Thursday, January 5, 2006

Looking up to me,
Looking down on me,
And hazarding those sidelong glances.
I'm not too sure of what they see.
All I know is their views are slanted.
All Eyes- Thrice

Ok... so.... Im kinda currently in the middle of discussing an interesting topic with Afro.... something along the lines of.... how Afro put it was.... " To exploit your... ahhh....hmmm...beauty"... anyway.... we're all smart as whips here.... I'm sure you can figure it out.... If not... all the better if you ask me... ANYWAY.... Work was work was work... Sucked... Surprise surprise... anyway.. went out with Tiga and Stacie to look for a place that served waffles at 7 in the evening... we got to one place that we were sure would have them.... I nearly cried when I looked at the menu.... no waffles the bastards... So..... I kinda made them pay for their infringment on not having all breakfast foods.. by being a more than usual hyper individual.... I sat in the booth bobbing my head singing random songs and making annoying sounds the whole time untill I got food.... that might explain why the service sucked... or it could be because service sucked to begin with.... anyway... after that we went and terrorized a few stores... the book store mostly.... anyway... Afro is really picking at me for the topic we were discussing.... so I need to go find a way to scare him to get him to drop it.... this should be fun.... have a good one all
Sita
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Wednesday, January 4, 2006

Beneath the falling night
and heaven's shutting gate
pray keep your tongue held tight
or suffer the same fate
Under a Killing Moon- Thrice

I cant even remember if I decided to quit with the Thirce lyrics yet or not.... so I'll just keep going till I run out of lyrics I like. ^.^

Anyway.... As predicted... I might have spent a large amount of time in bed on my day off.... *whispers* I spent the whole day in bed... sleeping... ^.^;... yeah... so that was fun.... well... I enjoyed it... ANYWAY... whilest laying in bed for most of the day... I kinda was thinking about my job and stuff... and... Im kinda really tired of it already.... I just wanna leave... but I cant really because of the way the store is being run right now... they dont know anything.... so I'm kinda stuck due to my guilty conscience... which is a little stupid... cause usually I dont care about this sort of stuff... It's really not my problem.... I guess the whole reason why Im thinking about this again is because of certain things that have occured.. namely... I get stuck doing most of the paper work and such... pay-roll and scheduals and just general training still.... Three weeks later and Im still trying to train my own boss.. Trying being the keyword... because I half just want to freak out at her because the computer really isnt that hard to figure out... Its annoying to have to go over the exact same five steps... probably... three times in an hour and a half the one day... yeah... that bugged me. Then I find out that "because the west is doing so well" the boss gets to go to Toronto for three days at the end of the month... *twitch*.... maybe its because I've been there ten times longer than her... but that ticks me off... I know if I had been manager I sure as hell wouldnt have been invited... yeah Im jealous.... and that makes me mad because it really doesnt matter how I feel... Im not going to get to go... *sigh*... I just really dont want to be where I am right now....

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by
The Gift- Seether

Anyway.... Im suppose to go to Dory's house in a bit to watch movies and stuff.... so you all have a good day... I just really havent had much to write about lately.... nothing really big has happened..... so.... nothing big to post about...
Sita

P.S. Hey Jaxx.. I didnt get to go to the place i was suppose to get to.... so no news.... ^.^
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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

The words,
Of the dead,
Ring in our ears,
But its only a lie.
The voice,
In your head,
Brings you to tears,
But you don't know why.
So Strange I Remember You- Thrice

hmmmm.... not much to report... went to work and such and was bored out of my mind... I get tomorrow off though.... so hopefully I can catch up on my sleep... and finish cleaning my room... I need to finish cleaning my room.... anyway... have a good one all...
Sita
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Monday, January 2, 2006

paint the target
we don't need no evidence
flood the market
we do it all in self defense
you're a smart kid
never work without your gloves
if you're a smart kid
you'll stay the hell away from love
Dont Tell And We Wont Ask- Thrice

