Friday, February 23, 2007

   heyas!

wow! i havent wrote in a while! sorry ppl! :( ive been way to busy for my own good. lol. studying and sports, its just crazy my schedule. lol. anyhoo! today we had a rally at school, and it was super coool! the decorations were awsome! and so was everything else! the skits were even entertaining.... except for the freshmen... but that one made me LAUGH! lol. we had impersonators come and perform. one for madonna and one for prince. that was awsome! today was super coolo! now im off to go out and eat dinner w/ my buddies! they are celebrating my bday! :) they are awsome! peace out yo!

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Monday, February 19, 2007

   hey~

hey everyone! well, my bday was a success! everything was perfect! and we stayed up late and watched movies! it was awsome! thanx to everyone! bye and have aq good week! :)

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Sunday, February 18, 2007

   hey everyone!

thanx for the pms ab out my bday! luv yall! and today is going good so far !!! wooohooo! :)

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Saturday, February 17, 2007

   me and my thoughts

hey everyone... well tomorrow is my bday. and youd think id be super happy about it.... but i just got to rreally thinking.... some how i always end up really messing up my bday one way or another. a couple years back i didnt want to be tricked so i stayed down stairs and wouldnt leave the room, and my mom just plopped the cake right in front of my face and said happy bday, they sang and all... but i noticed i really messed up. last year i actually was very moody, and i didnt want to go out and eat... AT ALL.... but my family forced me to. i cried the entire time, i guess ive never truly been happy on my bday. its not the best of days for me. i guess its b/c im always thinking about the future, and it scare3s me. i dont want to grow up, but i dont want to live forever. im a big kid, i love messing around, being lazy, not having to care... but each year gets tougher, harder, and it just tears me apart. i wish i could be as strong as i say i am, but im just a big baby. ill take care of my friends and family, but when it comes to me... i wont care. i know i can be a greedy person, but who isnt? idk what im trying to say here. im not saying im not spoiled, b/c really i am. no lies. i guess i dont want to get older, i dont want to move on, i just want to stay here, like this, safe,f or ever. i know i cant, but still, i still dream. i dont understand why im always so hard on myself on my bdays.. like its judgement day or something, i get through it, but i just find it one of the most depressing days of the year. i mean... this is the last year im going to be a kid... next year i will be an adult and it will all be over for me. ill be signing up for college, moving out of my house, and living my own life. its scary, and im not ready. i thought i was, but i am not. i cant move to new york like i always wanted to... b/c i have finally realized that i am broken with out my family, so for now, i think im going to stay buried, hidden in my shell, until im ready. this is my last day as a 16 year old, and its been a good day so far.... but really i feel sad... b/c everyone made the biggest deal about my friend natalies bday (a cake, a card, balloons) but no one got me anything. im not saying that i wanted all of that... but they didnt even mention it. not nat, or steph, or even alma not like they did for nat. im just a bit bumemd i guess. but there were others who said happy bday, and those ppl made my day. :). my moms not even gonna be here for my bday, for my last bday as a young adult, and it just breaks me. some how, my bday is always ruined... even if i smile, and seem the happiest, i end up crying alone in the bathroom. i really dont want to be an adult, im jjust not ready. im not asking for pity, i just wanted to write, ya know? but i know tomorrow is going to be different. no one really understands, i know its stupid, but not for me. but after a week, ill get over it, and my bday will be history, ill be over it. untill my next judgement day. wish me good luck! bye guys.... JUST TO LET YA ALL KNOW! IM NOT LETTING MY LAST DAY AS A 16 YEAR OLD GO TO WAIST! IM GOING OUT WITH THE BUDDIES, ANDIMA PARTY! THERES NO ONE THIS BDAY IS GOING TO RUIN ME THIS YEAR! I DONT CARE AT ALL! PEACE OUT! AND I LUV YA GUYS!

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Friday, February 16, 2007

   Hola!

