Friday, July 15, 2005

My life is a romantic comedy and I'm the only one not laughing

Comments! (At bloody last >.>) 11th May Shinmaru: [I know I've probably said this before, but whenever I see your name I imagine it being shouted by an obsessed anime fan-girl ^_^;] I still have to sign up for it yet. The sites I've seen so far haven't exactly struck me in terms of innovative design- as it stands MyO is my favourite blog to have had so far, even with the styles I had to choose from on Blogspot. I wish I had a better handle on website design, heh. Pretty Sami: Heh, I know. But most of the posts I make on OB now are moderating ones, so I find it hard not to stay in that frame of mind sometimes. And I still think of myself as being a Newbie fairly often, even though I've passed three years as a member now ^_^; I guess every experience you have counts as a new one though. And I'm not too bothered about people liking me, but I don't want to offend them unnecessarily. Yes, if rules are broken then they need to be told, but at the same time it always pays to put across a sense of politeness. Actually, there's more I need to touch on here, but I'll save that for a bit later in the post ^_^; elfpirate: My writing often has that effect on people, heh. I'm glad ^_^ You should have seen some of my epic ones from a few months ago, if you like that. Roxx0rie: Wow, four years ^_^ That seems like an eternity in internet-speak. I just wish I knew more factual stuff when it comes to debating. I can express an opinion, but the problem is I usually find myself retracting it when someone brings me a piece of evidence or different perspective that says 'Lookie lookie here' and makes me think 'Oh, perhaps I wasn't as right as I thought I was'. So in the end it doesn't even seem worth posting the first one, if it's something I know I don't know that much about. The marijuana debates were really interesting, though. As frustrated as I got with some people, they were the best I've taken part in. I think people are growing all the time, whether they know it or not. Either into new, different experiences and ways of thinking or simply further into what they already know. In the end, you just need to be happy with yourself and where you are. And if you're not, then you should know what it is you need to change. rustym: Thank you ^_^ I came to MyO's blog straight from my Blogspot one (I don't think the address is still up any more... chances are I deleted it or it was deleted through inactivity), but I don't think I could easily swap between two. Once one's so well-established it's hard to know what to do with the secondary one. This has a whole history and all of my friends can see it. That's what matters to me. Cool Monkies: I will, heh. I slept for about nine hours last night. I still don't feel it was quite enough but at least I don't feel as lethargic as I did ^_^ One of my front teeth was really annoying me ast night, actually. It felt as if it had a tiny but really cold spot on it, and it wouldn't go away. Eventually I managed to ignore it enough to get to sleep, but it worried me a bit. One of the last things I want is a cavity developing, heh. *hugs* ^_^ Ozymandius: *toasts with smoothie* I used to do acting for the feeling of escapism, but now I love the challenge of being able to put across complex and believeable emotions and being able to evoke emotions from the audience. It's a buzz ^_^ Pictures will be soon. The ones of me in my costume didn't turn out too well, so I'll have to put it back on again and have some pictures taken of me in the garden. What a shame ^_~ Yeestardee elfpirate: Hehe, some things plant more of an impression than others ^_~ Hair in a jar would be quite interesting... Shinmaru: I've never had anything like a proper, permanent hair fixture before, and I wanted to see what it'd be like. I don't look forward to having to take it all off, though (which I'm sure I'll have to do at some point). rustym: Thank you ^_^ *hugs* I never used to like the facial hair that much, and I know I don't want huge quantities of it. I just like having that bit more definition so some of my features. I think it was the Johnny Depp comment that started it off, though. Dagger: Ooh, there have been some really good episodes so far ^_^ Thankfully I now have the entire DVD set, so any cliffhangers won't have to last too long. I think I've just finished the episode after 'Confession', but at the moment I'm waiting for my sister to catch up with me so that we can watch the rest. Well, Harry Potter's out tonight/tomorrow. I don't know why I haven't pre-ordered it already, but I suppose I can't really be bothered trying to get on top of the rush to get it. It's not that I don't want to read it, but I haven't put in the effort to get it yet, is all. I'll wait a little and see how it goes, heh. Oh, with regards to something that sprang from Sage's comment; I've been thinking about typing a little about it for a while but have never had the motivation to do it (read: I always forgot and wrote about something else instead). So anyway... Friends will be Friends When I first started OB I spent a lot of time in awe of everyone else who had already joined. I loved the interaction everyone had with one another and saw all these cool, intelligent people and knew immediately I wanted to be a part of their group. The problem was (and still is, to a much lesser extent) that I was never very good at presenting myself in social situations and some of the mistakes I made still stick in my head as big glaring errors. I guess that harks back to my always remembering what I do (or don't do) to people, but even so I was just so excited to know and be accepted by everyone that I'd almost be pushing them to be friends with me, which I'd never dream of doing now. I can remember threads such as 'Things they'd never say on Digimon' where I'd do my damdest to make something funny to get a reaction, and affirm that I was actually getting somewhere. I was so pleased when a quote of mine was used in GinnyLyn's signature, too. That was recognition -^_^- I don't want everyone to like me. That's just insane. But I want(ed) people who I like(d) to like me. I spent a fair while talking to Shy, who I don't know many people here will really know. Anyway, as much as he might deny it he's a fantastic guy and someone who I really look up to. At the same time though, I feel really silly talking to him on AIM because I always think about how much I must have bothered him in that first year and how much I didn't (and still don't) actually know, about him and things in general. I think I'm very much over the complex I had a while ago where... I almost felt that I always had to try to be liked by people. It always feels hard when you've got a community of so many nice people to be noticed as yet another nice person, but really all you need to do is be yourself. And if everyone's worth being there for then you'll be accepted simply for that. I wish I'd had that kind of confidence in myself sooner, heh. Sayounara, everyone ^_^ EDIT: Ooh, I need to take my sister to Accident and Emergency this evening. She had an altercation with an errent rounders ball. She's doing fine right now, but she says it still hurts so we want to make sure nothing's wrong. The fun never stops here ^_^;

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