Happy second day of the year ladies and gentlemen. Ok... SO... I might have kinda sorta not really done the big reflective post I was planning. But meh... MEH I SAY!! It was more or less depressing anyway.... who wants to look back over one of the most harrasing years of their short life anyway? I sure dont... Alot of really cool and awesome things happened in 2005... but alot of really annoying and depressing things happened too... which.. because of the way I think... I spend far to much time thinking about to being with.... I have to say though... things have changed alot and Im not all overly dissatisfied with how I ended up at the end of the year... alot of crap happened and I've cried alot more in this past year than alot of the previous ones.... but.... at the same time I've found alot of things about myself. So its not all bad. I've met alot of really cool people... made a few really really good friends... and done somethings I could never see myself doing.... So heres to another productive year. *raises a glass of something or other* Hopefully its a bit less painful and a bit more happy.

Shout outs:

Afro Jones
Believe it or not... but Im keeping track of how long we've known each other... and its really not that long.... just comming up on a year in the next few weeks or so... Thanks for sticking around and putting up with me, luv. Im not sure where I would be with out you.

Con
Hey pretty lady... I know I dont always listen to you... and Im slightly (scratch that... replace with usually) stupid when it comes to certain people... but your still around too. And I think thats really cool. Your an awesome friend and hopefully we can get together again sometime this year and go play pool or something....

Jaxx
*smiles* I think you put up with almost more shit than Afro... So thanks... and your one highlight of the year.... dont forget it. love you, hun.

Howee
Little Aussie bro who's always acting older than me. Im going to fucking miss you... but to each his own and at least theres no more bloody coin flipping. You fucking rock. Tell Pacman I say "hi", eh...

Any one I missed... and you know who you might be... *cough* Yuy *cough* Im thinking of you... and Love and cupcakes to all. Heres to 2006 *raises the cup of something or other again*
Sita
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Sunday, January 1, 2006

Happy New Years Ladies and Gentlemen.
Lets hope this one is better than the last
Sita
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Friday, December 30, 2005

no time for anything at all
no time to reason or question direction
but I won't let myself fall
I'll just keep pushing 'til the end
I hope that I will find my way
when it's all been said and done
I really think you'll miss it once it's gone
as time passes I get scared
where will I end up and will it be good enough
will it work itself out
or will I be stuck here once again
I'll keep my eyes open wide
and try not to blink
it's just a matter of knowing where to look
cause sometimes things fall apart,
my walls crumble on me,
but I'll keep trying, and trying,
and fighting until I am free
Freedom-Thrice

Ok Ok... Ill post more than a sentence..... Look... two sentences... ^.^ right-o.... so.... its been a boring few days with alot happening.... If that makes sense.... first off... I guess.... I dunno...I found out Howee plans on quitting the MyO for good.... which makes me happy in a sad sort of way.... I know he wants to quit and Im happy he didnt tell me to pick heads or tails again cause I didnt want to pick it in the first place... But Im happy he tells me hes going to keep in touch..... thats really good to know...

Well there's far too many questions to ask,
To answer any of them tonight.
For I wear too many masks,
Too tell if any of them are wrong or right.
And confusion casts a shadow up on me,
Like a great big cloud in the sky.
And now I pray for rain,
Cause it's been so long since i let myself cry.
Peaches and Cream- Johm Butler Trio *is playing right now*