Hey everyone! first off! i would like to apologize! its getting much harder for me to visit this site as the days go by. the hw load is gettting heavier, and tests are being assigned like no other! :(. so i will try to write as much as possible! another topic is that, b/c i cant write as much as i used to, im going to only have to do a picture of the week. sorry for those who did care about that, but i dont have the time to look for the pix anymore. :( today was a tough day, super snoooooze fest! l;ol.... every period!@ no joke! but i got through! we did two test s and im pretty sure i failed both of them, right now i dont really seem to care... (it was math and history). OOOO OMG! I JOINED TRACK AND FIELD AGAIN! I TOTALLY FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVED TRACK AND FIELD! :). im the only girl shotput-er... but im fine with that. at first (yesterday was my 1st day) i was really nervous, b/c ium the only girl and the rest are all guys... but now all they guys are talking to me a little more, and two wont leave my side, they are both cuties (1 is too short, the other is just a cutie and they are both JUST buddies! i got a guy :)). anyhoooooo..... they make me feel at home, and are cracking jokes all the time. although it is wierd to listen to some of the stuff guys talk about when they are in packs, you kind of get use to it, and you hit them in the back of the head when they are out of line. :). plus i mean.... you get to see alot of hot guys work out right in front of you... nice. lol. ya, but none of them are my type, they are all jocks... and although my guy is a jock too... hes really sweet. :). well im just sooo glad that the guys are making me one of the "guys". i know that sounds wierd, but not really, its cool being like a semi tom boy, and hanging out with abunch of guys. there was this one guy (one of the guys i hang w/ [jose]) hes short and superrrr thin! hes really cute but i guess the fact that he is sooo short makes him feel bad. we were talking just me an d him, and i told him that some times i feel wierd being the only girl, like i dont fit in. i wish i could, but i just dont. then he told me, "i feel the same way. ya know? cause im the shortest and too thin..." and i guess we could relate... in a wierd way. :) im a tall gal 5' 8" so its easier for me to be in shot put then him. :) its nice to know that you arent the only one... ya know? i know this was a long read... but i just felt like weriting... and couldnt stop. so thanx to those who actually read this ginormous letter. lol. and have an awsome weekend you ppl! PEACE!@

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

   HEY EVERYONE HAPPY VDAY!!! :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAH! WHAT A WONDERFUL DAY! I LOVED EVERY MOMENT OF IT! EVEN THE DULL PERIOD UNO!LOL! :) I LOVE VDAY! TODAY I TOTALLY ACTED SILLY W/ MY BUDDIES, AND I COULDNT STOP YAPPING ABOUT JAIME. LOL. HE SENT ME A CUTE CARD! :) AND I MADE HIM ONE TOO! AND WE TALKED FOR AS SLONG AS WE COULD, BUT HE HAD TO GO TO WORK. :( I HOPE ALL OF YOU HAVE JUST AN AWSOME VDAY! :) LUVYAS! PEACE OUT!

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

   YAY! YAY! :) SO COOOL!

JAIME MADE 3RD PLACE IN HIS COMPETITION! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?! THAT IS SOOO AWSOME! IM SO HAPPY FOR HIM! PLUS HE'S HOME! YAY! :) SOOO COOL! :)

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   hey! my day!/ PIC OF THE DAY! :)

wow.... today... was a snoooze! no joke. i woke up 4 times in the morning b/c of my alarm, but i wanted to continue to huddle underneath my warm, fuzzy blankets! and just lay their cozy as hell. but i was forced to wake up by my evil younger sister, and i dressed and all went to school to the awful first period. *dun dun duuuuuun!! sound* Chem AP with Mr. B. oh gosh, that was awful, what a bore, and i tried to pay attention... but who could when your on sleep mode???! 2nd period i actually did ceramics, i mean... who gets bored in ceramics??! lol. and i am almost finished with my project, its a hyroglyph, but its a relief piece (pops out on one side, but flat on the other). ir looks wicked! :). then third we were just writing down definitions, and drawing the color wheel.... (DEFINITIONS IN ART!!! WTH?? GIVE ME SOME PAPER AND COLORS DAMN IT!)lol... i was really looking forward to coloring... but that never came. *sad face*. oh well, theres tomorrow. 4th was cool, i was pretty much just talking to Anna!! ( i luv that woman!) and daydreaming... so that was nice! lol. she lent me the 5th book of nana, and im super excited to finish it! :) and 5 and 6th were just boring... no need to waist time on those two subjects. lol. :) well i hope tomorrow is much more exciting! it better be!!! its VALENTINES DAY! YAY!!! :) ima make jaime a cute e-card! :) HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A VERY SPECIAL VDAY! AND MEMBER! BF AND GF ARENT THE ONLY PPL YOU CAN SHARE YOUR LOVE WITH! :) THE PIC OF THE DAY! i just thought that she was pretty, and that the dress and fan were soooo gorgeous! i think that is mainly what the pic is about! the dress... i mean what do you see at first glance?? for me it was the dress. :) what do you awsome ppl think? lol. have a great week! :)

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Monday, February 12, 2007

   hey! i have a question! :)

does anyone know how many episodes "Full Moon" goes up to??? b/c i have only watched up to episode 11, and there arent anymore on youtube... so i was just wondering if there is only 11 episodes. please lemme know! thanx! NANA CHOU: well, no, nothing has happened with jaime whileyou were gone. lol. he went to a science competition, im really excited for him! :). Kyofanatic13: ya hes going to back to his house by valentines day. lol. :)

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   hey! / PIC OF THE DAY! :)

Hola everyone! well last night and today ive been watching Ceres: Celestial Legends. well all the ones ive read up to on youtube. :). and they are cool, but hte books are AWSOME! ;). well honestly nothing really exciting has happened in the past two days. Jaime, the guy im seeing, is otu of town, so im bored ... and i have hw to do... put who wants to do that??? lol. well then i gotta go work. and im really tired... i wanna snooze! peace! :) heres The pic of the day! i just like this one, cause shes cute, but shes acting fierce! women rock! lol.

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