Thursday, July 21, 2005

Stepping into the suspension
Of reality and logic
Where crystal clear
Is the same as a rock wall
And all is merely thought
With no true meaning
Here you can find me
Where I dwell with
A million thoughts
That all draw to one
Point clear as the pitch black
When was I ever able to
Tell you how love felt?
Sita (aka some girl in a house in a place)

Right then… *looks up*… I actually quite like that one… anyway… the day was an odd one… went to the westerner… went with Tiga… and we were nice enough to take my 11 year old sister with us… I’m sure I will be getting a few “awww aren’t you such a nice sister” comment… at the time I agreed to it… it was mostly to keep her from crying… and to keep the parents happy… it was fun though… I’m surprised to say I had a good time with my little sis… though the original agreement was that she was allowed to come provided she would get numbers from good looking men for me and tiga… she didn’t really fufill that obligation… we did win her a pimp hat… (Its almost as hot as your cowboy hat, Enin ^.^)… ok... to what made the day slightly odd… I ran into a guy I use to go to high school with… first off you have to understand that my graduating class was of 20 students… so you knew the names of all the people you graduated with… didn’t mean you were friends... but you knew each other… right… so I ran into this guy… wasn’t really good friends with him… but I would consider him a friend all the same… so as I walk up to him to say hello he turns around and being the nice guy he is he just grins and says “Hey *cough… name replacment* Sita!!!”… then he sticks his hand out to shake…lol… so I look at his hand and automatically say “what’s that crap?” and he’s like “your right” and gives me a hug… so I talked to him for a bit and found out he was at the fair by himself for a few hours while he was waiting for some friends… so I ask him if he wants to hang out with me and Tiga and my little sister for a bit and he agreed... so that was all good… got to hang out with him for a bit and catch up and had a few laughs… that was awesome!! That was great! That made my day pretty good… now to the part that pissed me off… some people who have been around for a it might remember my non-MyO member friend who I call rockybaby… I considered her my best friend… she’s one of the few people from high school I kept in touch with... anyway… she was one of the people that I mentioned yesterday that I had hoped I might be able to go to the fair with… she said she was busy… so I was slightly surprised to see her at the fair… first though I had when I saw her… “AWESOME!! THERE’S *name replacement* ROCKYBABY!!” then I run up to her to say hello and ask her what she’s doing there cause she had said she couldn’t go on Wednesday (the day I went and its all just a bit staggered)… so as I run up all excited at seeing my friend who I haven’t seen in about two months she turns around and gives me this look of… “what the hell are you doing here?”… stupid thing is… I told her I was going Wednesday…asked her if she wanted to GO Wednesday… to make her reaction better she kinda used this tone that pissed me off… that “ you’re an annoyance and I want you to go away” tone… so I figured if she was going to be like that I would be best to just exit stage left and let her continue with what ever she was doing… just the tone and her inability to at least say hi kinda pissed me off… passed her a few more times as the day progressed… she seems to have developed selective vision… and I’m a little hurt… I thought we were good friends… but I guess she doesn’t think so… the best part is… I guess I kinda saw it coming… just another person to add to my list of “glad to have met you” people… seems like I always do that… make good friends then lose them because you move away… or they move away… or god only knows how many other people (mostly best friends) I’ve lost to stupid reasons… the really stupid thing is she only lives half an hour away... she works in the same city as me… and I know I still wont see her… a great deal of frustration is building up because of this situation… I know I don’t want to lose a good friend… but she knows the phone number… she knows where I live… and she knows how to get a hold of me… I’m pretty sure I wont even get a lame a** email telling me what was up… and I know if I write the first email… I’m likely to call her a few nasty names… so we shall just avoid that little drama of a deteriorating friendship… she can make the first move for once… and if she doesn’t have a problem with losing our friendship… then I guess I don’t either… I just hope she remembers who was there when hell broke out… I’m not gone… just not going to be the first to take that extra step to make awkward conversation when I’m always the one to take the bloody first step…………… wow… second vent post in a row… that felt good… thanks for listening… I think you should all get hero cookies… but Hyper ate them all… so… as a reward.. you get a happy smiely kitty cat…

have a good one all…
Sita

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