Saturday, July 30, 2005

Took a trip on a bus that didn't know
Met a girl sellin' drinks at the disco
Said truth comes back when you let it go
Seems complicated cause it's really so simple
Walkin' down Yonge Street on a Friday
Can't follow them, gotta do it my way
No fast lane, still on a highway
Movin' in and out, no doubt it's the right...
Crabbuckit- K-OS

Posty posty posty… you heard me…. Ooooo ramen…. *whispers* I’m eating ramen… ^_____^…. So what eles is new….. glad everyone either likes or is indifferent to the new music… I tend to not listen to Enya to much cause it always puts me to sleep… btu for some odd reason… for a while a CD I made with Sum 41, Danko Jones and Billy Talent put me to sleep… if your familiar with any of their music… you’ll prolly think I’m weird… considering I had the volume turned up really really loud… oooo I got a date tomorrow… not a real one… well.. it better not be a real one… if the guy thinks it’s a real one I do believe he will be sadly mistaken… considering I have to call to wake him up… that is the first indication its not a date… that and the fact that I’ve got a bf… hmmmm… crap… ITS NOT A DATE!!! *hyperventilates* maybe I should cancel… -_-‘ … on second though no… I won’t cancel… I’ll just make it clear that I’m seeing somebody… yeap... that sounds like a good plan… awkward silences anyone?… got to love it… on a completely different note… I’m drinking the last of my milk… have just developed an odd craving for Pot Of Gold Chocolates and had a weird memory flash back of a show I use to watch when I was 12… that’s normal, right? ^.^’ RIGHT!?!?! *cough* wow… just a little prone to outbursts right now… I would blame it on the drugs… but I don’t really use drugs… so I’ll blame it on excitement… I GET TO GO TO A CON!! Bwuhahahahahahaha *shifty look* those big city folk will suffer my wrath!!! ok at this point I realize I’m acting weird cause I’ve been watching Invader Zim… you need to hear the voices for all of this to really make sense… and as a note… being as I live in the country for 6 years… everyone is big city folks… anyway… I want everyone’s opinion... except Jaxx’s cause he already knows the answer…





Which one is the original eh? EH?!?!… and which one do you think looks better? *cough* I’m gonna sing the doom song now… *starts to sing* Doom, doom doom doom doom doom……
Sita
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Friday, July 29, 2005

The Principles…
1. Yin and yang are opposites.
2. Yin and yang are interdependent.
3. Yin and yang can be further subdivided into yin and yang.
4. Yin and yang consume and support each other.
5. Yin and yang can transform into one another.
6. Part of yin is in yang and part of yang is in yin.
Found at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yin_Yang
I was just thinking about things today… and figured it might be fun to post about some stuff I use to be really into… astrology… mythology… paranormal… just that sort of stuff… I remember for a while yin and yang was THE symbol… everybody had a ring or necklace or something with Yin and Yang on it… didn’t really think about it much untill I started reading into chinese astrology and such… it might sound stupid to some people… but I do believe in Yin and Yang… and somedays I think I’ve found the person who represents the other half of me… course that might just be because we can fight and still get along alright… and I feel really sad when hes away… but anywho… sorry if the new music puts anyone to sleep… I thought it was pretty and soothing.. maybe a little to soothing… I’m falling asleep listning to it ^.^
Sita
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Thursday, July 28, 2005

I haven’t ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologise that once again I’m not in love
But it’s not as if I mind that your heart aint exactly breaking

It’s just a thought, only a thought

And if my life is for rent and I don’t learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Life For Rent- Dido

Well…. Whadaya think? I don’t think this theme is as good as some I’ve had in the past…. Mostly cause I worked on a the past… two... or is it three with Heero… and I really wanted to do this one with him but the boy has dropped off the face of the earth… and I kinda figured it was time for a change… so welcome to Belldandy’s world... I hope you all like it… other than that… uhhhhhh… well… the day started of awesome… at 1 in the morning… ^.^’… heh… well… *grin*… I just grin thinking about it… I got to talk to Jaxx on the phone… *grin*… which was awesome… considering the conversation went something like…

Sita: Hello?
Jaxx: Hey?
Sita: Hello… *grin*
Jaxx: Hi….
Sita: *grin… starts giggling and cant stop*…. Ummmmmmm
Jaxx: uhhhhhhh…. *starts laughing*

And so on and so forth for about 5 minutes… but it was a good call… *grin*… damn it.. every time I start thinking about it I start smiling… same with when I called Afro… or a lot of the conversations with Heero… just thinking about them makes me smile nonstop… so that’s awesome… just awesome… welps.. I’m gonna shut up cause that was pretty much the only thing that happened today besides a humorous exchange between me and tiga…. Went something like…

