Saturday, May 21, 2005

   If I didn’t know any better… I would say I lost control somewhere….
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you put it down be the woman for you
Natalie Brown- Goin Crazy

Ok.. its official… I don’t know what the hell is going on… I Know what’s going on but I don’t KNOW what’s going on…. Understand? I know I don’t…. god I hate papercuts… would have preferred to cut myself on a knife…. What y’all think of the new song? I love it… so much… hmmm…. Ok at some point somebody has to freak out and say enough is enough.. and tell me to quit with the sappy… its not even a mood anymore… it’s where my mind states… but its not my state of mind…. Just right bloody drained right now… only slept a hour or so in the last two days… cant sleep… been from one end of the emotional spectrum to the other… I’m sittin pretty right in the middle right now, thank god… just calm…. Keep getting cold flashes though…. I’m sitting wrapped up in a blanket… and I keep getting really cold… maybe I’m coming down with something…. Hmmmm…. Seriously lack anything to talk about right now….. kinda shattered… all over the place…. I’m all good emotionally but mentally…. Well lets just say I’ve seen hurricanes that are more peaceful and organized than my head right now… I’m glad I have nothing to stress overly about… otherwise I would be really scary right now… heh... I bet a few of you people are scared anyway… don’t be… I’m all good… just in a odd place right now… and unlike other times… I don’t think it’s a bad odd place…. Just need to figure some stuff out…
Sita

Addition: I’m not sure bout the anywhere else… but here in Canada it’s a long weekend… the peeps I live with are going camping and I’m staying home in the house allllllll by myself cause I have to work Sunday…. So what do they tell me? No friends. Uhhhh……… I’m 18………….…… House to myself………….….. Long weekend…. First thought………. Whoot!! I can use the phone all I want!!!! Seriously... that was my first thought…. Not that I’m gonna use it that much…. You would have thought I would be planning a party or something *shrugs* and seriously... F*** that (sorry bout language…. I was kinda offended by the whole thing)… if I want to have a friend over to hang out in the one room I’m paying rent for… I bloody well will… or maybe I’ll renovate…. *evil grin* a few holes in the wall sounds good…..

The story will be up in a few hours…. I need to type it up… and just a warning… its not my usual at all
Note: Nerg... *smacks head into the wall* i suck... i really do.. i was hoping to get the story up... but my eyes are going tweeky... seriously.... stuff that isnt moving.. keeps moving... im pretty sure that isnt suppose to happen... so it will be up, hopefully, *crosses fingers* tomorrow... and i should have at least one or two banners for the club done for your viewing pleasure... hell.. im not even going to get out of my chair... im gonna sleep here... im that tired... i just hope i can get some sleep..... well ciao.. and so sorry... oh god.... my bed just moved... oh no... wait... its all good.... just the blankets....... just the blankets moved.... hehehe.. its all good..... wait a tic...........
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