Saturday, June 4, 2005

Dip it low
Pick it up slow
Roll it all around
Poke it out like your back broke
Pop pop pop that thing
Ima show you how to make your man say "Ooo"
Dip It Low- Christina Milian

I smell like a girl… how the hell did that happen? Oh wait… I know how… I decided to change my shampoo… just cause I felt like it… anyway… I now smell like.. uhhhh.. what the hell is it called… Kangaroo Paw or something like that…. Anyway I now smell like a girl… I’m not sure whether to be pleased with myself or a bit disturbed… personally I’m thinking disturbed…. There’s a reason why I avoid the make up/girly section… I don’t do it… last time I wore makeup was the last time I went to the bar… which was a few months ago so….. yeah… obviously not a girly girl…. Hmmm.. my friend downloaded a bunch of music before we disconnected the computer from all the things that make life fun… so I’m listening to 50 cent right now… Candy shop… ooo dirty song…. But I like so….. heh... shutting up right there…. Uhhhh anyway... changed my mind… only going to post one story at a time…. I’m seriously considering not finishing the dream story cause uhhh… well in reflection it’s a good story but…. Heh….. prolly an pg-14 rating for violence and sexual situations… so there you go… maybe I’ll write it up… but if I do post it… it will be fair warning that some people prolly won’t like it or be shocked at the fact its based on a dream of mine and start wondering about my mental state…. Long story short…. first person to figure me out gets a prize ^______^… it not gonna happen…. Yeah!! Continual paradox…. Walking contradiction…. Chaotic… that’s the best I’ve heard… I like to think I waver between good and evil…. So in essence… I do what I want… I write what I want…. Why do you all think I sound sad or my posts changed?… not particularly hyper off the wall right now…. But that’s mostly due to lack of sleep…. Maybe a little bit due to personal issues that aren’t really that big of a deal…. Just trying to figure out some stuff… where I’m going.. what I’m doing… what do I really want… bwuahahahaha… midlife crisis at 18... that means I die at….. 36…. Yes!!! Live young and hard… die fast and violent… that’s the way to do it…. just fully realized what I just wrote…. Heh…. Ok well personal issues are messing with me more than I thought…. But it kinda involves a few different people on the site so I’m gonna keep it to myself…. *growls*….ooooo I shaved my legs without killing them…. And I bought shorts…. I don’t wear shorts… I am strictly a jeans, t-shirt, hoody girl… and I bought shorts…. First the smell then the shorts…. Some things wrong with me…. I think I’m sick… but they’re awesome shorts… cover my knees… actually they guys shorts… prefer them anyway… I’m kinda scared by some of the stuff that they have for girls right now…. So long as I can get good t-shirts and jeans I’m happy…. But they still scare me… alright one last thing.. after reading my post over…. I think I need to resolve some issues…. I’m all over the place… not that I stay in one place for long anyway but this is ridiculous… don’t worry I’m fine… thinking about a lot of stuff…. But I’m fine… so long as I get to talk to my boys and my ladies… I’m all good… still smell like a girl….. grrrrr…… I think I’m going to hide in my room till it goes away…. Love to those who know they have it and cookies and muffins to all….
Sita
Addition: WTF? Ok… I promised my friend that I would try to get into gundam…. Ok so cause I was bored I turned the T.V on and noticed Gundam SD Force was on… now I know he’s shaking his head at me right now… and I don’t blame him…I know I know… I suck…. And that’s not what you ment…. I was trying though ok?…… Ok… so my idea is… I’m gonna pick up my girl Con... and here’s what were gonna do… were gonna go down to Toronto… break into the YTV station headquarters… take over the control room…. And put on some kick a** anime… not that little kiddy BS that they’re trying to pass off on us…. Oh and for the record…. Never again with the Gundam SD… I have more pride than that even if I am seriously lacking my anime fix… I miss sailor moon…

Oooo and I just saw a kick a** ad for Howl’s Moving Castle…. Ooo that looks like a good was to turn people…. I am so forcing my friend to go see it… I think i need to shut the tv off right now… its corrupting my mind…. Ooo dragon ball…..*zones out*
Comments (19) | Permalink