*phone rings*
Sita: Hello?
Tiga: Hey!! Were you sleeping?
Sita: uhhhhh… no.. sitting at the computer as usual
Tiga: Oh….. well… do you have me on block on MSN?
Sita: uhhhhhhh…. *checks MSN*….. oops…
Tiga: YOU BASTARD!!!
Sita: *unblocks and starts laughing* I forgot… ^.^’’’
Tiga: *starts laughing* YOU BASTARD!!! AND NOW YOU UNBLOCK ME!!
Sita: It was for a good reason!!! I swear!! *unable to stop laughing*
Tiga: I’m gonna kill you…*still laughing*

And so on and so forth for about an hour or so… yeah… I’m a bad friend *hangs head* anyway… that’s it for today folks... see ya all around and have a good one
Sita
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Well there's far too many questions to ask,
To answer any of them tonight.
For I wear too many masks,
Too tell if any of them are wrong or right.
And confusion casts a shadow up on me,
Like a great big cloud in the sky.
And now I pray for rain,
Cause it's been so long since I let myself cry.

Peaches and Cream- John Butler Trio

I’m Back!!! [SHES BACK!!… SHES BACK!!] shut up hyper… But I’m back!! [ BACK… BACK!!] shut up… I know it wasn’t a long break… but I realized something… the things I was trying to avoid weren’t really avoided by avoiding the site… if that makes sense... [*scratches head* back?]… *cough* life’s just been a bit… twisted lately… so anyway… how’s everyone doing? Still all alive and kicking I hope… so I finished Harry Potter… I’m not sure if I like this book… the ending is so sad… all I know is at one point I was… *cough* kinda whimpering at the book hoping to change how things were going cause it was so disturbing… then I almost cried… only cried for one other book… and it’s a pretty sweet a** book… yeah... I guess it doesn’t help that I had been up the whole night and I’ve just been acting weird to begin with… I’m all tense and ready to snap at certain people while I’m completely laid back and happy with others… I hope its just hormones cause if its permanent… I want nothing to do with it… other than that what else has been up… *looks around the room*… uhhhhh… not much actually… I’m just really twitchy… and to go with my weird mood we’ve had weird weather here… lots of short thunder storms… or it will be really sunny one moment then from no where a big a** back cloud will just show up and leave a nice little path of destruction behind it… mostly rain and wind… I want a tornado… oh god I’ve been reduced to small talk… GET BACK GET BACK GET BACK!!!!! *cough cough cough* stupid small talk… heh… been calling a lot of things stupid too… stupid boys… stupid computer… stupid job… afro commented that I must wake up calling the bed stupid… he’s wrong… I’m usually calling the phone stupid cause that’s usually the reason why I wake up… *mutters* stupid phone… *gives the phone an evil glare*… uhhhhhhh.. what else… ummmmmm… I kinda had a whole post planned but then I kinda forgot what I was going to write… I think its due to the spice girls… you all remember… THOSE Spice Girls…

common… admit it… you know at least one song… ok so the reason I’m making you suffer the wrath of the Spice Girls.. one of the local TV stations decided to play the movie… me… I was avoiding the TV… mostly by talking to Tiga on the phone…. And she tells me to switch to channel 9 or something like that… so I turned the TV on and switched to the channel and spent… no… wasted two perfectly good hours on reliving past memories mostly involving the idols of Posh, Scary, Baby, Sporty and Ginger… crap… I still remember the names… that’s not good… but anyway… when they first came out I idolized them… watching the movie made me realize something… they were what? Like ages... 22 to prolly 26 I think… and they acted like 13-year-olds… it was a little scary… that’s what I idolized and valued when I was 10… the worst part is I remembered most of the lyrics and I’ll prolly go look up some of the more peppy songs to listen to… I feel like I’m going through a mid-life crisis… well we cover everything from my newes emotional development to the weather to me reliving painful memories… I think our time is up… have a good one all… I think its time for me to sleep
Sita

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things that I said to you

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need
My December- Linkin Park

I think i might take a bit of a break... im just not up to posting and such right now.... i will be answering PM's and such... not that i expect to get many of them... but other than that... I get back when i get back.... have a good one all
Sita
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Friday, July 22, 2005

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...

