Monday, November 3, 2003

Procrastinatin' Around the Clock Tonight...

*steals from Shinmaru* General: What time is it now: 7:01 PM Your Name: Hugo Your Nickname: Hubert, Hunky Hugo (^_^;), Hugo-kun Solo Tremaine, Solo, Soley Woley, Soloness, Solo-kun, Solaris Your Online Name: Solo Tremaine Your sex: Male Your Age: 18 Your Sign: Cancer/leo cusp Your height: 5'9 ish Your weight: God knows Hair color: Brown...ish Eye color: Blue/Green/Grey/Brown Hair length: Normal length ^_^; Do you wear glasses: Only if I have to. I look alright with them, though. Are your teeth straight: Yes, although the very front two are a little too big for my liking. Do you have freckles: No. just spots >_<; Do you have a fake tooth: Not yet. Do you have a fake eye: No... Do you draw fake moles on yourself: Not intentionally- I idily doodle on myself form time to time. Highest level of school: First year of college Do you work: Not enough time How do you dress: With clothes... Do you smoke: No way. Do you drink: Fluids, yes. Alcohol not very often. Do you do drugs: No. Do you have friends: Yes ^_^ Do you have online friends: Yes ^____^ Do you like your friends: That seems rather a pointless question, but... yes, of course I do. Do you like your online friends: Yes... it would defeat the object of being friends if I didn't. Got any kids? No, heh Got any pets? Yes- two dogs. Got a car? Not yet. Live on your own? Nope. Live with your 'rents?: I don't rent my family o_O; Favorites: Type of music: Snime and film soundtracks Actor: Uhm... Hugh Jackman Actress: *shrugs* Movie: Pirates of the Caribbean Soda: Yuk... but Sprite Food: Pasta Car: Toyota somethingoranother Hobby: Anime, writing, acting... Sport: Swordfighting ^_^ Musician: Robert Etoll Artist: I've no idea Author: Ditto Song: Far too many to name... Color: Purple or Black or Silver or Blue or Green... TV Show: No idea Brand of beer: Hah Brand of liquor: ... Brand of smokes: I've already said that I don't smoke. Idiot. Brand of drug: Same as above. Idiot. Brand of clothes: Comfortable ones. Record Label: What? Brand of glue: Anything that works o_O; Online test: Ones that aren't idiots. Idiot. Online chat thing: AIM Shape: Rhombus? Texture: Furry ^_^ Game: Starfox Adventures, I think Place: Home Year: 1985's pretty cool... Quote: I'll get back to you on that Animal: Wolf Sound: Rain, rushing water Book: Don't know Lies: Lies? Idiot quiz. Have you lied: Yes. Do you lie: Not if I can help it. Do you lie often: Not if I can help it. Idiot. Do you lie to save your own ass: Yes. Do you lie to save someone else ass: Yes. Would you tell a lie that stopped your death but caused the death of your lover: No. Would you tell a lie that stopped your death but caused the death of your enemy: Well... yes, I think I would. If I really hated them that much. Would you tell a lie that let you keep your job but fired your friend: No. Would you tell a lie that let you keep your job but fired "that bitch you work with": Yes, probably. But seeing as I don't work I don't have to worry about that for a while. Have you lied to gain money: No. Would you lie to gain money: No. Do you enjoy lying to strangers: Why would I? Have you ever enjoyed lying to a stranger: I haven't as far as I know, so no. Do you lie to bums that ask for spare change, saying you have none: Yes, sometimes. Usually if I'm in a hurry. Or if they call me 'Russia' >.> Would you dare to lie in the face of evil: Yeah. Would you dare to lie in the face of your mother: No way. Not again. Respect: Would you dare to lie in the face of your God: No. There'd be no point. Would you lie to get laid: *sigh* No... Have you lied to get laid: No, thank you. Idiot quiz. Would you lie to get a job: No. Have you lied to get a job: No... Would you lie to get a date: No... Have you lied to get a date: This is getting boring... Are lies really that harmless: It depends on the context and situation. Do you lie on online surveys to make yourself seem super cool: Yes, I tell everyone I'm Freakazoid... Idiot Do you lie online: Not usually. If I do it's just as part of a running joke, like sleeping with James. If lying is sinful.. are you going to hell: I hope not. Love life: Are you single: No ^_^ Are you with someone: ...yes. If I were not single, surely that means I am with someone, no? Idiot. Are you married: Only online. Are you divorced: Heh, no. Are you "Separated": No Are you "on break": No, I got home from college ages ago. Ever been in love: I can safely