Wednesday, June 1, 2005

TOAST!!! Just toast….. (note still replacing f-bomb with toast… its now an inside joke with me and Captain Fusiamarine…) I think I need a drink... a good strong... alcoholic beverage… I had a post.. but uhhhhh.. I have issues right now…. I might post later tomorrow before I take down the computer… maybe I wont... till the future... see ya all later... I think I might cry… TOAST!!!!!!
Sita
Addition: I kinda found out why Hinaru left... i feel like crap because of it... long story short... it was my fault indirectly... so now i get to listen to the violent angry music again.... god i think im blind....



five hours later

Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
She finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
Catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

Yeahhh...

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
To be yourself is all that you can do

Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside his selfish brain
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united?
healty or insane?

And to be yourself is all that you can do
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do
To be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
Be yourself is all that you can do

Even when you've paid enough
Been put upon or been held up
Every single memory of the good or bad
Faces of love
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
But to be yourself is all that you can do

Be Yourself- Audioslave
(yeah I know.. second time in a week.. this has become my new theme song)

ok I said I would do a second post so here it is…. And its gonna be a crappy mood post cause right now I’m kinda in a crappy mood… ooo and I have decided the f-bomb will now be daffodil… it’s a bit funnier and I might have to drop a few… I’m not sure though….. just a warning… uhhhh.. really all I can think is daffodil right now…. I just don’t know… everything is so messed up…. Messed to the max… questioning past actions and present actions and hoping to who ever the hell is out there that my future actions will be a bit less questionable….. just being confused with myself in general today…. I’m trying to understand what happened with Hinaru… failing miserably… but still trying… wishing I knew what the hell was going on in general… I think I need to become an ice queen for a while… if this is where being nice gets you I don’t want any part of it… heh.. and I bet a few people are thinking…. She cant be an ice queen…. Shes messed in the head… and yes.. yes I am…. But I can still be a cold hearted… ehem… I’ll send you all to special services.. yes… special services.. they fix you up real good…. I don’t want to be loved anymore…. I just want to be happy…. And Sita is happy when her friends are happy… I’m tired… must sleep soon… I let work talk me into more work… so now I lack a day off that I had planed for…. Meh… money is nice… and daffodil the daffodils… they’re gonna pay me for every hour I work… ok I think I’m not thinking straight… need a drink… and I’m not alone…. I got my anime collection to keep me company…. Never thought I would make someone leave… let alone for the reason he left… daffodil… its so bloody stupid…. Need sleep…. Be better in the morning…. Always is…
Sita

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