Birthday • 1986-09-17 Gender •
Female Location • North and left of center. Member Since • 2004-10-17 Occupation • Ex. Night Stalker, Slacker College Student and Resident Doomsayer Real Name • None of your damn business.
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Achievements • I wake up every morning promptly at 9:10 unless its a Friday or the weekend..... Then I wake up when I feel like it. Anime Fan Since • A while... Favorite Anime • I had a list... it was long. Goals • Nothing that this site will help me accomplish. Hobbies • Doing stuff. Talents • People say I can do stuff. I think a lot of other people do it better.
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Not the vid I wanted... As I think the one I want decided it didnt want to exist....
Anywho.... The anime is called Origin- Spirits of the Past. Made by Gonzo... who always makes good stuff. The visuals are awesome and this vid really does not show the movie's stong points due to quality. The opening credits were a blast (which was the vid I was looking for to begin with), with awesome graphics and an amazing song.
Check it out if you get the time as it is a very good film. It reminds me a bit of alot of the Ghibli films as the themes run along similar "respect nature" and, "respect your planet earth" themes. But with alot more big explosions. And shiny lights. And stuff.
Copy/ Paste from Gaia Journal
So... I was having some itty bitty issues with my laptop and its COMPLETE refusal to burn CDs.
So being the computer wiz I am not, I think to myself. "Time to fix this bitch! Maybe if I use the system disk it will fix ALL my issues."
So I do. And I make a point to tell the system disk. "No, system disk. I DON'T want you to delete all my files. Just put them on layaway till a later time so I might recover them and have all my music and pictures"
So... It does.
But. Now it won't let me open the files. And my music (4.8 GBs worth) is missing. Some of those songs were specifically mixed for me. And were not available anywhere.
Now you might say. "But Sita! Why didnt you make a back-up disk?" To which I respond.
"My CD drive wasn't working properly, you wanker!"
The point of the story is.... As of right now my comp is 100% useless as I have to reinstall everything, purchase Adobe Photoshop (As I lost my somewhat illegitimate borrowed copy of it in the re-installation of windows), and to boot. I lost my fucking music. And pictures. And MSN emotes. And text files. And meaning to my life.
The End.
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So... THEN theres the thing where I'm at home but dont really want to be home cause I prefer to be with other people but those other people had to work anyway.
If you dont know what I'm talking about, its ok. You're just out of the loop.
But it made me grumpy as I was woke up and told to get my stuff together and I was like "MaragaBLEARGLE! sleep..." Which is what I usually sound like when I'm being woken up from a good sleep. Which I've been laking lately as I've been having messed up dreams. Which I blame on the medication I'm taking.... (nothing bad.... just girly meds :P)... but long story short.... I'm sleepy... I should have a nap.... naps are cool....
And ANOTHER thing.... I keep getting guestbook sigs. Its not that I dont like people anymore... its just I'm lazy and not on this site much anymore... So if people actually WANT me to be their friend.... well... they have to get my attention.... and visit.... and make me feel guilty for not addint them back.... cause I'm tired of people expecting me to be their friend when they dont put much effort into it... Imma bitch. *gasp*
And I was going to say something else.... but I cant remember... its like... seriously nap time for me... I got to do taxes soon and depending on if I get any money back from the government... I might get my first tattoo... (yes... I've said that a few times) But I have reason and conviction this time.... so wish me luck in stealing my money back from big brother.
So hows everybody elses week going?
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For a fortune he'd quit
But it’s hard to admit
How it ends and begins
On his face is a map of the world
From Yesterday- 30 Seconds to Mars.
There's always one of those things. Its a little thing. Usually so small it doesnt even make sense why it matters so much. But what ever it is, it irritates you to the point where you feel mental constipation. And if your like me it makes you want to scream.
Like I said. Its small. Tiny. So very non-intruding into your own personal life and space, that the very fact that it does manage to irritate you, bothers you. The fact that it has that sway over your mind is almost insulting.
Ok... Maybe its just me. Maybe I'm petty. I think to much. Expecially about things that bother me.
Its just so very childish what can get on your nevers sometimes.
But thats not what this post is about.
No.
This post is about the one little thing that bothers me.
At least today.
I was taking my time... wandering around the wallpapers part of the MyO... I needed a new wallpaper. I havent really been hardcore into anime lately... I'll admit. But I'm still drawn to the art work and I figured I might find something decent in the Misc. section.
Now... I could make my own... I have made a few wallies lately... nothing really worth posting... and more for my own amusment... but I'm also very lazy. At least lazy enough to let someone else do the making and posting of the wallpaper for me.
Now... I know its very childish... its very petty... Very STUPID. But heres what ticks me off to no end. I venture into the wallpapers section and all I see are the horribly lame and boring screen caps, resized images on a blank backgound, pixilated... well... not very high quality images....
