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Thursday, March 1, 2007


Let's hear it for the losers.
I didn't win the writing competition I entered in for. I'm a little disappointed, but it's my own fault for getting my hopes up. At least I had the chance to try, and I'll make sure to make anything else I write better next time, heh.

We've almost finished filming now. Just three more days to go and we're done. We're taking everyone out for dinner on Sunday evening to celebrate, and I'm really looking forward to it. It's been great fun, and I'm feeling a lot happier with how this one's coming together than the pervious one. Although I do have to go and pick up some speakers from someone's house at 9pm, which I'd rather not have to do. But needs must as the devil drives, so I will ^_^

If you're interested in seeing how we've been getting on, the film's website address is www.ourtimetolive.t83.net.

As for myself... it's been an odd day today. I haven't felt that great and to an extent I've lied if someone asked me if I was alright. It started when we were filming yesterday and just went downhill from there. For the most part it's just that feeling of loneliness creeping back again when I least want it to, and... after having a rather frank and open conversation with my younger sister I realised that I feel I've been denying myself things that I've wanted. Sometimes out of politeness, and other times I seem to make up excuses that I'd be better off without them, or that I have other things I need to accomplish first. I always seem to find reasons not to try and pursue people I'm interested in for relationships, the usual answer I give myself being 'They wouldn't be interested in me', or 'I don't think they'd understand me', when really the crux of it is that I am mortally afraid of getting into a relationship, and it's far easier to avoid them and convince myself that avoiding them is the right thing to do. Which it isn't.


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