say yes now, heh. How many times: I don't actually know. It's a hard thing to define when you're not in a situation you wree previously. I guess everything previously would have been varying stages of love, but... meh... Looking back do you regret it: Regret what? Do you date people you meet online: Heh, yes ^_^ But only if I get to meet them in the way I have been. Do you date people you meet at bars: I wouldn't unless I already knew them beforehand. Do you date people: No, I date animals... stupid idiot quiz boy. Do you "net date": No. Are you happy with your current status, why: Yes, save for the distance part. Are you still holding on to the past: Not really... Do you agree that Jet Li is a good husband for Shajuana: Who? What? Idiot? The following apply to you? Y/N Witty: Sometimes Charming: Yes, heh Quiet: Yes Loud: No. Pretty: Um... 'pretty' isn't quite right to describe a guy... Radical: Not really Sucky: What? Smart: It depends on the context Stupid: Hell, I'm not even halfway through this... Dumbass: No. Ugly: No. Slow: Sometimes Fast: ...sometimes Talented: In some ways Useless: No Punk: hah, no Young: Yes, I think so... Old: No Past your prime: I should bloody well hope not You're just reaching your prime: Ditto Daring: Kinda ^_^ Dainty: Hah! Powerful: When I need to be Athletic: Yes *flexes muscles* Artistic: With practice Superhuman: Hah... Sexy: Heh, I wouldn't consider myself sexy if I were. that's up to other people to decide. The following are Good/Bad Sex: Depends Love: Very good. Happiness: Good. Rap: BAD. Pain: Bad. Pop music: *shrugs* Anime: Very good ^_^ TV: Depends Country: Bad. Metal: Um... Nu-Metal: Depends. Death Metal: Depends. Industrial: Don't know Punk Rock: Erm... Easy Listening: Fairly good Korn: Bad. Murderous Rampages: *shrugs* Sega: Fairly good Nintendo: Goodlies good Play Station: Yukky Game Boy: Goodish Chinese Food: Not food... I ate too much >_<; Italian Food: Very good Japanese Food: No idea Mexican Food: Um... Online Quizzes: Good Online Surveys: Good if they're not idiots What...? Whats your deep dark secret: I dribble in my sleep Whats your biggest fear: Heights, more specifically falling from them Whats your greatest sexual experience: ... Whats your best date ever: Last Wednesday/Thursday ^_^ Whats your worst date ever: Not had one yet What is the most embarrassing thing that's happened to you: Piss off. I've worked hard to get rid of those. Would you make a good candidate for Jerry Springer: No. I don't get myself into stupid situations. Anime isn't that bad is it?: No, it isn't. Unless it's Shin Chan or anything DragonBall. You agree that DVD is much better than VHS right? Yes. Politics: Do you hate America: Not often Do you hate terrorism: Yeah. Do you hate western culture: No. Do you like America: More often than not... Do you like Americans: Most except Bush Did you vote for Bush: Even if it would have been possible, I wouldn't have anyway. Are you Canadian: No. Do you believe your country is doing okay or would you change things: It's falling down... I would change things. Are you conservative or liberal? I'm a human, idiot. Do you think immigration in America is out of hand? I don't know. It's certainly up the creek in the UK. Do you think that group of black people suing some southern company for profiting on slavery in the 1800's has a good claim? No... because society's changed a lot in 200 years. There's no basis for suing anymore. Or do you think if they actually win, that every Native American should sue England, France and Spain for invading them, and profiting off them?: I don't think they should, no. Religion: Are you religious? Sort of... more agnostic than anything else. Do you believe in a higher being: Yes Is every religion wrong except your own?: No. Do you believe that any religion is lower than your own, or is wrong?: No. Is your God the only god?: I don't know Are you going to heaven? I'd hope so Are you going to hell? I'd hope not Money: Do you like it? When I need it, yes. Do you have any? Yes. Do you make a lot of it? No. Do you get your money through illegal ways? No. Do you pay taxes? No. Do you think you shouldn't have to? They do actually serve a purpose, so yes. But I don't yet. Finally: Who did you get this survey from? Shinmaru ^_^ What time is it? 7:32pm, you bastard quiz. what time did you go to sleep last night?: 11:15 what was the last noise you heard before you fell asleep?: My Pokemon Sound Anime Collection soundtrack. The