... so Ill post about that if and when it happens... Im going to go to the con no matter what... but the cosplay will be an issue... anyway.... thought I would mention that.... Im going to go yell at the steak knifes before I go to sleep... maybe it was just my safety knife thats got it out for me.....
Sita
*v* I made that...*v*
*v* pretty aint it? *v*
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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

Is there a word or right to say
Even in this old fashioned way?
Go make your move, girl
I'm not coming home

Would things have changed if I could've stayed?
Would you have loved me either way?
Dressed to the blues.
Day to day with my collar up.
The Suffering- Coheed and Cambria

Children.... expecially the really little ones... are amused by the most annoying of sounds... I was out with Tiga and the little child belonging to Tiga's cousin.... Somehow I got roped into pushing the cart that contained the child.... so... She was pretty good.... was singing and stuff... then she started acting all "Ok enough of the cart... I want out." And started doing those short high pitched screams children make when they want attention but it isnt really THAT big of an issue... So.... I rummaged through the diper bag thing and found a stuffed duck... In all honesty I generally make odd noises all the time.... just.... noises... dont ask.... so anyway... I got the little duck type object from the bag and started making what I figure has to have been the most annoying duck type noise I could have possibly made... And she sits there and giggles for a good half hour as my throat gets increasingly more tired making this noise... But it was one of those cute baby giggles that makes me laugh.... so I think it was worth it.... and the lack of crying or screaming... that made me happy...

In other news I got my sister her B-day gift... I actually got a legitimate gift of a small purse, some fuzzy socks and a few other small travel sized hair type items to fit in the purse... And some of the crappy wash out hair dye that mom lets her use... I tried to convince my mom to just let her dye her hair once so she doesnt have to use the wash out stuff as I dont think it works to well... But that was liable to bring up a bit of an argument as she isnt impressed with me dying my hair to begin with.... I just think if your going to spend $8 on something thats going to wash out and look crappy..... you can spend $10 and buy something that sticks around and only looks bad if it fades... and I just rambled about hair dye.... yeah.... have I mentioned I've only been awake for an hour now? So tired.... I miss sleep...
Sita
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Tuesday, April 4, 2006

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy
But nothing is, no
Song 2- Blur

I spent a good 6 months just trying to find out the name to that song..... I could never make out half the lyrics so I could never remember anything but the chorus for reference... But I finally found it... go me...

So.... its my older little sister's birthday.... I need to find her a present.... I have three choices I think... A Card and money.... A Card and a gift certificate..... or A Card and a legitimate, physical present... Honestly.... I acutally want to do the legitimate present thing... but I have no clue what to get her.... I might buy some of that hair crap she keeps asking for.... the expensive stuff... I still question whether she and I share genes... but we look the exact same almost.... So we must be related somehow...

Probably wont get it to her till Wensday anyway.... so its all good...

I made "two" new wallies... hardly my best.... but I still like how they turned out more or less.... I say "two" cause they are the same set up just one layer short of being the same image...

Anyway.... Was talking to Howee and he got me thinking... and stuff... Its amazing How quickly I can just move to being balanced on the emotional scale... Just... Im happy about some things and a bit sad about others and it all equals out to me just being centered...

And I think today was the first day in a long while that I've sat down and just read a book... Granted it was on my lunch break... but I havent just read a book in a while... I use to HAVE to read before going to sleep... I think I might pick that habit up again...

And I've also been half-ass roped into writing a short story for a contest by Tiffy... Im not sure if Im going to actually write one..... but I had a few ideas that would be interesting to try and make work... so I might possibly have a story in a few weeks.... It all depends on if I can get the ideas from my head to the paper with little mess.... anyway.... look...still boring just more writing...
Sita
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Monday, April 3, 2006

Got the body of a goddess
Got eyes butter pecan brown I see you girl
Droppin' Low
She Comin Down from the ceiling
just hit da tha floo
Yea,She Know what she doin
Yea yea yea
She doin that right thang
Yea yea yea
I Need to get her over to my crib and do that night thang
I'm N Luv wit a stripper- T-Pain

Bittersweet memories connected to that song believe it or not...
I blame the crack...
Or my other addiction...
*coughs and tired shifty eyes*

Other than that... not much to report... I finally talked to Afro... that made me happy....

