Sunday, October 9, 2005

But I could fly away,
Or I could be no one.
And you could be the
Sunshine falling over the Mountains

Or you could come to stay
You could come right home
Don't see why I have to
Live this life all alone.
What You Want- John Butler Trio

ok.... so... ummmm... right... all the news... Tiga's BF bought me a pie... I luffs him now.. its pumpkin pie.... which is really the only kind of pie I like... besides cream.... another reason why I luffs dear Batman... (his official alis from now on)... he.... *starts to shake with excitment* ok....so.... the thing is... he and Tiga want their "private time" *cough*... you know what Im saying? *wink wink nudge nudge and GET THE F*CK OFF HIM* ehem..... yeah... that... so they want their private time... and I wants to go to see my boy... so... not complelty for sure... but.... Its pretty much just a matter of working out the details I think... and... Im getting one of the best Christmas presents I could ever ask for.... I'm going to see him!! *sits really really still trying to hold in excitment*... yeah... so thats the news.... it kinda went from a suggestion like... "Next Tuesday we'll go to Manitoba to make up for having to watch us cuddle all day" to... "You know... so long as she got her own hotel room.... I see no reason why we cant go" to.... "Ok.. so we need to figure out which days so we can all book them off".... Im so scared!! and excited... and hoping to god they dont break up over something stupid... ok... that sounds greedy... but meh! anyway.... thats the big news... Im just hoping it doesnt get canceled.... that would make me very very sad.... anyway... other news..... I spent alot of money on socks and underwear.... but I think I got about 60% of my halloween costume... and I got like.... two pairs of knee high socks... my new favorite bit of clothing... Im not sure why.... but I really like them... and then other bits of clothing... including a skirt... yeah... that one kinda scares me.... but meh... its a cool skirt... more or less... and the new Sweatshop Union CD.... which I greatly enjoy...

I find the artists associated with Battle Axe Records (a Canadian lable from Vancouver who produce Swollen Members and Moka Only and such) usually have some quite poetic music... like... usually the mass released music (stuff on the radio) is mainstream material... but the other stuff on their records sounds like poetry to me... well... except for maybe the stuff Swollen Members do... its usually pretty not so poetic... but even they have their moments... anyway... I'm very happy I took the chance on this record... and the fact that they're Canadian produced makes me even happier.... lets be honest.... Im just really happy right now.... I have to be patient.... but... hopefully everything doesnt fall apart this time... anyway... Imma shut up now... ciao all
Sita
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Saturday, October 8, 2005

Lately, I get up thinkin' I'm gonna fall
Can you save me? From myself before I hit the wall
Although I ain't really been myself at all
Tryin' be the man that I am and stand tall
Can you save me? From myself before I hit the wall
Hit the Wall- Sweatshop Union

Ok... Im going to sarcafice Anime Night in Canada *cues hockey night in Canada music* to get sleep... I... Im gonna hurt something soon if I dont get a good nights sleep... Its not even falling asleep thats hard... Its the fact I keep waking up at ludicris hours... *narrows eyes* like 6:30 in the morning... WHEN I RULE THE WORLD!! that hour is so getting cut off the clock... dont ask me how.... but I'll make it work... ok... on a completly different topic.... ok.. so me and Tiga are kinda going through the same thing right now... with being in realtionships and such..... we were discussing stuff.... and it came to how we felt when we arent with our boys (note: Im gonna call any male I know "boy" regardless of age)... and she said she was afraid that her happiness is starting to rely on being with him... cause in all honesty.... shes alot less bitter with having him around.... anyway... I kinda realized something today... I'm not one to want to rely on another person for happiness either... but there are a few people (eg. Afro, D'Hiur...)that I just get really depressed if something messes with my time with them... just to expalin.... I was at work and I was talking to D'Hiur.... then MSN started messing up... I was ready to go crawl into the back room and cry... at this time though... I would like to point out... I was running the store myself.. I was getting those waves of people where its busy for five minutes then dead for ten then busy for five and dead for ten... but the five always seems like 20 and the 10 seem like 1... on top of that.... we have this kid... hes in grade 8 or so... he volunteers at the store.. just for something to do.... and hes a good kid... I dont mind him that much.... but he doesnt understand when to leave a person alone... Like I had a phone call... and the kid started talking to me.... just... *growls*.... so I got really stressed and really depressed cause I couldnt even take a moment to say good bye to him... *sigh* It just bugs me that I rely on him so much and Im scared to tell him... but I suppose I should... just to get it off my chest... I know it would make me feel better...
Sita
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Friday, October 7, 2005

