Thursday, February 2, 2006

Well maybe I'm in love
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Accidentally in Love- Counting Crows

Ok... so.... bout... well.... *goes back to find the post shes thinking of* WHY THE HELL DO I TALK SO MUCH?!?!.... *grumbles as she sorts though her archives* HA!! found it.... anyway.... hmmmmm *reads over the old post* I knew most of it wasnt that important.... anyway.... the breakdown of the post was stuff a guy could do to make me like him... stuff from general physical contact to my current favorite... beach trip... I made this post way back in May of last year.... so that gives you a timeframe to think about.... anyway... after looking at the stuff I listed... it all matters... but its not important as just being there... being a good guy... being trustworthy.... *realizes shes learned something about relationships in the past year* damn.... anyway.. THATS NOT THE POINT!! Ramses said he had an early surprise Valentine's day present for me because he's going to be busy Valentine's day.... so.... anyway.... He and a friend of his set up a private thread for me and him to use to... anyway... the way its set up its a private beach type thing... *smiles* it might sound a bit stupid to some people... *is thinking of Dorian who she might kick in the balls if he says the wrong thing* but it gives me that happy feeling in my stomach again... anyway... I thought it was funny that the one thing I would ask for is a beach trip and he gave it to me... So I told him about it... and he gave me his own list of things he would do for his girl... which I thought was an awesome list...

Tell her I love as much as I can
Kiss as much as possible
Hold her in a strong embrace and be a strong man.
Wish she'd be mine forever and ever
Sing to her at any chance I get
When around her, try to be better.
Try not to make a fool of yourself when she is near
Make sure to take care of her
Make sure she has nothing to fear.
Get down on your knees and exclaim how you feel
Whisper sweet loving words in her ear.
Tell her your not always right but hope she'll love you still.

Which brings me to my next thought... I had decided to not deal with boys for a while... now I'm going deeper than I thought... *smiles* It feels really good with Ramses... I dont want to admit it... but even if he left now... I would hurt alot from it... I guess this comes back to the wanting to not care about people... My security has been invaded.... granted its a good invasion..... =^.^=...... but I shall still have to be careful.... at least for a bit.... He has his issues with A.... which are going to take a while to sort out... but Im going to stick with him unless he askes me to leave.... so hopefully it works out for the best
Sita
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