Anyway... like I said... thats about it... Im boring... sorry.... been thinking about certain people to much
Sita
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Sunday, April 2, 2006

I said goodbye to many times,
to be fallen at your door,
and I’ve walked away,
so far away,
and still Ill walk some more,
One More Pill- Stabilo

Well... Im sorry for trying... I give up... no more trying for Sita.... *grumbles*

So I was feeling ok till I got home and checked a few things out and stuff....

I kinda called in sick at work cause I missed hanging out with Tiga and I figured that since I would probably just end up getting sick at work like I have been doing for the last few days... I may as well just cut the walking time and call in... Wow.... run on sentence.... anyway.... I'll go back tommorow I swear.... I think.... I truly havent been feeling well... and I think that part of it is due to the heat in the store... I've felt like passing out at least once or twice in the last week and Im not really the kind of person who passes out... I've never really been in any sudden position of failing health... been sick.... but the only time I've been to the hospital in my life has been to do with my sisters.. So.... I would kinda like to avoid passing out and hitting my head on the tile floor.... I think I might need to start eating better.... thats all...

Anyway... like I said... Was feeling ok.... Like... happy ok.... then I checked up on a few things.... talked to a few people.... found out about some stuff... it just kinda grabbed my happy mood... kicked it..... then jumped on its head a few times.... Before picking it up and punching it...

Well... not that bad.... Im just numb..... Not a very happy Sita....

Oooo... I bought Mirror Mask..... a greatly beautiful movie.... I suggest renting it and watching it both with and with out sound.... I figured I can find Howl's Moving Castle eventually.... but I was starting to get worried I would have to order Mirror Mask... I thank the great god of Walmart..... so anyway... that made me happy......
Sita
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Saturday, April 1, 2006

....

Ummm....

So... I was kinda looking forward to pulling the whole... April fools joke thing on people.... till... at the end of my shift today... they laid us all off.... They said something about it being cheaper to pay the day staff to do the same work and its all because some guy in the states bought the majority of the shares so technically..... The whole once Canadian store is now run by an american.... so.... I guess were all done at the end of the month.... at least they gave us time to find new jobs....

*sigh* It was nice not having to worry about money for a while.....

I think Im going to go to sleep....

Sita
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Friday, March 31, 2006

Felt that I belonged
And now I feel that gone
Where it all went wrong
I traced it all along
Back here again
Good Times- Finger Eleven

So.... I kinda hybernated yesterday.... sorry for lack of postage.... Tiga, Dory and I went down to C-Town on Wensday... Dory had a work shift down there for some stupid reason and Tiga and I hung out with Zanorich... Got home around midnight but due to the lack of a decent sleep for five days or so.... I went to bed and crashed... I woke up a few times but.... pretty much slept straight till 8 at night...

I also neglected to go to any sites lately...

Oops...

I find it funny.... Certain things have been said and as much as I want to believe it.... and as much as I know it isnt true.... and as much as I wish it was... I know it might not happen.... I know it has a 99% probability of not being true and I've kinda given up on wishes at the moment...

This keeps up much longer and Im just going to take a vow to never feel happy or expectant again.... Cause its always easier when you sit in the corner and cry... or not even cry.... just sit....

*cough*...

So that was my Depressed segment of the week.... I think I might go call Afro.... I tried Wensday and he didnt pick up.... so maybe if I just do random phonecalls he will eventually pick up...

I misses my Afro....

*mumbles* And Heero.....

Sita

Edit: few things I forgot to mention.... I picked up this new anime called Desert Punk..... I greatly enjoy it right... considering I've only watched two episodes so far.... It kinda reminds me of Trigun..... not quite..... but same sort of setting and such..... The opening is live action..... so that threw me off a bit..... I think I might pick up Howl's Moving Castle today... depending on how rich I feel...... That or I might wait it out a bit so I can pretend Im saving money... long story short..... The lappy got put a bit on the back bench this month..... so.... when I start saving... I start saving....

Also.... with the lack of computer time..... I missed all depressing or greatly eventfull events.... TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU PEOPLE!!!! I feel so lost........ uhhhhhh... there was something else..... but I cant remember... I think Im going to see my mommy today..... Wish me luck in covering my neck..... *cough* thats all Im going to say.....


