Thursday, September 29, 2005

When she walks out all the boys on the block start to yell out
They open up their mouths but they don't know what they're talking about
She's in little need of someone to hold tonight
But if you make a move I'm willing to bet that she just might
Want You- Danko Jones

BWUHAHAHAHA... welp... today was boring... I have this odd urge to find some perfectly legal... 100% not stolen musical music.... I blame the damn a) my boss... and b)D'Hiur's friend who I recently started to harras on MSN... got into a three way convo with them... and well... I think I should have been a drama geek.... I seem to get along with all of them quite well... its kinda scary... but now I crave music from Cats... and Rent.. and... and.... Im sure I can look up other musicals.... its just feelish good music... even when a person dies its half up beat... that and Disney music... I feel like Disney music.... in other news... I finally took a bloody stand today... not going into details cause it has to do with an old friend from here who I havent talked to in a long time... anyway... they said something that basically told me not to worry about them anymore... which... I guess I was at that point anyway... but its nice to be able to let them know I quit ^.^ hmmmm... can you quit being a friend? *thinks* well... i guess I didnt quit that... I just quit.... worrying... yep yep... anyway... enough out of me.... and Kevin.... your a cat... ciao ladies and gents.. have a good one
Sita
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Without a warning you broke my heart
You took it darling and you tore it apart
You left me sitting in the dark crying
You said your love light for me was dying

I'm begging you baby
Baby please
I'm begging you baby
Baby please
Turn on the light
Let it shine on me
Turn on your love light
Let it shine on me
Turn On Your Lovelight- The Blues Brothers

(I needs to steal that CD from my dad and burn it... I mean.... borrow it to make a perfectly legal back up copy for security reasons)

Five days.... five days..... five days.... five days till my boy's b-day..... and... and... that means..... like.... 34 till halloween.... and.... and.... ooo excitment.... ok... I think Im good... *girly shriek of excitment* ok... now Im better... anyway.... uhhhhh.... today kinda sucked really... Its my first day off in a week... so I had the choice of sleeping... or getting up early (10:30) and going to the college to visit Tiga... so.... i choose college... and... ended up being the third wheel all day with her and her bf... now... its not like they didnt include me.... and Im old enough that when I say "ewwwwwww" at the kissing... its mearly for annoyance purposes... but..... EVERY TIME VIOLENCE OR A$$ OR..... ANYTHING!! was mentioned.... they were... for lack of a better term.... TRYING TO SUCK EACH OTHERS TOUNGES OUT!!... so..... being the third wheel was fun till I got tired of being with them.... I got to make nasty little comments and sit in the back seat of the car and live in my own little bubble of boy cootie free air most of the day.... but... with the kissing.... It just made me miss D'Hiur.... and I hadnt eaten all day... so.... when they finally dropped me off at home I was a little grumpy... but... I talked to D'Hiur.... so Im happy now.... I think the food issue was the one that really bothered me... I had said I was hungry...... but then again.... I also told them not to worry about it...... so...... I guess thats my fault.... kinda.... I WAS STILL GRUMPY!! Nothing against them... Im happy for her.... I really really am cause hes a cool guy and I dont mind him at all... but..... Bloody hell at least give me something shiney to look at while your sucking face!! *cough* Ok... Im better.... *grumbles* Im so not taking her shoe out of the safe next time no matter what... anywho... Im done now.... that was my day in a nutshell.... Now Im sleepy.... cause I think Ive actually started to return to normal sleeping patterns... It was a fun nine months with everything wacky and stuff... but I cant stay up late unless I have someone to keep me awake.... ooooo.. and on a completly different note... I should have been a drama geek... that or born in Manitoba... all the cool people live in Manitoba.... course then I wouldnt be getting $400 from the government!! XD... Ok.... now Im really done... have a good one cats and kittens
Sita
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

But what she sees
Are my faults and indecisions
My insecure conditions
And the tears upon the pillow that I shed
Hey Leonardo (She Likes Me For Me)- Blessed Union of Soul (thankies Con)

uhhhh.... ok... to start off.... heres all I had to drink today... like.... two pepsies... (yes Daff... Pepsie... Pepsie pwns Cokes a$$)and a large ice cap... (like.... cold coffee for you poor non-Canadian bastards that dont have Tim Hortons).... so Im a bit twitchy.... (this is a person that hasnt had sugar in about a week)... anyway... I got up real early... early for me... 10:30.... so i got on the comp.... and oddly enough D'Hiur was on.... I figured he must have decided to skip school... and really... I dont blame him... I would skip school to.... so... I've decided I need to talk to him at least once a day to make sure he ok... For people who is lost.... he kinda threatened to commit suicide the other day and scared me half to death... anyway... all is better now.... and the day was good after that.... me happy... (also not really worried about proper grammer CAUSE IM BUZZED ON CAFFIENE!!)... anyway... Tiga visited me at work and at one point she took her shoes off... for some odd reason... so i kinda.... sorta...... ummmm.... locked her shoe in the safe... teeheehee.... it was funny cause then I told her I couldnt get it out unless a cash purchase was made.... and... well... I think it was the slowest day we've had in a long time.... BWUHAHAHAHA... teach her to take her shoes off in the store.... not to mention she is very very happy today because she got her bf.... so shes like.... ten times as buzzed as me... so all she could do is grin..... and in all honesty.... that scares me... So I was paranoid all day with her grinning at me..... Its like if I start just giggling my evil little giggle.... you get scared!! at least if your normal you will... anyway.... Im still tired today..... I seriously just crashed after the other night.... very tired... so bye bye all.... have a good one
Sita
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Monday, September 26, 2005