I really dont know... every time I sit down to write I just want to be reflective.... I guess its cause the year is comming to an end and.... Its all really different... Im kinda surprised I made it out of this year alive.... I think tomorrow will be the beg reflective post.... so Ill save it.... anyway.... other than that.... I bought a small book case... I was bloody tired of having a chair as a nightstand.... maybe Ill take before and after pictures... with my new camera!! *grins* course then you can all see how messy of a person I can be.... ^.^ *thinks she should clean before taking any pictures* anyway.... the chair is going back to being a chair and I need to re-arrange my room to make the book shelf fit beside my bed with out covering the heating vent.... *whispers* I think the chair was having an identity crisis... what else.... hmmmm.. went to play pool last night (tuesday night)and.... I didnt say anything to them... (mostly because I never had much to say to any of them) but I saw some guys I graduated with... which was kinda cool and scary at the same time cause I remember all of their names.. which isnt really that hard when you graduate with 19 other people.... but.... it didnt feel like I should remember them... faces from the past and all.... anyway... Other than that.... I think I proved that I dont need to be drunk or high to say incredibly stupid things... Im done for tonight all... have a good one...
Sita
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Thursday, December 29, 2005

there are so many reasons for us not to care
but i'm feeling alright
here at the top of the world
doing just fine
here at the top of the world
we've learned money matters most
so we keep our cards held close
here at the top of the world
we hold our own
by keeping our hearts cold
Cold Cash and Colder Hearts- Thrice

Went to work... went to the mall.. bought a $14 book shelf, played pool and had coffee... What do you value?
Sita

To Con.... maybe... I just havent had much to say...
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

could it have been something i said,
or was it something that i did
did i ruin my chance, have you written me off
tell me where did i cross the line,
and can i work my way back this time
will i always regret this decision
i leave it up to you,
i hope you find a good excuse because
i've given about all that i can give,
in your hands
In Your Hands- Thrice

Bwahaha... I slept all day.... What do you regret?
Sita
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

faith,
is not something that i grasp
its something that i fake,
as I'm slipping, as I'm falling through the cracks,
faith
without actions is a mask,
for making the same mistakes
as I'm slipping as I'm falling through the cracks.
Betrayal Is A Symptom- Thrice

Lets just keep going with the Thrice lyrics till I run out of things to find meaning in.... What do you have faith in?
Sita
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Monday, December 26, 2005

old friend they told me you were dead
the news broadcast the funeral
500 channels focus in
your love was
ravaged drawn and quartered,
the soil was swift to drink your blood.
this violence in the name of love!
To Avenge and Awake The Dead- Thrice

*yeah.... Im on a bit of a Thrice kick.... I really like the lyrics... the music is a bit extreme for me in the manner its all over the top or all under the table... but..... the lyrics get me....*

ok.... ummm... Im currently doing something I'm not proud of... not going to say what.... Its for my little sister... so... sacrafices had to be made musically speaking.... anyway... YAY!! Shaun's Day!! *cough* I mean... merry boxing day!! I think thats only a canadian holiday... but it means cheap sales at the stores and such... so who cares.... Christmas went much better than predicted... Only got a few presents.... which is much better than the huge load I use to get a few years ago... I got an awesome digital camera from Santa... WHOOT Santa!! Its so very pretty and shiney and.... and.... all cool and stuff... and I got a new back pack.... which is really cool too... though.... I just got my old one broke into how I like it... with safety pins keeping it closed where the zippers were broke and all.... A nice pair of leather gloves which will be awesome if the weather ever decides to get really cold.... not that Im complaining... but I kinda miss snow... ummm... a few pairs of pajamas... some really cool socks from my grandma called Thrum Socks... they have little bits of wool woven into them so they are super awesome warm and comphy.... which I love.... ummm.... some chocolate... you cant have christmas with out chocolate.... a little bit of money... which will be good for buying cheap booze for Shaun's Day.... Ummmm... about 50$ worth of money for use only at Walmart... food and clothing section here I come... a really nice braclet and earing thing from one of my aunts... Im not usually into jewalery... so thats saying something... anyway... I think I had just enough sleep to start to make some form of sense... got woken up at 7 in the morning.. which... in all honesty... I havent been up that early in a long time unless I was pulling an all nighter... anyway... time for sleepage... I get to work tomorrow... WHOO! *fake enthusiam* have a good one ladies and gents..... its almost the new year... unless of course... your chinese... ^.^
Sita
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