Friday, February 3, 2006

Lost Heaven

Comments! 13th January JJ: Hehe, thank you ^_^ Kei: Well, you don't have to wait now... no promises about the next lot, though ^_^; Azure: Do you mean we know how to keep things up, or get worried over nothing? :p John: *hopes so* Sah: Hey ^___^ I'm sorry I don't comment on your posts much. I don't tend to have much of a chance now to do anything much to do with myOtaku, between the computer being temperamental and having lots and lots of organisational stuff to do for the company. But thanks for being here *hugs* I always appreciate it ^_^ 30th Jan Shy: I love you too ^_^ Blackyuu: I don't tend to worry about odds too much; I'm well aware of how hard things can be but it never seems to bother me. I want to pursue what I enjoy, and regardless of what apparently stands against me I'm going to do it, because I won't have it any other way. Sara: Yeah, heh. Everyone's said that to me since I've done it, so I feel much better about it all ^_^ John: I almost didn't, but I'm glad I didn't take to swallowing my pride any longer and left. Survival instinct kicks in after a while, but I still had to reason hard with myself over what I should do instead. It's not easy to completely change your life direction in such a short space of time. liam: Yeah, it sounds like a lot of them are complete nutcases >.>; JJ: YoshixLuigi, eh? That probably already exists somewhere in the dank depths of the 'net... Kei: *hugs* And it's good to see you, too ^_^ Sami: Are you kidding?! This challenge is what I've been hankering to write for ages, hehe ^_^; And I keep daydreaming about what the title sequence would look like if it were an anime series. I'd gladly write fanfiction of it if I had the time and inspiration. But I guess that would defeat the object of the RPG :p I don't really have that much to update with, but I didn't want to leave this blank for too long ^_^; Where was that survey where people filled in the blanks about you? Ah, never mind. I filled in the 100 questions one a while back but got bored part-way through, so a lot of the questions became rather grouchy ^_^; I'll see if I can edit it. OMFG I almost forgot! I have a spanking hat; a replica of Brandon Heat's from Gungrave, except in black. It's my new outlet of loveing, and it is well-deserved of any praise it gets. I shall have pictures up shortly ^_______^ 1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? Large scar on my... ah, leave that one *coughs* Small one on my right hand. Apparently I fell on broken glass when I was two. 2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Lots of posters from films, anime and things. 3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE? Like a Star Trek communicator. Do you want to know what it is? A Motorola V3 Razr. 4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? Anime soundtracks, mostly. And film scores, too. I've gotten into HIM recently, too. Nice nice Finnish artist ^_^ 5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? In the... afternoon, I think. 6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? The ability to type interesting, engaging things >.>; 7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? My inspiration, among other things. 8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION/S? Urm… Ah, my Gungrave hat! 9. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? Cancer or Leo, depending which newspaper you read. 10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? Not particularly. Sometimes I do, depending when and where I am. 11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? Fairly often, actually ^_^; 12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? I haven't cried in years. 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/ PERFUME? I don't actually use anything ^_^; I wash myself in a citrus body wash stuff, which smells like oranges. It doesn't last, though. 14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eyes- no preference. Hair... generally dark, but it makes little difference to me. 15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO? I can't, to be honest. 16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? Coffee, if I have to. 17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? Meat and cheesiness. 18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? A Maryland chocolate chip cookie. And Chocolate Horlicks. 19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? Nic and Hayley. 21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU? A soft toy elephant. I named it 'Glue'. 22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY? This is one of those 'like' questions, isn't it? 23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? Nope. But if I were I'd make it my business to show off in front of everyone I met so I could disgust them ^_^; 24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? Topman, if it had to be a brand. 25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR? A metallic blue Nissan Micra... or an Arwing. 26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? I used to have about three rabbits; the dogs are owned by the family as a whole. But not being pedantic, yes. Three gorgeous dogs ^_^ 27. WHAT KIND IS IT? The rabbits were Rex furs. Lovely and soft ^_^ 28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? You don't choose who you fall in love with. 29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? By telling them. 30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: Fifty-four. 31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? I have no preference, heh. 32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? Jeremy, probably. [At this point I started getting angry with the questionnaire] 33. WHAT ANGERS YOU MOST? These questions >.