Teachers said "it's just a phase"
When I grow up my children
Will probably do the same
Kids just love to tease
Who'd know it put me underground at seventeen
Nothing to Lose- Billy Talent

He didnt do it, thank god... I was so relieved to see him on MSN... had an.... interesting day at work... worked with one of my co-workers that only works part time... and... it was interesting... found out he was on Gaia to and rp and stuff... so thats cool.... the whole day was like a big MSN convo with him... normally I talk to a person for a bit and I need to take a break or have difficulty finding stuff to talk about... but we picked at each other all day and had a good time... makes me sad I dont work with him more often... Tiga visited me at work and got mad at me when I told her I went for that walk... then we went back to the park and tried to fall in the stream.... and I thought about stuff and what not.... this was before I knew he was ok... anyway... thats my day in a nutshell.... nearly cried when I saw D'Hiur on MSN... he promised to never do it again... But... I think I still need to watch him.... Ill put up a pic I edified with my handy dandy photoshop and call it a night... I need sleep...

Sita
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Sunday, September 25, 2005

I love you so much it hurts me
Darlin, that's why I'm so blue
I'm so afraid to go to bed at night
Afraid of losing you.
I Love You So Much It Hurts - Ray Charles

Due To Emotional Something or Other...
(I really lack anything better to call it)
I may be prone to swearing and other stuff...

*looks up* wow... I remembered HTML... ummmm.... ok... I woke up... I got ready for work... I went to work... had fun at work... (more or less)... heres what f*cked the day up... ok... due to pretty slack conditions at work... were able to have msn on when we lack anything better to do... so I was on msn... and.... D'Hiur was on.... so I said hello... cause despite the fact he kinda screwed me over.... I still care about him and I dont want to lose him... so.... the first thing he says back is something along the lines of "Sita, Im so sorry, you were always there for me" my reaction.... cause I was in a half decent mood and didnt feel like yelling at him like I had planned to do earlier (story behind that.... He kinda started making me feel like I was worthless with lack of conversation over the past few days... so I had planned on yelling at him to relieve some stress.... not the nicest plan... but I really didnt care)... so I reacted with "Uhhhhhh... Im not sure whats up but Im liking the treatment...." then after a short pause "Are you ok?"... he said something about "...not really but Ill tell you later I have to go... Ill talk to you in a bit" then he was gone..... so... Im f*cking worried about the boy.... but at the same time... Im prefectly capable of putting two and two together.... I figured it was something along the lines of him and her breaking up.... and I'm a bastard for it but I was kinda happy... people keep telling me its alright to feel that way.... But I dont believe it... so anyway... I talked to him later and he basically told me what happened and we talked some more and when we were done it seemed like he was ok... I asked him how he was feeling and he said He was feeling better and we laughed a little bit and almost started talking about what was going to happen between us cause we do care about each other... but we decided to leave that till some other time and just have idle chit chat.... so he seemed ok... he really did.... then... I had to leave work... this was all occuring during the day.... my shift ended and I told him I would be back in a bit to talk and took off for home..... where I was kinda held up... My room mate was on the comp... so I didnt want to bug her to much... anyway... to shorten this up a bit... by the time I got to talk to him again..... He was severly depressed... He started talking about killing himself... Hes told me hes tried it once before... so I dont trust him with anything possibly harmful to himself right now... at this point I would do anything possible to get him to sit down and calm down.... but... Its hard when there is two provinces between you.... I couldnt even cry... I was just so worried about him... I kept asking him to stop and not do it.... and f*ck if I even tried to put a guilt trip on him when thats part of his problem... then he said he had to go.... Im in a slight state of shock just thinking about it... I feel sick... I went for a walk... Against better judgement and all rational thought I went into the park... walked through the darkest parts.... and I'll I can think about is how he must feel right now... Part of me just wants to get mad.... I dont really respect people who make that choice..... I just want to get mad... for putting that knowledge on me... for thinking that hes going to solve the pain that way.... for not listening to me.... for threatening to leave.... for good... But all I can do is feel worried... and wait to hear from him... and I hope.... I hope he'll be ok... I think I'll be slightly in shock till I know hes ok...
Sita
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Saturday, September 24, 2005