Friday, June 3, 2005

For some reason… I think I need to change…. Oh wait…. I do that all the time… hmmmm… maybe I wont miss as many posts and stuff as I thought… second in a row at the new place…. So I guess I shall see… I was worried I might be able to touch the computer for like…. Five minutes to check my mail once a week or something….. that would have made me break down completely… which I did do anyway yesterday…. Before I gots to talk to all my friends…. Well some of the most important ones anyway… hmmmm….. ooo I have forgotten to mention it a few times… thanks to Heero for the music… my favorite DJ in the whole world and official provider of awesome music to this site… you all know you love him… common…. Say it!! Ok just a bit messed in the head…. I think in total over the past week I got………. Not much sleep… pulled an all nighter… had a lot of late nights (till 2 or 3 in the morning then woke up at 7 or 8 the next day), never had a day off so I didn’t have a day to rest up… the one day that I would have.. I moved… wait a sec.. none of you care about my sleep patterns… on to the important stuff…. I was asked to work today trying to sell home depot credit cards…. And being the idiot I am (granted I get paid for my time) I agreed… so…. 8 hours of paid break…. You heard me… I did NOTHING!! Well I did stuff… sold four cards.. that’s one every two hours… so what did I do in the time between…. Stood beside the damn table… you heard me… stood…. Actually paced.. cause I can not stand still that long… I can sit in the same position for hours on end…. But to stand that long I have to move…. So I paced around the table… smiled at people….. a nice smile… not a I’m-going-to-send-you-to-special-services smile… even though I did have to send them to special services ^.^… helped people find there way around the store… point them in the general direction… stuff like that….. but yeah… more or less I’m going to be paid for not falling asleep… which I wanted to do… its funny cause I know I’m going to stay up late tonight too… provided I have someone to talk to… but uhhhh.. that’s why I’m all… woooooooo!!! Oooo and I finally broke the writers block… I’ll prolly have the next chapter of the main story written in the next day or so… and I still have to finish the dream story…. So I’ll maybe post all of those on the same day… just to get it done… and I still have to work on banners…. I have a lot of things to do…. And visit sites every once in a while…. I feel like such a bad friend…. But I just don’t have the patience to read everything… and I think… if your going to the site…. You should read the whole post… cause the person took the time to write it… so there’s a reason why they did that… as I write this I’m thinking what’s my reason again? And I just remembered… because it seems to bug some people… and because I have the talent of being able to gibber like a madman for extended periods of time if given the chance…. Anyway… if I visit one site I should visit the majority… so… uhhhh.. ok that doesn’t even make sense to me… I’m just going to shut up…. And Jaxx…. First off… if we have issues... I’ll tell you… second it’s a girl friend I’m going out with… third… my best friend is a guy… so hope that doesn’t bother you… and if it does…. We have issues… no more windows… I mean it… *hugs* uhhhh…. Other than that love to those who know they have it and this time round…. Ummmm…. Candy to all… ttyl and have a great weekend if I don’t see you.
Sita
Addition:*sigh* if I have change my post style which I prolly have… its due to some recent changes in my life involving relationships, friends, work, and…. Just over all confusion… for some reason I now see myself moving out of country in the future…. Not near future… just got an odd feeling…. Dotn worry bout it.. its mostly due to relationship stuff right now….. don’t be getting paranoid on me Jaxx… I don’t deal well with that…. Anyway… ciao
Comments (14) | Permalink

Thursday, June 2, 2005

Heh.. i'm a bloody lucky little brat i am... lucked out cause i get to do a post tonight... *raises hands in mock victory* god im tired... so what else is new eh? im also lucky becasue i have one of the best friends anyone can ask for... i'm lucky becasue i know someone loves me... im lucky to have this site... im lucky to even be breathing... im not lucky that i have to work today... but i'll get over that soon enough... money is a great thing to have... cant complain... lucky to have great friends like all of you... anyway.. this is my post casue my day was boring.. moved crap... and i have nothing funny, sarcastic, or witty to say... im just a girl trying to go to sleep without crying... i already miss the late night talks... even if it does result in lack of sleep... a small price to pay in exchange for feeling happy... im hoping to keep it all bundled up though.... just force that misery deep down... put on my usual happy-im-going-to-send-you-to-special-services smile... and be happy... already trying to convince a friend to go out sometime soon... its harder to hide in your room when you dont have the world at your finger tips.... love to those who know they have it... and pocky for everybody.... just put on a happy face y'all
Sita
Comments (10) | Permalink

