Monday, August 15, 2005

"And suddenly, i'm becoming part of the past, the part that doesnt last, and everyone knows i'm in over my head, over my head"-the fray "over my head (cable car)"

today was my last day of freedom until next summer and do u know ho wi spent it? by myself at the mall for 2 and a half hours. obviously, not the funnest time i've ever had in my life but since i was so unfortunetly stuck there i made the most of it. i got a sweet backpack that has the my chemical romance logo... ahh so cool. other than that, i felt like shit the rest of the day. no joke. i just wanted to throw up and get it over with lol. oh well. i get to see all my friends... well, i'm off to do other things...

love always,
jojo
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Saturday, August 13, 2005

   good song....
"Somewhere I Belong"

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

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Friday, August 12, 2005

   agony and defeat... what's the point?
to simply put it... i'm bored out of my mind right now. i think i could be watching an ant carry crumbs to his little ant hill and be more amused. *sigh. ok, question... who the hell thought of marrying another person after u've already been divorced once? i think it is completely retarded and goes against morals in this soicety. not to mention i cant stand my step father... but seriously if u think about why after u've screwed up once do u want to put urself through hell again? it's terrible. is it to prove to the person u divorced ha! i can survive with out you? or is to prove to yourself people still want you? you'd think people would learn their lesson... ok well, i'm done ranting and raving...

love always,
jordan
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