myOtaku.com: Solo Tremaine

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1985-07-23
Gender
• Male
Location
• Chichester, England
Member Since
• 2003-08-04
Occupation
• Ex-OtakuBoards Team Miyazaki Leader, Actor, Writer, Director, Stage Combatant...
Real Name
• N/A

Personal

Achievements
• Becoming a Moderator on OtakuBoards, starting up my own production company with my best friend Dan.
Anime Fan Since
• I liked the Mysterious Cities of Gold before I did Pokemon, but Pokemon was the first Japanese Anime I really liked.
Favorite Anime
• Digimon, Wolf's Rain, Mysterious Cities of Gold, Outlaw Star, RahXephon, Zoids, Princess Mononoke, Trigun, Howl's Moving Castle, Bleach, Naruto, Fullmetal Alchemist, One Piece, Fruits Basket
Goals
• To write my series of stories, and to act in cool stuff.
Hobbies
• Writing, acting, anime, GameCube, Wii, swordfighting
Talents
• Stage combat, writing, acting, being vaguely humourous, and listening.

myOtaku.com: Solo Tremaine

Thursday, December 16, 2004

I Want My Money Back.

Kudos to anyone who recognises the song reference there.

I still feel pretty screwed, and it's chiefly because I'm having to try and slot myself into an entirely new schedule. Especially this past week I've been experiencing far more of 'real' student life, and I must have slept at home for only three nights over the last six days.

At the moment I'm floating between realities, it seems. It's such a comfort to come back to MyO and spill everything out abou how I feel here, because I know I can explain it fully and properly without misinterpretation. Whenever someone has asked me in person whether I've been feeling okay, all I've been able to answer is "I don't know". I'm incredibly scared that I'm losing my ability to articulate my thoughts. Sometimes I've been looking for a specific word and it's just not come at all. I don't remember that happening so frequently before.

It doesn't help that I've been ever-so-slowly pulling away from Lawrence, when I thought things were really quite solid. I guess we're both noticing our own independence more now, but it doesn't help that we don't talk much any more.

Maestro, if you please...
I guess the best place to start would be college- tomorrow's our last day of term (thank god- I don't think I could manage another week), and the rehearsals have been pretty intense. Everything about it makes me feel tired, and when I'm tired I can't build up the strength in my diaphragm to send out my ferret-laugh, so it all becomes rather lacklustre. And there's the socialising after college too, which always goes on for longer than necessarry and prevents me from eating a decent meal. Me and not eating healthily is a very bad combination, especially with added factors of stress and tiredness. I'm going to pump myself full of fruit this evening and see how that makes me feel tomorrow.

Of course, driving hasn't gotten any more relaxing, even with more experience. I seem to encounter more viciously crap drivers, one of whom had the f***ing audacity to stick his finger up and sound his arse-horn at me for slowing down coming up to a roundabout. Forgetting my compassion for a brief moment, people who drive like that deserve to be in accidents.

But it's not just them that's being bad- I hit the kerb twice whilst driving around on Tuesday, one instance of which actually had me driving on the pavement. I just completely lost concentration, and it scares me that I could have such a serious lapse. laely my addled mind's been referring to me as a crap driver; as much as I know that's not true, I have to try and buck up before I get involved in a serious accident.

*grabs silver lining*
BUT everything is not all bad.

I finish college tomorrow, and have about three weeks off; a third of which will be spent somewhere incredibly nice ^_~

My bedroom is actually tidy. It's nice to be able to properly relax in a mess-free environment. I just need to work on the sitting-room now, but with my little sister in there I doubt it'll happen any time soon...

The closest highly-anticipated event has to be this, though:

JEREMY IS COMING BACK FROM AMERICA ON SATURDAY!

God, I've missed Jeremy so much. I hadn't actually quite realised the extent of his absence until his return was drawing nearer, heh. He's only back for Christmas so I won't get to see him that much, but just being able to take him and Lawrence on one of our stake-outs is going to be so nice.

So I'm looking forward to that. But until I fit myself back into a new routine I am going to be pretty stressed throughout, heh.

I'll get over it, though. Especially with friends like you ^_^ I can't thank you enough for being here for me.

Now, to bed. Place of nightmares, dreams, fantasies and everything inbetween... but not crackers. That's just messy.

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