>; 34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA? I haven't even been in it yet ^_^; 35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? Emotional attachments… 37. FIRST JOB? Freelance writer. Pfft, right… 38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? No. I can’t see the point, to be honest. 40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE? To remove the bags under my eyes. I hates them >.>; 41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? Because... it seemed like a good idea at the time. 42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? My generosity and compassion. 43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL? Not drink it. Stands to reason, really :p 44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? Confidence. 45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? Erm... 46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Yes, but I can't remember who offhand. My middle name's from Ralph Richardson, the classical actor. 47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? Yes, more than I probably should. 48. WHAT DID YOU DO THIS MORNING? Slept and ate. 49. WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT? Paprika chicken. 50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? It's okay. A bit messy at times, but not bad. 51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Bacon! 52. ANY BAD HABITS? Yes, I daydream too much. 53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF? Pokemon- The First Movie -_-; 54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yes. 55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? No. 56. DO LOOKS REALLY MATTER? To an extent, yeah. But they aren’t the be-all and end-all. 57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? Loud music and swearing to people. 58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? Jeremy's house in Selsey. 59. WTF? … 60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? My Ectar figure, from Visionaries ^_^; He’s very old now. 61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? A lot. About 70-odd, I think. 63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? What do you think? 64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? Not yet, heh. I don’t particularly see myself being in one soon, either. 65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? Organs. 66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMEs? Soley (Woley), Solo-kun, um… I can’t remember any others. I know there’ve been more. 70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Fossil Fuel! Ben and Jerry's is so cool ^_____^ 72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLOR(S)? Strong greens, blues, reds, as well as silver and metallic colours. 73. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW? Kei. 74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? All of them, and getting more >.> 75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? I don't mind; so long as they enjoy them, then yes. 76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? The Super Smash Bros Melee soundtrack. 77. LAST THING YOU DRANK? Orange juice. Diluted, though. I needs fluids. 78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My Dad, asking about eBay auctions. 79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? Height, probably. Then eyes, hair. 80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG? "My Immortal" by Evanescence 81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE? Other drivers. Bastardfeckingtitburgers! 82. FAVORITE DRINK(S)? Milk, Tea. 83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN: Taurus, um… 84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT? Sword-hitting-people-with-ness! 85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? Mid-brown 86. EYE COLOR? Blue/grey/green/brown, not in that order. and no, I don't have four eyes, I have coloured rings >.>; 87. HEIGHT? 5'7, ish 88. FAVORITE ANIMALS? Wolves are cool, as are pangolins. 89. FAVORITE MONTH? Any time from May to October, heh. 90. YOU LIKE SUSHI? I haven't had the privilege of eating it. I’d quite like to. 91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? Fullmetal Alchemist- Conquerer of Shambala. OH MY GOD! 92. FAVORITE DAYS OF THE YEAR? Wednesdays, generally. And my birthday, Christmas and other people’s birthdays… 93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? I used to be, but I'm not now. 94. SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter. I gets to wear as many layers of as much clothing as I like ^_^ 95. KISSES OR HUGS? Hugs. Less saliva. 96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Relationships. 97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? A Bacon Double Cheese burger >.>; Shame on me. 98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? Sara, apparently; Mimmi, cause she have already been and done ‘em. 99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Will be reading The Writer's and Artist's Yearbook 100. ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU? I don't think so. One can hope, though.