last thing you said?: "Christ, that's loud." What did you dream about?: Something Do you drool or snore when you sleep?: Drool, don't snore. When did you wake up?: 6:45 AM How did you wake up?: By my alarm buzzer. Bloody thing... What's the first thing that crossed your mind when you woke up?: Damn, I have to get to college today. And I didn't have a shower... When was the last time you took a shower?: Honestly? Wednesday morning >_<; When was the last time you said 'I love you' to the opposite sex and meant it, family doesn't count: The entire opposite sex? Heh, you can tell the author of this quiz was even getting bored at this point. But anyway, it was Wednesday night. Where was the last place you went outside of your house?: Where? College, I guess. Who was the last friend you saw?: Lawrence. But OMG, Shinmaru! You know someone called Dulcie! That's my older sister's name... Who was the last friend you talked to?: Jeremy Who's the one person you would die without?: Myself? I don't know... What's your favorite song?: You asked me that earlier, you idiot. Favorite lyric?: Infinity, You Get to Burning Favorite group?: Don't know Favorite album?: Don't know, but my shoulder's hurting and I'm really going to get pissed off if this quiz doesn't finish soon... How many times have you been in love?: Gah! Are you in love anyone right now?: Yes, you stupid thing! I said so already! Do they love you back?: Yes ^_^ If you could kill one person, who would it be?: I don't know How many pillows are on your bed?: Two What color is the bottle of shampoo you use, and what kind is it?: Dark Blue- Tigi Deep Cleansing What color is the soap you use and kind?: White... Imperial Leather What color is your razor?: Black What kind of deoderant do you use?: Sure for Men What kind of cologne/perfume do you wear?: I don't. Do you use lotion?: For what? How long are your nails right now?: Long, but not as long as they have been. How old is the computer you're on?: Just under a year, I think. Who was the last person to annoy you?: Dad Do you believe in God?: Yes. How long are the showers you take?: 15-20 mins. How many showers do you take a week?: Once, if I remember. I'm not too good with them, heh. Do you love your parents?: Yes. Do you love your siblings?: Yes. What's the worst thing that ever happened to you?: ... When's the last time you cried?: I don't know. Why?: I don't remember. The last time you wished you were dead?: I haven't ever wished that. The last time you felt important?: Really important? Thursday The last time you felt sad because someone close to you was hurting?: Yesterday night. Have you ever physically hurt yourself?: Only once, and that wasn't exactly hardcore. What person are you extremely attracted to, and not just because of looks?: Pyrohpobic/Heather Do you like being outside?: Yes. What one person do you know you could always turn to?: Um... Heather/Kei/James/Dan Who do you look up to?: Loads of people, heh. All my friends. Is emotional pain or physical pain worse?: Emotional. It's harder to heal and not as easy to ignore. Where do you want to live?: At home. How many scars are on your body?: Six or so. How many people do you love?: All my friends. Who's your best friend(s)?: Dan, David, Kim, Heather, Kei, Ben Who do you turn to for advice?: I don't tend to need it that often, but it'll be anyone handy. If you could bring back one person from the dead, who would it be?: My Grandmother Doris On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you?: 8.5 On a scale of 1-10, how depressed are you?: 1.5 What color are the sheets on your bed?: Black, grey, gold and white. How many cds do you own?: Loads, heh What are 3 cds you wish to own?: Outlaw Star soundtrack, 2 hack//SIGN ones. What is your greatest regret?: Egh... Are you hurting anywhere right now?: If I am, I will kill myself. What do you wish you were doing right now?: Not this quiz. When was the last time you had a nightmare?: About a week ago. Are you talking to anyone right now?: Nopes. What are you talking about?: I'm not... Who's the last person you were on the phone with?: Dad Are you pale?: Fairly. When was the last time you brushed your hair?: This morning Have you ever wanted plastic surgery?: No How many screen names do you have?: Two for boards, Two for Messengers. Which one do you use the most? Solo Tremaine I love that the 'Finally' section is the longest one out of all of them. At least, I would if that quiz weren't so bloody long >_<;