It's not like you to say you're sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
I've been wrong, I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Are we having fun yet?
How You Remind Me- Nickleback

Ummmm.... ok.....I had a post all written and the comp died on me....its really really making me mad.... first MSN was having issues then the internet in general and now its really ticking me off.... so..... this will be short cause I'm to lazy to type everything out again... long and short of it.... Im angry they changed the end song on Naruto... that was just evil and underhanded... It would appear we have a war going on in the chat box involving anvils (Howees doing) and various languages..... (that would be my friend from school, Thanh's fault...)..... Ill be likely to start saying nasty stuff in the chat box if people annoy me to much... oh... and sorry to anyone whos site I commented on.... I was kinda weird yesterday (Due to gummie bear over dose) so I kinda said weird stuff.... I think one site I ranted about buttons... anyway..... night all... i need to try some deep breathing exersizes before I take the CPU out and use it for target practice...
Sita
Shout out to Con: No.... it wasnt that one... I ignored him... I've come to see things your way and its his time to say hello XD
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Friday, September 23, 2005

Maybe this is just a nightmare
Your laugher end in darkness.
not in the mood, not just to justify
not in the mood to think of what a lie
you can do what you want to
I need some time alone
between what answers
I need some time alone
You don't talk to me
Alone- Blink 182

I'm allowed to be bitter? right? I think so..... so i went for that walk.... it was..... interesting.... I ended up just walking around the block.... talked to Tiga on the phone the whole time cause shes really excited cause shes about two steps away from having a bf.. no.... sorry..... like.... a step and a half.... they were text messaging back and forth while she was talking to me and I got to give her half-assed advice.... I say half assed cause she didnt really listen to me... which... whatever... cause its working for her right? Anyway... I met the guy today and hes cool.... I want to meet his friends... *innocent grin*.... other news.... ummm.... i got an extra 4 hours at work cause my co-worker that was suppose to relieve me at the end of my shift kinda took the day off and the boss neglected to remember that and kinda sorta didnt fill the shift with anyone.... so whoot!! more time for me... ten hour day.... *falls asleep*.... *wakes up ten minutes later* Ooooo... Oooo... we got new massage chairs at work.... They're awesome.... I love my job.... and I bought ketchup chips cause I had a craving... yeah... uhhh.... had like three chips and I was done... so I balanced that out with some gummie bears.... YAY ME!! I loves gummie bears... at least this week... anywho... I got some extremely bitter, violent posts I need to make on Gaia before I go to sleep for good... so have a good one all...
Sita
Shout out to Con... Which Bastard? cause theres a few right now....
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Thursday, September 22, 2005

I shoulda seen it all along
It's girls like you that make me think I'm better off
home on a saturday night
with all my doors locked up tight
I won't be thinkin' about you, baby
Last Chance To Lose Your Keys- Brand New

*looks at the lyrics* its all a bloody lie... *walks away*
Sita
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Couple comes up to me
they're in love it's plain to see
take a step back and start to laugh
you know love can never last
Love comes in then falls out
that's when you learn what's it about ... Love is unkind
Love is Unkind- Danko Jones

Im tired.... I needs sleep or I will explode!!! Or implode..... one of the two... I spent like.... an hour looking for lyrics... I kept changing my mind.... I really want to be crying right now..... but at the same time Im tired of feeling sorry for myself... I have this really bad urge to go walking around in the dark right now.... but... you see.... I would do it.... if it weren't for the fact that there was an attempted abduction about a week ago... On one hand I think... "Ooo... park!!"... on the other I think "Ooooo.... kidnapping and rape!!" Note the sarcastic tone on the second thought... I was advised I should go walk in the cemetary... The only problem with that..... I dont know where the closest one is.... so that kinda rules out that idea.... maybe tomorrow night.... I'll see how I feel... I'm to restless to stay in the house all night again..... time to take up some new and not quite safe hobbies...
Sita
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain
Stars- Switchfoot

Im currently disscussing cultural differences with my southern brother, Howee..... gone through everything from School systems to animals.... its great fun.... now Im getting a language lesson on how to say emu.... thats been a ten minute conversation alone.... its kinda hard to know if your saying it right if all you have is letters at your disposal... I think I say it right.... and now Im a maple.... but thats better than a yank.. so its all good... anyway.. other than that.... I got the new switchfoot cd.... and Im going back tomorrow to get the third Inuyasha movie.... uhhh.... other than that I slept all day.... And I have just recieved the funniest sound clip ever.... I love it... always loved the aussie accent... bwuhahaha!! anyway..... oh yeah... Need to talk to D'Hiur again.... hes confusing me.... but I think Im usually in a state of confusion when it comes to him.... so meh... anyway... have a good one ladies and gents.... I think I need to play with my site again
Sita
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