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• 1988-06-15
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• 2004-02-17
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Anime Fan Since
• Sailor Moon at 6:30 in the morning, early in my life...
Favorite Anime
• Shaman King (fan subed), Escaflowne, and Ninja Scroll
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• To have more anime, to survive high school, write my story, and to be happy
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• Reading, Playing Games, Sleeping, and Watching Anime
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• None...I am Mr. Mediocre
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Monday, April 12, 2004
Back...
You know when you really want to do something and then it like falls appart or you just get bored of it. Well this thing is just like that. I have always wanted a journal because it really helps for me to vent my feelings on something, however I tend to loose sight of the goal and forget or just not care anymore about the thing. Hrm, well I am feeling better already.
You see, I tend to get really depressed at certin times and right now is one of them. I blame it on my inability to really like my life. I may say that things are going alright because they are but in reality I am just an envious piece of shit. I want a different life than the one that I have. A lot of bad things have happened and I wish I could go back in time to stop them. (wheehh...Much better am i feeling...) But one of the biggest things is that I have a major want to be someone in this world. Sometimes it is an actor, a singer, a writer, or a journalist...just something that I can feel like I am worth something to the world. I dunno. Many of my dreams are just that dreams of a world that is nothing like what I dream it to be. But I really want to do something other than what I was.
But I guess one of the biggest things that I have problems with is child actors. Hell some of them may have done a really good job but to me it is a mark of my failure as a human being. They are being something while I am not and that is unacceptable to me and I get depressed. That is the root my my current problem. Oh well. I want to be them and I know that I might not ever be them. I guess I should just try and maybe i will be something someday. *Sigh* I think I like this. I feel much better. I thank you for allowing me to vent and to tell something of myself. I hope that i didn't bore you or just creep you out. Many thanks and happy days.
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