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Monday, January 30, 2006

Don't Cry For Me, Gordon Freeman...

Comments! 22nd December ‘05 Alan: Almost there. Be patient, one of teh sexeh stockings. Baron: The connection’s weird with these. Just today the computer I could always access everything from’s decided to pass that baton to my computer. Not that I mind- I can work on what I like from here now… for the moment. I hope it lasts, and doesn’t end up like it did before where I couldn’t access anything from anywhere. Hard-drive’s doing okay, though, I’m glad to say ^_^; My last one decided to konk out at a rather inopportune time, too… liamc2: Mmm, baked goods… I really want to make some cookies now ^_^; JJ: Seeing as I’ve not been in school for ages now it’s hard for me to compare… I’m coming closer to some fairly big events, though, so the passage of time is rather pressing. Des: I was lucky enough to have a friend who gave me a spare for free ^_^ I like him, very much. We’ve just had to replace two monitors at the same time though, which got rather expensive. At least they’re not stupidly huge TFT ones now. 25th December Baron: Thank you -^_^- I did have a good Christmas, in all. 3rd Jan ‘06 John: Spot detonation’s cool too :p Sami: I think the movie could have been darker- there was virtually no blood anywhere, and for a film involving war and sacrifice some bits looked a little too clean to me, personally. But the designs were fantastic, hehe. Tumnus was creepy. I’m sure I’ve seen him before, too. I just can’t think where >.>; 5th Jan John: Jollyrancher Bowie is a cool name. You should steal and copyright it before anyone else does. Then sell it and make millions. Monkey Orange: I can’t really take that much credit for them seeing as it’s a kind of ‘do-as-it-says’ jobbie, but thank you -^__^- Yesterday JJ: Even if it’s deadly serious? :p I’ll do my best for it, and write it for myself as much as for everyone else ^_^ Azure: Haha, I know what you mean ^_~ But yours is sexy too, you know. Pyro: Yeah, but it means a lot to have you here all the same. I sort of managed to achieve it; some bits got left out and some bits weren’t as strong as I was intending them to be, as always tends to happen when I plan out a big long argument. But it’s closer to being resolved, and I can deal with the other bits as and when they crop up. I won’t just sit by and let my life be lived for me any more. It's been a while ^_~ A lot's happened since I last updated, and it hasn't even been horrendously long. I'm not sure if I ever detailed it much here, but since sometime in summer I've been working unpaid for a miniature war games company that was due to start up in Petworth. I'd been going backwards and forwards between here and there trying to get things organised and to help them sort themselves out... ...until last week, when I'd had enough of being abused and taken advantage of and left. It wasn't pretty, and I'm still pretty stressed out by it. Basically, they began relying on me too much for everything, and I was constantly being criticized for not being there, but at the same time being told that I could be there when I chose to. Because they relied on me so much, they had no way of being able to do anything by their own stead, which I think both made them feel relatively threatened and guilty, while I was still as comitted as I had always been. It led to some rather dramatic instances of anger and paranoia. I had a few abusive phone calls, then some rather harsh words, then finally last Sunday I walked out because I'd had enough. I have far better things to do with my life than devote myself to a couple of people who're constantly telling me how my 'hidden malice' is showing through, that I was 'useless', 'had a carrot up my arse' and that I was trying to 'hold them to ransom' over the money they still owe me. I've spoken to them once since, when they asked me if I would be able to give them a lift to the hospital. They were suitably sycophantic over the phone until I told them that I wouldn't take them, when their tone changed back to the more forceful and terse. And I'd almost said yes to them. Almost. But went agaist myself to say no and now I don't have to see them ever aain if I choose so. The only thing I know I'll miss is my karate training and conditioning, but I'm sure I can make up for that elsewhere. Since then (and even before then, actually) I've been working at home with Dan, building up this production company. We have a website now ^_^ Working with Dan this closely has been one of the best experiences ever. We've had support from local newspapers, we've applied for sponsorship and grants, we're selling valuable stuff on eBay to try and raise decent funding, and I'm enjoying it all because we've known and trusted each other for so long. There are still the odd hair-raising moments, though; like filling out application forms and phoning up businesses for money, but it's just... great. And I'm looking more into properly writing and getting stuff published. I've had no time, mind you, but I know I can do it. I suppose that's the main story from me. I've switched to using one pillow instead of two now, and it's made a massive difference on how I hold myself. I feel about two inches taller and my back's straighter than ever. It's cool ^_^ I've signed up to another forum now; it's not exactly busy, but the people are pretty cool. It's nice to meet new people, heh. Especially ones you have a chance of seeing more than once every six months ^_^; Plans for July haven't changed, although I need to update my passport photo and book tickets. I could do with talking to Shy and finding out when he wants to meet up, cause that'll affect how many days I want to stay at the Expo. Four days there would be cool, but I can't see myself being completely engrossed in it for that long. Even though I have seen all of the Fullmetal Alchemist series and wants its proverbial babies, there are only so many times you can walk around the same stalls and stuff. Um... I'm loving OtakuBoards Survivor: Game On!, as well as the numerous OB parody stories that are floating about. Crimes of Hate is fantastic, as are Bikini Bandits and A Tale of Two Spies. I hope you're all well ^_^ Feel free to PM me if you ever feel like it, for whatever reason, heh. Take care.

