Monday, March 20, 2006

   please... not again....
i could feel this happening again... and now i'm all depressed. i cant lose my best friend... not again and especially not from a guy. i dunno why its like this... maybe cuz i've been grounded for so long... or maybe thats just how the cookie crumbles. I strongly believe everything happens for a reason... you may not know the reason at the time, but in the end there is a meaning. maybe there is a reason we're not talking as much as we used to, or maybe we've both just changed so much. i know i have. maybe its my fault. maybe if i had stayed my same old jordan this wouldnt be happening. crap. now i realize it is my fault... well, i'm going to go... bye.
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

   all is fair in love and war
let's see yesturday was pretty much kick ass. i got my ears peirced again, that was sweet, and i got like a spa kit thingy with a massager that feels good!! lol. that sounds dirty, anywho, got lots of clothes, and money and a car! and i got to talk to my daddy for an hour, so that makes me happy. uhhh other than that... nothing much else... 6 more days until i'm ungrounded yay! ok well, g2g peace yo!
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

i'm legal!
I'M 16 BITCHES!!!!! woot woot woot!!!! yea thats about it... peace yo...
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Friday, March 10, 2006

well, hello hello
I haven't updated in awhile, and i have nothing else to do as of right now, so i thought i would update for all my lovely readers. Ummm let's start out by saying that life has been pretty boring, since i am grounded for the time being... but anywho... umm love life has been on the slow side... but thats a whole other issue i wont get into on my blog... uhhh i have 4 more days until my sweet 16!! woot woot! i get to go on a shopping spree tomorrow with my mum. Hopefully they will have cute clothes cuz i always find stuff when i dont have money, but when i do i never buy anything! it's quite sad really. i really need new clothes though... so yea. other than that life has been peachy-keen school still pretty much sucks, but when doesnt it? ok, well, i'm gonna go now... peace yo!
j'adore toi toujours,
jordan
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Friday, February 24, 2006

yay for easter candy!!
"The Nameless"

Pathetic (benign)
Accept it (undermine)
Your opinion (my justification)
Happy (safe)
Servent (caged)
Malice (Utter weakness)
No toleration
Invade (committed)
Enraged (admit it)
Don't condescend (don't even disagree)
Destroy (decay)
Dissapoint (delay)
You've suffered then, now suffer unto me.

Obsession, take another look.
Remember, every chance you took.
Decide, either live with me
Or give up - any thought you had of being free

(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate.

Anyone (NO) Anything (YES) Anyway (FALL)
Anybody (MINE) Anybody (TELL ME)
I want (YOU) I need (YOU) I'll have (YOU)
I won't LET ANYBODY HAVE YOU
Obey (ME) Believe (ME) Just trust (ME) Worship (ME) Live for (ME)
Be grateful (NOW) Be honest (NOW) Be precious (NOW) Be mine (JUST LOVE ME)

Possesion (feed my only vice)
Confession (i wont tell you twice)
Decide - (either die for me)
Or give up - any thought you had of being free.

(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hurting you.
(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate.

(Yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaahhhhhh)
Stay inside the hole, let me take control. (Dominate)
You were nothing more, you were something less (innocent)
Something has to give - something has to break (omnipresent)
Fingers on your skin, let my savage in
YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU DESERVE IT.

(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you (i wanted you)
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hurting you. (was hurting you)
(Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you (i wanted you)
(I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate.

You're mine (you are you are)
You're mine (you are you are)
You're mine
YOU'RE MINE

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

and life goes by....
*sings* I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married.... and you're all mine now!!

hate me today... hate me tomorrow... hate so you can see whats good for you.
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and life goes by....
*sings* I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married.... and you're all mine now!!

hate me today... hate me tomorrow... hate so you can see whats good for you.
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Thursday, February 16, 2006

woot woot woot
Ello!!! Did you just say hello??? NO! i said Ello but close enough!!! hehehe.... good times, good times... ewww your gross... sorry i'm just typing random things that are being said... hmmmmmmmm
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Monday, February 6, 2006

topic of the day=rebellion
last night i read this quote about rebellion and how it makes everyone sane again. it said that if you didn't rebel you wouldn't ever be happy. it was talking about the government, but i put it to use in my own personal life.
I have had a lot of stuff running through my head lately. what i should and shouldn't be doing and what my life has become. it's crazy because this is the way i thought i have always wanted it. completely full of great mishappenings and plenty of drama for ten people. i thought i would feel better if i always had something going on. but, incredibly enough, i have finally relized i freaking hate it.
most of you dont know what i am talking about, and probably think i am rambling, but the fact of the matter is, i'm so happy i made the mistakes that i did. and i wanted everyone to know that. because, if i hadn't i would have never known what i was missing or wasn't missing out on and that would make me think my life was incomplete. I mean, i do have some regrets for what i did, but for the most part i dont. it made me see that people are seriously are not all that they are set up to be. Especially that certain person.
This certain person i put on a pedistal, that certain person that completely changed my life no matter whether they think they did or not, that certain person who i wanted with all my heart and soul and no one, not even my best friends, could change my mind about it.
Well, to make a long story short, this certain person took my heart out of my chest, ripped it in two, and then laughed in my face... or so it seems. but i looked at it closer and relized they were just there to teach me another lesson in my life.
I am one of those people who believe everything, no matter what it is, happens for a reason. This happened for a reason.I know it. Thus, the statement of rebellion rears it's ugly head and remains truthful. If i hadn't of rebelled against my parents wishes, i would have never known until later in life. and thats when it could have been an even bigger mistake.
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Saturday, January 28, 2006

the story of my life...
If it stayed i'd never leave it
If that turned around
I'd grieve the special dirty things that we used to talk about
I mean that loving you is strange
And adored by me throughout oh no it's you again
Someday soon you'll find that someone
Waiting for the chance to beat you
Drooling on the set to feel you
Blessing you with every kiss

Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill

Such the patient one who needs me
The spoiled one who wins
So shocking where's your sense
Don't you know i hate you, ohoh
Unsatisfied,you little girl.

Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill

Rolling dice and seeming queer
Bastard love,a sick affair
Let's see what new disease you'll fetch
I mean that fucking you is strange
And adored by me throughout
Oh no it's you again
Blessing you with every kiss

So precious you know this hate of mine exploded
I'm so deranged you know
I will never be the same

Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
Tying yourself to me
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me
So precious loving the thrill
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