Wednesday, June 1, 2005

Just put an "x" next to the ones you have done
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) skipped school
( ) been called a slut
(x) seen someone die
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up in a car
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship/family situation
( ) taken painkillers
(x) miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party --
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
( ) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
( ) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) had deja vu
( ) danced NAKED in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime

( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( ) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( ) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe ...
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x ) watched the sun set with someone you care about

(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror.....
(x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
( ) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
(x) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole

(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on!!!
( ) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someone's hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool/LAKE?
(x) been kicked out your house
(X) have a job
( ) been to all 4 corners of the USA
(x) laughed at the wrong time
Comments (5) | Permalink

TOAST!!! Just toast….. (note still replacing f-bomb with toast… its now an inside joke with me and Captain Fusiamarine…) I think I need a drink... a good strong... alcoholic beverage… I had a post.. but uhhhhh.. I have issues right now…. I might post later tomorrow before I take down the computer… maybe I wont... till the future... see ya all later... I think I might cry… TOAST!!!!!!
Sita
Addition: I kinda found out why Hinaru left... i feel like crap because of it... long story short... it was my fault indirectly... so now i get to listen to the violent angry music again.... god i think im blind....



five hours later

Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
She finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
Catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

Yeahhh...

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
To be yourself is all that you can do

Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside his selfish brain
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united?
healty or insane?

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
Be yourself is all that you can do

Even when you've paid enough
Been put upon or been held up
Every single memory of the good or bad
Faces of love
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
But to be yourself is all that you can do

Be Yourself- Audioslave
(yeah I know.. second time in a week.. this has become my new theme song)

ok I said I would do a second post so here it is…. And its gonna be a crappy mood post cause right now I’m kinda in a crappy mood… ooo and I have decided the f-bomb will now be daffodil… it’s a bit funnier and I might have to drop a few… I’m not sure though….. just a warning… uhhhh.. really all I can think is daffodil right now…. I just don’t know… everything is so messed up…. Messed to the max… questioning past actions and present actions and hoping to who ever the hell is out there that my future actions will be a bit less questionable….. just being confused with myself in general today…. I’m trying to understand what happened with Hinaru… failing miserably… but still trying… wishing I knew what the hell was going on in general… I think I need to become an ice queen for a while… if this is where being nice gets you I don’t want any part of it… heh.. and I bet a few people are thinking…. She cant be an ice queen…. Shes messed in the head… and yes.. yes I am…. But I can still be a cold hearted… ehem… I’ll send you all to special services.. yes… special services.. they fix you up real good…. I don’t want to be loved anymore…. I just want to be happy…. And Sita is happy when her friends are happy… I’m tired… must sleep soon… I let work talk me into more work… so now I lack a day off that I had planed for…. Meh… money is nice… and daffodil the daffodils… they’re gonna pay me for every hour I work… ok I think I’m not thinking straight… need a drink… and I’m not alone…. I got my anime collection to keep me company…. Never thought I would make someone leave… let alone for the reason he left… daffodil… its so bloody stupid…. Need sleep…. Be better in the morning…. Always is…
Sita

