Wednesday, August 15, 2007

So... Im attempting to reinstall MSN on my computer because of some technical issues that were better solved by simply clearing the whole comp.

Apparently the people at MSN are supportative of the whole fan going on right now of "World Issues".

I hate to be a normal, money driven, self absorbed individual of my generation, but I dont give a damn at the moment. Im assuming thats normal anyway. If I had money to give to charities and if I wasnt worried about the money actually getting to where its suppose to be, yeah, I would give. But at the moment Im most concerened with how quickly I can get my Windows Updates finished and my MSN installed so I can talk to my friends and not feel lonely being as the world is generally a pretty lonely place to begin with for me. And its not that I dont think starving children in Africa arent imporatant. Its just I think that while all of these people are busy worrying about lives over in Africa and Afganastan and all those other little countries that are going through hell right now, we also have situations in our own back yards that are not being attended to and are going to grow out of control. And for the record, death for some of those people is probably a whole lot better than what they're going through. Or maybe they do want to live a nice long life after they've lost a leg to infection. Thats fine too.

Im not saying these issues arent important. I would just like it if they werent forced into my face everyday by different people. I dont see the point in picking up somebody else's problems when, at times, I cant even deal with my own. I just want my god damn MSN.

And I happen to be what is wrong with people these days. :D
Sita
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Saturday, August 11, 2007

So... I know first off, that Con is the only one who reads my LJ posts. So she is probably the only one that knows about the small predicament I'm in at the moment. So I'll enlighten everyone.

Last Monday, as I was walking out the door to go to work, my room mate stopped me and let me know she was going to be having a realer come by the next day to look at the house. My first thoughts were "Oh fantastic, and my room is a mess and its just not going to get cleaned". Both Bruce and I had Tuesday and Wednesday night off so the plan was I was going to go spend some happy time with him as oppose to boring time by myself. Which ment I wasnt coming home after work. Hence the messy room with an inability to clean it.

So.... That little bit of information and a little questioning (IE. Are you selling for sure? Are people going to be walking through my room while Im asleep? cause I might be forced to kill them... Etc etc) lead to a fair bit of panic as the sales market for homes right now is fairly fast moving and she planned on putting the house on the market ASAP. I go on Vacation a week from today. Which firstly equals me not being home as the original intention with the time off was to spend it with Bruce, and secondly equals me being short a pay cheque as I havent been full time long enough to have built up substantial paid time off. So... being the level headed and optimistic person that I am, I panic slightly and figured I was going to be out of my house by September first and I wasnt going to have a new home and I was going to be forced to move back in with my parents and the world as we know it would implode and we would all be forced to colonize the moon, leaving me still homeless.

So I approached Bruce, and said. "Hey... you're pretty rad and stuff. Why dont you's and me lives together and you can be my mans?" Or something like that... I actually think I chickened out and started acting weird and he brought it up.... anyway... That eventually and roundaboutly lead to a fight involving me acting like a five year old (Though I think that overall my logic does make sense.) and he got very irritated and told me to smarten up (Cause while I might have had a logical idea, it doesnt mean that it would work in real life being as I'm beginning to suspect that there is actually a law of physics that prevents logic from working in real time.) So... basically I was back where I started, planning on getting a place alone, short a pay cheque, boyfriend being grumpy with me, and me with alot of boxes to pack.

So... Apparently once someone DOES decide to buy the place, they have to wait 60 days, so that means the earliest I have to be out is Octoberish.... Which after I took a deep breath and realized that I was rushing things way to fast, thinking I had no time, it made more sense. And while houses are selling fast in this area... I can probably be lucky enough to hope that the place wont sell till at least September... which gives me enough time to get some money saved up and look for a place and maybe.... MAYBE even talk to Bruce again and get him to reconsider.

The only thing that could possibly throw a major monkey wrench into the thing as a whole is the fact that I'm really getting irritated with some of the situations at work. I considered just walking out last night after I was treated in a manner that I thought was really rude. I had walked out of the back, trying to find a cart, and was questioned why I was back there to begin with as I stopped to pick on Bruce for a moment. Of course I only went back to see him as I had spent a good half the week prior trying to drive him insane and I never ever try to apply myself to my job and I wouldnt in a million years think of doing my job when that's what I'm getting paid for. (Note sarcasm on that sentance)

And the fact that I was yelled at for knowing a person had been let go when our supervisor made it a group announcement a week back. Apparently I'm not suppose to know and shouldnt have mentioned it in passing to the merchandise manager (My supervisor's supervisor). Of course its all my fault that she shouldnt have told us to begin with but did. I see all the logic that situation is seeped in and it makes me question my supervisor's truthiness. And honesty. And over all trustworthyness.

