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Vitals

Birthday
• 1985-07-23
Gender
• Male
Location
• Chichester, England
Member Since
• 2003-08-04
Occupation
• Ex-OtakuBoards Team Miyazaki Leader, Actor, Writer, Director, Stage Combatant...
Real Name
• N/A

Personal

Achievements
• Becoming a Moderator on OtakuBoards, starting up my own production company with my best friend Dan.
Anime Fan Since
• I liked the Mysterious Cities of Gold before I did Pokemon, but Pokemon was the first Japanese Anime I really liked.
Favorite Anime
• Digimon, Wolf's Rain, Mysterious Cities of Gold, Outlaw Star, RahXephon, Zoids, Princess Mononoke, Trigun, Howl's Moving Castle, Bleach, Naruto, Fullmetal Alchemist, One Piece, Fruits Basket
Goals
• To write my series of stories, and to act in cool stuff.
Hobbies
• Writing, acting, anime, GameCube, Wii, swordfighting
Talents
• Stage combat, writing, acting, being vaguely humourous, and listening.

myOtaku.com: Solo Tremaine

Saturday, March 6, 2004

Ramblerant

I can't actually remember exactly what it was I was going to talk about, so I'll just start typing and hope things will come back to me as I go.

It's very odd for me to be on first thing on a Saturday morning. Usually I'm doing something else, like eating breakfast or watching TV or playing on Wizardry 8, heh ^_^

I meant to buy RahXephon Volume 4 yesterday whilst in town, but when I was in MVC I kind of slipped and accidentally bought the Sakura Wars OVA Collection instead ^_^; I've not watched it yet, but I hope to this weekend... assuming my sister's friend goes early >.>

It's not that I don't want my sister to have her friends round, it's just that she becomes a different person around her friends. Well, I think she does. Maybe it's just me becoming more reclusive and sensitive to silliness.

I know people do react differently when around others- family and friends can become a rather awkward mix in which case. I tend to be more bold around close friends, but when they come round and Mum's in the room I just become quiet for fear of swearing or saying something lewd (yes, I can be lewd). But with my sister, she tends to retain the same silliness with her friend when she's here and it frustrates me because I like her more when she's sensible.

It's a silly argument, really. Basically, I think I'm afraid of her growing up too quickly. I try to be rather protective over things she does for no real reason other than I see the same mistakes I made almost being made in her. That's not to say she's naive- she's incredibly intelligent and can stand up for heself with the best of them. I just... want my lttle sister back.

Voices
Isn't it odd how you can be thinking something and suddenly you hear a voice in your head that tells you the exact opposite?

It's bizarre, and annoying. I can be thinking about something I'm quite worried about, say... just before I go to bed I might get some really disgusting visions- nightmares, basically -about stuff I really don't want to happen, and I can't get a voice out of my head that tells me I want it to happen. It's like an anti-conscience. It's not schizophernia, I know that. Just an odd quirk of the human brain, I suppose.

A slightly less-worrying incarnation of that is tha inner monologue- i.e. you talk to someone, say one thing and think something completely different. I don't like thinking a lot of things that I do in these cases (mainly because they're often related to my dad). I can't punish myself for thinking them either, because I can't help how I feel. I know it's not his fault and I tell myself that but sometimes it can be hard when the struggles you have to deal with are in your own mind where everything seems irrarional and you've not anything physically viable to grab hold of and stop.

Wow, I'm hungry o_o;

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