Tuesday, June 14, 2005

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But with out you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
Incomplete- Backstreet Boys

ok a) Howee... I know you and your damn game and I can already hear the comment and to it I say bite me you bastard… its about the lyrics… not the artist (or lack there of) b) *shudder* I think I’m sick

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……… due to events having occurred in the past few days… I am… tapped… no energy… no ability to think of funny comments… just kinda… sitting on the razor blade I guess… waiting to get cut… don’t have anything to say to anyone unless the post is extraordinarily easy to reply to… I would be happy that my wp have managed to pass 4000 downloads… but why? I need to work harder… need to build up my skill… I would come up with some new conspiracy theory… but that’s not really fun right now either… I think I need to get out of the house for a weekend… no computer… just the road… yeah… road trip sounds good right now… go to Vancouver… or………………… I’d go to…………………… Australia… yep… I’m gonna hop in my car and drive across the pacific to go to Australia for a day…………… or maybe I’ll walk to the local mall… haven’t been that bored in a long time… anyone want to buy me a one way plane ticket to anywhere? Oooo I think I’m gonna dye my hair again… this time black… but its only going to be that wash out one week hair dye… I’m not stupid enough (*cough* Tiga) to dye my hair all black for good (it looks good, yes… but god help you if you want to change it)… and thinking about it… maybe buy some black eye liner while I’m at it… if I insist on going through these depressing mood swings I may as well play the part… I think the damn weather is tapping into my mood too… not sure about where Con is… cause I ignore the news for a reason… but its still rainy and cloudy here… which is the kind of weather I like… when I’m happy… but when I’m in this state… it only heightens the anxiety… bloody damn clouds!! *shakes fist* just go away for a while!!…… you ever had just one person… you want to impress them and make them think of you… but they wont do it? There’s plenty of other opportunities with other people to do stuff… but there’s just that one person that you want… so frustrating…I’m torn between sleeping for a week… or bashing my head against the wall really hard… in the end I wont be any further ahead in the long run… but one of the two has to satisfy some part of me… most likely the pain receptors… I’m gonna say it and your all gonna be like don’t do anything stupid now… but I feel like… doing something violent… yes… violence is the answer… maybe go for a nice quiet walk…. That or eat ice cream… the really expensive stuff… that’s like… $6 a container… sounds good… cookie dough… or… or chocolate mint chip… or… or…. I don’t know… something good… that’s it… I’m going to go find some ice cream… make me feel better… oh… and thanks to Afro Jones for being an ear… he puts up with me and makes me feel better… so I have to thank him… no wonder he’s my best friend…
Sita

Note: looking at some of my first posts I ever did and found this…
“If you were rich, you for surely would be wealthy and never pay full price for anything that you can get for free.”
I don’t even know what I ment by that… maybe I was drunk… I think that’s about right… I think it translates to… uhhhh… I don’t know… I’m kinda scaring myself now…. No more re-reading old posts… its just trippy…
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