Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Well there's far too many questions to ask,
To answer any of them tonight.
For I wear too many masks,
Too tell if any of them are wrong or right.
And confusion casts a shadow up on me,
Like a great big cloud in the sky.
And now I pray for rain,
Cause it's been so long since I let myself cry.

Peaches and Cream- John Butler Trio

I’m Back!!! [SHES BACK!!… SHES BACK!!] shut up hyper… But I’m back!! [ BACK… BACK!!] shut up… I know it wasn’t a long break… but I realized something… the things I was trying to avoid weren’t really avoided by avoiding the site… if that makes sense... [*scratches head* back?]… *cough* life’s just been a bit… twisted lately… so anyway… how’s everyone doing? Still all alive and kicking I hope… so I finished Harry Potter… I’m not sure if I like this book… the ending is so sad… all I know is at one point I was… *cough* kinda whimpering at the book hoping to change how things were going cause it was so disturbing… then I almost cried… only cried for one other book… and it’s a pretty sweet a** book… yeah... I guess it doesn’t help that I had been up the whole night and I’ve just been acting weird to begin with… I’m all tense and ready to snap at certain people while I’m completely laid back and happy with others… I hope its just hormones cause if its permanent… I want nothing to do with it… other than that what else has been up… *looks around the room*… uhhhhh… not much actually… I’m just really twitchy… and to go with my weird mood we’ve had weird weather here… lots of short thunder storms… or it will be really sunny one moment then from no where a big a** back cloud will just show up and leave a nice little path of destruction behind it… mostly rain and wind… I want a tornado… oh god I’ve been reduced to small talk… GET BACK GET BACK GET BACK!!!!! *cough cough cough* stupid small talk… heh… been calling a lot of things stupid too… stupid boys… stupid computer… stupid job… afro commented that I must wake up calling the bed stupid… he’s wrong… I’m usually calling the phone stupid cause that’s usually the reason why I wake up… *mutters* stupid phone… *gives the phone an evil glare*… uhhhhhhh.. what else… ummmmmm… I kinda had a whole post planned but then I kinda forgot what I was going to write… I think its due to the spice girls… you all remember… THOSE Spice Girls…

common… admit it… you know at least one song… ok so the reason I’m making you suffer the wrath of the Spice Girls.. one of the local TV stations decided to play the movie… me… I was avoiding the TV… mostly by talking to Tiga on the phone…. And she tells me to switch to channel 9 or something like that… so I turned the TV on and switched to the channel and spent… no… wasted two perfectly good hours on reliving past memories mostly involving the idols of Posh, Scary, Baby, Sporty and Ginger… crap… I still remember the names… that’s not good… but anyway… when they first came out I idolized them… watching the movie made me realize something… they were what? Like ages... 22 to prolly 26 I think… and they acted like 13-year-olds… it was a little scary… that’s what I idolized and valued when I was 10… the worst part is I remembered most of the lyrics and I’ll prolly go look up some of the more peppy songs to listen to… I feel like I’m going through a mid-life crisis… well we cover everything from my newes emotional development to the weather to me reliving painful memories… I think our time is up… have a good one all… I think its time for me to sleep
Sita

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