Wednesday, April 13, 2005

   Attention whore day
I guess that today is just my day to be an attention whore, just because I fell like it. =^__^=

Sometimes I just get in the mood to try my best to get all the attention I can. Kind of like my cat does sometimes. No matter what I do, until I give him the attention he wants (which can be quite alot) he wont leave me alone. Most of the time I don't mind it. So today, I am the kitty that wants attention from its owner. *nuzzles his Empress*

~merrow~ <3 =^_^=
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Sunday, April 10, 2005

   another late night.
So, here I am at 2 in the morning trying to find something to do while I put together my 'villan mix'. I desided to make a CD that has some songs that sound like villan songs... atleast for the kind of villan I am. That would be the 'ex-hero' villans. The ones that used to be for justice untill some tragedy or an accumulation of scorn and unappreciation from the very people they worked to protect turn them into hard hearted, self-serving villans.
Its starts out pretty mellow and as it goes on the despair of rejections turns into the raging furnace of revenge! Am I good or what? *devilish grin*

Pretty much I become a villan because I am not appreciated for the good I do for others so I only do good for myself even if that includes doing wrong to others.

My main song is 'King of Pain'. Its pretty easy. Kind of like accepting the truth and desiding to live with it and by it instead of fight it.

~Theres a little black spot on the sun today. Its the same old film as yesterday. Theres a black kite caught in a high tree top. Theres a flag pole racked and the wind wont stop

I have stood here before beside the pouring rain with the world turning circles running round my brain. I Guess that I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign, but its my destiny to be the King of Pain~

Very nice song I think.

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Thursday, April 7, 2005

   Today is a quiz day
All I've done today is take quizes. I like quizes about myself ^__^.


Your score is 35. You are certainly a noncombatant in the game of love. You like things calm and collected and prefer to keep conflicts at a minimum. This does not mean that you don't stand up for yourself. When you feel very strongly about something or when your needs are not being met you will say something. However, you have the rare gift of being able to talk about uncomfortable things without everything blowing up in your face. Bravo! You are the ideal partner, easy going and loving most of the time but not afraid to speak up when something doesn't feel right to you. You do not need to change a thing!



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Rather accurate quiz
I was surprised at this quiz. Especially since it was on I-am-bored.com

Wackiness: 66/100
Rationality: 30/100
Constructiveness: 80/100
Leadership: 44/100





You are a WECF--Wacky Emotional Constructive Follower. This makes you a Candle burning at both ends.

You work until you drop, and you play until you can stand to work again. You have so much enthusiasm that you can find it hard to control on your own, and you appreciate the guidance that channels your energy and lets you be your best.

In a relationship, you require lots of attention and support. You often over-contribute and end up feeling depleted and cheated. You may benefit from more time alone than you grant yourself.

Your driving force is the emotional support of others--especially affection. You can run on empty for miles if you have positive energy behind you. Without it--as it occasionally must run dry--you are depressive, listless, and difficult to motivate.

You need a lot of affection. Get it any way you can, but never at the cost of your self-respect or well-being.
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   Over reaction
Ok, ok. I was stressed out and over reacted yesterday. I had a really rough night at work the night before and she was upset too so I kind of went over board.

Things are worked out now ^__^
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Wednesday, April 6, 2005

   Why?
Why am I so angry about this? So she doesn't want to do our diet anymore, so what? But she is the one who wanted it first and I did it for her. That and the way she plays games with me. Not the fun games we play, but the ones that keep things from me and make me feel like nothing. Is she trying to make me mad? I don't want to be mad at her. I don't. I know that we will do things to get on each others nerves, but I still don't like it.

I wish that I could be in a better mood. I hope that this passes. I need to talk to her. I just want us to keep doing what we're doing so that she is happy about how she is. Thats why we started it. She wasn't happy with her body so I said I would help her make it better.

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

   My Saturday!
Flipin' selective service! Like selling your soul to the government.

The one major reason I wanted to stay 17! I can be 18 and still be 17!

There had better not be any draft or anything, because I am not a man that is going to go to war. I am the man that is pittiful and doesn't make it through bootcamp and can't be sent to war. either that or I would get a discharge. Even a dishonerable discharge! I DON'T LIKE BEING SHOT AT!*heavy breathing* *catches breath*

ANYWAY! Today totaly r0x0r3d! Kitty got to stay all day, just about all my friends came, I had VASH on my cake wiht 'LOVE AND PEACE!' and it was just a nice day.

My favorite gift was from my Empress. A note, and a basket of colorful stones with things writen on them. Not valuble to many, but worth more than anything else she could have gotten me <3 Its not the stones that were special, but what was writen on them, and even if that wears away the feeling represented is still there and that is the true gift.

*Loves his Empress more than anime/videogames/ramen/bottles/AND the coat put together**more than anything else in the world*
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Monday, February 14, 2005

18!!
W00t! I am 18 Wednesday!

What does this mean?
1 I have a job and am 18
2 I watch cartoons and am 18
3 I play NES and am 18
4 I have no car and am 18
5 I am wasting time
6 Thats pretty much all this is
7 I am really not that excited about it at all
8 I'm not going to come up with 10 good reasons its good to be 18
9 IF I smoked I could buy cigaretts (but I hate smoking)
10 I still waste time reading webcomis and am 18

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Monday, January 31, 2005

I'm pointless
Heh, well. It turns out that all my worry was for nothing after all, which is a very good thing ^__^. Sometimes I just get crazy like that and imagine bad things when I have no reason to think that they may actualy be true. Oh well, i guess everyone has to have a bad day every once in a while.

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Friday, January 28, 2005

   Paranoia
well... I'm not sure if there really in anything to worry about, but there might be, which is the definition of paranoid. I don't ask questions because I think that someone with think that I don't trust them. But I do want to trust them, but I want to know the answers to my questions. At the same time I'm stuck between protecting and being overbearing. I don't want to do something to ruin anything, but if I don't do something will it be ruined still? I'm not expecting anyone to comment on this just because no one comments on any of my stuff, and its not like it would help a whole lot. Feel free to comment if you wish.
But remember...

LEAVE MY EMPIRE ALONE YOU TREACHEROUS THEIVES!!
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