Monday, January 30, 2006

Don't Cry For Me, Gordon Freeman...

Comments! 22nd December ‘05 Alan: Almost there. Be patient, one of teh sexeh stockings. Baron: The connection’s weird with these. Just today the computer I could always access everything from’s decided to pass that baton to my computer. Not that I mind- I can work on what I like from here now… for the moment. I hope it lasts, and doesn’t end up like it did before where I couldn’t access anything from anywhere. Hard-drive’s doing okay, though, I’m glad to say ^_^; My last one decided to konk out at a rather inopportune time, too… liamc2: Mmm, baked goods… I really want to make some cookies now ^_^; JJ: Seeing as I’ve not been in school for ages now it’s hard for me to compare… I’m coming closer to some fairly big events, though, so the passage of time is rather pressing. Des: I was lucky enough to have a friend who gave me a spare for free ^_^ I like him, very much. We’ve just had to replace two monitors at the same time though, which got rather expensive. At least they’re not stupidly huge TFT ones now. 25th December Baron: Thank you -^_^- I did have a good Christmas, in all. 3rd Jan ‘06 John: Spot detonation’s cool too :p Sami: I think the movie could have been darker- there was virtually no blood anywhere, and for a film involving war and sacrifice some bits looked a little too clean to me, personally. But the designs were fantastic, hehe. Tumnus was creepy. I’m sure I’ve seen him before, too. I just can’t think where >.>; 5th Jan John: Jollyrancher Bowie is a cool name. You should steal and copyright it before anyone else does. Then sell it and make millions. Monkey Orange: I can’t really take that much credit for them seeing as it’s a kind of ‘do-as-it-says’ jobbie, but thank you -^__^- Yesterday JJ: Even if it’s deadly serious? :p I’ll do my best for it, and write it for myself as much as for everyone else ^_^ Azure: Haha, I know what you mean ^_~ But yours is sexy too, you know. Pyro: Yeah, but it means a lot to have you here all the same. I sort of managed to achieve it; some bits got left out and some bits weren’t as strong as I was intending them to be, as always tends to happen when I plan out a big long argument. But it’s closer to being resolved, and I can deal with the other bits as and when they crop up. I won’t just sit by and let my life be lived for me any more. It's been a while ^_~ A lot's happened since I last updated, and it hasn't even been horrendously long. I'm not sure if I ever detailed it much here, but since sometime in summer I've been working unpaid for a miniature war games company that was due to start up in Petworth. I'd been going backwards and forwards between here and there trying to get things organised and to help them sort themselves out... ...until last week, when I'd had enough of being abused and taken advantage of and left. It wasn't pretty, and I'm still pretty stressed out by it. Basically, they began relying on me too much for everything, and I was constantly being criticized for not being there, but at the same time being told that I could be there when I chose to. Because they relied on me so much, they had no way of being able to do anything by their own stead, which I think both made them feel relatively threatened and guilty, while I was still as comitted as I had always been. It led to some rather dramatic instances of anger and paranoia. I had a few abusive phone calls, then some rather harsh words, then finally last Sunday I walked out because I'd had enough. I have far better things to do with my life than devote myself to a couple of people who're constantly telling me how my 'hidden malice' is showing through, that I was 'useless', 'had a carrot up my arse' and that I was trying to 'hold them to ransom' over the money they still owe me. I've spoken to them once since, when they asked me if I would be able to give them a lift to the hospital. They were suitably sycophantic over the phone until I told them that I wouldn't take them, when their tone changed back to the more forceful and terse. And I'd almost said yes to them. Almost. But went agaist myself to say no and now I don't have to see them ever aain if I choose so. The only thing I know I'll miss is my karate training and conditioning, but I'm sure I can make up for that elsewhere. Since then (and even before then, actually) I've been working at home with Dan, building up this production company. We have a website now ^_^ Working with Dan this closely has been one of the best experiences ever. We've had support from local newspapers, we've applied for sponsorship and grants, we're selling valuable stuff on eBay to try and raise decent funding, and I'm enjoying it all because we've known and trusted each other for so long. There are still the odd hair-raising moments, though; like filling out application forms and phoning up businesses for money, but it's just... great. And I'm looking more into properly writing and getting stuff published. I've had no time, mind you, but I know I can do it. I suppose that's the main story from me. I've switched to using one pillow instead of two now, and it's made a massive difference on how I hold myself. I feel about two inches taller and my back's straighter than ever. It's cool ^_^ I've signed up to another forum now; it's not exactly busy, but the people are pretty cool. It's nice to meet new people, heh. Especially ones you have a chance of seeing more than once every six months ^_^; Plans for July haven't changed, although I need to update my passport photo and book tickets. I could do with talking to Shy and finding out when he wants to meet up, cause that'll affect how many days I want to stay at the Expo. Four days there would be cool, but I can't see myself being completely engrossed in it for that long. Even though I have seen all of the Fullmetal Alchemist series and wants its proverbial babies, there are only so many times you can walk around the same stalls and stuff. Um... I'm loving OtakuBoards Survivor: Game On!, as well as the numerous OB parody stories that are floating about. Crimes of Hate is fantastic, as are Bikini Bandits and A Tale of Two Spies. I hope you're all well ^_^ Feel free to PM me if you ever feel like it, for whatever reason, heh. Take care.

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