Sunday, January 15, 2006

Oh, Black Betty (Bam-ba-Lam)
Whoa, Black Betty (Bam-ba-Lam)
She really gets me high (Bam-ba-Lam)
You know that's no lie (Bam-ba-Lam)
She's so rock steady (Bam-ba-Lam)
And she's always ready (Bam-ba-Lam)
Whoa, Black Betty (Bam-ba-Lam)
Whoa, Black Betty (Bam-ba-Lam)
Black Betty- Ram Jam

Hokay..... I was gonna write a sotry today.... got a wonderfully evil idea from Zappa..... then I had ANOTHER idea.... then forgot that one... so.... long story short (oooo... could that be a pun? or just a witty comment?)... I didnt write nothin... so anyway.. the story of my day..... twas a day off... so like all other days I've been getting off... I kinda planned to spend the day in bed... people are around to do stuff I suppose.... but.... there isnt much to do in good old Town..... so... sleep sounds good to me.... so..... heh... 8 O'CLOCK!! in the freaking morning... the sun isnt even fully up yet!! *grumbles* I dont get up before the sun... its just not natural.... I got a phone call... now... if it had been anyone else I would have just told them to go to.... yeah... it would have been something along the lines of "Your going to die".... but.... BUT!!.... It was my friend... that I've been talking to alot on the phone lately....(( No Strife... It wasnt Heero... Heero doesnt call me.... at least not that I've been aware of...))... I called him a jerk a number of times then laied in bed for a good hour just talking to him... Got in a fight over Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Digimon..... which was fun.... Thats what I get for telling people they can call when ever they want... anyway.... It was a good call to wake up to for once.... Usually its a call along the lines of "wake up and open the door you ho"... yeah.... not so quick to move for those calls... anyway.... I went back to sleep after the phone call ^.^; cause Im just that lazy.... *didnt have anything better to do*.... after I did get up Me and Stacie and Tiga went to see Hoodwinked... Freaking hilarious.... the theater was filled with 8 year olds... and we laughed the most... It was a good movie... most of the jokes were pretty fast paced though.... so I think its a bit hard for kids to follow.... but its good clean jokes... like certain characters just straight bursting out into song in the middle of the movie... anyway..... Go see it.... I command you..... annnyway... I was thinking last night.... well.... reflecting.... just.... about certian things that have happened lately.... I know I've been really short tempered with some people... alot lately... I've just been really tense with people... anywho... I was talking to a certain person last nignt... not to mention names.... cause he knows who he is.... but it just kinda made me flash back to the last conversation I had with D'Hiur before my patience with him snapped.... I dont know if its the amazing abilitly that some boys posses.... Cause they really do act like boys at that point.... but... no matter what they mean to say it just comes out sounding like... "I dont have time for you.... I got time for others.... but you... you in particular.... dont even try to talk to me... cause your not important anymore"... *twitches slightly*.... *looks at the keeper list*.... *strikes name off*.... Good thing we still got Winn, Kevin and Fro... its getting to be a bloody short list.... Hey Con... could we add Zappa to that list? just thinking....

Anyway.... yeah.... I've had a few things on my mind lately.... I've kinda given up on trying to focus on one issue at a time... it all just runs together.... I think Im going to go eat some cookie dough now..... Bye bye!!
Sita

P.S I really sound just a bit... scattered right now dont I? ehh.... *shrugs* Ill try to get over that...
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Saturday, January 14, 2006

I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she’s lookin’ straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she’s lookin’ down at her feet

Dry your eyes- The Streets

ok.... so.... payday= buy food day for Sita... Since I started working at the mall I've made the bad habit of eating there.. which... leads to...
!) Gaining weight... cause lets face it.... mall food tends to be on the fattening side
@)Much less pocket cash..... it isnt cheap buying food every day...
#)Slight loss of required nutrients.... You have to know that that stuff isnt healthy.... I dont think your going to get all the required and essential nutrients from A&W.... just sayin...
*post writing was interupted by a three hour phone call*
$)I forgot what I was going to say here... ^.^;

wait... I remembered.... Only one meal a day.... thats what it was.... I tend to only eat once a day when eating at the mall... which isnt so good for a person...