I realize its all a matter of opinion.... And I know alot of my earlier work isnt much better than some of the stuff that is posted... Maybe its a bit of jealousy... a piece I might have worked on for a week gets less hits than a resized, pixilated, blurry screen-cap of Naruto.
I also realize that it may just be a beginer... But in all honesty... I dont know anyone that cant re-size an image. Not including my parents... who are technologically challenged at the best of times. (Sorry Mom)
Another annoyance is seeing something that is not only horribly resized and pixilated... but also clearly NOT official art from the anime. Which I'll remind the staff of the MyO... is against the guidelines of submitting wallpapers.
If its not official... Post it in the Misc catagory. Please.
Like I said... I know alot of it is just beginer work... or just for fun... and really... it's a stupid thing to get annoyed over.... But it bugs me!
I like to see some quality of work... If I wanted a simple piece that involved absolutly no effort... I'll make my own wallie... And at least that way I can tweek the colors and maybe give it a bit of a glow effect while I'm combining the layers. Some effort would be appreciated... as oppose to the simple slap and dash work that seems to be cluttering the galleries right now...
In order to find anything worth looking at, you're required to filter through this, for a lack of a better word and fuled by frustration, spam. And that ticks me off.
If you're a beginner... by all means post it up... But grow. Dont just stick with the same, simple technique time in and time out. Better your skills. Play with the image. Try out new ideas.
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you
Paralyzer- Finger 11
Yah... I'm still alive...
A short update... I got everything I wanted for Christmas... I spent New Years drugged up/ poisioned... We one of the bar tenders at the club we went to either slipped a roofie into the drink or the lines were extremely dirty leading to poisioning... I'm more likely to go for drugs as the person who drank most of the suspected drink was VERY intoxicated and only had a few drinks...
Other than that... Work has moved into a period of lacking... mostly lacking fun and appreciation. Leading me to a lack of wanting to be there...
Speaking of a lack of wanting to be places...
Ummm... I'm not quite sure how often I will be around the MyO at all in the next long while.
Certain people said certain stuff that makes me feel uncomfortable even posting here as of late, combined with a lack of modivating to really WANT to post here... I feel like with Con moving on to LJ and a lack of a few of my favorite people, including Heero, Howee, and Afro... I'm reduced to a friends list of people who havnt really been around for the good times when I was stupid and entertaining.....
So.... I suppose I'm half assed shutting the site down... At least right now... Its easier when you have more entertaining things to do besides stare at a computer screen all night...
Next time I post I should have another video post though... a little different than the last one... But entertaining none the less I hope....
Anyway... keep it cool everyone... and if I do start posting elsewhere I'll pass the address on to everyone...
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Sunday, December 31, 2006
“We're wrecking” and I'm dry like a drum...
a disgrace, So fine, I'll leave.
we're spending all our time and trials,
measured in miles, we slave for days and weeks.
The No Seatbelt Song- Brand New
I'll try not to take up to much of your time.
First off... a review.
Hellsing Ultimate.
This is pretty much a revamped version of the Hellsing most of us know and love. The first 50 minute episode covers the first three 20 minute episodes of the original anime.
I prefer this version as a) They cut out all the dramatics and most of Victoria's whining. b) Much more gore. And all of the characters are all together much more blood thirsty. c) The style in which they produced it it much more appealing to my tastes than the semi-realistic style they took with the original series. Its much more bolder and rich with the lines and such. And its just a shorter story in general...
And my final words for The Year
This has been all to short of a year. Time has flown past far to fast for my taste.
Alot of really REALLY good things have happened in the past year. As much as he despises me and doesnt trust me right now... Zanorich was a huge highlight of the year. My first real, face to face, serious relationship.
I wont lie.
Face to face, lacking the distance is my prefered form of relationship.
I quit that "wonderful" job I had, working in the mall for 8.50 an hour to work nights at Zellers. For the most part that job has been a good thing for me. I've made more friends there than I have at any of my previous jobs and I'm hoping at least a few of those friendships last.
I've lost at least one good friend. I wish Howee the best of luck in life. Those who knew him know he deserves it. Even if he did just pick up and dissapear.
Alot of this year has been about relationships for me...
Decideing whats important and what isnt. What pulls you to people and why some are more important than others. Not in the grand picture, as I believe everyone has a purpose and is important, but on a personal level, as I admit... I know people I love to death and I know people that while I like them... I'm not going to be heartbroken if they dissapear for a while.
As far as I'm concerned we should all aim to be happy for ourselves. That may mean changing ourselves or what we do or who we spend time with... As long as its a positive change no one should hold it against you...
We all do things that hurt people. Thats part of living in a community, building relationships and just being human in general.
Part of being yourself is understanding that and accepting it. I dont believe in going out of your way to hurt people emotionaly or physically. But I do know that sometimes, in changing who you are, you do hurt people.
I'm babbling... Its been a long night... I'll be coherent later.
I wish everyone a wonderful New Years.
Those that can and plan to... I hope your drunken adventures are enjoyable and to those who cant drink... Have fun anyway.