I don’t know when the time will be
Which side of me whom you might see
Be careful what you ask for
That’s no lie sometimes we just don’t know why
Dont Know Why- Swollen Members

Ok... so.. the day turned out just how I expected it to turn out.... Im pretty sure Tiga, *Insert helpers name here*, and myself did most of the work. And only one of us is getting paid *raises hand in triumph*... which is really sad... you should have seen the pile of boxes in the store when I got there... I will say... at least they were piled up nice.... but.... seriously... my feet hurt from running around all day... at least I didnt have to deal with angry customers... and I made alot of sales despite the running around.... it just bugged me... the minute my shift started.... the girl that I was working with left to have lunch... like.... she was gone!! *sigh* and I neglected to take my own break to make sure all the work got done... I dont mind working with the girl.. cause shes nice.. but.... the way Tiga put it... "shes as useless as tits on a duck"... and I concure.. speaking of Tiga.... ok.... we did the text messaging thing a few days ago.... but this is even more pathetic... we sat in the same room (this is at work a day or so ago) and passed a note book around writing each other messages as oppose to talking... so... heres how it went.

Tiga: Bwuhahahah I win and you all suck for I'm the greatest person alive
Tiffy (boss): No
Sita: Ummmm... No
Tiga: You all shall bow to me for I shall take over the world!! Die you all
Sita: Ok then Yoda... I think we'll get your head checked next time we go to the doctor
Tiga: No for when I take over the world the doctors shall die
Sita: You know what... I'm the one thats going to make the splies.. so I am the key to your sucess so HA!!
Tiga: No splies for you!! Death from above. you can have the bumblebees
Sita: Well you shall have the innocent butterflies and i shall win
Tiga: Nobody suspects the butterflies, so i will corrupt them and umm i forgots... I win
Sita: No I shall win for I am GOD!!
Tiga: I dont believe in GOD so you dont exist
Sita: A) Get the f*ck off him
B)I AM GOD and enough people belive in me to give me power now get the F*CK off him!!!
(Ummm... at this point her and her boyfriend were having issues not touching each other.. and I threaten them with mall security everytime... but yelling at her seems to be more effective)
Tiga: But he is comphy
Sita: Like the couch?
Tiga: Yes
Sita: Can I be lunnet the clown?
(insert Tiga looking at the book and shaking her head giggling then throwing the book down)
Sita:HAHA!! I WIN!

Yeah.... and thats how my days have been lately... see yeah all later... I needs sleep
Sita
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Thursday, October 6, 2005

Last night on the Mass Pike,
Thought I was losing you.
Last night on the Mass Pike,
I fell in love with you.
Mass Pike- The Get Up Kids

Ok... so I didnt post last night... but meh... Im sure you'll all survive... Got to be at work in a hour or so anyway... Im the assistant manager... how might I have accomplished that you might ask... well... I was there when the boss was filling out the paper.... sad part is it doesnt involve a pay raise... and now I got to be responsible for the store while shes gone... and today is shipment day... and the shipment is going to be huge... and I dont think we have enough room to put it all away... so I think I might go to work a little early (an hour) and make sure it all gets done... cause while I like working with the people I work with... I do realize that the two that are on right now... are likely to do as little as possible till I get there... I swear something better be done or Im going to go into Boss mode and Im not sure what boss mode is really like cause Im more of a hide in the shadows while whispering ideas to the boss kind of person... but Im pretty sure I get bitchy and offensive when I get into boss mode.... I know I get twitchy... and me being twitchy and in boss mode at the same time will result in more cursing and general bad things being said. The reason why Im so twitchy about this to begin with... the boss expressidly warned all of us that the store has to be spotless when she gets back. Cause the really big distric manager is comming down next week to look the store over... and I guess hes a bit of a prat. But Im going to be optimistic... and maybe the shipment can be cleaned up quickly... and I can waste my time trying to make D'Hiur feel better... poor guy... I guess today at school is going to suck for him... so maybe its just international kick people in the ass day... Bad enough I had to have my shift changed on me to begin with... *grumbles*... and this is why people should let me sleep till my alarm goes off... Im pretty sure that last little bit makes no sense.... meh... shower time... have a good one all
Sita
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Wednesday, October 5, 2005

And when the night falls in around me
And I don’t think I’ll make it through
Ill use your light to guide the way
Cuz all I think about is you
Landing in London- 3 Doors Down