And thats all Im going to say about work besides Im getting tired of the stupidity of the situation there.

On the upside... Im kinda really looking forward to getting my own place even if Bruce doesnt move in with me. It will provide me with a new sense of freedom and so long as Im not rushed into finding a place, I look forward to it. I dont look forward to the actual packing... but the living in a new place will be cool.

Less than a week till I'm free from work.
Sita
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Sunday, August 5, 2007

Happiness seems like such a selfish emotion when other people aren't happy....

In other news.... Hmmm... I got a new lamp for my room as the light bulb in my old one burnt out. Some of you normal thinking people might suggest I just get a new light bulb... But I've had the lamp for about 10 years and its missing part of its shade and I've been meaning to get a new one anyway... So I did.... this one is shiney and silver....

We had our yearly review at work and while Im right down the middle with "acceptable" or what ever the middle option was called... I probably got one of the bigger raises.... and it wasnt that huge... (I know I got one of the bigger ones cause the highest raise was only 5 cents higher than what I got nyah nyah nyah)... so Im a bit unsure of how I feel about the place.... and Im hoping I get another one on one with the manager to discuss the short comings of the company and just how its whole existance is starting to morally offend me....

Other than that... Besides being tired.... I am happy as I have waffles... Eggo Waffles.... but waffles none the less..... and I hope they make me fat! For I am made of fat and happy....
Sita
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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

So... Im not sure if I had mentioned... My oldish MP3 player (which was only about 6 months old...) decided to crap out on me via software. Issues with the software werent covered by the warrenty.... so I basically went out and bought a new MP3 player cause I was ticked at the other one... I kinda miss the money.... But meh... thats why I work...

So... My new MP3 player is pretty spiffy... Its only 4 GB but it can play movies and is a bit like an iPod (Ok I think I did mention the purchasing of the MP3 player... But stick with me...) So... last night (Monday morning) I pluged it in to charge it (did I mention the battery on this one lasts twice as long as the old one?) and while it was charging I figured I would see if the movie player would work on it... So I transfered a movie onto the MP3 player and when I hit play... BAM... blank screen, no sound, and it wouldnt respond to any of my button pushing... Nor would it respond to me pluging it into the computer.... so after a few vicious swears and some consideration of how much damage I would do to the wall by throwing it (Cause I've been very VERY cranky for the past little while) I left it on my bed and left for work (HURRAY! HELL!!)....

Happily it all ends well with the MP3 player having reconsidered its position on working. After a night of the battery's life slowly draining (as I left it running), it worked fine when I pluged it into the computer this morning (Tuesday morning). All ended much better than it could have with a nice MP3 player shaped hole in the wall.

In other news, I hate my job and am considering if I should consider getting a new one. We get our yearly raise in August, so it really all depends on how much more they plan to pay us. It might seem greedy, but lately they have been making amazingly rude requests that we get more work than is humanly possibly done. It wouldnt be so bad if we hade more than 12 people on at nights.... but we only have 12 people (at the most) on at nights... more likely to have only 5 to seven people in reality...

Also the stupidity at work is causing a bit of stress between myself and Bruce.... SOOOO... I might just tell them to take the raise and do nasty, painfull things with it because I much prefer a happy relationship with Bruce to an unhappy work life with out him.

I keep thinking of a character with the name of Squeek... I really wish it would get out of my head cause Im not quite sure what kind of story it would even be.... Effin imagination.....
Sita
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Aren't we lucky to find each other.
Even with the distance, I've made better friends here than I have in face to face situations.
Hmmm...
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Monday, July 23, 2007

It starts with a frog. Everything starts with frogs. If something is started, a frog is probably the cause.

I found a frog Wednesday night. It was small and cute and I found it at the end of the night. Why it was in Zellers, I don't know. But it was there and didnt want to be, so I caught it and let it go later after I had shown it to Bruce. Being as we're nice people, we didn't just let it go outside the door but rather we walked it to a creek that is only a few blocks from his place. On the way there, we noticed that it seems like there are a lot more dragonflies than usual. And most are over three inches long. So that was pretty cool. We let the frog free and walked back to his place.