Do as I say, not as I do.
You're never going to feel as full as you felt
So let's go outside and we'll play William Tell
Take your time drawing a bead
I'll stand as still as you need
'Cause you're so good at talking smack,
Heart attack
You Won't Know- Brand New
Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile Like You Mean It- The Killers.
So... Everyone on the MyO deserves an explanation besides the crappy little one I gave a few days back.
Con pointed that out to me. So here it goes.
As of late I have become extremely busy outside of work with people being social and doing stuff. I have only been home three times in the past week and a half and that was mostly to do laundry. As I said before... I am having issues with my wireless router so the only time I can use the comp is when I can hook directly into the router and I can only do that when my room mate is sleeping or at work. Being as I've only been home a few time... this drops my computer time down to very little... when I do manage to get home.
In all honesty I havent really missed being away horribly much. I do feel bad I worried people and I know they shouldnt have had to worry.
One thing I have realized about being away... is I think I do spend an extremely large amount of time on the computer. People are begining to expect me to be around and expect me to be on each day.
To steal it from my gaia blog... As Im really to lazy to try and type it out again...
"It seems like I'm always on the computer and thats the only place I interact with the large majority of the people I know... it feels like people expect me to be on at times and expect me to be around each day.
I've been doing that for two years now and maybe I'm getting a bit tired of the whole thing... Expecially lately I've been questioning if people actually realize that I am a person and I do have feelings at times... Part of me feels like I'm not always appreciated and thats probably why I'm jumping at the opportunity to have a social life outside of my job and the computer. I wont lie... Its kind of nice to get away from all the internet crap at times. Expecially when relationships and feelings start to develope or become an issue....
I'm of course going to be around... just not as much for a while.... I'll see what happens in the new year as part of the busyness does have to do with it being christmas time... "
It seems like I've fallen into a routine that isnt healthy. I work.. I come home... I play on the computer for a few hours then I sleep. I wake up... I shower... I go to work.
Theres more to the whole story than just "I'm getting pulled out of the house." Con knows... Zan knows... I would rather not write it out here where the whole world can see as its just one of those things that even admiting to it makes it seem like I've betrayed one of my core values. And in realizing that I should be shattered... But Im not.
The most wonderful thing about the internet and online communities such as The MyO and Gaia is the fact that you can find people you click with. You can find people that you can talk to and joke with and who seem to fit the ideal image you may have of "The perfect friend." or "The perfect mate".
I'll say mate as I do think that we primaraly base our decisions on internal instinct and the whole "intelligence" thing just makes the instict much more complex than it should be.
We can find people we identify with and the ones we dont like we can easily ignore.
I'll be honest in saying this. After some things that have happened I find at times its hard to actually click with people. I can -talk- to them. Talking is easy. Clicking is not so much.
The online communities make it much easier to find people you can talk to and identify with.
Thats the wonderful thing about it.
On the other hand...
Following the Guidelines of internet safetly usage... You're not suppose to meet people from the net. At least not with out proper percautions and measures taken.
So far I've met two people where my relationship started fully as one on one interation. IE not catalized via other pathways such as mutual friends.
Both Con and Zan are amazing. Just the fact that they put up with my lame jokes and nervous first meeting manners is a surprise. The fact that they both have stuck around is another.
The chance to meet anyone that I know from the MyO or Gaia... is something I would jump at. To meet alot of these people face to face is an amazing opportunity and I would hate to pass it up.
But its also painful in a way to know people and know you would get along with them and know that you cant see and you cant touch them.
I've spent two years developing relationships like this. Some of my actual face to face relationships have crumbled and decayed yet my online relationships have stayed strong and pulled through some difficult times.
I value many of my online relationships much more than the face to face relationships I have. I would rather spend hours talking to people I can not see than go out to a movie with people I can see almost every day, if I so choose to.
I suppose what I'm getting to is this...
I do not support online relationships for they cause a pain and longing which is very hard to satisfy. I've spent more time depressed over hurting people I have never actually met in the last two years than I have over the fact that I only see my family once ever few months.
I support online relationships for the fact that they open us up to a world of people who we would otherwise never know. In meeting new people we learn new things about ourselves and we learn what we want from life. We learn what we need and what we can live with out and we can find people who are able to support us during hard times and we can provide support for others when they need it.
I would rather know people I am close to on a strictly one dimesnional plane, than know a million people who's names I cant remember in a three dimension world.
And distance is simply an obstacle. And a simple one at that. If nothing else I will walk to where I need to be. I might show up late... but at least I get there.
But for the time being I'm going to catch up on some 3-d interaction.
I'll be around. Just not much. I do feel bad I cant provide as much support in being away... but I also wont require as much... so it all evens out I think.
Here's hoping you all have a merry christmas/ happy hoidays. I think I'm going to attempt to mail out christmas cards but I hope no one holds their breath as I'm horrible for saying I'll do stuff and then forgetting about it.