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Back to college

As the title suggests, I went back to college today. I didn't feel much like getting up at 6:45 this morning (much less because I forgot to have a shower >_<; My hair looks terrible), and I was very tempted ot call in sick. I didn't in the end. It turned out I wouldn't have missed a heck of a lot if I had, save for two sheets given to us by our Stage Management teacher. I have a project to do for that in for next Monday. Erk. And for Singing, which I have no idea about. We have to create a vocal warm-up exercise, so I think I'll do a scale of 'Aaaah' and say it's to help open mouths and project voices. That should do nicely ^_^ Mind you, I'm looking forward to the SM homework more than the Singing (which is good, because the SM's in before Singing... I hope). For the vocal warm-up we actually have to write the notes to which you're singing. This would be alright, but I can't even read bloody sheet music, let alone try and formulate a tune without a musical instrument as guidance. We sold our keyboard a few years ago, so all I have are the broken panpipes... Anyway, we started blocking Alice today, but we never got round to my scene. That'll be tomorrow. I'm half-looking forward to it- I still need to try and refine my West Country accent for the character. And, doing some post-last minute research tonight, I found out that traditionally, only female Griffons/Gryphons had wings; the males had spikes on their backs. The one in Alice has wings, so... I guess Tenniel or Carroll made a cock-up ^_^; I'm not being a transvestite West Country Gryphon. Not yet, anyway. Guestbook Shout-outs! I have a decent number of these now, and I always like replying to them. It's easier to do them a few at a time, though. Woo, how handy ^_^ They're all on the same page. Hells Fire- Heh, you have good taste in music. I admire that ^_~ I do wonder who the other six people on your Cool list, though. If you still read every now and then you'll have to tell me who they are, heh. Mew- It's no problem ^_^ I would comment on your site more often but sometimes I just can't think of anything dceent to say >_<; Sahkyrice- I think I've said already, but I do actually live in the UK. Although sometimes I wished I were somewhere else. I wouldn't know where, just away from here when I get a little sick of it. I think it's quite a nice place to be, generally. I'm grateful for what I have, anyway. KawaiiAnime- I like the wolf too ^_^ I'll visit the site if I can remember, heh. I have a fairly tight MyOtaku schedule as it is. Gasara- England's getting better for anime, and at quite a pace. It's certainly not as bad as it used to be. Although the shop where I am could use a larger range... Chabichou- Thank you ^_^ The background took a fair bit of searching for. But I'm pleased with it, heh. Kaedesan- Heya ^_^ Heh, it's good to see you again. I'd wondered where you'd got to for a while. I'm doing alright, generally. One or two minor niggles, but nothing major, heh. chikaietan- had you not said 'Good Luck', I'd have deleted that entry. I'm not taking so kindly to advertising posts now. So at least pretend to make it look like you've read a bit of my site ^_~ Flava- The tournament looks pretty cool ^_^ I'll have to check in with each new round to see where it gets to. Cool stuffsnessicities. Shinmaru- I'd added you to my AIM Buddy List, but I never got a chance to instigate a communicatory advance. Things often come up when I want to talk to people too >_<; Still, there are more than enough opportunities, hehe. HTML confuses me. I can just about change font colour, but even then I have to strain to remember to type 'font' in front of every text adjustment I do. It's moider, I tells ya.

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Sunday, November 2, 2003

Whoo...

You know, I'm almost surprised I became a Moderator with all these spelling mistakes I keep making ^_^; Anyway, I'm not very good at debating in Otaku Lounge. Everyone else always seems to make much more sense than me. I seem so... naive when I present an argument, it's close to embarrassing. I'll disagree with a point, then someone else will post after me and I'll agree with them more, then someone else will and so on. It works when I know what I'm talking about, which admittedly isn't that much. I'm not that worldly wise, although I might be able to give good advice to people who need it. Most of the time, anyway. AzureWolf is incredibly cool, heh. As is Jinzouningen17 ^_^ It's a pity I've not been able to see either on AIM yet...

