Friday, January 4, 2008

   Frankly, there's nothing so unusual about being a Jewish Cowboy!
Maybe this whole 'being down' is just plain selfish.
I'm pretty sure I'm not chronically depressed, so that rules out any legitimate cause. XD

As you may or may not know, I'm a member of Deliric [.com, it's a site where you can post your poems/etc] and edges' "Fluctuating Confidence" - also thegurl101's "ME" - have somewhat led me to that conclusion.
I've never liked the phrase "life is what you make it." >>;

Anyhow, there's pep band tonight. For boys basketball. Whoopee! I hope we have our t-shirts...they're pretty flipping amazing. <3
I was dubbed the "Queen of awkward[ness]" today...by 4+ of my friends, so I guess it's pretty official. Dannnng. XD We've been collecting quotes [in bio, where I was dubbed - bwahaha, the sub was so confused!] and...well, it's hard to believe there's any other kind of awkward than sexual-innuendo-awkward. Sheesh. GET YOUR MINDS OUT OF THE GUTTER!


Hee. Oh, and I tripped UP the stairs TWICE today. At least there weren't many people around...and I caught myself. I was very careful the rest of the day. XD
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Monday, December 31, 2007

   In my fear of loss, I run...
Heard a beautiful song yesterday. "No Roads Left" by Linkin Park. Maybe it's just like that to me, but it's still amazing.

Just watched Pride & Prejudice. I have to say, I'm jealous. Mr. Darcy is pretty flipping amazing... anyhow, wonderful movie. Even if you can't take the book [I couldn't do it] I'd recommend the movie, it's very well done.

I'm going crazy again. I don't find any source of relief, most things [I feel like] I'm forced to do. I'm sick of being so pathetic.
For your reading pleasure, here are the lyrics to the LP song I mentioned. Whoever wrote this just beat me to the punch.


standing alone with no direction/how did I fall so far behind?/why am I searching for perfection?/knowing it's something I won't find

in my fear and flaws/I let myself down again/all because

I run/till the silence splits me open/I run/till it puts me underground/till I have no breath/and no roads left but one

when did I lose my sense of purpose?/can I regain what's lost inside?/why do I feel like I deserve this?/why does my pain look like my pride?

in my fear and flaws/I let myself down again/all because/I let myself down/in my fear and flaws

I run/till the silence splits me open/I run/till it puts me underground/till I have no breath/and no roads left but one/no roads left but one

in my fear and flaws/I let myself down again/all because

I run/and the silence splits me open/I run/and it puts me underground/but there's no regret/and no roads left to run
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Sunday, December 30, 2007

   Sorry, luv, it just would never have worked between us...
Went shopping today. Bought things. Got a pair of $80 pants for $9.99.
Lately I've had a strange urge to swallow things. Not just food, random things. Like shrinky dinks. Ow.

Holy flipping cow. I have to say, for the emo song of the week, “I’m Not Okay (I Promise)” TOTALLY takes the cake. In fact, was there ever a cake? I mean, if this song took the cake, the cake’d be high as a double-decker bus with blood squirting out of it [instead of a stripper...sorry, guys...KIDDING!], also adorned with razors, poetry, tight girl pants, & band shirts - the cake, not the blood. [See? There never was a cake.] Anyhow, you can’t take this song without the video. Help yourself, and don’t be afraid to come back for more. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OF9UB_xrhMI&NR=1

Whew! Now that that's over, what else do I have to ramble about...oh yeah. PONG! GET YER PURPLE LIL' HMM-HMM OVER TO MYOTAKU AND POST! IT'D BE NICE TO ACTUALLY HEAR ABOUT YOUR LIFE ONCE IN A WHILE! IF YOU DON'T START TELLING, THEN I'LL BE FORCED TO KEEP ASKING AND PROBABLY WILL START MAKING THINGS UP! Don't worry, you won't have any strange meetings with Fabio until you wear that pink frilly dress. ^^

That will be all. <3
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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

   Why, hello Dr. Feelgood! Haven't seen you in a while...
Yay, my compy's working again! I've been wasting time on the internets looking up pics of mohawks, surfing Threadbanger, and generally, well, wasting time. WHOOPEE! Apparently it's been distracting from my schoolwork [*suprised face*] since my grades are lower than @ midquarter. OHHHH NOES! [It's Dr. Tran..!]
My family [okay, just my mom] has enlisted me to write our Christmas/New Year letter. Hmm, too bad everyone wants to read it before we send it out...*le sigh*
Well, to help me work through that, there's always my songs. I've composed a [growing] list of music, and I'm going to post it here if you want a feel-good/rock-out song. :) Easiest way to listen is on projectplaylist[.com]..
What I Got - Sublime / Sunshine - Atmosphere / Dimension - Wolfmother / Army of Me - Bjork / Starz In Their Eyes - Just Jack / Down Boy - Yeah Yeah Yeahs / Rockin' The Suburbs - Ben Folds / Doomsday Clock - Smashing Pumpkins / What's My Age Again? - Blink-182

To be continued...
<3 PiNG
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Thursday, July 5, 2007

   It's Been A While...
I'm sitting at my overheated laptop listening to Cloud Cult eating Kix. [Oh yeah. XD]

Today, I woke up at noonish, made a bunch of chocolate chip pancakes, played bari, played Tony Hawk [i'm getting better, yay! now if only i was that good in REAL LIFE..], biked to the library with my sister, and did chores so my mom wouldn't find a reason to get on my case. :D

I'm going to be working at camp next week! I'M SO EXCITED!!! YaAaAyYyYy!
I'm making this long to make up for all the days I haven't posted..>>; I believe that my mother is convinced she has the solution to everything. For every complaint, she shouts the *obvious* solution, to which the rest of us merely give eachother an enduring look and try (hard) not to roll our eyes. Oh, and she likes taking lots of blame for her little mistakes. Maybe she likes acting like forgetting to put salt in the hotdish she made is really going to kill us..
Suddenly I have this burst of energy, I really want to go DO something, maybe not run around like a crazy person [but that'd be fun], but draw, play guitar (electric..and turn it up real loud O.O], hang with friends, etc. I guess jumping around in my room [trying hard not to break things] to loud music until someone complains will have to do. Since July 4th was yesterday, I'm thinking running around (outside) screaming wouldn't be acceptable..
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007

   peasent, peasant...eh? we're just subatomic particles!
so.
varsity band (and concert band) went to contest today.
to get a superior rating (it goes poor, good, excellent, superior) you need 35 points from 2/3 judges.

we got a 30, a 35, and a 34.

*implodes**brings the apocalypse*

yeah. needless to say, i was kind of pissed. but not really. we all good... :P

my brain isn't functioning today, i think it's cuz i took a test at like six o'clock. does anyone else think that that's just WRONG?


oh. well, i do.
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