anyway... the point is.... I went and purchased food today.... First thing I noticed.... ok.. its been like three months since I bought food to have at home... so I dropped about $100 on food.... that includes stuff like ketchup and jam and all that.... stuff you can hold onto for a few months with out it going bad so long as its in the fridge... also got some milk and cheese... meat.... bread.... yeah.... vegetables aka carrots.... fruit aka apples and oranges.... just all that basic stuff..... most of its bloody heathly... which scares me cause last time I bought food most of it was easy to make, boxed stuff.... I bought a steak this time... STEAK!! *is slightly excited she got steak* anyway.... that was the highlight of the day.... I expect alot of it will be gone in a few days... like.... I cant really keep sandwich meat and milk once they hit the expiration date... so I need to drink and eat that stuff.... not that Im complining to much.... cause I got other food for once thats all gone.... like I said... it excites me to have fresh food in the fridge..... On a completly different topic... No Strife.... it wasnt Heero that called.... *sigh*... *mumbles something and looks at the corner*... anyway.... I think its time for sleep and stuff.... maybe just go listen to a CD for a few hours.... something that doesnt involve sitting at the comp all night.... have a good one all... and ttyl
Sita
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Friday, January 13, 2006

the phone is ringing and the clock says 4 am
if it's your friends, well I don't wanna hear from them
please leave your number and a message at the tone
or you can just go on and leave me here alone
I Dont Want to Know If Your Lonely- Green Day

ok.... so... ummmm....... I found five bucks.... ok... so thats not so bad.... Its..... *cough* ok... so the basic run down of how the day went down.... I got to work.... started work... got seriously pissed at JoAnn.... that was basically due to the fact she wanted me to set up a number of pieces of exersize equipment... thats not so bad.... Its the fact that I asked her to make a list of things she wanted me to set up and she straight out refused to do such... instead she insisted that I "listen"..... which ticked me off..... I was listening.... It wont hurt you to write it down..... so anyway..... if I missed anything..... meh... I got a short memory now a days.... so its her own fault for not humoring me... anyway.... I decided that I didnt want to make the walk home by myself in silence and instead of calling a local friend I called a friend out on the other side of the country... yeah... I know... issues with calling my other friend and stuff... but..... this situation is a bit different... So I called him up and talked to him on the way home.... walking across the mall parking lot I noticed a piece of paper on the ground... Con will know... but we have old bills and new bills... the government redid the Five Dollar bill to incorperate some new security features... anyway.... I kicked the piece of paper.... decided it looked like money and picked it up..... anyway.. I got home and took a look at it.... yes it was five dollars... It was a old five dollar bill... which arent very common anymore..... it was pretty beat up... just really crumpled and folded and stuff.... but..... more so than usual.... then along the bottom edge it looks like there is blood on the bottom.... like... its dried.... and its not blood soaked.... just.... kinda like someone grabbed it with a bloody hand and some half clotted blood stuck on the bill..... ANYWAY!.. the top part looks a bit singed.... like someone ran a lighter over the edge.... I dunno why this is so bloody interesting for me.... Its just a five dollar bill right?.... small things and small minds in the end I guess... anyway.... I've been having a hard time going to bed before 2 in the morning lately... which kinda frightens me.... and Im looking at thinking about getting a new comp.... partly because Im going to be hooking my own computer back up to the net... Ive been using my Room mates for the past 5 months.... so we're hooking mine up on wireless... and I think it needs a new sound card and stuff..... so.... i was thinking I may as well buy a new comp if I have the money... which.... ill be having a bit of free cash by the end of the month... and I think Im going to be fine food wise so long as Christmas sticks to only comming once a year..... I'm not sure if I want to buy a new tower or if I want to risk making my own comp.... I think I might be able to salvage some stuff from my old comp..... but I want to update to XP and get it to run faster and such..... so... thats kinda on my mind right now... anyway.... I think I've talked for quite enough time..... have a good one all
Sita
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Thursday, January 12, 2006

Theres something about your style
And the way that you move how you do when you do what you doin to me
I just wanna feel your body your body and my body is so right
Cuz you got me open and that hypno and dro tasting so nice
and normally I dont get down but this time the feelings the same
Something Bout You- Young Buck