The Gift- Seether

yeah... I've posted them before... meh
Sita
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Thursday, July 21, 2005

Stepping into the suspension
Of reality and logic
Where crystal clear
Is the same as a rock wall
And all is merely thought
With no true meaning
Here you can find me
Where I dwell with
A million thoughts
That all draw to one
Point clear as the pitch black
When was I ever able to
Tell you how love felt?
Sita (aka some girl in a house in a place)

Right then… *looks up*… I actually quite like that one… anyway… the day was an odd one… went to the westerner… went with Tiga… and we were nice enough to take my 11 year old sister with us… I’m sure I will be getting a few “awww aren’t you such a nice sister” comment… at the time I agreed to it… it was mostly to keep her from crying… and to keep the parents happy… it was fun though… I’m surprised to say I had a good time with my little sis… though the original agreement was that she was allowed to come provided she would get numbers from good looking men for me and tiga… she didn’t really fufill that obligation… we did win her a pimp hat… (Its almost as hot as your cowboy hat, Enin ^.^)… ok... to what made the day slightly odd… I ran into a guy I use to go to high school with… first off you have to understand that my graduating class was of 20 students… so you knew the names of all the people you graduated with… didn’t mean you were friends... but you knew each other… right… so I ran into this guy… wasn’t really good friends with him… but I would consider him a friend all the same… so as I walk up to him to say hello he turns around and being the nice guy he is he just grins and says “Hey *cough… name replacment* Sita!!!”… then he sticks his hand out to shake…lol… so I look at his hand and automatically say “what’s that crap?” and he’s like “your right” and gives me a hug… so I talked to him for a bit and found out he was at the fair by himself for a few hours while he was waiting for some friends… so I ask him if he wants to hang out with me and Tiga and my little sister for a bit and he agreed... so that was all good… got to hang out with him for a bit and catch up and had a few laughs… that was awesome!! That was great! That made my day pretty good… now to the part that pissed me off… some people who have been around for a it might remember my non-MyO member friend who I call rockybaby… I considered her my best friend… she’s one of the few people from high school I kept in touch with... anyway… she was one of the people that I mentioned yesterday that I had hoped I might be able to go to the fair with… she said she was busy… so I was slightly surprised to see her at the fair… first though I had when I saw her… “AWESOME!! THERE’S *name replacement* ROCKYBABY!!” then I run up to her to say hello and ask her what she’s doing there cause she had said she couldn’t go on Wednesday (the day I went and its all just a bit staggered)… so as I run up all excited at seeing my friend who I haven’t seen in about two months she turns around and gives me this look of… “what the hell are you doing here?”… stupid thing is… I told her I was going Wednesday…asked her if she wanted to GO Wednesday… to make her reaction better she kinda used this tone that pissed me off… that “ you’re an annoyance and I want you to go away” tone… so I figured if she was going to be like that I would be best to just exit stage left and let her continue with what ever she was doing… just the tone and her inability to at least say hi kinda pissed me off… passed her a few more times as the day progressed… she seems to have developed selective vision… and I’m a little hurt… I thought we were good friends… but I guess she doesn’t think so… the best part is… I guess I kinda saw it coming… just another person to add to my list of “glad to have met you” people… seems like I always do that… make good friends then lose them because you move away… or they move away… or god only knows how many other people (mostly best friends) I’ve lost to stupid reasons… the really stupid thing is she only lives half an hour away... she works in the same city as me… and I know I still wont see her… a great deal of frustration is building up because of this situation… I know I don’t want to lose a good friend… but she knows the phone number… she knows where I live… and she knows how to get a hold of me… I’m pretty sure I wont even get a lame a** email telling me what was up… and I know if I write the first email… I’m likely to call her a few nasty names… so we shall just avoid that little drama of a deteriorating friendship… she can make the first move for once… and if she doesn’t have a problem with losing our friendship… then I guess I don’t either… I just hope she remembers who was there when hell broke out… I’m not gone… just not going to be the first to take that extra step to make awkward conversation when I’m always the one to take the bloody first step…………… wow… second vent post in a row… that felt good… thanks for listening… I think you should all get hero cookies… but Hyper ate them all… so… as a reward.. you get a happy smiely kitty cat…

have a good one all…
Sita

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

I'm heaven sent.
Don't you dare forget.
I am all you've ever wanted.
What all the other boys all promised.
Sorry I told.
I just needed you to know.
I think in decimals and dollars.
I am the cause to all your problems.
Shelter from cold.
We are never alone.
Coordinate brain and mouth.
Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out.
I wish I knew.
Ok I Believe you But My Tommy Gun Don’t- Brand New

Note on the lyrics: this is kinda my slowly-getting-pissed song… listen to it when I need to kinda push a few of those un-certain urges to b*tch slap somebody… yeah… I’m a bit moody right now… best to just ignore the unhappy or violent statements…

