Friday, October 10, 2003

Well f***

Dad's staying at home to do work today, which means I get no sodding time on the computer. Just my luck when I have things to do... I wouldn't mind so much if he asked me in a way that was actually nice instead of always sounding so irritated about me. Still, I can dream. I have a driving lesson at 11:00, perhaps that'll take my mind off things.

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Thursday, October 9, 2003

Damn them!

I can't see Spirited Away in the cinemas! They finally release it (afetr having been out for about a six months already in the States), but only 50 reels have been distributed to the UK, and there are no showings in either Chichester or Portsmouth- anywhere else is really too far for me to have to hike. Damn them. Damn them all to Terminal Dogma.

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Headache

Guess what I have, heh. It's from not drinking enough water, but it still hurts. And paranoia about various small things doesn't help much either. Eck, I've suddenly realised I have a lot to do- learning lines from The Children (don't read it unless you want to be disturbed, although aparrently Tidus Something or another is worse o_o;) and Alice, I'm supposed to be sorting out University/Drama school applications right now, but I've not even thought about starting yet. I have three RPGs on the go and another one that's... not going very far at the moment in the recruitment forum. I want to create one about the Galaxy Police organisation from the Tenchi series. I think that could be good fun, heh. But yeah... I'm worrying too much about things that I know I shouldn't. And some things that I know I should, heh. I wondered for a while whether my PM box had a fault or something *shrugs* Anyway, paranoia aside I'm not doing too badly. Ean loved his present so much, which made me happy. I even got a hug from him in the library ^_^ I gave him a Barrel Dragon, Airknight Parshath, Drop Off and Timeeater. Yu-Gi-Oh cards, heh. His Deck is now several times better than mine, and he beat me 4 duels to 2 today. but then, neither of ours is a tournament Deck. It put me in mind about things, though. There are loads of cards in my Deck, all kept in good condition, but there's no real focus to it. There's not much of a strategy in it except having to deal with what's opposing it. Whereas with Ean's, it's very concise and all of the cards compliment one theme- Beatdown. I try to have defensive, tournament, beatdown and life-point depreciating, along with two sub-themes of Dark and Earth. In all, it doesn't work to well. But hell, I like these cards and I'm not changing it until the next booster set arrives. It's only a casual Deck anyway. I could see it a bit like a metaphor. But if I do I tend to get annoyed.

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Wednesday, October 8, 2003

*steals from Molletta*

You are Sakano's butt. Look at you, revealing yourself in order to ... ahem suck up (to) your boss. There's nothing wrong with that, but try to show a little decency. And while you're at it, take off that man's purple vest and hide it. Forever. What Fooked Up Gravitation Maneurism are you? brought to you by Quizilla That quiz would have made me laugh even more, had dad not been in the room. Grr, mushrooms. What color are you? (Anime Pictures) brought to you by Quizilla Nice picture, that. And a good quiz, too. I like ones with a decent amount of depth to them. And ones without swearing, heh. Although, looking at all of the results together, I could easily apply myself to any one of them apart from Black. It's not a hugely broad quiz in its answers, but it's fun to do all the same.

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'Lo and behold!

The site has now been set right ^_^ Thanks Adam. Even if it happened of its own accord, thanks anyway. Ah, I would do a big shout-out list to everyone I want to thank, but you should know who you are anyway. Yes, much happier now ^___^

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*hugs people*

Thanks guys ^_^ You've no idea how much it means to me. I'm feeling much better no. I guess I was just a bit emotionally hyperactive last night, and I had things that I wanted to tell everyone. Now, though, I guess what's to be said is more important than how it looks, so I'll go ahead and put it up anyway. Dancing the Lobster Quadrille The cast was announced for Alice yesterday. Because there are so many of us, there are two casts, and some people switch character roles for each performance to allow people to get an even share of everything. Cast A: Gryphon Ah, I was so happy when I heard that. I guess it's probably my fixation with unusual creatures, but I like his lines, too. He's a character I can identify wit, although why is a little difficult to explain. Cast B: Gryphon. Wow! I get to be him for all 16 performances ^______^ Fantastic. I hope the costume will look nice. Not that I'm particularly bothered, but seeing some of the black-and-white productions of it scared me somewhat. But nothing was as scary as that disgusting stop-go animation Alice with the skulls... *shivers* More news, you say? Perhaps. Although I need to have breakfast now ^_~ *hugs Pyro* -I've not forgotten about you. See you soon ^_^

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Tuesday, October 7, 2003

I apologise for the look of the site...

But MyOtaku's still making things look bad and setting the margins far too wide. To be honest, it's put me in a really bad mood (coupled with various other things that happenes on the way to the computer), and the only thing holding back my swearing is my self-restraint. I would normally cuss the computer into the ground, but I'd feel tasteless if I did. But believe me, type them all up in a list and you can bet I've said them while trying to get this ridiculous problem sorted out. I've not even changed anything *sighs*... Anyway, I've PMmed Adam about it. He knows all... I hope.

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Bleh...

