Sunday, March 25, 2007

Dream-Scape
On the way back in the bus I had a dream..
It was a strange one. But I want to share it.
The dream started like real life..

I was rideing in the bus back to the ship.
Then there was a accident.
And I was put in a coma..
But.. I wasn’t there.. my spirit had come out of my body which is why I was in a coma.
I didn’t realize it at first till I was floating above the scene looking down.
As they rushed me to the hospital.
Then only one thought crossed my mind..
I wanted to see you.
As a spirit I was able to travel very fast. And I was there in Hawaii in no time.
But that’s when I ran into a problem…
How does a spirit ask for directions.
Then I found a computer café..
Somehow I was able to type still..

So I waited till someone left a computer on and walked away.
I got on msn and only ellen was on.
I didn’t have time to explain so I asked how I could get to her from where I was.
She told me and then I was at her house..

Somehow I convinced her to open msn and I talked to her by typing and her talking back to me.
Then when she didn’t believe it was really a spirit and not me playing a joke on her I told her to hold up a digital camera and turn on nightvision.
Then I “stepped” (do spirits step?) in front of it and she almost screamed till she noticed I was waving with a goofy smile.
She couldn’t really see me clearly.. just a blurry grey outline but she could tell it was me.

Then she called you.
And somehow over the phone you could hear my spirits voice.
I got quick directions to your house and told you to wait by a computer.
I left in a hurry as ellen tried to explain what she could about what happened.
I got to your house and your sister was on but you were nearby
I watched you patiently.
Wishing I could kiss you.

I brushed the hair from your face and you looked around like a gust of wind had done it..
Then I whispered “I Love you” in your ear.
I didn’t expect you to hear it but you did.. just barely.
And you turned white.
You wanted to say my name but were afraid what your sister would do.
I was as surprised as you and knocked your pencil on the floor (you had been sketching while you were waiting)
as I quickly backed up. Through the table…
I don’t understand how I effected the pencil and not the table but I did.
Maybe it was my strong desire to communicate and a pencil being a means of that.

You picked the pencil up and wrote in small neat letters “are you there?”
I whispered “can you really hear me?”
And you wrote “Yes?”
In reply. I kissed your cheek and watched as it tickled you and made you smile a little
Then told that I love you again.
Your sister finished on the computer so you got on.
We talked through typing some. I still whispered from time to time.
I kissed you a few times then you said you wanted to see me.
I told you about the camera thing but you said your camera didn’t have nightvision.
Then your mentioned something about water.

You changed into a swimsuit. Then poured a cool bath.
Then laying in the water with your ears underwater I spoke to you.
And you could hear me clearly.
Your face lit up as I talked your ears off you knew it was me for sure.
Then still laying on your back you submerged your whole head underwater then opened your eyes.
To see me. Leaning over the tub. With on hand behind your head as if supporting you gently
I told you I loved you. Then you sat up quickly.
As tears and water streamed down your cheeks.
You told me how happy you were I was hear but sad that it wasn’t “real”
As you looked down in the water you saw my reflection trying desperately to dry the tears I couldn’t touch.
You smiled at my silly attempts
Then told me you loved me.
And were so happy I was there.
But that you wanted me to be here for real one day.
So I should go back before I can’t go back to my body.
I said you were right.
Then I asked for a kiss.
You closed your eyes and felt me kiss your lips lightly.
Then said goodbye.
If a spirit could cry… I was…
As I wisked back to the hospital to see my body in the ER.

I was dead.. my heart had stopped.. and the doctor was just putting away the paddles.
I felt myself being pushed away like to magnets of the same polarity
I tried so hard. I pushed. And finally I touched my body.
I pulled myself back in and took a deep breath.
The monitor beeped.
The doctor stopped and took a second look at me.
And I woke up.

We were still only half-way back
But I couldn’t help but smile and blow you a kiss

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