Not having much else to do, we decided that going to the local fair would be something new to do. We figured that it would be open around 9 but when we walked over it turned out that the gates didnt open until noon, so we headed back to his place, stopping at Walmart and Future Shop for something to do and to waste some time. We ended up going to bed around noon but woke up around 5:30 due to the heat. We couldnt get back to sleep and eventually decided to go to the fair a little early as it was open anyway. We went and looked around. There was a petting zoo set up so we went to look at the animals for a bit. He took a great liking to a little goat that was running around so we cornered it and picked at it for a bit. After we left the petting zoo we walked around the midway for a bit and watched some of the rides and games and stuff. Neither of us were really interested in going on the rides or wasting money on the games so it was fun just watching. We also visited the casino, where I was IDed (first time in a long time) and I wasted a dollar playing the quarter slots. We then visited the beer gardens where Bruce was insulted by the treatment of the smokers. Being as he smokes... he was forced to go have a puff in a small little fenced off pen. It didnt have any chairs or even much room for the people. And being as I wasnt smoking... I found it very funny.

We headed home having not spent much money (a good thing) and after having a bit of lunch we had a 5 hour long nap, which was really needed at that point.

Much fun and happiness and joy was had up to this point despite the being tired and at times, hungry.

When we woke up Friday morning, Bruce checked his kids. Spike was getting ready to moult (which is where a spider moves out of its old skin in order to grow). She hadnt been eating for the past month or so, which is normal, as the smaller their bodies are, the easier it is for them to squeeze out of the old skin. She had been very slow to move in the past week and she spent all of Thursday night sitting in her water dish, which was unusual to begin with. She had curled up in a really small ball, and if you've ever seen a dead spider, you can imagine the pose she would have taken. He picked her up, hoping she was just not moving. (He had placed a cricket in her house, it had crawled right under her, and she didnt respond.... which was what made us worry.)

I'm not very fond of spiders in general. Its a "Stay away from me and I wont displace you" relationship. When I was younger, I was more likely to step on them but even before I had met Bruce I had moved to simply avoiding them. That being said. I really do like Bruce's kids and I like spending time with them, despite being afraid that they might bite me from time to time. Even though they have never bit anyone. Im just paranoid. Each of the spiders have their own personality and Spike was kind of funny. She acted very prissy and reminded me a bit of a really fancy show horse. Over all she was very quiet and liked her time alone but was very friendly when she was out.

Both Bruce and I were really at a loss how to react, him much more than me, as she was his child and he was much closer to her than me. We buried her in the park, because she deserved something much better than being thrown out or flushed down the toilet. I find loosing a close pet, much harder than most losses. An animal is much better support than a human in most cases, being that they wont criticize or tease you. They simply like you for being you. And I know how important she was to Bruce, so that made it much harder, being as I really wasnt sure how to comfort him, besides being there for him.

Friday was a very sad day. Both being at home and being at work.

Saturday was still very sad but as we had plans to go out shopping anyway (I needed to get my Harry Potter book on penalty of death). I bought a new MP3 player as well as my other MP3 player, which was a christmas present, decided it didnt want to work anymore. I had tried to fix it a few times and it insisted on being a piece of crap, so I bought a new one. Which is also able to play videos like an iPod. Its similar design to an iPod but is only 4GB... which is enough to hold all my music that I want. I picked up my book but only managed to read one chapter before I set the book down. (Im about a third of the way through the book at this moment)

Things have been getting a bit better in the past few days. Bruce has been getting happier and work has been moderatly boring. We've been getting ready to do inventory for the past while and spent the last two nights cleaning.

Which has turned my brain to mush.

Anyway.... like I said.... everything starts with frogs. Damn frogs...
Sita
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

So... despite the fact that I had no real plans to race out and see Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix... I'm going to see it later today before work.

Stacie brought up the idea of racing up to one of the larger cities (an hour and a half drive either way) to catch a midnight viewing, but after seeing that the majority of the shows were sold out.... we decided it would be better to catch one of the local shows in the afternoon.

I'm not a huge huge fan of the movies being as I read the books first... but Im not going to say they're bad.

