Friday, December 30, 2005

no time for anything at all
no time to reason or question direction
but I won't let myself fall
I'll just keep pushing 'til the end
I hope that I will find my way
when it's all been said and done
I really think you'll miss it once it's gone
as time passes I get scared
where will I end up and will it be good enough
will it work itself out
or will I be stuck here once again
I'll keep my eyes open wide
and try not to blink
it's just a matter of knowing where to look
cause sometimes things fall apart,
my walls crumble on me,
but I'll keep trying, and trying,
and fighting until I am free
Freedom-Thrice

Ok Ok... Ill post more than a sentence..... Look... two sentences... ^.^ right-o.... so.... its been a boring few days with alot happening.... If that makes sense.... first off... I guess.... I dunno...I found out Howee plans on quitting the MyO for good.... which makes me happy in a sad sort of way.... I know he wants to quit and Im happy he didnt tell me to pick heads or tails again cause I didnt want to pick it in the first place... But Im happy he tells me hes going to keep in touch..... thats really good to know...

Well there's far too many questions to ask,
To answer any of them tonight.
For I wear too many masks,
Too tell if any of them are wrong or right.
And confusion casts a shadow up on me,
Like a great big cloud in the sky.
And now I pray for rain,
Cause it's been so long since i let myself cry.
Peaches and Cream- Johm Butler Trio *is playing right now*

I really dont know... every time I sit down to write I just want to be reflective.... I guess its cause the year is comming to an end and.... Its all really different... Im kinda surprised I made it out of this year alive.... I think tomorrow will be the beg reflective post.... so Ill save it.... anyway.... other than that.... I bought a small book case... I was bloody tired of having a chair as a nightstand.... maybe Ill take before and after pictures... with my new camera!! *grins* course then you can all see how messy of a person I can be.... ^.^ *thinks she should clean before taking any pictures* anyway.... the chair is going back to being a chair and I need to re-arrange my room to make the book shelf fit beside my bed with out covering the heating vent.... *whispers* I think the chair was having an identity crisis... what else.... hmmmm.. went to play pool last night (tuesday night)and.... I didnt say anything to them... (mostly because I never had much to say to any of them) but I saw some guys I graduated with... which was kinda cool and scary at the same time cause I remember all of their names.. which isnt really that hard when you graduate with 19 other people.... but.... it didnt feel like I should remember them... faces from the past and all.... anyway... Other than that.... I think I proved that I dont need to be drunk or high to say incredibly stupid things... Im done for tonight all... have a good one...
Sita
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