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Friday, January 13, 2006

Enter the Net... At Last >.>
I've updated with the first part of a new story, dedicated to Alan and Raina ^_^

OtakuBoards: Enter the Net.

Part 2 is almost completed; it's probably written slightly better too, and there's more action in it. So... yeah.

Will edit later with comment stuffs.
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Saturday, January 7, 2006

Nothing to fear...

Last night was great. Really great ^_^ Azure, Shy, Jokopoko- you all have my greatest thanks for being there yesterday (and early this morning, in fact). I lost out on a fair bit of sleep, but the peace of mind I lost several weeks ago has been completely restored. I can't thank you enough ^_^ One of these days my insecure paranoia is going to get me into serious trouble. I don't intend to wind myself up so tightly ever again, heh. To Infinity, And Beyond! Well, now I need to conduct myself enough resolution to finally sort out this problem that's been plaguing me since before Christmas. I don't know whether today's necessarily going to be the most constructive time to say something, but I really don't want to leave it any longer. Wish me luck ^_^ Dan's moving in tomorrow and I've kinda put off tidying up all the stuff I said I was going to... but, in my defense I have been writing the next chapter of Enter the Net. I'm hoping to have it up by the middle of next week. Once I've written out the main bulk of it and added in the bits I need to, it should be a doddle. I hope it'll live up to its reputation. That's one problems I've had with it so far- I feel very pressured to make it good, to a point where I'm afraid to write anything in case it's crap. I just need more confidence. Any ego-boosting is most appreciated :p Anyway, I'm off to face my destiny. When I come back, there shall be much work to do. *hugs all* Take care ^_^

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Thursday, January 5, 2006

As seen on...
Alex's site:

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Ozymandius' LiveJournal:

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME (Name of first pet/Street you grew up on):Loki Nightingale

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME (Name of your favorite snack food/Grandfather's first name): Aero ‘Caramel’ Arthur

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME (First word you see on your left/Favorite restaurant): Mirror Wagamama

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS (Favorite spice/Last foreign vacation spot): Bhuna Gothenburg

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS (Silliest childhood nickname/Town where you first partied): Phewgo Bosham

6. "FLY BOY" ALIAS (a la J. Lo) (First initial/First two or three letters of your last name): H. Jac

7. ICON ALIAS (Something sweet within sight/Any liquid in your kitchen): Smoothie Milk

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS (Favorite baby animal/Where you went to high school): Foxcub Chichester

9. BARFLY ALIAS (Last snack food you ate/Your favorite alcoholic drink): Biscuit Strawberry Wine

10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS (Middle name/Street where you live): Ralph Nightingale

11. ROCK STAR ALIAS (Favorite candy/Last name of favorite musician): Pocky Yoshiki
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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