Ok... so.... Randomly downloading songs tends to lead to me having some... well.... I guess its just plain random music... anyway... I got that there song... *points a the lyrics* in a somewhat random downloading spree..... and I really like it.... BTW.... when I say downloading.... *shifty eyes* I mean completly legal back-up of music files... I'm gonna buy the CD's when I have money alright!? anyway...... I think its the weather... I seriously think its the weather... seems like everyone is depressed right now.... and Con... if you decide on that road trip and happen to be in the area.... I dont know of any good places to get cheese-cake up here... but I'll be sure to pay you back for breakfast..... anyway.... I've figured out a way to deal with work.... kinda... first off.... I kinda need to work up the courage to ask for a raise... then Im just gonna figure out a way to avoid working with JoAnn.... Shes the cause behind my dislike for work... so Im just going to avoid her like the red death and it should be all good.... course I'll have to work with her as some points.... but I can deal with that.... I think.... I hope... for the sake of my small bit of sanity left.... I hope I can put up with her.... Anyway.... I was reading Enin's (ever so very very VERY) long post.... ((mental note: Damnit.... I forgot to say "HA!! I knew it was BNL" in my comment.....))... and at one point he mentions what hes lookign for in a relationship with a girl is just the sheer abilitly to sit and have a conversation where you just lose track of time and never want it to stop... it got me thinking about certain people... yet again.... who... I might want to mention... I had another one of those mental conversations that involved the cell phone last night.... I got my cell bill... its not as bad as I thought... I bet I could get a conversation out of the remaining funds...... *shakes head* But NO!! *has issues with calling without knowing who, if anyone will pick up the phone*... anyway... those conversations tend to occur at 3 in the morning or so.... which.... yeah.... not such a big issue I suppose considering most of our phone conversations started at 3 or 4 in the morning and usually went till 6 in the morning.... *mumbles something else about missing people then glares at the corner for a while*.... anyway... one more day and I can eat..... not that Im starving.... yet... anyway.... as I was thinking about certain people I remembered a certain comment he made once about me making people think... persoanlly I have to doubt the comment.... but meh.... anyway... I seem to remember... the night he made that comment I made a post on how my socks had holes in them.... somehow that was suppose to make people think... anyway... there really is no point in me trying to explain the logic behind this next statment which will act as a follow up to the "Holes in Socks" post... but..... Im currently wearing three pairs of socks.... One knee-high pair, one regular pair, and one pair of fuzzy socks..... go me.... yeah..... I've been thinking about certain people alot lately..... I think I need to get more sleep...... ANYWAY!!! you all have a good one.... ciao!
Sita
Mental note: My Jujube ratio of yellow to orange to red is 6 to 4 to 5..... Why are they not equal? WHYYYYYYYY!?!?!?!

Second Mental Note: Just dont come up with anything random or funny anymore... like the waffle thing.... I've wanted Waffles for a bloody month now and guess who isnt getting waffles..... ME... guess who is..... Not me.... the other people are though...... nice of them to invite me after the fact....... If anyone needs me..... Ill be in my bed avoiding the general public.....
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
I try- Macy Gray

Speaking of dreams.... I had the worst dream ever.... something that involved Dorian, a shirt and me telling him he was an idiot..... well... it was more like "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!?!" with a few more porfanities..... but it was the worst dream ever and I would almost classify it as a nightmare... which.... I've had dreams that have involved aliens trying to take over my brian and I didnt classify them as bad.... so that tells you how bad it was.... anyway... other than that... the day was boring... I slept most of it away to be honest... then the rest of it was spend sitting at Tiga's house watching TV and playing on the computer..... and hearing about her dream... which was messed up..... mostly cause it involved them comming to my house... seeing a sign on the door that said "Next person to wake me up will DIE" and then they woke me up anyway... then I tried to shoot her and I missed.... that kinda made me sad... then I got in a bit of a fight with Afro... which.. Ive been getting in fights with everone lately except for the people behind my frustration... which isnt so good..... but I think its all good between us... we talked it out and I think its ok.... misunderstandings and such... anyway... like I said.... otherwise it was a boring day... its 11:30 at night and I just started doing the laundry I was planning on doing... so yay for midnight laundry..... im just lucky I got Ben to keep me company... have a good one all... I thought I was doing better with stuff but I think Im reverting again.... *sigh* I guess thats what I get for oversleeping
Sita

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Give me just a second and I'll be alright
Surely one more moment couldn't break my heart
Give me 'til tomorrow then I'll be okay
Just another day and then I'll hold you tight
Gotta Get Through This- Daniel Bedingfield

Ok... so.. I dont usually single out favorite comments.... *whispers* usually its tied five ways through hell... *cough* but my favorite from yesterday