Comments (9) | Permalink

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Uhhhh… phone calls are fun…. Ok I wrote like three diff posts for today... yes that’s how pathetic my existence has become… I just sit and plan posts…. Oh god… anyway... whatever….. uhhhh ok we’re gonna start with a topic and watch how it changes.. first off.. I’m a crappy friend… I know I’m a crappy friend… I have been to maybe five sites a day this week… if that….. and I would really like to say that’s going to change.. but its not… its going to get worse… I told you guys I’m moving.. and I found a place with the net.. so whoot!!!! For that… but….. I think I will have to decrease my usage to an extreme low… reduce my posts…. Reduce my *shudder* chat time…. Reduce everything in fact… and I hate it… I really do… but I will still be here.. I’m working to get my own place… which I’m hoping to do very soon... at least in the next year.. if I look on the bright side… I will be able to get more graphic art work done and maybe work on my skills as an artist… more free time and such…. That way I can get those banners for the club done and finish up my stories… so much stuff I neglect due to my extra-curricular activities at the computer… and I want to say right now.. thank you so so much too all the people who come to my site.. day after day… even if I don’t come to your site…. I really really appreciate it... damn it…. I just looked at my friends list… any one know what happened to Hinaru? He’s gone…. WTF? [ Hinaru?] you know what happened to him? [No *shakes head*…. He’s gone?] That’s what it looks like [*sniff* but…. But….. NO!!*runs and hides in her room*] *looks concerned* hmmmm….hope she’s ok now…. Anyway.. uhhhh….. I need to change my cell phone plan… I didn’t think I would need it… but I need overseas calling… =^.^= ooo wait a tic.. then I can call my FES too….. geeze why didn’t I get it in the first place.. damn it again… sorry.. FES (foreign exchange student)… my favourite german… lol.. miss him so much.. He was one of the people who introduced me to manga hard core…. And Ranma 1/2 … love that series… hes into Angel Sanctuary though… I still need to find the first volume of that book…Oooooo any one else getting a bit excited about the new Harry Potter book? Heh.. I was different.. I read the first three books in reverse order…. So number three, then number two, then number one… I have resisted the urge to be a scary fangirl…. But I think I might see if my friend… who’s even more excited than me (that’s my inspiration for Captain Fushiamarine)…. I might see if she wants to go wait at the book store till midnight to get the book… just so I have that experience.. and hey… I get out of the house that way too ^.^…. Seriously... people at work think I’m good with computers cause I don’t get out of the house…. One lady asked me what could be wrong because her comp wont shut down right anymore... my theory… they deleted something important… so that cant be good… and if it makes funny noises… you may want to get that checked…. Just like a car, right? Needs a oil change every little while? Ok well I’m gonna shut up… I have some self respect… need to keep some credibility…. See ya round kats and kittens
Sita
p.s. I’ve had this urge to start swearing at the pop ups lately… I shall demonstrate my anger by replacing the f-bomb with toast…. “toast the toasting toasters till their toasting toast toast toast toast” yeah… I’m pretty annoyed.. and the end doesn’t even make sence… I just like to say the f word a lot when I get really really mad
Comments (14) | Permalink

Monday, May 30, 2005

Scry


Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...
The Gift- Seether

Ok well unless something inspirational happens between now (when I’m writing this) and post time (bout 20 hours from now) I got nothing today... Hmmmm...... ok question... do you believe that there is a soul mate for everyone and how do you define a soul mate? (this may sound like a question induced by sappyness... but its really induced by confusion)...
Sita
A possible display of intelligence: Assumptions lead to two things... mistakes and people getting hurt... Luckily we learn from both...
Comments (13) | Permalink

Sunday, May 29, 2005

An Excerpt from a conversation between Hyper and Scry….
(Note: the two psychopathic secondary personalities of this site)

