Wednesday, October 22, 2003

It's all relative

My grandfather's coming to visit for what I've accepted will probably be the last time I'll ever see him. Things are rather busy here, to say the least. Which is why I've not been able to PM certain people, and why I might not be able to get online for a while, save for short, rather sporadic bursts. That also means my voice conversation with James will have to wait, heh. Sorry James. Mum's going to her friend's funeral tomorrow, and she's already told me she's not looking forward to it. The next few days aren't going to be fantastic at home. Luckily I'm out Friday and Sunday, so that only leaves two and a half days of potential tension. I feel bad when I say that, but my granadad is rather hard to cater for. he doesn't like pasta or curry (two foods which occur here relatively frequently), or duvets, which means Mum has to recruit a slew of extra blankets from the attic for him. The spare bedroom became a second loft, so everything in there had to be shifted out and the sittingroom still isn't tidy yet. On top of that, I need to tidy Dulcie's room (she's coming back from Bristol for the weekend) and the sitting-room, which is pretty much always in a state of untidiness. Thankfully, my room doesn't need ot be cleaned to excess. I will do it anyway before long, but at least it's not entirely urgent. Bleh, too many things to do... I do have something to look forward to, though- on Wednesday I get to stay in St Albans to see Pyro again ^_^ That will be good, hehe. In the meantime, preparation is the key. And a rather large, unweildy one at that.

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Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Frustrations Abound

Last night's sleep was a disturbed and depressing one. I'm beginning not to like dreams anymore. The first was a frightening nightmare about this person dragging everyone I knew into a pitch-dark wooden basement in the middle of the night, whereupon they died. I don't want to go into any more detail than that. The second I think was one whch affected me more, strangely. Because I know that most nightmares are just figments of my imagination and don't bear any relation to reality. It was set in this house, although this house was actually a spaceship on a voyage to somewhere with the Red Dwarf crew. Well, Lister anyway. He was the only one of the original crew there, we were all other members. Anyway, if anyone knows my fanfic, you'll know there's a female Digimon character in it called Tempestmon. I won't dig out a link to the picture now. But anyway, this dream is about to get weird. We found Tempestmon somewhere and I started teaching her to speak properly (as in the fanfic, she couldn't say anything to begin with [and yes, I know it doesn't need to be in spoilers but I want to do it anyway]). The problem was, she fell in love with Lister. And this is the strangest bit about it- I wanted her to love me. I remember me watching the two of them talking over the other side of my bedroom on a storage crate, and I hated them for it. Real, intense jealousy. I woke up soon after that, thank god. But I felt terrible when I did. Not because I'm not in love with Tempestmon of course (simply because I am not. To love a fictional character is bizarre, to love one of my own is narcissistically so. Anyway, I have someone else for that, heh), but simply because they're not real. And they will never be. You can think this as pathetic as you like, but I've always wanted Digimon to be something more viable than hand-drawn images on a screen or a plastic figure. I guess it's just a childhood dream I've carried with me long past when I should have grown out of it, but I can't help it any more. Even daydreaming is starting to annoy me now, and I want to finish my fanfics before becoming totally disillusioned.

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Rollercoaster Day

Wow, Monday was unbelieveably busy, which is why I've not been able to post until this afternoon. Assessment Time Well, it would have been a normal college day, were it not for the Post 1985 acting assignment we were going through today, something which most of us were quite dreading Well, anyone who'd not done one before was. Like me, somewhat. Anyway, I set my alarm for 6:25. I never want to wake up that early again, although I know I will next Wednesday morning and even earlier than that on Friday, heh. Still, this was to have a shower. They usually take about 15 minutes, this was 25 because the house was cold. Not to the extent of frost on the carpet, but it felt damn close. I don't eat breakfast before I go out anymore. It always used to make me feel sick, so I decided to stop. But, not having enough time and through still not feeling hungry enough I had it at college. The hash browns were decidedly oily yesterday- icky. But welcome once I stopped feeling sick half-way through Stage Management. My performance was due at 10:30. I'd recorded my lines onto tape previously, and got to listen to them once before going in. I was very nervous- pacing around the stairwell by the Staff Lounge, running around pillars to relax myself. It's strange- as soon as John came outside, I didn't feel so bad anymore. He wanted to cup of coffee, which gave me a few extra seconds before I went inside the Assembly Hall to calm down. He talked me through what would happen in the LAMDA Gold exam- it turned out this was pretty much just a rehearsal for the first segment of that, but I still wanted to do well anyway. Really I should have had props, but I didn't have anywhere to get a three-foot tall puppet and some bricks at short notice. It went well anyway, although I hit my right hand hard on the floor when acting out the bricking the puppet. I ignored it. Until I got outside, then I winced. I was very pleased- I only missed out three sentences, and that was due to nerves which I'd pretty much managed to control throughout the entire thing. I'm a lot more confident about things than when I was at the start of the year. Orng? Jeremy was kind enough to offer me a liftot Portsmouth, where I wa splanning on going after the assignment. He wanted to come too ^_^ The main reasons for going were for clothes from Topman and Magician's Force boosters, neither of which I actually had much success with- I didn't like the shirts and the shop was closed for rennovation. Bastards. Still, we had a good time, and Lawrence joined us eventually. Looking in Burton Menswear, I found a nice black belt and he got a vibrantly bright T-Shirt, whose colour according to the label inside was "Orng". Presumably because that's the noise you make when you look at it in bright sunlight. But that's not it. We drove back to Chichester (after a short detour at a lay-by for Jeremy to settle his guts ^_^;) and went bowling. I only lost once this time, and managed to come second on the other game. I used to be good at bowling- I think it's technique I need improving on. I can hit the pins fine when the rails are up (and surprisingly I don't actually hit the rails- it's more of a psychological handicap than anything else, because you're determined not to hit them), but as soon as they're down the balls go straight down the gutter. This was all to pass the time before seeing The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen ^_^; Still having well over an hour left until the 6:45 showing, Jeremy decided we should go to Bognor. This was farcical, mainly because Lawrence was spontaneously making up lyrics to Iron Maiden songs about Digestive Biscuits, and we got lost no less than three times. Jeremy: Which way now? Me: Left- there are some traffic lights there. Jeremy: Left then. *car turns right* Me: ... We got back in time, miraculously. The League of Exchtraordinary Gentlemen. For anyone that noticed, the 'Exch' above is a nod to Sean Connery's accent. Yes it is. I really enjoyed the film- exciting, funny, looked great. Although if I were an Extraordinary Gentleman I'd be a werewolf. If possible. It needed more Canis Lupis. And the bit where the Invisible Man was lying on the ground having been burnt by a flamethrower really freaked me out, even though all you could see were his injuries. It still makes me feel ill when I think about it. Still, all in all a very good film. Then I came home. But because Dad's on annual leave I couldn't get online, save to check OB and MyOtaku sites. Mixed feelings there- on the plus side, I do have another sign-up for my Tenchi RPG, hehe. I'll have to start that soon.

