Thursday, April 21, 2005

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Quick Comments *hugs everyone* Baron: Visiting any of MyO, OB or theO gets very sporadic for me- sometimes I can see bits of each, none of one and all of the other and/or nothing at all. It's the same with all of the Velegant-hosted sites I see. Even Dead-Seraphim.net doesn't work all the time. I do hope it's not just my computer. Luckily things are working for the moment, though ^_^ Hevn: Mmm, I have been. Food and shopping was for me today, and a strange absence of karate. Pyro: I love your avatar ^_^ Mimmi: Mmm, buns! Lady Lea: *hugs excitedly* James: You've no idea how good it is to see your text again, heh. I've missed it. DDG: Eee! *hugs back* The Results are In! Well, seeing as the PM I recieved voted unanimously for me to discuss everything on the list, I shall do so ^_^; But you don't have to read all of it if you don't want to. Just the good bits ^_^ College Life Gilgamesh went incredibly well, moreso than I think anyone hoped or realised it ould. I was so pleased for Marcus (our director) to have done so well and I'm glad to have been able to help him. I didn't escape without my fair share (and probably everyone else's) of injuries, but they weren't severe. Most revolved around a throat that was drained far too dry from having to play the hoarse, breathy scorpions. I had a really great time, though. After that were the Easter Holidays, but considering I was meant to have two weeks off I'd actually never been busier throughout the entire year. I had filming (which is now currently on hold until the summer) to do during the day and karate three out of four evenings a week and various rehearsals and get-togethers with people at college to attend. It was frantic, and the bags underneath my eyes can attest to the many late nights I've experienced up until now. I bought some stuff to try and help get rid of them but it's only since I started that people have said "Crikey, your eyes are black!". I'm not entirely convinced that they work. I auditioned for Macbeth two weeks ago and landed the parts of Witch 1 and Seyton. Initially I was pretty pissed off- I was hoping for Banquo. But after some time I eased into the idea that it was a prtety cool part to play, and if I get a cloak, more the better ^_^ It's actually a bigger part than I first gave credit for, and it should be fun to play. I still have four scripts to learn for the directing pieces, though. And they're to be performed in less than two weeks! Argh! Methinks a big line swot is in order. Kara-torture My karate instructor is pleased with how well I manage to pick things up. Moves, kata, lots of stuff. And I love it, too. I picked up a Gee (Gi?) to wear, and have a lovely white belt with black tabs on to hsow for my work so far. To get to that level, though... The karate grading is the single most exhausting process I've ever been though. Since this is a Goju Ryu style rather than Shotakan, it's much harder, and our instructor believes a lot more in you having to work for and really earn your next belt. So we had two hours of incredibly intense physical exercise which I'm still feeling the effects of today (the grading was last Sunday). What didn't help was the fact that Mum insisted I buy a heavyweight Gee (weighing 16oz) and the grading was its first official outing. It's not something I want to go through again in a hurry, even though I'm quite eager to get to a higher level, heh. Just call me Mr Sado-Masochist. But don't, cause I'm not really o_o; Logical progression brings me to: My, Myself and My Sexy Body ^_~ *coughs* Aside from the fatigue and muscle strain I'm still feeing from the grading, I'm doing well. My face is covered with an invasion of spots, though, which comes from missing out on using Clearasil for two days while in a horrible sweat-covered and smokey environment. They're gradually subsiding, though. Figure-wise I've never been happier with myself, but I still see big room for improvement. My biceps are (for me) enormous and my stomach line's decreasing almost every day providing I can resist the urges I get to eat packets of crisps (and McCoy's Salt and Vinegear will be my undoing if I'm not careful). A friend of mine said I had 'thighs like rock' when he was giving me a piggy-back. I think that's a good thing ^_^; So much so have I been pleased with myself that I boght a slew of new clothes ^______^ They're very pretty and make me look muchly more so, too. I have discovered the trill of BOOT-CUT JEANS. These are actually the best things in the world... except for the button-fly. It takes me about ten minutes longer to go to the toilet now because I have to wrestle with these awkward metal buttons that