Sunday, September 18, 2005

It's my birthday
No one here day
Very strange day
I think of you day
Go outside day
Sit in park day
Watch the sky day
What a pathetic day
I don't like this day
It makes me feel too small
I don't like these days
They make me feel so small
Birthday- Blur

yeah.... I officially hate birthdays.... Ok... good points first... cause a few nice things happened.... First off... Afro (Derrick) came back... hes early... he sent me a PM the day before telling me he prolly wouldnt be back till Monday.... so I was plesantly surprised to see him pop on three days early.... other than that... I did manage to get out of the house.... oddly enough I decided to go visit the people at work for something to do and ended going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory again.... it wasnt that bad of a movie... so that was fun.... ummmmm.... I got some beautiful and awesome presents from some people here....

and my favorite

from Con...
I put up the shirt as a msn avi for a bit and got a mad look from D'Hiur and told him to sent me $500 to take it down XD

From Hinaru....
all I can say is HAIL!!
and

From AnimeChick4DDR
bwuhahaha!! no need to thank my for being a friend you silly girl... its what I do....
ok... so to the bad points that really make me angry and almost completly over shadow the good points.... at least they would If i didnt have that horrible slightly optimistic streak thats just to stubborn to die... so the breaking up with my boy thing wasnt so bad... I can deal with it... we knew it would happen... were still friends.... everyone involved in that is more or less happy.... (I say more or less cause Im still a little hurt by the whole thing.... but I'll get over it...)... the thing that really got me... I call up Tiga... we've been planning to go out for my birthday for the past three weeks... I was looking forward to going out.... it was the reason why I was actually happy and willing to go out and socialize with people instead of being a sad depressed little girl.... So I call her up.... say "so whats the plan?", I said that cause while we had planned to go out... we hadnt actually planned where we were going to go or when we were going to leave... so the response.... yeah... I love the response... "Well you can walk here right?"... she was at a party thing about 20 minutes walk away from me for her family.... this was at about 9:30... ok? understand me so far?..... right.... so I said " Yeah.... I guess I could walk over there.... should I come ready to go out or are we going to your house first?".... at this point Im assuming she wants to save on gas which is all good cause I wouldnt have minded walking over there.... since it was dark and all and I like walking in the dark... so here response..." Your going to hate me...".... my assumption "I dont mind walking... its ok...".... her response to that "No.... your really going to hate me.... Kara (her friend who I was suppose to be sharing birthday celebrations with cause he birthday was a few days ago) is pretty much done right now... Nathan and Jay (her brother and cuz who were were also going out with) have dissapeared (my theory.... already at the bar)..." after that Im pretty sure she said something else... but I kinda stopped listening... I know she said something about walking over there and hanging out... but at that point all I could think was " Right... I didnt even get the bloody phone call..." I was the one that called her... so.... whos smart enough to add two and two together? I know I am.... *sigh* this birthday blowed... I didnt even get a cake.... *grumbles* I would like to add another boy to the not stupid list though... I forgot him... my friend Ben from gaia.... always pops up with a funny comic or something... oddly enough mostly when I feel bad... and he gave me a virtual cupcake for my birthday.... so hes on the keeper list.. and the cake from Con... I like that cake... anyway... I think the way Im going to deal with this whole situation.... screen my phone calls for a few days just to let Tiga know that I really am pissed right now... and I'm going to go home today for some belated birthday celebrations there..... I know my mom will have a cake for me.... and my sisters will be happy to see me... and I can see all the pets again and listen to my dad give me another lecture about getting a second job.... Im more scared to talk to Howee.... I told him I would get drunk.... *sigh*... and this is my pathetic life... Im just happy I got to talk to my friends on msn... otherwise I would have felt really lonely.... thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes... you all get cupcakes *hands out cupcakes to everyone* have a good one folks...
Sita
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