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Sunday, October 19, 2003

Speak to me!

I'm having a voice conversation with Syk3! It's really cool to speak to someone from overseas. He has a nice voice ^_^ I'm on a mission to get every OB member AIM and a microphone, now, hehe...

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You'd turn into a Snowleopard! Like a snowleopard you are quiet, shy and not seen much and find it hard to talk to people, but dont really mind being by yourself. However once you have gotten over your shyness and are relaxed you are so different it can be scary! You have a few close friends who can grasp your strange ways. You are generally laid back but when you get angry you get angry and can be very vicious and a force to be recond with, though few people ever see this. What animal would you turn into? brought to you by Quizilla Cutie! That's cool, heh. And fairly accurate- I can get extremely angry, but I do my best not to. It works most of the time. Uh-oh - you are "Stop blowing holes in my ship!" You're a little bit edgy, honestly, and it's getting in the way of your natural charm. We understand that life can be hard, but take a deep breath and have a drink. Relax. Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you? brought to you by Quizilla Jack Sparrow is so damn cool... Are you a God? by Demonac Name: God/Goddess type: God of Destruction Worshippers: Communists They show devotion by: Watching bad movies; the worst they can find! Created with quill18's MemeGen! Eheh... I want lunch. Bring it to me, my Communist minions! Or... something.

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Saturday, October 18, 2003

Diddly ^_^

My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Which Nintendo Character are you most like?, is Yoshi Woo ^_^ *waits...* Hey, where's my Yoshi picture, dammit? *edits HTML* (Yes, I cheated. He was my #5 Result, heh.) Only one sign-up for the Tenchi RPG so far. Not that I mind- it's only been up for a day. I'd quite like it to at least get into the Adventure Arena, though...

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Borededness...

I'm forcing myself not to listen to music at the moment, and it doesn't half make things seem a lot slower than normal. I'm doing this because I want to get the fifteen or so anime songs that I have stuck in my head out of there so I don't break into You Get to Burning in the middle of my monologue (as interesting as it might be). I also apologise for the spelling errors in this post (not that you can see any, I hope- I've edited them all out)- I'm sitting at an odd angle. As you can tell, I'm bored. At times like this AltaVista's Babel Fish Translator is far too entertaining... You're A Hero! You live to save the world! You are honest, true, and always victorious! You may not always get the girls/boys, but all you really want to do is battle the bad guys. What Type Of Anime Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Yay!

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Quizzes again.

You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."

Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Or perhaps just the one. I'm not sure I can be bothered to find another at the moment.

Boy, I'm hungry. I've spent most of the morning going over my lines for my piece on Monday. Unfortunately I didn't get the chance to perform for Marcus last week, so the direction's likely to be a bit iffy. But then, if I do fail it's not the end of the world. The course is a continuous assessment thing mostly anyway- I'll have plenty of time to improve later.

It's still rather scary, though. I don't want to get ill over the next few days...


Shy Plushie


**X-The Anime Plushie Personality Quiz!-X**
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That's a very scary plushie.


You are Malachite from "Sailor Moon"!
You are FOPPISH evil.


ANIME QUIZ - Which Evil Anime Badass Are You?
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Haha! Well, then...

*accidentally clicks 'Add Post'* Dammit, I wasn't done yet!


You are Kowaru Nagisa from "Evangelion"!
You are BACKSTABBING evil.


ANIME QUIZ - Which Evil Anime Badass Are You?
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I took it again, to make up for other questions I could have answered another way. Heh.


You are: the standard Otaku! You dont delve deep
enough into Anime, you just like whats popular,
such as Dragon Ball Z, Yugioh, Gundam, etc. And
no, you are NOT a crazed evil Otaku bent on
taking over the world.


Are you a crazed evil Otaku bent on taking over the world? (Serious Anime fans only!!!) NOW WITH PICTURES!!!!!!!
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Pssch! Fat lot they know...


You are "Good, Or Don't Be"


Which Piece Of Evangelion Theme Music Are You?
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I love that quiz so damn much...


You're Fox x Falco. You furry-loving freak! It may
pay your way through college, though.


Which Smash Bros Couple are you?
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And that is funny, too. Perhaps a little obscure, but cool ^_^
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