Hyper: BLACK EYED PEAS!!
Scry: Audioslave….
Hyper: BEP!!!
Scry: What the… what’s BEP?
Hyper: Black Eye Peas… duh!!! *makes a face at Scry*
Scry: Why didn’t you just say “Black Eyed Peas”?
Hyper:… cause if you wanna read it how its spelt its actually bep… and bep sounds funny.. rhymes with pep.. and jep… and rep… and rocks
Scry:*mutters under her breath* I think your head is made of rocks….
Hyper: wanna meet my pet rock?
Scry: No
Hyper: he’s cute… *pushes the rock up into Scry’s face * his name is Victorio Marchenis Fransisco Albertaris the Fifth
Scry: *pulls back with a look of disgust* I said I didn’t want to see it….
Hyper: *holds the rock close and starts to talk to it* no she didn’t mean it…. she’s just being grumpy
Scry: I am not… I just don’t think I need to talk to a rock…
Hyper: *gasps * its not just A rock… its Victorio Marchenis Fransisco Albertaris the Fifth…. He’s special…. He’s mine….. *holds the rock close and gives it a slightly creepy but adoring glance*
Scry:*looks at Hyper with a blank look* you got sugar again, didn’t you?
Hyper: nope!! *looks proud* mocha latté chocolate chip ice cream!!
Scry: *jaw drop* Who the HELL gave YOU that?
Hyper: found it in the freezer… *cuddles the rock*
Scry: wait a minute….. which freezer?
Hyper: the one in the kitchen….. der….
Scry: did that ice cream happen to have a S written on the top?
Hyper: No… it had a squiggly line….
Scry: *closes eyes* that was my ice cream….. *thinking: remain calm… deep breaths…. You can buy more…. Right now you must deal with the situation at hand* Hyper… *puts on a fake happy look*
Hyper: yes? *looks at Scry and edges away when she sees the look on her face* What do you want? *her face filled with distrust.. thinking: Scry + Smile= Uh oh*
Scry: *gentle, coxing voice* you want some more ice cream?
Hyper: *thinking: Ice Cream = good = Scry good= ice cream* YEAH!!!
Scry: ok…. Its in the closet…
Hyper: Ok!! *Drops the rock and rushes over to the closet.. opens the door and rushes in* Where?!?!
Scry: uhhh.. just at the back there….*edges slowly toward the closet door* Keep looking… I know I put some in there a while ago… *reaches the door and grips the edge*
Hyper: *looks confused* but doesn’t ice cream have to be cold?
Scry: *slams the door shut* that’s what they all say!! *locks the door* now… you can come out when your willing to act normal
Hyper: *pounds on the door* I need my Victorio Marchenis Fransisco Albertaris the Fifth!!! YOU CANT TAKE HIM!!! GIVE HIM BACK!!! HES MINE!!!
Scry: *sigh* fine…. You can have the damn rock… *picks up the rock then walks to the closet door* I’ve got it..
Hyper: IT’S A HIM!!!
Scry: what ever… *grips the door knob tight… and slowly opens the door*
Hyper: VICTORIO MARCHENIS FRANSISCO ALBERTARIS THE FIFTH!!!! *bursts out of the door and grabs the rock * MINE!!! *runs off out of the room with the rock* BWUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Scry: crap...

As witnessed by Sita... God, I need to get new personalities...

P.S.... Jaxx? I "L word" you
Comments (15) | Permalink

Saturday, May 28, 2005

   You would be amazed at what one bloody phone call will do for you… I feel so much better… got things straight with my friend… (Con you can have that faith back now but you see this head *points at head* mine…. Stay out…. Little creepy you were gonna post the same lyrics… stay out )… figured out I now have two secondrary personalities… {I’m not a personality…. I guide you} yeah what ever… you tried to talk me into sleeping last night… I know your games… {YOU NEED SLEEP!!} no I don’t…. I’m perfectly capable to function on no sleep… {Yeah… right}…. Shut up…. Ooo Announcement!! Hmmm... or not… need to talk to him… he can’t be quiet so may as well do it… but….. hmmmm… what ever.. need to talk to him… never mind… ^______^ (to him.. yeah you know who you are… ehem… O.O... I need a new nickname… lol) Ok I’m gonna shut up about that before anything incriminating slips out… ^________^… I mean… crap…. Ok changing the subject completely… I need to finish that damn story… you know the dream one…. Then get that other one finished up… but in all honesty.. may as well tell you all… might have to seriously reduce my computer usage… I’m moving to a new place and… ok.. I’m addicted to the site literally… so obviously I’m looking for a place with internet…. But that means I still might have to reduce the usage a lot… depends on what kind of place I get… and I still have to save for an apartment cause I still want to get my own place…. Anyway… I’ll let you all know what’s going on as soon as I know… just cross your fingers for me… anyway… yeah… so just that alone and work and I’ll be reducing my traffic on here…. So if I don’t get to many sites… don’t shoot me cause I need to find a place to live… alright? For sure…. Uhhhh…. I’m gonna kill the damn computer!!!…. seriously… I think its possessed… it keeps making this high pitched beeping noise…. And I know that isn’t healthy… that’s what I get for pushing it to hard I suppose… it needs a time out…. Ok short story (yeah right... long story) my friend and I went looking for baby stuff cause her cousin is having a baby…. So off… me + baby= uhhhhhhhhh…. “What do I do with it?”….. So we were looking at the different baby hygiene products and she asked what baby oil is for… cause her+ baby= slightly shorter uhhhhh… “so it’s a kid, eh?”….my response…. “Keeps the baby mushy”… then there was this incredibly amusing product called Kandoo…. Just… I think I’ve said enough right there… uhh if you want to know what its for I’m sure you can look it up…. All I know is I found it incredibly amusing as I was running on about 5 hours of sleep and I get to the point were I’m extremely slap happy or depressed… so all I could do was giggle and try to think of un-amusing things such as soothers to try to gain control of myself while my friend stood there... glaring at me... telling me to shut up every five minutes… not to mention other various amusing products that I’ll just save for my own amusement cause… a) you need a slightly dirty mind to get it….( I plead the fifth on any questions pertaining to that statement) b) you may not get it anyway… c) you need to be really out of it to find it as amusing as I found it. anyway… I’m really not showing my good, sweet, innocent side today…. So here’s a quiz result… for the hell of it cause it has nothing to do with today’s post… found it on hinaru’s site.. and man, maybe you spent a little to mush time at my site when I was really, really sappy cause the only other way to explain why you took the quiz is that you were very bored… what’s with all the animals anyway?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Sita

