Thursday, February 8, 2007

Guys, I dunno what to do...
Anyone remember the post from a few weeks ago? The one about the fight I had with my ex-aniki? Well, it's been a glorious few weeks, some ups some downs but mostly ups since he hasn't been talking to me. Then, about 8:05 this morning, I got a text message.
-"Hey. are u still mad."
Not even a question really. Even my mom knows I'm still mad. But I decided I'd try to be civil and replied that I wasn't as mad, but I wasn't ever riding with him again. Five minutes later, and in class, I got a reply.
-"I went overboard. u should have left P--- alone."
So apparently it's still my fault in his eyes, and this is one thing I refuse to take the blame for. I think I was fully justified in getting mad, and I won't be letting myself get blamed for this one. So I told him not to start with me this morning, I'm not apologizing, and reminded him that if he got caught we would have gotten the worst of it as the legal adults there that night. Again with the reply:
-"P--- would never let us get hurt or arrested. he would take it."
That's awfully noble, but it wouldn't work, and I told him. We would have been held, charges would probably have been pressed, and we most likely would have been banned from Hastings. Clever retort?
-"P--- isnt like that. he would put his life on the line to protect us. he is gonna be 18 in a month and we will join the national guard together"
Still doesn't change the fact that we were legally responsible for anything that happened! He could have protested our innocence until the sun set in the east and we still would have gotten the worst of it. And finally, his reply:
-"Today isnt the day to mess with me or P---. think about it. 2/8/07 the second year. i wont go easy on anyone who dares defy me or him."
Well, lah-dee-dah! I hate it for him that his mom died on this day last year, but I will not apologize for defending my morals! I don't care what day it is, and if that seems cold and heartless, well, I just can be that way, and I feel perfectly justified in it! So here, word for word, is my last text to him.
-Then leave me alone. I'm tired of always being in the wrong. This is one thing I refuse to let myself be blamed for. But I'm sure C--- told you that.-
So that should end that. I'm never talking to him again, and I just finished deleting all of his texts to me. I figure since I have them all word for word here, and I'm saving this to a document, I can get them off my phone so they don't clutter up my inbox. I'll probably save my replies to the document too, just so I can get those gone. But this... it's too much.
I just got off the phone with another friend a few minutes ago, and she says I'm in the right on this. My mom said I was in the right, when I decided to never talk to him again, and I bet that this will just cement that idea in her mind. But that's two people that could possibly be biased in my favor. So, please, if you read this post, look at it objectively and tell me what you think of this situation, and what I should do now. I've never had a fight like this that I came out of without swallowing my pride and being the first to apologize, and I don't want to continue that trend now. I mean, I'm in college, and I figure that if there's anytime to make a new start, it's here and now. So please... just give me your opinions. Ja ne, minna-san. Solaris out.
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