Other than that... I picked up the first season of a show called Eureka. Its more or less about a U.S Marshall who accidentally comes across a town called Eureka. Much adventures and drama follows as he becomes the sherrif of the town. Of course its not a regular town but to explain what exactly makes it unique would be taking some of the fun away from the series. Im sure you can find more information on it if you really want. I've only got through the first few episodes but Im already surprised by the creativity behind it... Some of the plot is a bit obvious but some of the episode plot lines are really creative and its fun to watch how its all playing out.

I also picked up the first DVD of Moon Phase from Walmart for $15. I found it funny but I'm finding more and more anime's like to play out the same basic story line with different characters and small plot changes... So while its cute and I would like to see more... I dont think I'll be buying many more DVD's of it unless I find them at a cheap price or a fairly well priced box set.

Im thinking I need to spend more time with my hampster... I had to spend the last week at Bruce's (as mentioned in the last post) because I was displaced from my house, and I feel like Honey has been neglected a little bit... Despite me not being around much, hes gotten alot fatter and seems over all happy... I plan on buying him a bigger cage as the one hes in right now isnt very big. I tried to set up tubes and stuff for him but he insisted on using them for his toilet and it made a bigger mess than it was worth... so a bigger cage seems to be a good answer...

And thats been the big news... Not a whole lot happens around here anyway besides the odd argument... So boring...
Sita
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Sunday, July 8, 2007

You believe in what nobody else does
And things ain't the way they was
A fool like you is a freak to me
It's unique to me what you seek to see
When The Angels Make Contact- Matt Mays

So... My computer is currenly located at King Number 2's place and while I am stealing my connection.... It gets a bit annoying when your connection doesnt stay on long enough to write a comment or two and a post. If I didnt comment you its because Im lazy and tired of fighting with the connection....

Its been aggravatingly hot the last couple of days which has lead to a lack of good sleep and just general crankyness. I still have yet to understand why people like living in extremely hot areas of the world but I suppose if you have enough time to get use to it, it wouldnt be so bad.

I do hate being cranky though.... It generally leads to me getting into fights with the wrong people and stirs up plots to kill various others.

So the heat plus the general joy of the week that includes cramping and the odd desire to burst into tears at odd moments is making me just all the more happy with my current state of being which could be considered "alive".

I've been having really weird dreams lately that includes a fight with my dad and a weird converation with this guy.

I blame the heat....

The heat also killed my ice cream.... which I had to fight for.... Damn heat....


EEEEEEE Harry Potter!!!!
Sita

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Sunday, July 1, 2007

Pan-da pan-da pan-da pan-da pan
Beep-beep
Pan-da pan-da pan-da pan-da pan
Tung-sun
Pan-da pan-da pan-da pan-da pan
Ding-ding
Pan-da pan-da pan-da pan-da pan
Chi-na!
Panda Panda Panda- Deerhoof



Obviously I was bored...

Canada day today... Proabably going to sleep in and do absolutly nothing besides eat and hang out... I still have a few things to do before I get ready to meet up with Bruce.... cages to clean and such...

Have a good one all...
Sita
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Monday, June 18, 2007

And now I am more driven than before
And now I live just to settle score
And now I feel the nearness of your breath
Now I introduce you to your death
Die Dead Enough- Megadeath

I had a really weird dream. All I remember was my front teeth... expecially the front left fang, hurt like a bugger. And for some reason I was at work.... and people who were there, werent suppose to be there... and a bunch of jars of pickles fell off the top of one shelf just after I had put them up and people accused me of throwing jars of pickles at people. Mainly though.... I remember the teeth hurting thing.... and I just realized, upon waking, that my front teeth were a little stiff feeling... Anyway...

I went to the eye docter. Something I had been planning to do for a while, and finally decided to do when I found out that my benefits at work do not cover optical. (fucking greedy assholes). Turns out that I do need some better glasses so I'll get them in the near future. The docter had put these eye drops in my eyes that basically make your puipl dialate so the docter can look into your eyeball to look for any early signs of disease. The drops were effective for 4 hours and made me dizzy at first cause everything gets brighter and a little fuzzy. Essentially it looked like a was high while I wandered around the mall after my appointment. Which was more or less a boring experience.

I still need to pick out new frames and stuff... but that wont take long afterwards to get them....
Sita
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