Talk about thinking of people... ok... so I woke up at about 6:30 this morning... which is a horrible evil and stupidly dumb hour to wake up.... so i woke up and kinda layed in bed in a half daze.... only thing I could think about was D'Hiur.... *grumbles* stupid boy.... lost sleep because of him... then I told him.... I swear the boy was proud of himself.... then he assumed I was worried about something his friend had said and wasnt true but was enough to make me worry... *cough* drugs *cough*... anyway.... I think hes trying to kill me with stress... In fact... im pretty sure he is trying to kill me with stress.... but....well... i guess its still pretty sweet in a weird..... love my boy kinda way.... anyway.... to wrap up the story in one big confusing statment... 6:30 in the morning is a bad time to think about boys... I did manage to fall back to sleep eventually... I think.. next thing I remember was waking up.... that was fun... anyway... it was a good thing I did get to talk to D'Hiur cause I had this witchy old woman at work... I swear she was Karma's way to tell me shes still watching. I got just a bit depressed after dealing with the woman... at least she bought something or I might have just gone to the back and started to cry... just thinking about it makes me depressed... I'm not even sure why I felt so bad... its not like she called me nasty names or anything.. she was just really witchy... I greatly dislike dealing with old women.... they make me sad... anyway... enough whining.... friday it all pays off.... in money form... so its kinda worth it.. i guess... I so deserve more than I make.... other hightlights of the day include me painting my nails.... a nice blue color.. sad thing is i now have to live with it till it wears off... 30 seconds of boredom can result in a week worth of regrets..... kinda like drinking and tattoos... but on a lower level.... wow... im impressed with my level of something or other there... I know theres a word... but.. i lack the ablitiy... to.... remember.... what the word is.... if anyone has a clue what Im talking about.... please tell me.... i feel a bit light headed... oooo... bed time
Sita
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Tuesday, October 4, 2005

Man I'm so sick of this town
get me the hell out now
Mama don't want to talk to me
Daddy he just wears just a frown
All the girls got boyfriends
Man I don't got a girl
Jump start in my car
Get me the hell out now
Get Outta Town- Danko Jones

Ok.... so the day was filled with actual social interaction... well... the part I was awake was... mostly.... Didnt get any cleaning or house work or laundry done that I wanted to do..... but theres always next time I guess.... went to the college to meet up with Tiga cause I agreed to go with her on some boyfriend related issues... that was fun.. I enjoyed myself during that trip... and then basically hung out with her and her bf for the rest of the day... It was much better this time... we watched Gundam Wing Endless Waltz (Im pretty sure I just heard Con cheer in celebration) It was good... I kinda understood what was going on in this one.... course I kept getting into fights with BF over which suit was the best.... we both like Deathscythe.... but he thinks Tallgeese is the best.... so I had to fight with him over that..... but we both agree Duo is the sexiest... Note: Ummmmm... yes.. the bf is straight... I think.... well... he wants to grow his hair out long so he an braid it like Duo... so Im thinking its more admiration than love hes feeling for the character.... he has a great dis-like of yaoi.... so its all good.... at one point we managed to paint his nails black... thats when you know you got your boy whipped.... he lets you paint his nails..... SHWAA!! and he seems to have fond feelings for my head... he kept trying to either crush my skull..... or mess my hair up... which really.... I might whine about the stupidest things.... but when it comes to some one trying to get me to say ow... I can fight it.... That or my skull is really thick... one of the two.... the funniest part of the whole night was where we all stupidly spent about 15 minutes sending each other text messages on our cells instead of talking.... despite the fact we were all sitting in the same room.... yeah... obsence threats and comments are much funnier written out on a cell phone.... Im pretty sure Im going to stop doing that after I get my phone bill... ^.^'... anyway... thats the day in a nutshell... i needs sleep... I dont think I've laughed that much in a long time.... ttfn
Sita
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Monday, October 3, 2005

swore my ever lasting true love to you
said that I need ya I want ya didn't I baby
but I was just kiddin' 'round
and I will be glad when you stop callin' my house
Harry- Macy Gray

ok..... Im getting better at picking random lyrics... GO ME!! or not..... so sleepy... but..... must......... finish.... present! stupid Sita.... leaves it to the last minute.... well.. prelims are done..... but.... I'm going to try to edit it on the comp..... so..... I hope its ok.... I dunno.... I still want to beat him with a cakepan for only liking black.... but... meh... On another note... Im working on the Halloween theme for my site... I had an idea a few months ago... but I changed my mind and now I have a new theme idea.... i just need to make it work the way I want it to... anywho.... thats all for tonight... so sleepy.... and I got to be up again tomorrow to do laundry and stuff.... I remember the good old days when I would stay up all night when I had the day off.... oh well... prolly more healthy this way... *grumbles* Im starting to get use to the sunlight again...
Sita
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Sunday, October 2, 2005