Tissue Fish

Stray! Stray! In the cold breeze that I walk along The memories of generations burn within me Been forever since I cried the pain and sorrow I live and die, proud of my people gaining I'm here standing at the edge Starin up at where the moon should be Stray! No regrets 'cause I got nothin to lose Ever stray! So I'm gonna live my life as I choose Until I fall.. Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! In the white freeze, I never spoke of tears Or opened up to anyone including myself I would like to find a way to open to you Been a while, don't know if I remember how to I'm here waiting on the edge Would I be alright showing myself to you? It's always been so hard to do.. Stray! No regrets 'cause I got nothin to lose Ever stray! So I'm gonna live my life as I choose Until I fall... Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! Is there a place left there for me Somewhere that I belong Or will I always live this way... ? Always stray No regrets 'cause I got nothin to lose Ever stray! So I'm gonna live my life as I choose Cause all things fall Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray! Stray... I have a packet of tissues called 'sniff', and they're blue with goldfish on them. They actually look more like funky children's party napkins, but indeed they are for nostril excavation rather than mouth cleaning. Although I'm sure either could be suited to both jobs equally. I hope everyone's had a good Christmas and New Year (so far, heh). Unfortunately I can't view comments and I haven't been to people's sites in a while... today's been one of the first days I've had some spare time to do this. Anyway, Christmas itself was good. I'll get onto that in a minute, though. Just before Christmas was not good, however. In fact, I can safely say that I haven't been more upset and angry in a very long time, and I'm still seething a little. Basically, I had to pick up a DVD player for some friends I've been helping out for some time, and bearing in mind from my house to theirs is a 44-mile round trip I'm seriously going out of my way to bring it to them (as I have been since I met them, pretty much...). That evening I got a phonecall saying it was the wrong one, and I was accused of having been to a different shop to fob them off with something sub-standard. I said no, and that I'd send the receipt to them through the post. I was told in no uncertain terms that that wasn't good enough, and that I should drop it off to them. Reluctantly I agreed, and put the phone down. Not more than five minutes later I got a second phonecall saying 'sorry about that, but...' and then they proceeded to tell me that I was next to useless, completely undedicated and accused of thinking that one of my (then) closest friends I saw as some kind of charity that I did to make myself feel like I was a good person. Oh, and I also ruined their Christmas. I was livid. I've never felt more betrayed or abused, and even though it's hard for me to hold a grudge, this is one I intend to retain because it's basically affected my entire future. I'm at a point where my life can branhc off into one of two different routes; doing business with them was one of them, and going into acting/stage work is another. Both would allow me to write my stories, but more and more I'm realising that this branch isn't one I want to pursue for as long as I first thought. I'll do what I can for them to get it started, then I want to go, unless they can do some serious convincing. But I don't trust them any more, which is a great shame. Anyway, despite travelling all the way to them on Christmas Eve to drop off this bloody receipt, I still had angry thoughts of them hanging over me all throughout Christmas and the days afterwards. After speaking to many many people all of them said they were surprised I hadn't felt this way sooner; looking back at my relationship with them I've been taken advantage of so many times, but because of who I am I never saw it that way and just put myself out for them needlessly. Still, over the next few days I intend to have a very frank chat with them about it, and hope that'll be the end of it. Tales of Azumangia Forgetting everything else, Christmas itself was the best I can remember. Even though Mum had told all of us not to spend too much money on everyone, we'd all gone and bought presents for each other, and it was a great feeling giving them out and seeing the family's reactions ^_____^ I gave: -Corpse Bride and soundtracks to Mum -A Have I Got News For You DVD to Dad -Star Wars Republic Commando and a Star Wars calendar to Dan -A comedy DVD to Lawrence -An Uchiha Sasuke figure/Full Metal panic mangas/Pocky to Jeremy -Exotic cooking sauces to my older sister -A Tito (Fox-squirrel from Nausicaa) plushie to my younger sister I was given: -The Azumanga Daioh Thinpak collection -New Scientist's Does Anything Eat Wasps? book -A big lot of money ^_^ -More of the World's Stupidest Signs -Quake 4 for PC -Project Eden, also for PC -Four brain-bending wooden puzzles -A Naruto wooly hat with Konoha forehead protector ^_____^ -A massive tin of the best chocolate chip cookies I've ever eaten -A really sweet e-card ^_^ -READY STEADY GO single -TALES OF SYMPHONIA!!! So I'm completely gifted out. I also have one more yet to send, but... I'm still looking for another half of it, because the thing by itself doesn't seem enough. And I want it to mean something. I spent most of the day playing on Tales of Symphonia, and OH MY GOD I love it to pieces ^____^ It's completely engrossing, and I can barely beliave how much there is to do on it. My current playing position is 23 hours or so, and I've not even left the first disc yet. I've watched two episodes of Azumanga so far, and I think it's something I'll probably end up watching more when my mind's turned off; it's not quite what I was expecting, but still cool all the same. It's just... pleasant watching, really. And sometimes that's all you need ^_^ The days after Christmas were pretty cool. I was relaxing more, and I went to see Narnia again because the Fox is the best character in the world. Having my sister down from Bristol was really cool too- it's always good to see her again. She's had to sort out her bedroom so's Dan can live in it for the next couple of weeks. He's moving in on Saturday. New Year's Eve was interesting. I'd already said I was going to spend it with the people I subsequently had that altercation with on the 24th, and when they phoned up they seemed almost extra-nice about things. It wasn't intended as a night of arguments, though, so I went (rather reluctantly) with every intention of leaving if things went sour. Thankfully, we all had a really good time in the end. I think for that evening we just completely forgot about any obligations and confrontations and just played the World of Warcraft board game. So things are relatively pleasant, for the time being... At the moment I'm sorting out the house to make it ready for Dan's arrival. I'm looking forward to it; although he won't be here all that much as he's got work to do and I'll be shooting off every so often, it'll just be nice to have him here for however long he needs to stay. It should also be a fair indication as to whether we'd be able to share a flat/house in future, heh. Toodles, everyone ^_~ Take care.

