Saturday, April 15, 2006

Bite the Bullet

>EDIT: Comments! Mimmi: I saw those hugs, sneaksy :p Kei: *hugs also, lots* Akamaru: Can you kill Tiscali's issues with Velegant for me? At least half the time I've not been on here has been due to things buggering up >.>; Megan: Hehe, thank you ^_^ Miss Orange: Indeed, we should. I managed to catch a glimpse of your comment a while ago on a friend's computer, which was cool. This always works on other ISPs, but unfortunately I can't get to them that often. Akamaru: I wouldn't call him 'cute' as such... 'pretty' in a rather non-masculine way, yes. I won't say anything more, though, cause it'd be rude and unprofessional of me :p Lea: *pokes back* I think I need your address again. I losted it -__-; I can't view comments ^_^; But if you're around in August, Monkey_Orange, I'd love to meet up. It's been hard to try and get something worthwhile up here (i.e. not an apology, or another volume of 'I feel crap': I have a lot of apologies to make, and a lot of crap to talk about :p), not least because time hasn't been friendly in lending itself to me. I can't say I haven't been enjoying the filming, but I still feel so out of place when everyone's around. They all know Dan and eachother really well, and I still have a tendency to stand at the back and watch. I know I say it almost every time I make an appearance, but I really miss being here. And of course, there's the usual anxiety complex of 'I haven't been there in a while, what if people are angry with me?'. Game On specifically has been ringing alarm bells in my head for weeks. Mind you, I have a problem with phones, too ^_^; Must must must work on that. Although since I'll be editing stuff on this computer in the not-too-distant future then I may be able to brag some 'creative away-time' to try and catch up with people. Filming's been going really well, despite how exhausting it is. Things are coming together wuite nicely I have a MySpace now, though. Gemma cajoled me into it, heh. I've updated it a couple of times, but I can't talk about anything that I actually want to, so it feels horribly stilted. I guess I knew that one way or another this was going to happen- whether it was writing for the war games company or making the film (which I was, for some stupidly mad reason, going to try and do at the same time) I'd be taken away from something incredibly close to me. In a way I've never tried to break away from my security blanket. I can talk so freely here and I just feel that much more comfortable than comparable real-life situations. I never intend on giving a final 'I'm leaving' schpiel, because I don't see why I should forcefully distance myself from MyOtaku, even if I'm rarely ever able to log on. Wow, I talk about myself a lot. I'm sure I never used to. *hugs to Kei, many times over* *Many hugs to Akamaru* *hugs and an army of soot sprites to Sara* It's our first big reenactment event of the season tomorrow, and I'm a little apprehensive about it. Since we had a bit of an exodus of combatants away from the group, I've sort of been billed as one of the group's most experienced fighters. This is easily my fourth year as an actiove participant, but I'd still never have believed I'd be in that position. Maybe that's why I had a tendency to lose in the battles... Anyway, it's going to be an interesting experience. Hate having to get up at 6:00am, though >.>; On Lighter Notes... I watched all of Wolf's Rain and Azumanga Daioh! They're both really cool series, in entirely different ways. I thought Wolf's Rain was incredibly dramatic, and Azumanga Daioh pleasingly sweet. I'm sure I'll watch them again sometime, as and when. For the moment Jeremy's lent me some of his Bleach episodes, of which I'm up to episode 4. I'm enjoying it a lot so far- the animation's really cool, and the characters have a decent amount of depth to them. I do hope we can finish FMP! The Second Raid soon, though. That's been a long time coming *nods* Um... I'm not really too sure what to say now. I've suddenly become aware of how much I smell, even though I had a shower only yesterday morning o_o; Lots of heavy lifting of tents and armour into the car's done that, I imagine. And this room's pretty hot. Funnily enough, quite often when I type it looks like there's a layer of smoke between me and the keyboard. Considering the amount of books in here, I'm always worried something isn't overheating ^_^; Anyways, I must go. I should get some sleep before tomorrow. I give you all my love and best wishes. See you soon ^_^

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