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Not so good...

And I'm too tired to explain why fully. It's just the little things, really. I'm rather annoyed that all of the RPGs I'm in are dying, for one thing. Nothing else interesting's sem to come up- Kill Adam would be for me probably, but I've not seen the film> Sorry Shy/James. And then James saying that Kill Adam would be his final for a long time depressed me, although I wouldn't be able to say why. Perhaps it's just the significance of finality. That, and my typing is getting gradually worse. Perhaps I need to take some typing classes or something. It never rains but it pours, so it seems. I hate it when everyone gets like this (especially myself, because I should know better). Heh, I don't usually listen to Meat Loaf unless I'm in a mood. I had planned on doing some writing, but I don't feel like it now. It's raining outside (or at least it was- the blinds are drawn here, so I can't tell if it is anymore), which is alright. So here I am, ranting rather mindlessly. One thing I have noticed, though- If you use this emoticon in MyOtaku Comments Boxes ('>_<' or any variation thereof), the second < will seem like the beginning of an HTML tag and anything after that will be lost. just a word of warning. It's happened to me about three times so far. So be careful when commenting, heh.

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Saturday, November 1, 2003

No Pain, No Gain

Or so they say, anyway. I took more injuries during training than I was expecting today, the main one of which has actually put my left arm out of commission for a while. It's not that painful now I have an arm bandage on it, but it's still not that moble. I was hit by Justin's sword, heh. He also hit my left ring finger on the nail and I unintentionally punched his buckler* with my right hand, giving me a very red bruise on my right little finger, too. It sounds pithy, but it bloody hurts. I also have a collection of grazes and bruises on my arms- one on my wrist from my own arm guard rubbing against my skin, a graze on the same elbow Justin busted, a dark purple mark on my right elbow just below the joint, an odd blue mark on my right hand and a scratch on my shoulder. I've not looked at my legs yet, but my ankle hurts every now and again. It's probably not as bad as it sounds- I wouldn't do fight if I didn't expect to get hurt. I still enjoy it, and if nothing else it teaches me to stay out of the way a bit more. I could have had worse, though- Derren had to go early to A&E (ER) because some loose armour cut him... somewhere unmentionable. [Note to self: wear cricket box] Wish List For the next re-enactment trade fair, I need: -a side-arm (either hand-axe or Falchion) -another belt -a drinking vessel -elbow guards -A Swept-Hilt Rapier -other odd little bits. It's going to be an expensive one... *sigh* My Tenchi RPG's dying much faster than I'd anticipated. Oh well. I need to try and keep up with W.H.A.T.E. and everything else I'm in/due to be in. Hmm...