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

Merry Christmas, everyone!

^___________^

Have a great time, hehe.
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Thursday, December 22, 2005

And Always...

Comments! Desbreko: I don't actually know the characters in ToS very well (although I hope to someday), so I can't really say I was expecting anything. Lloyd might've been cool, though. And with regards to Enter the Net... watch this space ^_~ I've written the best bit of this latest chapter already, I think- not to sound arrogant, but I was even laughing while writing it. In my experience, that's a good thing ^_^ If I sit down for a day in the right mood it won't take me long at all. John: Agh, typical >.>; And that result's not quite as odd as I was thinking, now. Unfortunately it's not possible to look at all possible results for it any more, but they were all pretty cool. Even moreso because they were to do with Eva's background music, hehe ^_^ Josh: Yeah. Although for peeps like us it makes this current challenge that much easier (or frustrating, if nobody else is posting). Orange: Ah, shopping's cool ^_^ I can browse around for ages and although it's very rare for me to find something I want (unless I come across a whole load of stuff I've wanted for ages), it's still quite cool to see what's there. Chaos and colitude in healthy amounts are nice to live with. I work well under pressure and can mellow when everything's quiet. I was out all day yesterday and my older sister's coming back from bristol tonight and I'm meeting up with a friend tomorrow, so I won't be bored and alone for much longer *hugs* Sami: Yeah, I know >.>; There are some really decent ones out there, though. It's just a case of finding them. This challenge is pretty intense, actually. Not that you'll actually be able to read this till you get back, but having to keep up this level of posts until 1st January is going to be quite an endevour, heh. liam: We tend to have a different meal/dessert each year- Mum hates cooking a full roast with all the trimmings now. I'm helping to do it this year, and we've a whole assortment of lovely things to do. Mum recently bought us a chocolate fondue set for us to enjoy, so I'm sure that'll work nicely ^_^ Plus we have a popcorn machine thing, and meringues, which may well mean strawberry pavlova... *squees!* My sister often makes cookies and stuff, too, and they're always nice to eat even if they go wrong ^______^; Things are looking up ^_^ I'm feeling much better today, for many many reasons. I was with a friend all day yesterday, and although I didn't get back till about midnight (and I really shouldn't have been driving then- naughy me), it was really cool. We saw The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe and Oh My God the animals are so COOL! The facial expressions are seriously the best I've ever seen, and the acting and the fighting was fantastic. I want to see it again ^_^ On a similar note, I also did manage to see the dress rehearsal of the production at the Festival Theatre, and I was very impressed. Some technical stuff went wrong, but thankfully cause it was only a rehearsal it didn't matter too much. It looked great, and the actors did incredibly well. Mrs Beaver was my favourite ^_^ And, on yet another related note, Dan pointed me towards the Chichester Observer (local newspaper)'s review of the production, which said the battle scenes were 'superbly choreographed' ^________^ Muchly kudos, hehe. As well as that, it's getting very near Christmas now and I've not been this excited about it in years. Lawrence is coming down, my sister'll be here... I'm really looking forward to it for lots of different reasons. Oh, I've still not talked about the other stuff. I was going to show you my doggies but my camera ran out of batteries; that's what I forgot. Tomorrow, with luck. Take care! -^___^- EDIT: Well, my computer decided now was high time that it stopped working- the fan's blown out >.>; Thankfully it still works providing I take the side panel off and have my massive floor fan pointing at it at full blast, heh. Nice timing, ass. Currently backing everything up, so's I can work on it down here instead ^_^