Cloud Strife 7777
so....do want to call Heero

I DIDNT EVEN MENTION NAMES!! *grumbles* As the post showed yesterday... I dont have anymore room in my head for anymore people... anyway... *sigh* I kinda might have killed Danko..... *twitches and sits in the corner* I think the fact that Im struggling to feed myself at this point is a good indication I couldnt look after him anyway... The worst aspect of that whole thing is..... I found some CDs I was missing..... after he kind of...... *cough* ok.... no details..... [It wasnt pretty... I cried....] but anyway.... I kinda thought it was karma's way of telling me there still was balance.... [lose a little, gain a little].... Yeah... so no pets for Sita for a while...... Or any other responsibility for lives at that matter.... [Can I get a fish?] Only if you feed it... [Ehhh..... never mind then]anyway.... thats the news... Oh.... and I saw Narnia again..... I still felt bad when they kill Aslan..... [ I liked the kitty.... Can I have a kitty?] No.... [Awwww... fine... be that way...] I will.... [fine] fine.
Sita
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Monday, January 9, 2006

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Lips of An Angel- Hinder

Hyper: *pokes a bundle of blankets in the corner and whispers* Why isnt she moving?
Scry: *sits on the couch and watches T.V. looking bored* Cause your poking her...
Hyper: But.... *pokes the bundle again* doesnt she usually move when I poke her?
Bundle of Blankets: *lets out small growling noises and shifts slightly*
Hyper: EEEP!!! *jumps back and picks up a broom*
Crowley: *walks into the room and looks at Scry on the couch then at Hyper with the broom* oh good.... someone is going to clean this place up... *looks into the kitchen and points at the dishes* When your done in here could you do them? *he looks at the bundle of blankets and wrinkles his nose* and wash those... they smell funny
Scry: clean your own damn dishes... *starts flipping through channels on T.V*
Bundle of Blankets: Can I have my cell phone please?
Hyper: EEEEEP!!! IT TALKED!!! SCRY!!!!!! *runs over to Scry and pulls on her shirt pointing at the bundle of blankets* IT TALKED!!!!
Scry: of course she did... She still has some thoughts going through her head
Bundle of Blankets: GIMMIE MY DAMN CELL PHONE YOU BASTARD!!
Crowley: *stares at the blankets for a moment then blinks slowly* Oh... I see......
Hyper: SCRYYYYYYYYY!!! *pulls at her shirt harder* make it stop.... it scares me!!!
Bundle of Bankets: shut the hell up, Hyper.... * a hand reaches out of the blankets* CELL PHONE!!
Scry: *sighs and stands up pulling a cell phone out of her pocket* Your not allowed to call him.... It costs to much and you lack the funds.
Bundle of Blankets: Ill be the judge of that... GIMMIE!!
Scry: fine... *puts the cell phone in the hand*
Crowley: Still not feeling better is she?
Hyper: IM CONFUSED!!!!!
Bundle of Blankets: *pulls hand back it then is quiet for a moment*
Scry: *smiles and sits back down on the couch*
Hyper: WHATS GOING ON!?!?!?!
Crowley: *wanders back into his bed room*
Bundle of Blankets: ....WHERE THE HELL IS THE BATTEY FOR MY CELL PHONE!?!?
Hyper: I want waffles...

Moral of the story: I wanted to call some one last night but that was the discussion that went on in my head. Never let your split personalities have control of your cell phone. They tend to talk you out of things...
Sita
Hyper: Or cookie dough... waffles and cookie dough sound good...
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Sunday, January 8, 2006

I love the smell of burning bridges
Can't help but bite the hand that feeds me
I love to raise my middle finger
It's become a habit I'm gonna keep
The Cross- Danko Jones

welp... an uneventfull day to say the least... I had a bit of a fight with Tiga over some shit that went down last night... She said she wasnt mad at me... and Im a little confused as to how she could be mad at JUST me when it was a combination of a few mistakes made by a few people.... It was mainly the part that she said she wasnt mad then kept making snide comments and stuff when she openly admitted that most of the blame probably fell on Dory.... who.... yeah.... either hes to stupid to realize shes making snide comments... the few she makes... or he just ignores them.... but she made me feel bad when I didnt really do much..... and that made me mad... *sigh* its just kinda felt a bit like a dump on Sita day.... I got called "anit-social" cause all I wanted to do was go home for a bit and veg in front of the comp... which.... ok.... to explain.... *I was gonna post about this last night but the comp died* I went out with Dory for coffee last night.... he was suppose to pick Tiga up at some point... but ended up getting coffee with me cause Tiga was hanging out with Stacie... now.... I understand why shes mad.... but I also see where Dory is comming from... He was kinda trying to save her from the boredom of having to watch me and him play Yu-Gi-Oh... (yeah I've become one of them....) so anyway.. at one point I guess she was crying... *sighs* that made me feel bad.... then the comments today made me feel worse.... I dunno... I kinda think she was a bit over-sensetive about the whole thing... but at the same time every one we hang out with is dead set in the belief that I want Dory.... mostly due to one night that involved Tequila.... So I kinda get the feeling that Im getting indirectly blamed for the whole thing... which is starting to piss me off..... then when I try to avoid being placed in a situation where it might lead to it just being the three of us and I get called anti-social... *twitches* I wanted to go home to talk to a friend on gaia and I get called anti-social.... yeah.... I feel real good about myself right now..... *note: sarcasm*.... *sighs* I want to go cry....
Sita
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Saturday, January 7, 2006

