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Monday, July 26, 2004


*removes badge*
Yeah, wasn't loving it quite so much a while ago. I'm still good, but I hate it when nasty thoughts creep into minds when you least want them to.

I've been having a lot of trouble getting to sleep recently. It's taken me... on average about two hours to actually get to sleep these last few nights, and I don't know why. I figured it might be because I'm too hot- I opened the ventilation grate and that seemed to help a little, but meh.

I don't mind lying in bed at night- it's usually where I got some of my best story ideas. But it's also where I can develop some of the most disturbing thoughts about myself and those people aruond me.

Saturday night, I felt rather depressed, and it was (rather oddly) spurned by the survey that Heaven's Cloud took; the Soundtrack of Your Life' one. It's nothing against HC- he's a fantastic guy- I just get these odd streams of thought channeling from things that seem rather innocuous. It was the 'Closing' part that did it for me, heh.

Teenager no more, but completely adult. That odd age where you're called a 'young man' without actually thinking of yourself as a man. To be honest I'm past caring now- just trying to explain it as I type it's gotten me thinking that everything I was worrying about was completely ridiculous, heh.

But I wanted to go back to being 13, at any rate. I don't know why, but it was all I wanted at that point. I just wanted to know I had at least another six more years...

I'm sure everyone's felt the same way at some point... except sensible people, that is ^_^;

Well, I've always kept an objective head about me so I'm not going to start devoting my life to worrying about how long I've got left. I've too much to look forward to to miss it all for the sake of worrying about something that's an inevitability anyway.

*grins*
The Anime Stereotype High School's coming on well, heh. Although making final decisions about the cast is going to be incredibly difficult, in no uncertain terms. It's going to be a big RPG anyway, but anything over 16 just gets chaotic. Even if I limited people to two posts a day it could still get up to 32 replies a time. It needs much thinking about, but I'm determined not to let it die. Whether I have to cut various systems or what, I'll make sure it works.

And Wondershot: I've not forgotten about Future Prospects ^_~

Ba-dum... I can't think of anything else, heh. Mass-spammers are painfully idiotic, um...

Oh, I saw Spider-Man 2. It didn't move me as much as the first one did, but I still really enjoyed it.

I want the Shrek 2 soundtrack, but I'm forcing myself not to buy anything until I've got a job to start earning enough to think about Anime Expo. Which also means no RahXephon 5 or 6 for a few weeks >.>

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