Wednesday, March 16, 2005

I can't let go... I can't get out
lOk, your going to have to bear with me… Its one of those moods again (sigh)… recent events have got me thinking.. Why do people commit suicide? Really? I don’t get understand.. Now you need to know where I’m coming from… Personally I have though about it… Not terrible seriously as obviously I’m still alive (at least I think I am…) And I’ve never cut myself (on purpose that is… there was this one time with a bagel… but that’s not the point) .. never took loads of pills.. I get worried when I take two Tylenol… don’t even touch anything else… Anyway... I’ve thought about it… what’s the point in sticking around?… your going to die anyway…nothings going right why bother trying to begin with… maybe they’ll miss me then……..That’s when I start to feel bad… its not fair to anybody else…I know, life’s not fair… but I believe in equality…. And I try to be fair to everybody… It’s not fair to anybody else and you know why? No matter how hard we try… we always take life for granted at some point or another… and we are bound to take others lives for granted… Your going to miss that person when they’re gone… Maybe you forgot to tell them how you feel… or you said something you regret… or maybe you just miss the times that you shared with them…Sometimes it seems hard to believe… The second thing that makes me feel bad… Things I’d miss... Never getting to find out if there is real (not true… true is to complicated and there is a difference between true and real… in my mind anyway) unconditional love… my friends… and I know I’m gonna piss at least one of them off… Rockybaby if your reading this, know that you’re my best friend... I love you… and it’s because of people like you that I haven’t given up… I’d miss stupid stuff too… cake, walking, books, chairs, stupid sayings that have lost their meanings… Just the enormous effect that death has on people… suicide is a million times worst... because you know that that person was so unhappy with their life that they gave it up… maybe I do understand… just maybe I have to much to live for… I really do like chairs…

Wow… I sound depressing.. wrote that in math class… meh… it needed to be said.. I feel better now… anyway.. there has been a tie in the theme poll so you all have to vote again… bwuhahahahaha!!!!! Anyway the choices are …

EXCEL SAGA


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and WOOT!! The big 5-0-0.. I want to thank everybody for the 500 hits… (hugs everybody) That being said.. I’m going to edit my friends list in the near future… if you still want me to visit your site and be on my list either comment or pm me… preferable by ohhhh…… next Tuesday… ill put up reminders.. I don’t want to lose any friends but I’m tired of visiting people who don’t return the favour at least once in a while…hokays? anyway.. ttyl alls...
Sita

I was going to have a depressing punk song… but I changed my mind ^.^ instead we can have a depressing alterative song…


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