I said I wanna feel you
I really meant I wanna kill you
I said I couldn’t refuse you
I really meant I should’ve used you
I said, I wanna love you
I really am above you
Short Notice- The Living End

Once again another post is eaten up by the amazing abilitly of this computer to crash at the drop of an IM... anyway.... news.... despite the fact that I am female... At least science has yet to prove different (had to slip it in for Howee)... I cant figure out the female mind... I was told I think like a guy... which is probably true in most aspects..... I just tend to be more emotional about my thoughts.... anyway... I suppose that aspect of my mind has gotten me in trouble this time... long story short... Im avoiding Dory and Tiga for a bit.... on another topic and related to the lyrics... I was looking over my contacts on MSN and I could have sworn I deleted D'Hiur.... I guess I didnt... Im tempted to unblock him... but... I've decided its not worth it.... considering all I want to do is yell at him more... It might be worth it in short term... but will make me feel like crap in the long term.... anyway... Im thinking of making a new theme... I redid the theme on my Gaia profile a few days back so its just blue and black and white... it looks really sharp... so I might consider doing something like that here.... anyway.... Im done.... tired and need to think about how I dont meet mental aspects required by females... Im slightly confused because just earlier today I had the worst case of "wants to mother something" that I've had in a long time... have it good all.... ciao
Sita
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Friday, January 6, 2006

Do you believe in heaven above
Do you believe in love
Don't tell me a lie
Don't be false or untrue
It all comes back to you
Send Me An Angel- Thrice

Right-o... well... you know how I said I felt guilty about quitting my job.... the whole.... I kinda want to quit... but then I would feel bad cause they dont know anything and would be completely screwed if I quit at thins point... yeah... to hell with that... I got to work today... and... ok... so this is how it goes.... earlier this week we had an issue with two many hours.... we're only allowed 106 hours or something like that.... which ends up being two full timers and one part time.... so my hours were at 36... JoAnn's were at 40 (cause shes the boss and on salery) Colleens were at 30 and Tiga's were at 20 or something like that... Tiga is just part time... she joined on when we had the crisis and there was only three of us to work 140 hours... so shes been there longer than JoAnn and Colleen... but shes part time because of her schooling... so anyway... later on in the week... my hours went down to 32... Colleen's went UP to 34... and Tiga's were down to something like 12.... TODAY Tiga's went down to 6.5 hours. Because were over.... and on top of that I was told that if the big head office still made a fuss about it.. my hours were next to be cut..... ok.... so.... recap.... mine..... 36... to 32... to possible more reduction....
Tiga's... 20.... to 12.... to 6.5.... Colleen's... 30.... to 34... to not more possible reduction... my response....(Note: The following stament may include some profanity) "Fuck that and screw you"
I think the general idea is that people who have been hired longer, generally get senority.... which would mean mine and Tiga's hours would be the closer to last to be cut... and Colleen's go up? and stay up? I dont mind Colleen.... shes not the one responsible.... but on the topic of Colleen... I'm being told that when JoAnn is not present... Colleen is in charge.... ummmmmm......... *bites upper lip* No bloody comment at this time..... In general.... I can see whos going to get treated like the low man... and at this time I am fully aware of how bad they need me..... so..... *grins evily* I need to start filling out job applications.... It really doesnt help their situation that JoAnn has been pissing me off with her threatment of Tiga... I realize that my decisions should not be based on personal relaitionships... but when you work with only three other people it gets personal pretty damn quit.... Shes said a few things implying that she is thinking of letting Tiga go and that reflect the fact that she doesnt entierly respect Tiga..... one good exapmle is when Tiffy... who happens to be Tiga's cousin walked into the store.... the first thing JoAnn says to Tiga is that Tiga's family is not allowed in the store.... They hadnt even talked at JoAnn snapped... It wasnt a general.... "if your working friend's are discouraged" it was "Your cousin is not allowed in the store when your working".... so.... Mess with my friends.... mess with family... mess with me... Im out... thank you for the time.... *sighs* It just makes me so very un-happy... anyway... Im done venting... have a good one all
Sita
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