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Thursday, December 29, 2005

Life sucks...
Song: Learn to be lonely-Phantom of the Opera. And with good reason.
For the past few months, I've had this little kitten that a friend and I found outside one night after play rehearsal. It was a little stray, the cutest little calico cat (mostly white, but it was still a calico) and we called her Shrimp Scampi (have I written about her before? I have no clue...) Point is, she had her first vet visit today.
Normally, I'd be okay with it, we were just taking her for a checkup and her routine shots, plus we needed some worm medicine. Hey, stray kittens generally have them! Anyhow, I was waiting with captain asshole (my brother) for about a half hour, then mom calls us into the room, and the vet breaks some news to us. By 'breaks some news to us', I mean dropped a friggin' atomic bomb on my life! Little miss Scampi had feline leukemia, and we'd never known about it. I mean, they look perfectly healthy. Thing is, it's incurable (for anyone just finding out about it for the first time, you're in good company, I just found that little fact out today myself.) and the only thing we could do was put her to sleep.
I'm a coward... I couldn't stay in the room with her, so I just kissed the top of her head and tried to leave with some dignity. Which is pretty hard when you're crying and there are three people waiting to get their pets. I couldn't even bring myself to take her body home to bury her, I had to have them take care of her. Mom was crying too, and the boy? Still thinks he sees her. I just can't believe that the little cat who had fun fighting wrapping paper is dead. It's unbelievable how fast someone gets attached to a creature. I think I'm about to cry. For the 100th time today. Seriously.
And through it all, I have one enduring question: How the hells am I going to break it to my friend? We both found her, so we claimed joint custody (even though Scampi stayed at my house the whole time). Well, she can't get mad at me, I hope.
And so I leave with this: Listen to the song! I'm depressed and that strangely resembles the whole situation.
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone...
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