Something always happens whenever I try and say something I want to say. MyOtaku buggered up for me last night- the posts were showing in every which way except what I wanted it to be. Anyway, this is what I was going to post yesterday: "Don't sweat the little things." Great advice from a great friend. It's quite hard, though. I tend to get myself wound up about things like that, just because it was just such a stupid and careless mistake to make, even though it is almost irrelevant in comparison to other things I could be worrying about. And I still want to apologise, heh. For those who are wondering- I missed Sara's post in Ben's Digimon RPG, and the reason I feel so bad about it is because I was waiting for her to post before I continued with my bit. Actually, even typing this out now it seems stupid that I got so worked up about it. But I guess it was mainly the fact that I didn't notice, and Digimon RPGs tend to be fairly fragile anyway... Ah well. I'll post in it tonight, assuming everyone else still wants to continue. Geez, I don't even post in an RPG and I can still screw it up >_<; Anyway... The auditions for Alice are finished now, and we'll find out who's who sometime tomorrow. I think I've done alright so far as the Gryphon (that's how it's spelt in the play, so to save me always writing it out twice I'll continue writing it like that, regardless of which is actually right), but I don't know what John's intentions are. I am the only one who expressly said that I was interested in the character, however- everyone else was focussed on the Mad Hatter and/or Duchess/Queen/March Hare/White Rabbit/etc. I'm really looking forward to performing. It's going to be fantastic, hehe. I feel sick... I do indeed, and that probably isn't helping my mentality much. I've eaten far too much crap today. I didn't need that cheesy pasta at lunch, and the pizza for tea was too much. Couple that with the fact that mum bought a half-price Lobster from Waitrose that absolutely stank (and that I didn't like the taste or look of anyway- I never want to eat another as long as I live, not least because seeing it sitting on the kitchen worksurface made me feel really uncomfortable), and you have quite a horrible feeling me. I ate about an hour ago, and I still feel full from the pizza. I bet it's completely undone all the work on the AbTech I did last week. I think I'll have to step up my exercise routine... Ah well. Such is life.

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Sunday, October 5, 2003

Great songs...

Princess Mononoke In the moonlight I felt your heart Quiver like a bowstring's pulse In the moon's pure light, you looked at me Nobody knows your heart When the sun is gone I see you Beautiful and haunting, but cold Like the blade of a knife, so sharp and so sweet Nobody knows your heart All of your sorrow, grief and pain Locked away in the forest of the night Your secret heart belongs to the world Of the things that sigh in the dark Oh the things that cry in the dark Eternal Embrace- Neon Genesis Evangelion OST 3 Like petals shaking in the wind and falling Life is only fleeting... Ah... disappearing into the earth Sadness isn't an interrupted future. It's something that will be forgotten in the corner of your little box of memories I want to be loved, more than I am now. I want that so deeply, so strongly Leaving behind some sign that I was there in your heart, in your eyes. Like the sun melting into the horizon, I want to reflect myself... Ah... beautiful until the end. Sleeping within warm arms, Wanting to take eternity into her hands, a woman becomes an apparition. I want to be loved. Now, I just want to share these certain feelings with you. This bare skin, this sigh... Embrace them for infinity, OK? Please. Happiness' form is always unseen, so it's almost painful, the closer I am to you. I want to be loved, more than I am now. I want that so deeply, so strongly Leaving behind some sign that I was there in your heart, in your eyes. These songs really are beautiful to listen to. Another of my all-time favourites is 'Together With the Wind' from the first Pokemon Movie (Japanese version, no less). That is also very beautiful to listen to. And somewhat better than M2M and Christina Aguilera, even though I still listen to that, too... Together With the Wind Continuing to walk, how far will you go? You stand still and ask the wind Reciting the token for the first old times, One single life had begun Seeking for something before long, Spreading out the palm of your tiny hand, You instantly found out, right? Not you, about somebody To celebrate your birthday, you increased the candles, but Your journey for your hometown has no more than begun Now, too, seek for something Shine, your wide eyes In your pocket, Not you, with somebody Several encounters Several separations The memories like illusions are also a little... Continuing to walk, how far will you go? Asking the wind, you look at the sky Continuing to walk, how far shall we go? With the wind, let’s start to walk again Stepping onto the great earth, let’s go anywhere Until we seize that dream for which we aimed Stepping onto the great earth, let’s go anywhere Until we seize that dream for which we aimed La la la la....

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*groans*

I feel incredibly sorry for this computer (this being the downstairs one with Broadband). It's blessed with the fastest connection in the house, but there are so many other problems with it it's more productive for me to use my own one upstairs with its piddly 28K modem. This computer has 23 objects on the Desktop from Startup, and a further 10 in the Taskbar. This means that crashes on startup are a very regular occurrence. And it's running very slowly as I type anyway. Dad puts on so many things that I've never ever seen him use... he's a sucker for gimmicks. That said, everything on here is useful to an extent- I can see the point in having ink-saving programs to save money, but with the amount we print it's going to make bugger all difference. That's for companies who do large-scale production of paper things, really. I guess there's not a lot to complain about, but it just frustrates me. Ah well. This is about three years old now... What's that funky jazz? Dad has a new game. It's called Schizm. Does anyone remember Myst from years and years ago? It's spawn of that, essentially. I'm sure these things are made for readers of The Guardian newspaper- they tend to have a rather pretentious storyline, hugely cryptic puzzles and a walkthough that comes in volumes. I really can't handle these games, heh. I am not a puzzle-solver or a strategist in any form, save for deciding which move to use against Link in Smash Bros Melee. I tried playing Myst years and years ago, got stuck on the first puzzle, read the manual and then left it well alone. I much prefer the more platform-based puzzle games, or ones where all you have to do is move and shoot/hit/eat/avoid. What's more, these puzzle games take up about 300 MegaBytes. Still, if it keeps him happy... Whee! I had a great phone conversation with Pyro last night. It was about two hours and 45 minutes, by my reckoning, with a very short break in the middle to save phone money hours things. We discussed many things, hehe. I like being able to have long, detailed discussions, either over the phone or the internet or actually in person. It's nice to talk. I should really put my picture in for Queen Asuka's OB picture site, but I have a few reservations about it. Nothing against Asuka, I'm just a little shy about putting it up. It took me long enough to get the original up on OB anyway, heh ^_^; Ah well. I shall think about it.

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