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Thursday, October 30, 2003

Home from Home

I can now understand the irritation of losing a post incredibly important to you Just as I was about to copy this the PC crashed, losing an hour's worth of typing. I wasn't even online >_<; Anyway, I've been away for the last two days, heh. I've been up to see Heather (aka Pyrophobic) in St Albans ^_^ I guess now I should probably reveal that we'd make another 'proper' OB couple, a la The Harlequin and Ravenstorture. It's not the best-situationed relationship, granted- only being able to see each other every six weeks or so is extremely frustrating. But... things like that tend to become less of a problem if you're willing to give it everything you have. In all I had a really good time. It's always great to see her again. And this time wasn't under so much pressure, too- staying the night meant I didn't have to fit in six hours of train journey in one day on top of the socialising. The train journey up was remarkably unremarkable. The weather here's rather disgusting; it was on the way back this evening, too. We went shopping first ^_^ She took me to Chaos City Comics- a fantastic little import shop with toys and hundreds of comics/manga. I was tempted to get a .hack// manga but having to read it backwards made me want to think about it more carefully. I did pick up a Raigeki from the store though ^_^ Geeky me. Still, I had need and want of one, so I'm very glad Heather took me there, hehe. For most of the afternoon we sat watching The Matrix Reloaded, making funny jokes about it. I'll probably be giving little sniggers all througout Revolutions now ^_^; The MTV Movie Awards parody was very good. Nightclubs are not for me. Heather'd been invited to a party at the Adelaide nightclub, which we previously went to to find out where it was. The fact that it was a nightclub put the shivers of apprehension up me immediately, and as it turns out... ...it was certainly an experience, for want of a better word. Although the look of the place surprised me somewhat. I expected it to be fairly large; this looked more like a converted living-room. With lightsabers strapped to the ceiling and irritating mirror lights. I have now been IDed. The bouncers had more beef than a butcher, and one branded my hand with a big black 'X', which I still don't understand the meaning of. Aparrently it meant I could get served drinks, but later on I was stamped with a wine glass stamp, which someone told me meant I couldn't drink o_O; Not that it mattered anyway- I had no intention of going anywhere near the bar (which admittedly was rather hard in such a small room). Whenever someone (usually Heather) asked me if I was alright I was tempted to say 'Yeah, just absorbing the atmosphere'... the problem is that's exactly what I was doing, albeit unintentionally. So many people were smoking cigarettes. My jumper still stinks of smoke. Then there were the guys smoking cigars. One bloke made a huge song and dance about breathing out ever time he took a puff, rearing back his head and pouting. I wasn't impressed. We left early; at about 10. It was supposed to go until 1:30am, but I can't understand how anyone could withstand that much deafening music. In that situation you can dance a bit if everyone else breathes in, but you can't actually hold a conversation. Small talk becomes yodelling very quickly before and for a long time after entering the club. The one good part about that was getting two hugs from Heather. I really needed them, just to know that I wasn't entirely alone in how I was feeling at the time. Although because of all the noise distortion I kept thinking she was saying something and pulled away to hear her, only to find she hadn't said anything at all, which made things rather awkward >_<; I couldn't even explain that was why I'd pulled away because of all the noise- I'd have happily stayed there all night otherwise. After a warm taxi-ride home we watched music videos, and again made funny jokes, heh. Daniel Beddingfield's was the funniest. I slept very well, despite having a very bizarre dream involving ducks escaping from a hole in the wall. The next morning we went for a walk around Highfield Park and Oaklands College, which was nice. I love trees in the autumn, even if the grass looks a bit messy with wet leaf-litter. Princess Mononoke never ceases to amaze me, and I've seen it four times now. If anyone's not seen it, do so as soon as you have the opportunity. It's not as cute as Spirited Away, but just as excting and thought-provoking. We were very quiet for the rest of the day. Heather was rather tired though, so I can't blame her. Not that I would anyway, heh. Being able to see her is great enough. Meeting up with someone you don't always see doesn't have to be an adrenalin-filled activity-fest- simple companionship is just as important. I missed her even before I got onto the platform. It was a long walk to the station and meant I was cutting it pretty fine, but I'm glad we did walk instead of taking the bus. We didn't get much time to say goodbye in the end, but I was glad to be spending just that little bit more time with her. I managed to keep myself held in though, lonely as I suddenly felt. Through various emotions and conversations floating round my head on the train journey back, I was inspired to write the below poem. Going Solo I see you there, Your smile draws me to you. I stand in quiet awe At the love you give me. Going Solo- No-one wants to be alone. But if you take my hand And hold me close I will never let you go. We didn't talk much, Though words touched our lips. Sometimes silence can be As expressive as words. Far from indifference, The words I try to say Will never do me justice. If I could show you my heart You'd understand what I mean. Going Solo- No-one knows what they have to face. Just have faith in yourself; Your strength runs deeper Than you may know. Going Solo- No-one wants to make that choice. But if you take my love And hold it close You will never be alone.

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Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Revelations, maybe?