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Sunday, December 18, 2005

I Never Amaze Me

Comments! John: S'okay, heh. Thanks anyway ^_^ Monkey Orange: Wow, thanks for looking them over. I really appreciate it *hugs* ^_^ But it's not about you, no ^_~ It's not actually about anyone specific apart from myself and how I currently react (often rather hurtfully) towards people I can't handle being around. I'll see what I can do about the last bit of On These Precious Wings, too. Whee ^_^ The more time I spend at home, the more I realise that I need to be getting out more. It's been great to relax and catch up on sleep (although last night it took me about three hours to drop off >.>;) but overall I've felt incredibly bored and lonely. There are only so many times I can check OB Survivor: Game On for posts before resorting to video games, all of which I've played before. There's nothing new, no schedule, no variety. I was really hoping to be in my job now, but lord knows when that'll be kicking off. I really hope it's soon. I'm supposed to be going to a rehearsal tomorrow too, but Dan's said nothing about it to me whatsoever. I don't want to phone him, though. Don't ask me why, but I'm scared to. Probably this stupid repeating social anxiety thing I've got going. Either way, I feel deeply unsettled at the moment and it's annoying. Ah well... it's Christmas soon. Mmm, goodies ^______^ Oh, and I said I'd talk about Christmas and puppies as per Kei's request. Must do that sometime, yes. Anyway, to be (even more :p) banal, here's quizzes: You are Colette! Which Tales of Symphonia Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla You are "Komm, Suesser Todd" Which Piece Of Evangelion Theme Music Are You? brought to you by Quizilla I love this quiz so much, heh. When I first took it, I was 'Good, or Don't Be', which was much more favourable. Hmm... Which Outlaw Star Cherry are You? brought to you by Quizilla your armadillomon wat 'Digimon' are u [lot's of digimon(rookies) and lots of pics] brought to you by Quizilla Not that I think that quiz was actually any good, but Armadillomon is heavily underappreciated, and I think his picture deserves to be shown. He must be given his own series to make up for lack of screentime on Adventure 02. Bloody Veemon and Davis... See you soon ^_^

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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Thought Plague

I wrote some poems yesterday (there are three in the OB thread there; the second two are newest). It's a kind of inspiration that very rarely hits me; these are the only poems I've written in the last three years. I'm fairly pleased with them, on the whole. There's always something about my poems that I don't think feels quite right though, somehow. Maybe I'm just too used to seeing freestyle stuff to know what you can really determine as being 'right', or maybe it's something as simple as not being able to see it from a non-creator point of view. Anyway, any feedback's appreciated. And posts in the thread itself are as well, heh. Enter the Not It's getting there, slowly... I wrote another line and a bit yesterday afternoon, then decided that my brain was too addled to try and continue. Once I've eaten and/or had a drink of coffee I should hopefully lose my fuzziness that's swarming around my head at the moment. I think it's a mixture of poor sleep timing and sleeping in, but it's annoying that it takes me so long to gather my thoughts into any kind of reasonable structure. Tha's about it. I'm going to make myself some of my 'throw-it-all-in-together-and-see-what-it-tastes-like' pasta for lunch today, which'll be nice ^_^ Three days in a row where I have pasta for a main meal... I'm sure that's building up to something.

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