Addition: just to show what kind of person I am… quick story.. saw a guy I knew in high school.. never talked to him in high school…. Anyway… long story short…. Saw him having issues with a wheel barrow and trying to fit it into a car…. Now remember I never talked to this guy in high school… basically knew him by name and a few smart a** comments toward each other (small school you can do that)… so anyway.. I get out of my moms van… kinda call over to him and offered him help.. felt really odd doing it too cause.. seriously… I don’t think I would have done that a few months ago… but yeah.. I’m pretty sure I scared the crap out of him just talking to him… let alone to offer help….
Comments (14) | Permalink

Friday, May 27, 2005

Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
She finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
Catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

Yeahhh...

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
To be yourself is all that you can do

Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside his selfish brain
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united?
healty or insane?

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
Be yourself is all that you can do

Even when you've paid enough
Been put upon or been held up
Every single memory of the good or bad
Faces of love
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
But to be yourself is all that you can do

Be Yourself- Audioslave

Due to the fact that I think its unfair for me to drag all of you down with my personal problems… Hyper gets this one…. [really?] just leave me alone… [ ok then…. But you stay away from the wall… I need to call a guy to fix the hole… ok so what to talk about… hmmmm… lets talk l33t.. j3$…. L33t….. A/Vj0/V3 u/Vd3r $ta/Vd tl-l*$ ? I’m guessing not.. I give up… you must have a strong mind to master l33t….] don’t bloody well lie to the people [ I’M NOT!! You said to leave you alone.. now go away… *pushes Sita into the closet*] f**k you…. [ hmmm… she’s really messed up…. She don’t say that unless there’s a good reason… maybe she needs a nap… been poppin a bit to much Tylenol lately too… think I might have to take it away….] {well then get on it} [who are you?] {Scry} [Oooooohhhhh…. *Nods*….. where you been?] {on vacation} [ ahhhh… I’m confused] { we all are, honey…. } [ no… but.. you… she….. what’s gong on?] {that’s what I came back for…. Try to figure out what’s going on… now… where’s Sita?} [eh I dunno… *shrugs*] {*slaps fore head* your kidding me right?} [oooo a rock!!] { *takes rock away* thought hinaru hid that…. Now where’s Sita?} [I keep seeing a door to a dark place…. But I’m not sure what it means] {door?} [ her daemon is gone…] {what the hell are you babbling about?} [her Pantalaimon.. he left her….] {and what is he?} [gone] {I think prolly only two other people are even going to understand what the hell that means} [I understand it… ] {you don’t count} [oh….] *piece of paper slides out from under the closet door* {what’s this? *picks up the paper* What’s in this closet?} [ a puppy?] {*reads the note* smart puppy… it knows how to write….} [ really?! Let me see!! *tries to grab the paper*] { bugger off…. *reads the note again* well its good news I suppose….} [ what?! WHAT?! Let me read it !?!?!?!] {no} [yes!!] {no} [but I wanna] {bugger off}….

Hyper and Scry
Comments (16) | Permalink