She's sun and rain, she's fire and ice
A little crazy but it's nice
And when she gets mad, you best leave her alone
'Cause she'll rage just like a river
Then she'll beg you to forgive her
Oh, she's every woman that I've ever known.
She’s Every Woman- Garth Brooks

Ok…… so today… is the official shiny moving picture day…. Cause I’m kinda lazy… and like Con was kind enough to point out… we’re kinda lacking in comments now a days…. Sooooooooo….. you all shall comment on which one you like best…. Or you shall be cursed with… something or other… anyway… these are all from the Ragnarok Online…. I adore the art…. So of course I adore the gifs… ^.^


A Succubus and Incubus
Evil demons that basically rape you… at least that’s what the definition in the dictionary said
(YES I LOOKED IT UP!!)


Alice the maid
Shes a robot…. And so long as your not trespassing… shes fine… but otherwise… she beats you with a steel broom


Ooooo… pretty monster


Pretty, evil, demony women….


More monsters… I really liked these ones cause they’re cute…


Harpy


Kapha


Zealotus
She’s a demon noble woman… likes to torture people


Baphomets


uhhhhh… I forget what shes called… But I love her… so cute


Wild Rose
Obviously a cat…


Baby Leopard
One… Two… three… AWWWWWWW
!!SAY IT!!


Gryphon
Hes gonna eat the baby leopard *snicker*


Rouge


Dancer


Assasin


Blacksmith


Hunter


Wizard


Knight

After looking at the gifs so much…. I almost feel compelled to play the game…. But I lack a credit card for which I need to pay for the online service… so I can’t play… though I might try the free 15-day trial version… It just looks like a cool game… *is a sucker for cute graphics*… On another note…. Oh Sh*t I have to get a birthday present quick… its ok!! Its half done… I’m just gonna yell at my boy for liking black… and only black… then maybe beat him senseless with a cake pan for liking black… Stupid… *grumble* I hate working with black and white…
Sita
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Saturday, October 1, 2005

Tonight I watched the lights go out in your house,
Wondering how i could get so deep,
And you could still get sleep,
In vain i blame my trembling on the cold air
But I can't hide that i relied on you,
Like yellow does on blue
She Paints Me Blue- Something Corporate

It is currently two in the moring... and you have to take me.... your lizard!! to the shrine... because I demand sacrafices... and you know I need sacrafices.... and a doughnut.... But mostly sacrafices...

Ok... enough Foamy parody for Sita... but it is 2 in the morning..... and.. well.... OK WHO THE HELL IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THE NARUTO DUB!?!?! *breaths hard*... I... ok... first the closing song..... Then I actually take the time to watch an episode un-interupted (No one on MSN was talking to me)... an.. well... it nearly physically hurt... *sigh* I hate the voices... on another note.... some people may remember the cat I live with... the one that hates me.... well... Ive been making advances to become friends with it... and i think its working.... I can pet it now.... and it lets me pet it.... for a moment.... then it freaks out and tries to bite me... sometimes.. usully it just gives me this look and i move away..... but it is being more friendly with me.... so thats kinda neat...... I thought it would try to murder me in my sleep before actually let me pet it... anyway.... thats all i got today... see you all later... in theory...
Sita
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Friday, September 30, 2005

I call your name
I saw your face
You didn't turn around
I never heard it
You're taking the lead
In my self destruction
When you call my name
I never heard it
Stay Away From Me- The Living End

Ok.... so its getting harder and harder to find lyrics.... I know lots of music... Im just always attracted to a few paticular artists..... Usually just a few certain songs too... but Meh..... anyway.... the day sucked... Work was boring as usual.... I did get to talk to Kevin for a bit... so that livened it up... poor guy had to talk to my boss... speaking of work.... one more day.... one more day and I get a bloody break... see.. we think the computer is ready to die... In fact we know its ready to die.... it just WONT DIE!! so.... the numbers were weird today... which isnt cool... cause.... the numbers are suppose to be normal!! but they were weird.... which is bad.... so i had to call my boss and she had to come back to work at 9:30 to help me fix them cause the comuter was being a *beep*... so then the new security guard was being a jerk.. and that just got me a bit more messed up and I was being twitchy and such.... well.. more twitchy than usual.... but... everything is ok.... D'Hiur jumped me using his friend's MSN account... so that was fun.... I miss talking to him with out someone staring over my shoulder or inturupting.... so... my day off is dedicated to him.... at least thats the plan.... with my luck my parents will show up and expect me to go do something with them... *sigh*.... yeah.... thats life... On the positive side.. I got a call from Batman today... have a good one folks
Sita
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