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• Becoming a Moderator on OtakuBoards, starting up my own production company with my best friend Dan.
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• I liked the Mysterious Cities of Gold before I did Pokemon, but Pokemon was the first Japanese Anime I really liked.
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Sunday, February 26, 2006

I don't think I'll ever fit in...
Comments!

JJ: Sorry. I can't help it, heh.

Sami: I'm glad you and he are still together ^_^ It makes me smile.

I only stress about GO! because I made the commitment to it; it's not necessarily for the game's sake, but my own because I gave myself a responsibility to it by signing up in the first place.

John: Thanks ^_^

Shin: Yeah, the registration page still isn't up yet.

And thanks for the advice ^_^ I shouldn't worry myself too much with the little details, heh. It'd be nice to spend a day roaming around LA for a bit, actually, if I can swing it. It'd mean going from the airport to Anaheim one day, then back again the next, unless I just lugged my stuff around on the last day... ah, something'll work out ^_^

Kei: Yes, I do ^_^ Sorry for worrying you. I'm really looking forward to coming stateside, too... *wonders idly the reaction British voices get*

liam: Australia'll be my next target, methinks ^_^

Try as I might, I'm feeling incredibly unstable of late. Aside from arguing with myself over boughts of paranoia and being incredibly conscious of my own words, I don't feel as if I fit in anywhere any more. Not even at OB, I'm sorry to say.

It's not as if I want to leave or anything, but I just feel that something's been lost. And I keep looking at other people's sites and thinking 'Wow, that really works', or 'Yeah, I can see how they fit together'. Most of the time I feel like I'm clutching at straws just to keep up with everyone else; I guess I'm afraid of just being forgotten ^_^; But I should be making more of an effort to find ways of grounding myself, rather than sitting and watching everything else float away.

OtakuBoards was the first place I felt entirely satisfied with who I was and everyone around me. Primary School, High School, Sixth Form, College, even in the fencing and reenactment groups something always stops me just short of that feeling of being in place.

Perhaps I've just been working too hard.

I get a little annoyed when people start talking about who they are on and offline. It's all you, whether you like it or not.

The different 'people' you are online are only different through the way you phrase what you say. If you insult people online but don't in person, it really means very little about whether you're a nice person or not. The fact that you'd still readily insult someone you barely know over text where you wouldn't in person is irrelevent- it's still you doing it.

A fair few people say with regard to something about themselves 'I wouldn't do that offline', but I bet they actually would, given the right motivation... or equipment.

Aside from people who intentionally create their own personas, I just think it's a rather pointless statement. You can control exactly what information you give out to people, but it doesn't change who you are.

Anyway, got to go. I need to buy some milk.

Take care, heh.

EDIT: I walked into the toilet and turned around to shut the door to see an obscure silver orb stuck to the wood. My initial thought was:

"A webcam?!"

But then I saw it was indeed a small clock, and not an instrument of spy. I was relieved to say the least, but still a little bemused.
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