[Heh, I can confooze you now- I'm on the downstairs computer but took the initiative to copy the HTML stuff from a previous post. Sneaky ^_^] Um... before you read further, I would like to ask you not to hold anything against me. Not that I guess many would, but I know some people feel very strongly about things. I'm not too sure why I wrote that, heh ^_^; I guess I'm just paranoid. Anyway, out of sheer boredom I wrote a lemon. I'm not going to post it here, nor anywhere else for that matter. I deleted it some while ago, although I half-wish I'd kept it, just for the style. It was with some of my original characters- I've not butchered any existing serii. I was rather pleased with it, actually. But before you go into convulsions about how I could write such filth, please don't. There's a huge difference between what I and what someone else thinks is worthy of being called a lemon as opposed to just plain bad taste. It's hard to justify exactly, but I know what I mean. I write tastefully, put simply. The first (and only, pretty much) scene I had to write like that was for a vampire story that I was writing with a friend. He gave me a bit he'd already done and wanted me to go over it. Simply speaking, it was... far too 'technical'. I hold the belief that with something like that, less is more. That is, the more you can leave to the reader's imagination, the better. When he got it back, he told me that I'd changed it from a PG to an 18+ ^_^; But that was purely for the way I had described the scene and the emotions I added in- I actually omitted the various procedures altogether, but he didn't seem to notice. In fact, in terms of what you actually 'saw' in the mind's eye, it went from an X to an R at least. I don't gain a huge amount of enjoyment from lemons, most certainly not from the majority of the ones on the internet now. Sometimes I read them out of sheer morbid curiosity, but I never finish them. They just end up being crap, for the most part. I can't understand how some people can find that stuff actually erotic, but meh. There's a lot of crap around, I guess. But I do put more into anything I write than sex for the sake of sex. I might be more liberal than most when it comes to things like this, but I think so only if there's decent and valid emotion behind it all. It sounds like a crap excuse to read and write questionable material, but I certainly don't do it to amuse myself in any way you might think; I just wanted to see if I could still write it effectively. And I think I can. It's good to have diversity as a writer. This is a really awkward subject to talk about for rather obvious reasons, but I wanted to put it down anyway. I hope it's not too damaging, as it were.

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This is my angry face...

Thankfully I've calmed down a bit now, but if anyone knows how to piss me off, it's with idiots. Especially drunk and/or stoned ones. Violent, drunk/drugged old men, to be specific. Like the ones in town today. Okay, there were only two of them, but they still managed to really piss me off. In the ideal scenario, I'd have ripped them a new porthole with my sword to rapturous applause and/or gasps of awe. I just walked off, in the end, muttering under my breath. Ean and I had just finished duelling- he realised his Blue Eyes was missing (probably at home somewhere) and wanted to get back to find it. So we decided to cut across the cathedral grounds to save a bit of time getting down to our respective bus and train stations. N.B. Anyone who knows me (and who's seen me recently) will know I have a cool Russian-esque hat. As we were walking down a path next to a tree, a hoarse voice of 'Russia!' stinks the air. Now my name isn't Russia, and nor is it my hat's. But I decided to turn round and look anyway. "You speak English?" This is the first thing to hack me off. Since when did you assume that because I have a hat that I was Russian, and since when would you talk so f****** condescendingly to a complete stranger? "No." They ignored my sarcasm, much to my disappointment. "Can you spare any?" Ean answered for me this time, I think he thought they were talking to him. "No." (As we walked off-) "It's that hat mate, makes you look like a twat." Me thinks: "No, you f***ing idiot, it's sitting there on the ground, dirty and shooting your mouth off at people that makes you look like a twat." I didn't catch what else they were trying to sling at me, but I was round the corner by that time anyway. Not only was their argument completely crap (unless my hat was bewitched by some rather unpleasant manufacturer, it won't make me not give drunk idiots money. I know not to do that myself), but how is insulting me going to make their case any better? I want a stronger word than 'idiot' to call these things that isn't distasteful or wimpy. I dislike swearing if I can help it, but I've already done so twice in this post. I don't think anyone's ever seen me reall angry. A few people have had a rare taste of it to some degree over AIM, but I can get worse, heh. Although I control myself well, I think. I have so far, anyway. I'm old enough to be tried as an adult now, so I have to be careful in my retaliations. As much as some people deserved to have a ram-rod catapulted up their disgusting arses, I don't want to get into trouble for it. *sigh* I'll take it out on the AbTech later this evening. Need to eliminate stomach.

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Monday, October 27, 2003

Variation on the double-below...
(Read: it's too late to post anything at the moment.) I have a fair bit to say, though. Stay tuned, hehe.

I got to see Spirited Away today! The New Park Cinema was screening it as part of a half-term special thingy. I like them ^_^

I must agree with Sara, the soot sprites are fantastic. Everyone should go and see it as soon as possible. I shall expand on this tomorrow, heh.
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