*snickers*.... skin condition.........
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

They're always just one step behind
And you're so scared of what they'll find
And now you're running for your life
You're buying everything they sell
Those pushed will always say they fell
You got a postcard sent from hell
One Step Behind- The Living End

So.... I really dont think the majority of the good details are really ment for the MyO... Your pleanty welcome to bug me on MSN though Con...

Mostly just hung out around the house all weekend.... We picked Zanorich up from the bus station Saturday afternoon... He looked scared and lost and I could only really stare at the ground for the first hour or so... Hung out for a bit and visited some other friends.... got in a snow fight where I happened to be the only female participating.... and as a result got pushed into the snow a good five times... went out to the bars Saturday night as it was Stacie's birthday and everyone was going out.... Watched a bit of Invader Zim... *cough* ummmm.... Sunday we spent the good majority of the time hanging out alone... talking... and stuff.... *cough* mostly sleep *cough* left the house around 6 ish to go watch movies with Tiga and Dory... We saw Memoirs of a Geisha and watched King Kong again... Monday was again mostly sleep and alone time... Zanorich opted to take a later bus home since the weekend went so well.... So.... from the time we picked him up till the time I had to leave for work.... I spent a grand total of 52 hours with Zanorich.... the good majority alone... which was just fine with me.... and thats how the week end went.... at least all that Im saying publically....

Other issues.... I think I want to slap one of my co-workers... Theres this woman that started about a week after me.... And I can understand people having a particular way they want to do things... Its just the way they go about requesting such things and the way they treat me... I realize Im the youngest there by about 10 or 15 years.... but I still deserve respect.... She snapped at me today because I was working on "her" side of the pallet of crap we were sorting.... something about balance.... fine.... what ever... to many cooks and the soup and stuff.... I can deal with that.... see... the issue with it was..... The side of the pallet I ended up working on was slanted at a dangerous angle that if something was bumped or moved slightly wrong.... I would end up dodging boxes... which.... yeah... I can do that... but I rather not.... I had accidently nearly dropped a box on her earlier in the night... but I saw it falling and started doing the "movemovemoveMOVEMOVEMOVE!!" thing... Way I see it.... If the boxes are falling and you happen to be working under them.... you have been warned to move when they start falling and you still get hit? Its your own damn fault.... but if a person sees the boxes moving and decides to not even warn you and you take a box up the side of the head? well... I was put in that positon a few times.... it ticked me off.... or if a person says "Careful this all might fall on me.... let me grab a box or two first" and they just continue on..... Seriously.... I want to smack her.... then.... after giving me the "Work on your own side" snapping.... she moves to my side of the pallet and stands in the way the whole bloody time Im trying to move some heavy boxes... To explain... We only have about 2 and a half feet to move on either side of the pallet give or take.... so it really doesnt take much to get in a person's way.... When your moving 40 pound boxes the long way around cause someone wont take the hint and move... its a bit irritating... like I said..... I dont mind if you have a particular way you like to do stuff..... but if Im expected to make some accomadations for you.... you can do the same and not be a bitch about it.... Just because you have 15 or 20... *mutters* or maybe 50 years on me... it doesnt mean you have to treat me like crap... or like I dont know at least a little how the world works..... Heavy boxes tend to fall just as quickly as light ones and if your not careful I might just drop one or two on you while your not looking... *cough*... anyway.... Thats only TWO of the issues I wanted to ramble about.... there was another issue that came up yesterday due to a comment I recieved.... but I think I will see how that plays out on its own... Certain people just have to realize I know more than they think I do and Im not entierly stupid.... Nor am I always fooled by masks....
Sita
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Backbeat, the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
Wonderwall- Oasis

De... tails?

*giggles*

Im tired... So very tired.... And my neck hurts slightly...

...

Uhhhhhhh.... Memoires of a Geisha is an awesome girly movie..... No killing... only a little blood.... and the ending was nice.... I enjoyed it... And Im not usually a girly movie person...

Ummmmm.... Zanorich left with a slight skin condition.... He is now green and has no ears.... ((see quote.... Im pretty sure only a few people will get it...))

Dib: What about his horrible green head?
Zim: INSOLENT SCHOOLBOY - it's a skin condition.
Dib: [to Class] And he's got no ears! Is that part of your skin condition, Zim? No ears?
Zim: Yes.

Anyway... Like I said... Im tired... Ill tell about the weekend in more detail later maybe if I dont find something more interesting to talk... scratch that... Rant... rant about... I like to rant...
Sita
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