are twice as big as the hole they're trying to fit through. But once they're done up I think I look lovely in them ^_^ And I have three new Cyberdog tops. Yum! Backwards from my Future I'm not going to Drama School next year. This is a decision on my part, because I don't feel it's actually going to teach me anything I don't already know or can improve upon here, and it'll save me thousands o pounds' worth on tuition fees. Instead I'm going to get a job and do short courses here to help build on the skills I already have and apply for an agent to (fingers crossed) get me jobs. There was something about waiting to hear my results at the audition that just felt... wrong. I was almost more scared of hearing that I was going to get in than if I wasn't. Course, I was annoyed to start with, but now I'm actually more content with not going and building on my skills until I know what I do want to do. It may be the case that I go in a year or two's time, but not right now. Besides, it means I can get to Anime Expo 2006, God willing ^_~ The Sorrow of Losing the Object of one's Dependence ^ Evangelion OST III track name Despite the physical pain I've been feeling recently, emotionally I think I've suffered from even greater tiredness. Lots of different things have been pulling me in so many different directions that, if I think about it, I barely know where I stand any more. And I think a lot of that comes from not having MyO to talk into. I've noticed myself becoming a lot more internally aggressive towards other people. Friends, people I know well, others I've never even seen before. I hate it. I just have this internal monologue of thought running across my brain that sometimes is just... not me. It's not what I want to think, yet it appears anyway. I hate judging people (usually other drivers) without even knowing the full extent of a situation. It's stress and it's not going to leave me alone until I can rest properly. I've been lonely. Perhaps the biggest single feeling I can comment on over the past few weeks has been loneliness. Few people here truely understand everything about me, and I don't think many others want to try and get close, either. I'm not saying I want to be surrounded by gushing friends- far from it. But from time to time I just feel so isolated. Even in a room full of close friends, I can feel utterly alone. And I think I know why. But enough of that, heh. I'm okay, really ^_^ Just tired. Technology is not my friend My computer's behaving very erratically. There's a chance my monitor will suddenly decide to stop working, and that coupled with the fact that I'm not always guaranteed to be able to get onto Otaku sites is the main reason why when I have had time to do things here, I haven't. It's been so frustrating. Morrowind finally works, though. Not that I've played it in weeks... My car is... um... still here. I've done a lot of driving recently and the car knows it. Sometimes it develops an urge to stall whenever I put the clutch down in first or second gear, proving itself to be a right royal pain in the arse when trying to do anything practical with it. It still has no radio and is also completely covered in the proverbial which birds insist on dropping onto it from the oaks flanking our driveway. I don't park it underneath trees any more. Anime-me-me! I like Chrono Crusade ^_^ I'm intending to start buying the Fullmetal Alchemist and Chobits DVDs sometime, too. If anyone can give me their views on what the two series are like, it'd be much appreciated. I'm trying not to spend as much money as I have before, though. I keep sucking it from my parents, and I hate it. I've even taken to making my own sandwiches before I go to college, which is no joke last thing at night or first thing in the morning >.>; I haven't bought any more games recently. Phantasy Star's been enough fun for the while, and when it eventually tires itself out I'll consider Timesplitters: Fture Perfect. but it's not exact high on my priorities right now ^_^; Amusing Muses Erm... Nazreal's coming along... albeit very slowly. I've still not written anything else down, except change Kyru's surname to something less clicheed. And I've gotten rid of some ideas that were proving to make the whole thing too complicated. At the moment I'm trying to work out the end of the story, as once I know exactly what it is that the city contains, how it got to where it was and where Faron fits in then the rest of the story will unfold well. It's just that one tiny detail of where the city's power comes from in the first place. I think that's about it, heh. That's quite an update ^_^; *hugs and snogs* See you all soon ^_________^ *skips away*

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