Alright… so anyway… first off… many thanks to AnimeChick4DDR for brightening my day up… *Hugs AC*… little does she know “Be Happy” use to be my favorite song… granted that was when I was four or so… but it still counts…. On another note…. I was told I would get a birthday gift of twizzlers and Bacardi from a new friend I made on Gaia… so that was kinda cool to… granted hes 16… and therefore not legal to buy me (the legal one) booze… but at that time I wasn’t really in the mood to argue… I was just happy to hear a guy was going to buy me a drink ^.^’… nother thing that kinda made my life seem that bit more brighter… I’m going to the *location name blanked out* Westerner tomorrow… ok so… the one big city north of me has a big fair type thinger… and the big city south of me has a big fair thinger… so the somewhat small city I live in is having its annual fair type thinger… that means rides, cotton candy, those little doughnut things that they fry that taste so good, and corndogs and… and… possibly music, and I’m considering getting a airbrushed tattoo (cause I cant afford a real one right now and I’m not entirely sure if I want to put myself through that pain just to have some weird mark on my body that takes a lot of money to get rid of when I finally get tired of it *deep breath*), and I’m gonna make my self sick with the sugar and the sun *shudder* sun… I don’t like the sun much anymore… *cowers from sun*… anyway… what else… I need to make a thing for the club that says all the members… one of them things… forgot what its called… anyway… and I think I might actually incorporate it into my post thing cause
a)I’m hoping once more people join I will have an excuse to have to update it and
b) its easier to update stuff if its in the post thinger… wow… I’m half a**ed good at sounding happy… I think the whole moody thing is due to
a) last night my best friend, Afro informed me that he might not be on for a bit… stupid storms… I’m just happy I had a good long talk with him before he disappeared cause he always makes me feel better and he lets me tell him stuff about other stupid stuff just so I can get it off my chest and feel better as a result… but I’m gonna miss him so much… he’s like my bloody rock…
b) Jaxx has been away on vacation… and I’m starting to miss him a lot
c) Heero has dropped off the face of the earth and I miss him a lot too… I can talk to him about a lot of stuff to and it pissed me off when he just drops off the face of the earth then he comes back to ask me why I’m worried… *rolls eyes* stupid question if you ask me…
d) I think lack of a life is starting to get to me… Tried to arrange to go to the westerner with some of my old high school friends that don’t really live that far away… but it seems like they never have time to hang out anymore… I would just drive down and kick their a**es... but lack of a car kinda makes that hard… life has become horribly repetitive for me… that might be part of the reason I’m getting a little tired of the MyO… don’t get me wrong… I love it to bits… but repetitive living cant be good for a person… even the music is starting to sound the same… *sigh*… maybe I should take up art again… sounds like a plan… (who am I kidding? Talent like mine deserves to be burned)… or maybe write some more (all I’ve been able to write is lame a** poems that would only sound good maybe if you could hear how they are suppose to be read)… actually… when I think about it… maybe my time would be best wasted on Danko… that lizard needs to learn I dont want to eat him… I want to tame my baby up so I can hold him… I’m pretty sure the cat might want to eat him… but I don’t…. anyway… its almost quarter to 2 in the morning… I really should wrap up this sobby post cause really… who wants to read all of this? But as a reward to you who did make it… a little bit of humor from Gundamgirl276… I thought it was cute…

Fine I won't hurt the boom box..
JUST INUYASHA!!!*SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT!*
Inuyasha:What did I DO?!
Me:Um...ya know..I don't remember. AHWELL
This is kinda entertaining! Your ears flinch everytime you hit the ground..it's kinda cute!
Inuyasha:WHAT THE-?
Me:SIT BOY!MUWAHAHAHAHAHA!

Have a good one all… I know I’m going to try to…
Sita
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you
Dreams- Gavin DeGraw

Ok so I have determined that almost all of the music I posses is making me moody… so as of right now the only sound is the hum of the computer and the little msn alarms every now and then… which in all honesty… the situation is starting to scare me… the whole way I’m acting is starting to scare me… had serious thoughts of just shutting the site down for a bit… anyway… I think I should just stop this sobby post right her… if you want to read something funny… go to Tiga’s site… I think I’m going to try something different with the buttons too… anyway… have a good one all… and I’m sorry
Sita

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Monday, July 18, 2005

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time you come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground
Blood on the Ground- Incubus

Sita
PS. let me know what you think of the change in button style... should i leave it as is, put it back to how it was, or try a combination of the two?
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