Wednesday, November 23, 2005

You've become a big part of me baby
I found my empathy in your abuse
I'm just a special event to you lately
Am I nothing that's real or true to you

DONT..GO.. I thought I'd never tell
But it's something you should know..

I got no secrets
I give myself away
I got no secrets
And I give my whole existence to you
I get so damaged
Watch me slip away
I get so damaged
Because my whole existence was you
Was you
No Secrets- The Exies

Ok.... so... you sit there... and you think things cant get any worse that they really are.... your sure you've hit the bottom of the barrel.... really..... ok.. lets start from the begining.... back to drunken movie night..... got tanked.... started thinking about stuff.... wanted to PM D'Hiur in the worst way.. didnt.... last night... I tried to discuss the whole issue thing with him.... he managed to squirm out of that out of dumb luck... so I wrote him a fairly long and heart felt PM.... something along the same lines of what I wanted to write when I was drunk but slightly more coherent..... at least I hope it was coherent.... it just kinda made me all weird emotionally.... screwed with my mind a bit.... (from the way this story is going your prolly all thinking hes the problem... am I right?) so... I wander into work today.... Tiffy was off right when I started... so we said hello and good bye really quickly cause she was going out with another friend.... and Im getting all settled in, throwing my stuff in the back and getting my uniform on... I wander out of the back room and Terry, de boss, is leaning on the counter and he says "So do you want the good news or the bad news first?"... I kinda thought it would have something with our district manager, Ed the talking Horse, comming down or something.... so I said lets hear the bad news first... "bad news is Tiff is quiting." thats the first blow.... Tiff is the one who hired me... shes the one thats been with the store the longest at this point.... with out her... were kinda handicapped... so I asked him what the good news was. "Good news is I quit" at this point I look at him and just shake my head. I think I asked him four times if he was kidding. he says "nope... your boss now"...


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So.... at this point... Im kinda between laughing and crying.... I seriously thought it was a joke.... Terry is done at the end of this week... and Tiff is done at the end of next week... I know that they are going to get us a new manager... but the way the company is run... thats going to take a good three months if were lucky..... Just in time for christmas... we have more hours to fill.... lost two full timers.... I'm kinda forced into the acting manager position because I would rather be the incompetant jerk running the store as opposed to being stuck under an incompetant jerk.... I seriously felt like crying.... Tiff is a good friend and Terry is an awesome boss... Its understandable why they quit because the company really is bullshit.... If theres one thing Ive learnt its that you dont actually have to believe in the company to work for it... it just helps you if you believe.... I think I have a moral issue.... but meh.... I know Stacie is practically already looking for a new job.... Captain Commando doesnt even know yet.... but he'll know soon enough.... anyway... I think the order of people to find out was me... tiga... Kevin... Myre.... D'Hiur... the last three by MSN cause I was about ready to freak... Kevin made me laugh... Myre laughed at me..... i told him I was going to force him to move here so he could work for me.... D'Hiur made me feel better.... even though I had to tell him I had to cancel my trip to see him.... I just cant up and leave for a week end when we're going to be struggling with filling hours to begin with... but he said hes going to try to come up here after christmas... which would make me so happy... but Im not going to dwell on that to much cause it will result in me getting really depressed if it doesnt happen.... and with how things are going right now... if it does happen... it will seem like hes here tomorrow.... anyway...... from how he was acting he either read the PM I sent him and decided to give it a try one more time and risk me never talking to him again.... or he didnt read it at all and is a bigger idiot than I thought he could be.... because Im acting oddly optimistic despite the recent events... Im going to say he read it.... so... while Im not sure how I feel about that.... Its nice to know hes on my side right now and there to talk to.... I almost think I could convince him to hop a bus and come work for me XD... I know he would be here in a heart beat if he could... anyway.... I know I have more than just him for a friend.... Any one else interested in job that involves working with abnormally stupid people and low pay?
Sita
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